❅ I Wish — Jaein & Jaehyun
all things considered, it was only a matter of time until the other find out what happened. word seems to travel fast in this mokseong. with jaein using bell’s birth name as opposed to his english name, he knows he’s in some deep shit. still, he manages a smile. “i wonder what’s so important that you can’t wait until later.” despite everything, he isn’t one to deny his brother or go against his words. well, as long as it doesn’t relate to dark magic.
jaein is one of the very few people he can’t seem to ignore. he doesn’t want to, either. even though jaein’s expression doesn’t seem to show a lot, bell can figure out where their conversation will lead. it’s not a conversation he wants to have out in the open regardless of the language they are using, but he supposes beggars can’t be choosers. “it doesn’t seem like you’re going to give me any choice to refuse. i’m not walking away. what is there to talk about?”
Jaein knew that Bell wanted to just see their mother again, hell he wished he could as well, though he also knew that it was impossible for this to even happen. There was just no way that she could be brought back and even if there were a way, most likely, she wouldn’t be the same of course. Things such as bringing people back definitely was something that no one really even dared to attempt doing because really there wasn’t a possible way, at least none that would end up successful. He had known that Bell wanted to bring their mother back but it seemed as if no matter what he tried to tell his younger brother, no matter how much he tried to convince him, the other just wouldn’t give up.
He loved his brother, truly he did, but there were times when he wished that Bell would just give up, find a new goal in life, and stop wasting time on something that just couldn’t be done. The fact that the two of them wished for the same thing but were leading two different paths just seemed to put a strain on their relationship more and more, something that Jaein really hated having to experience. He had already lost one member of the family and he really didn’t want to lose another, especially Bell.
Letting out a soft sigh as he listens to his brother, Jaein continues to give that same expressionless look. It was a look that he just seemed to develop over time after that day their lives changed. He never smiled or even laughed like he had back then, he didn’t show anything but a blank look no matter what he was doing or who he was talking to. Sometimes he would force a slight smile but it would quickly disappear quickly as if it never even happened, his way of trying to seem normal but failing miserably at it.
Maybe if things had been different, if none of that happened back then, he would still be the same old Jaein that he had been. Bell probably wouldn’t have become so obsessed with dark magic and bringing their mother back, they could have just lived a normal childhood happily with no worries or regrets. This alone made the constant regret that Jaein felt worse, especially when he would see how Bell was becoming. “We need to talk about what the boggart showed you. I just heard some students talking about it on my way here.... What was that all about?” His tone is serious as he speaks, more so than it usually was on a daily basis. This time it’s the ‘motherly’ side of him coming out, being stern with his words and showing that he isn’t going to drop the subject so easily this time.