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A superb Jun purple-splashed blue-glazed tripod censer, Northern Song dynasty (960-1127)

Courtesy Alain Truong

guys… i think i might have met someone… i can't believe i'm saying this and you all know how unlucky in love i have been for so many years so i still can't believe i'm in this situation, but i really think this girl is special. her name is lorelei and she is a theatre set designer. i cannot tell you how nice it is to talk to her. from our very first date i just felt completely understood by her, i knew i would be safe with her and that i could open my heart to her - and i think i could understand and care for her too. we've spent four days out of the past week together - last thursday she kissed me, my first kiss!! i know i need to be careful with my heart, it's only been a month - and she says she needs to take things slow with me and that she needs to be sure of her feelings, which to be honest i should do too. but i just have a good feeling about her, and i really hope and believe that this time is different

#seeing her again on friday :)

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Incredible wool and cotton rug, Ottoman Egypt, late 16th century

from The Khalili Collection

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middle aged lady on my bus just called someone's partner "your whimsical idiot boyfriend" over the phone . with sincere frustration might I add

#me unfortunately

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the older i get, the more i have to come to understand that the purpose of my life and my life's work is to love others, to care and serve and dedicate myself to them. which isn't to say i don't have other desires and ambitions, but loving others is the most important one, and the only one that actually matters. frankly, the more i come to realise this, the more i feel a little repulsed and even insulted to think that anyone could devote themselves to anything other than love - wealth? status? making great art? what trivial and insignificant things to chase after when you could love another human being

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Louise Bourgeois, I Did Everything I Could Every Day of My Life I

Fabric, 25.4 x 69.9 cm

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Dictee - Theresa Hak Kyung Cha

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google search "how to want"

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google search "desire for beginners"

went to two friends' weddings last weekend - i was so incredibly happy and full of energy on both days and i truly am so full of love for both of them, but now that it's over i've crashed back down to earth quite hard. i've gotten so much better about these sorts of feelings the past couple years and i really am in a better place, but nonetheless i really did feel my loneliness so keenly. both of them were couples who had been together for 9+ years, and it makes me sad to think that, even if i do find love soon - and i maintain hope that i will!!! - there will be those 9 years of my short life i never get to have with my person. i really hope i can still have some of those years with someone someday