✎ ˎˊ˗ Pairing: Min Yoongi x female Reader
✎ ˎˊ˗ Genre: Situationship, idol!au, angst, smut, coworkers, love triangle maybe
✎ ˎˊ˗ Summary: Across sleepless cities on tour, you and Yoongi cling to each other in an unspoken arrangement neither of you knows how to end until someone new makes you wonder if you should.
✎ ˎˊ˗ Chapter warnings: not in fic order: kim effin’ namjoon :3, probably wrong ways to set up mic packs, yoonmin, kim seokjin the knower, yearning, angst, i switched the tour schedule of paris and munich for the plot, lyrics of SDL used as a new song, the smut!, cock sucking, cockwarming, cum facial-ish, p in v, implied big dick yoongi <3, yoongi being bad at all kinds of sports except basketball, mc being bad at all kinds of feelings, yoongi’s toe (this is serious), the last smut scene is a lot to handle bec emotional sex, yoongi wants to make out with MC so bad lol
✎ ˎˊ˗ Word count: 9k
✎ ˎˊ˗ Betaread by: Aqua (this is for you!), Tea, and Catie. ILY my queens.
✎ ˎˊ˗ Playlist by @angellekookie
✎ ˎˊ˗ Banner by @risky-peaches
✎ ˎˊ˗ Notes: Thanks for waiting patiently for this one. To all the SM!Yoongi haters, let’s talk after 😀 Enjoy!
Series Masterlist | Masterlist
[Brussels, BE, July 2026]
The VCR is already rolling, the massive 360 screens pulling the audience’s attention while backstage moves in controlled chaos.
You’re digging through the rack of bright cloaks—the ones everyone throws on for the next entrance so the members can blend in and slip onto the stage unnoticed. They switch up colors sometimes, nothing serious. Members just have to make sure they enter with the group wearing the same color so they don’t stand out.
Usually, red goes first, then blue.
You slip your red one on, pull it over your head. You should be in the zone, but are still a little salty about the interaction with Yoongi earlier. But it’s whatever.
“Which color are you taking today?” you ask. He always picks the blue coat, but for some reason, you’re hoping he goes with your color instead. You don’t know why. You just do.
“Don’t really care. I just pick whatever.”
You hum, a little disappointed. He knows what color group you’re in. And he should be smart enough to know why you’re asking.
“Wae? Why are you pouting?”
“Nothing.”
You don’t elaborate. You just walk away.
You button the front and smooth it out, then you tug the hood tighter. Out of the corner of your eye, you see him glance at you, then away.
Seokjin walks by, a crimson delight. You’re curious when Yoongi stops him in his path, a blue coat hanging from the crook of his arm.
“Hyung.” Yoongi holds up the coat in his hand. “Trade.”
“Why?”
“Yah.” Yoongi impatiently shoves his blue cloak to his elder. “Just do it.”
Yoongi’s gaze lands on you.
There’s a second where Seokjin looks behind him and spots you too, then he grins. “Aah, I see how it is.”
You look away, suddenly feeling embarrassed. What does Seokjin mean by that?! Surreptitiously, you view their interaction through a mirror on the side.
“Hyung,” Yoongi says flatly, eyes closed.
“Okay, okay,” Seokjin laughs, already shrugging off the red.
Before you know it, Yoongi walks towards your group, adjusts the red sleeves, checks the buttons, like normal.
You can’t look at him because your heart is doing dumb shit in your chest right now.
“Happy?” he asks, low enough so only you can hear.
“You said you didn’t care.”
“I don’t,” he says immediately.
“Clearly.”
He shakes his head, but there’s the faintest pull at the corner of his mouth. “Now you can stop sulking.”
It’s stupid how much that small thing sticks with you. Matching colors with him. Walking to the stage with him by your side, arms brushing slightly.
Maybe it was nothing.
But lately, despite all the rules you've set for yourself, you've started collecting these little moments with Yoongi.
Little things that probably don't mean much on their own.
It's probably reckless to give them a place in your heart and revisit them later, to let yourself wonder if they're adding up to something more.
Still, this one really feels worth keeping.
⊙⊝⊜
[London, UK, July 2026]
Backstage is once again in motion. Cables snake across the floor, staff weaving through each other with practiced urgency, voices overlapping through comms as the low roar of the crowd seeps faintly through the walls.
You’re halfway through helping reset a prop when Angel grabs your wrist.
“Hey,” she says, already pulling you along. “I need you on Yoongi. His in-ear was acting up earlier.”
“Since when am I in technicals, or wardrobe?” you mutter, but you’re already moving.
“Since…” her voice trails, shooting you a wink. “You decided to become a tour slut.” Then she goes back to professional mode, handing you the spare tape and a headset. “Just check the pack. You know how.”
You do.
That’s kind of the problem with this job. Everyone knows a little bit of everything, and suddenly you’re doing things that aren’t technically yours.
And when you think about it—it’s not just things.
People, too.
Like the man in front of you.
You sigh and slip the headset on as you approach him.
Yoongi’s standing off to the side, dressed for stage, mic already fitted, absently adjusting his bracelet.
“Angel sent me,” you say. “Need to check the pack.”
He glances at you, then nods once, turning his back without a word.
You crouch behind him, one knee rooted on the floor for balance. Your fingers find the small wireless set clipped at the back of his waistband.
“Your right side was cutting earlier,” you murmur, more to yourself than to him as you check the cable connection.
“Mm.” He glances back at you, expression unreadable.
“Can you lift your shirt?”
He doesn’t question it. Just hooks his fingers into the hem of his tee and lifts.
You’ve seen this before. His slender waist, the black band of the non-descript boxer-briefs he likes to wear. And you’ve been in this position before, mouth busy, tear ducts on overdrive, knee caps a little red.
Your eyes linger on his body before you can stop them, catching the line of his waist, the muscles on his back, the lean stretch of his torso… Shit. You swallow it down just as fast.
Focus.
You reach back to adjust the strap of the pack properly against his waist, tightening it so it sits secure. Your fingers brush against warm skin for a split second and you draw your hand away quickly as if you got burned.
You tap your headset monitor, nodding to Yoongi. “Say something.”
“Something,” he says, flat.
You huff. “You’re so helpful.”
“Thought that’s what you asked for.”
You shake your head, adjusting the cable one more time just to be sure. “Again. Properly. If this fucks up, you’re the one singing without a monitor, not me.”
With his cooperation, you finally get things sorted out, but before you can go, his voice crackles in your ear.
“Hey, Y/N.”
He speaks in a frequency just for his and your set.
You stop at your tracks, adjusting your mic. “What?”
You turn to see the glint in his shadowy eyes, enough to know that when he speaks again, it’s not for audio checking. “You look pretty.”
Your brain takes a second too long to catch up.
Because between his sheets, he has sung your praises. Hot. Sexy. So tight. But not like this. Not with his eyes a little too fond, telling you you’re Pretty, of all things. You don’t know what else to do but deflect.
“Pretty cause I got on my knees for you?” You smirk, deliberately making it sound crass. Because you can’t fathom the alternative. The tenderness, the gentleness in the way he said it.
There’s the most minute crease on his brow before someone calls his name across the room. And then he’s gone before he can answer.
You’re left standing there, headset buzzing softly in your ear, trying to remember what you were doing before your brain short-circuited over one word.
⊙⊝⊜
[Paris, FR, July 2026]
You’re in Paris, the city of love, and Yoongi’s been in your mind a little more than usual. Over a cheese croissant, you thought about it: inviting him. Granted, you can’t have him in your room because your twin accommodations aren’t exactly conducive for the activities you usually partake in, but maybe at least you can initiate.
Maybe even ask if he wanted to walk somewhere. You know, get food… then coffee… stroll along the Seine riverside like every other tourist…
The idea flies out the window and flings itself onto incoming traffic the moment you spot him backstage fifteen minutes before showtime.
Yoongi is sprawled across one of the couches, one arm stretched lazily along the backrest. And directly in front of him sits the prettiest faerie in all the land. Park Jimin.
See, this thing between “YoonMin” has always intrigued you. You’ve always thought the boys were platonic, because the alternative would border on incest with how their brotherhood almost runs deeper than blood. But these two looked like they always had something different.
“Can you braid my hair, hyung?” Jimin asks with a little pout.
Yoongi, whose fingers were already absently playing with the edges of the younger’s blonde tips to begin with, nods his assent.
You shouldn't linger. You have somewhere to be. Yet somehow your feet stay planted.
From your shadowy corner backstage, you watch Yoongi gather sections of Jimin's hair with surprising care. His fingers move deftly, practiced, like this isn't the first time he's done it.
Jimin says something you can't hear and Yoongi huffs a laugh, open and wide, almost a guffaw. That’s a real one, unlike those tiny chuckles you’ve seen in interviews. You wonder, almost bitterly, if he’s ever laughed like that with you.
Fuck. You gotta snap out of it and get it together. You have a show to do and this is ridiculous. Jimin is Jimin and Yoongi has known him for half his life.
But when Yoongi finishes the last knot and pats the younger man's head absentmindedly afterward, something contorts in your stomach.
A staff member rushes past you, breaking the moment.
When you look back again, Jimin is already smiling bright and toothy at whatever Yoongi says next and Yoongi’s eyes are shining.
For some reason, you find yourself thinking about the word he'd called you over comms in London. Pretty. Then you immediately hate yourself for it. Because one word doesn't change anything. You’d do your best to remember that.
⊙⊝⊜
Namjoon: Are you bored?
You: save me
Namjoon: Yeah, that’s why I texted.
It’s your last night in Paris and the city glittered beyond the open balcony doors.
It was close to eleven and the sky was washed in the deepest navy. Beyond the wrought-iron railing, rooftops stretched endlessly beneath a sea of golden lights.
And there, impossibly, the Eiffel Tower. You keep catching yourself looking at it. You don’t wanna be dramatic, but hello?! That’s the Eiffel Tower and it just feels ridiculous that it's right there.
Growing up, Paris existed in movies, postcards, textbooks and now you're sitting on a hotel balcony with a direct view of it.
This is not your hotel room, obviously. Yours has a stunning view of the adjacent building's white-washed wall.
But Namjoon's room? WOW.
You briefly wonder how long it takes before views like these stop feeling surreal.
The warm summer air drifts through the balcony as you sit cross-legged on one of the loungers, while Namjoon occupies the chair opposite yours, glasses slipping lower down his nose as he scrolls absently through something on his phone.
He suddenly exhales through his nose, locks the screen, and tosses it onto the table between you. “Can I ask you something weird?”
You squint at him immediately. “Sus, but okay?”
“Do you think…” He pauses, rubbing at the back of his neck. “Do you think people like me actually have a shot at normal love?”
“That’s kinda… loaded.”
“Mm.”
“Also, define normal.”
“You know what I mean.” Namjoon leans back, sighs.
“I dunno.” You shrug. “Is love ever normal?”
Namjoon shifts slightly, gaze drifting toward the Eiffel now instead of you. “Maybe I’m just too hopeless.”
“Why do you think that?”
“You know.” He sighs from deep within his chest. “This life. Always seen. Always moving. Never really staying anywhere long enough.”
“I think the right person wouldn’t care that your life’s this.” You smile faintly, swirling the wine inside your glass. “They’d just wanna be part of it regardless.”
He nods. “I think I’d be happier if I did have someone.”
Your eyes flick toward him. He’s looking at you. Eyes filled with exhaustion, but wrapped in sincerity. His life is never gonna be normal, you both know this. Idol life is not for the weak. And despite all his struggles, Kim Namjoon is still one of the strongest people you’ve ever known.
“Like…” He searches for the words carefully, elbows resting against his knees now. “Someone who actually knows me outside all this. Someone to come home to eventually. I like imagining that. Going to work, home by 7, and there’s a home-cooked meal and someone to have dinner with… Like I’m just a normal fuckin’ guy.”
Your heart bleeds a little. “I think wanting somebody to come home to is probably the most normal thing about you.”
Namjoon laughs softly, almost embarrassed by himself. “After shows I know everybody goes somewhere. Hobi likes to go out. Jin is perpetually on a video call with Hana. Kook, Tae, I know they get up to stuff. They got lives. And I dunno, I just…” He shrugs. “I feel it more lately.”
Loneliness. That’s what this is. Not dramatic loneliness. Just the quiet adult kind. The kind that makes you feel small and sneaks up on you in big hotel rooms after midnight. Like now. You understand exactly what he means.
“Namjoon-ah, I think somebody out there is gonna love you so much that all this,” you gesture vaguely around the area, “won’t scare them away. You’re gonna find them.”
Dots sink against his cheek and for a while neither of you speaks.
A dog barks. A group of women giggle. A police siren blares from a distance.
Then, Namjoon glances over. “What about you?”
You immediately groan. “Absolutely not. We are not doing this.”
“Oh, come on. I was vulnerable. Give me something here.”
“Nope. You’re not baiting me.”
“You’re definitely the type.”
“The type to what?”
He grins, like he’s about to give you the best psychoanalysis ever. “To believe in serendipity and soulmates and all that shit.”
You stare at him blankly.
“No, hear me out.” He settles deeper into his chair. “You’re the kind of person who still thinks there’s meaning in things. Like if two people keep ending up in the same place over and over again, you think it’s fate.”
Looking away, you shake your head.
Namjoon points triumphantly. “See? That face means yes.”
You collapse backward dramatically against the seat. “God. I hate that you can read me.”
“So I’m right,” he says. “You are a hopeless romantic.”
Yup, read you like a damn book.
You pull your knees closer to your chest, staring down at your socks.
“I think…” You hesitate, suddenly feeling shy. “I think I’ve always assumed there’s somebody out there specifically for me.”
Namjoon doesn’t interrupt. So you keep going.
“Like not a fuckin’ prince charming or anything. Just someone…” You exhale softly. “Mine, I guess.”
The confession sounds embarrassingly earnest once it leaves your mouth.
But Namjoon just nods slowly like he understands.
“I know it’s stupid,” you mumble. “Eomma made me watch too many Disney fairytales.”
“It’s not.”
“Maybe not to you.” You laugh quietly. “But sometimes I feel kinda pathetic about it. Like everybody else grew out of wanting that.”
“You didn’t.”
“No,” you say quickly. “But, I also know now you have to be practical.”
“Practical how?”
“To just accept what version of love that’s handed to you. Even if it’s not perfect. Even if it’s just a semblance of it. At least it’s yours.”
Silence stretches again.
You’re not sure if Namjoon understands what you’re talking about. Or who you’re talking about.
Or if he even agrees with the idea.
You stare at the city lights again, voice quieter when you speak next.
“I’m scared of ending up alone.” You swallow once before continuing. You’ve only ever admitted this out loud to one person.
Namjoon’s expression softens almost painfully. “That won’t happen.”
“You don’t know that.”
“I don’t.” He smiles faintly. “But I still don’t think it’ll happen.”
You huff out a laugh through your nose when suddenly your phone lights up.
Someone’s calling. You once set a photo and a name for this person. But now, he’s just this emoji: 🙀for security and other reasons.
Just as quickly as you ended the call, it’s buzzing again.
“You gonna take that?” Namjoon asks.
You don’t think about it for long. Shake your head without further delay. “Nah.”
There’s a tiny click and a haptic feedback on your palm before you place your phone face down beside the ash tray.
Funny how Yoongi’s reminding you he exists in this exact time.
“You know what my toxic trait is?” you murmur after finishing your wine.
“What?”
You huff a soft, sad laugh. “I already know love is bullshit. But I still want it anyway.”
That finally makes Namjoon grin.
“Yeah,” he says softly. “Me too.”
Something settles warmly in your chest from the strange comfort of being understood by somebody standing in the same weird in-between place as you.
“Wanna hug?”
Disarmed, you blurt. “No. I’m not wearing a bra.” You cross your arms over your chest, suddenly feeling chaste.
“Neither am I.”
The fuck?
Your expression pulls a real laugh out of him, loud and unrestrained, dimples cutting deep into his cheeks as he collapses sideways against the chair.
“You’re actually so stupid,” you wheeze.
He stands up and holds one arm open anyway.
You stare at him for a second before rolling your eyes dramatically and scooting over.
The hug is brief. Warm. Just two lonely human beings holding onto each other for a second longer than usual.
You find yourself wondering how many lonely people are out here tonight.
In a city this big, probably thousands. But for a little while, there are two less.
Neither of you realizes that as a balcony door shuts somewhere nearby, there’d be one left.
***
[Munich, GE, July 2026]
Yoongi asks you to come over after the first show. Not unusual. What is unusual is that you still have your clothes on. Usually your garments would be flying right off within the first minute or two, especially since you haven’t gotten with him since before Paris.
But not this night, it seems. You even skipped the panties tonight- that's how quick and dirty you thought this would be.
“Give me ten minutes,” he says the second he opens the door, already turning back toward his small setup near the windows, laptop, a tiny keyboard, and a small mic. “I’m just finishing something.”
You narrow your eyes. “Wow.”
He glances back. “What?”
“You’re making me wait.” You kinda sound bratty there, but too late for regrets. “It’s almost my bed time.”
His mouth twitches faintly as he pushes his glasses higher up his nose. “Stay up for me, baby.”
You scoff under your breath because he is so mean for weaponizing that word, but you toe your shoes off anyway, wandering deeper into the suite while he settles back into the chair in front of his laptop.
You sink into the couch with a sigh. The exhaustion hits you almost immediately. You’re wrung out even more than usual.
Across the room, Yoongi works quietly, keyboard making subtle tapping sounds, mouse clicking every few seconds. Every now and then he mutters something under his breath.
You watch him for a while and you realize there’s something strangely intimate about seeing this part of him. After a few minutes, he leans back in his chair, rubbing a hand over his mouth. “Can I ask you something?”
You stifle a yawn. “Shoot.”
“I, uh, wrote something.”
Yoongi stares at the screen for another few seconds before finally sighing through his nose.
“I need to know if it’s shit.”
“Okay, read it to me.”
Reluctantly, he mumbles the lyrics in that low rough voice of his. You listen carefully, curled deeper into the couch cushions.
참 말야 바람대로 되는 게 없지
Really there’s nothing that goes the way one wishes
인간관계란 정말 어려워 역시
Human relationships are really difficult, as expected
애초부터 맞지 않는 거였어
From the beginning, we weren’t meant to get along
우리 둘 사이 간극을
The gap between the two of us
좁혀 보려는 것 자체가 억지
it was a forceful attempt to narrow that gap
It’s sadder than what you expected. Lonelier, too. When he finishes, silence settles for a second.
Yoongi doesn’t look at you immediately. He just taps his fingers once against the armrest. “Well?”
You sit up slightly. “I mean…” You hesitate honestly. “I’m probably the worst person to ask. I know nothing about songwriting.”
He shrugs lightly.
“You don’t have to be an expert.” His gaze finally lifts toward yours. “You just gotta be human.”
Something about the way he says it catches you off guard. Like he’s asking for something simpler. More vulnerable. If it made you feel something.
“I think…” You chew on the inside of your cheek. “He feels tired.”
Yoongi’s brows lift slightly. “Tired?”
“Not physically.” You shake your head. “More like…” You search for the right words. “Like somebody who keeps trying, even when they already know how it’s gonna end.”
Silence.
You glance at him, feeling a little silly now. “That’s probably not what you meant, huh.”
“No. Keep going.”
You hate when people say that. Mostly because it means they were listening.
You tuck your feet beneath you. “It feels lonely, I guess. That line about not being able to close the gap.” You shrug. “It sounds like someone who really wanted to understand one person or be understood by them.”
Your voice softens, as a different thought arises. “But, was there really a gap in the first place? He should question that, too. Sometimes, things are much much simpler than what they seem.”
For a moment, Yoongi just stares at his screen. You wonder if you’ve rambled too much. But then he nods once slowly like you’ve landed somewhere close.
“Yeah.” The word is so quiet you almost miss it.
You smile faintly, leaning back. “Well, if your goal was to make people sad with just a few lines, congratulations.”
A small laugh escapes him. “That’s my brand, apparently.”
“You know,” you continue, “if that song had to be performed, I’d probably picture somebody standing alone after everyone else already left.”
His eyes flick up. “That’s specific.”
You shrug. “You asked a dancer.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“You guys hear music and think about the track, the production. I hear music and immediately start seeing scenes in my head, movement.”
“Mm.” He leans back slightly. “Tell me what you see.”
You think about it. “A group of dancers in the center of the stage, moving away to reveal somebody sitting on a chair in the middle of their chaos.”
Your gaze drifts toward the city lights outside. “It’s like everybody else moved on already and they’re the only ones still trying to figure out where things went wrong.”
Yoongi is looking at you now. A smile tugs at the corner of his mouth before he breathes. “Damn.”
You don’t know what that means. You don’t think about it again, but sometime in the future, it’s a look that you'll remember.
Yoongi starts typing again after that, keyboard taps and mouse clicks lulling you to sleep like ASMR.
You’re not able to stifle your yawn, and it’s a big one.
“Go sleep in the bed,” Yoongi says and that is not the response you were expecting.
Your eyes widen instantly. “Uh, no.”
“Why?”
“Because that’s your bed.”
“And?”
“And I’m not sleeping there.”
“Y/N.”
“I’m literally fine.” You curl stubbornly deeper into the couch. “See?”
Yoongi stares at you for a long moment, then shakes his head once. “Suit yourself.”
He disappears briefly into the bathroom while you pull one of the throw blankets over yourself. The couch is unfairly comfortable. Probably even more comfortable than your own bed. And maybe this is the only reason why you stay despite all the good reasons to just leave and pick up where you left off on another day.
You tell yourself you’ll stay awake. Just rest your eyes for a second. Give Yoongi more time because he is in a good flow.
That’s all.
The last thing you vaguely register is Yoongi returning to the room and the soft sound of music playing quietly somewhere near the desk again.
⊙⊝⊜
When you wake up the next morning, sunlight spills warmly across the softest white sheets. Slowly, you bolt upright in the bed, blanket slipping down your lap as your sleepy brain struggles to catch up.
This is not your hotel room.
Nope. This one’s big.
What the hell?
Then you see him. Dark mop of hair on the couch across the room, one arm hanging off the side, the other over his eyes.
Your heart stumbles painfully against your ribs as your mind plays a highlight reel of last night and the realization settles strangely inside your chest. He carried you to his bed and slept out there instead.
Huh. Well, that’s kind of sweet of him, isn’t it? He could have stayed in the same bed, it is his after all, and you’re probably too tired to hear him snore or anything like that. You stare at him fondly for a second too long before ice slides down your spine and panic finally catches up to you.
In all these months of whatever this is, you’ve never stayed the night ever. Shit. This is not great. In fact, this is a fucking mess. Oh my god. This is–
You’re clambering out of the bed, gathering your things with your pulse thudding wildly in your ears.
Yoongi shifts slightly on the couch and you freeze immediately.
Oh my god.
Fuck, he woke up.
Shit-shit-shit.
How can he be such a light sleeper?
“Y/N…”
“Yes?”
“Were you watching me sleep?”
“No!”
“Okay.”
You chew off a dry piece of skin from your lip as you watch him push himself up with a grunt.
“Why didn’t you just wake me up?” You really didn’t mean to, but it sounded like you were accusing him of something.
“You were tired,” he scratches the back of his head.
“You could have let me take the couch.”
Finally, his sleepy eyes meet yours. “I could have,” he says simply before a yawn takes over his face. The insinuation that he could have but he didn’t want to, like he wanted your comfort over his–god what is this you are feeling right now?
Yoongi stretches his arm up and the t-shirt rides up to show his abdomen and the happy trail leading down to… a tall tent in his shorts. You gulp. Because he’s looking very enthusiastic this morning. The fabric of his bottoms are so thin that you can almost see the actual shape of his cock and it’s not computing that you’ve been staring.
He knows, and he makes no move to cover or address the elephant or should you say the anaconda in the room.
Thoughts are forming in your brain, solidifying with each charged second.
“I’m doing room service. Wanna get somethin’ to eat?” He asks coolly, checking his phone for the time.
“Yeah, I do,” you respond firmly, knees burning subtly from where they hit the rough carpet.
Eager fingers curl on the waistband of his shorts, and not even a second later, he’s helping you ease it off him.
“This what you want?” he asks with a wicked grin, clearly enjoying himself. He settles at the edge of the cushion and leans back slightly, legs spread in invitation.
No reply is needed, nope, not when you suddenly have a mouthful of his dick and you get a string of pretty curses in response.
You lick him from the tip to the base, dragging the back of your tongue back up again. Eyes on him, you let your lips pucker, soft and sensual, along his firm length.
Breath quickening, Yoongi sighs, pleasure painted in his features as he watches every move you make. There’s something about having his full and undivided attention like this that makes you feel a little powerful. He’s used to the world watching him, but in this room, it’s like you’re the only one worth seeing and the thought spurs you to perform a little. Make it unforgettable.
You let spit dribble from your mouth like syrup, warm, viscous, pouring straight into the column of his cock in clear swirls. The tip of your tongue spreads it further, coating him inch by inch, before you wrap your lips around his head.
You peer up through your lashes, eyes Bambi-like and beautiful and he already looks positively destroyed.
“Love your mouth. Fuck.”
You moan a little before releasing him with a small pop and giving him a sly, teasing smile.
Licking the palm of your hand, you curl it around his shaft and give it a squeeze. It's a little squishy from your spit and you pump him just enough to see him hang his mouth open with the jolt of pleasure.
After a few firm tugs, he tips his head back with a grin, hair falling softly over his eyes. You absolutely don’t expect what he says next.
“Best morning ever,” he slurs unabashedly, shaking his head like he can’t believe his luck.
You giggle, still massaging his velvety skin. “You haven’t even cum yet.”
“Well whose fault is that?”
Oh?!
“Goodbye asshole. Suck your own co—” You make a move to stand up, but he plants you back down, palms on your shoulders.
“I’m joking, baby,” he says, all gummy-grinned and shit, rubbing your traps, and you hate it so much, but between that stupid smile and that fuckin’ word. Folded.
Yoongi grips his cock, teases the fat tip along your lips, slathering your own spit around your mouth like some kind of lip gloss. “C’mon, baby. You wanna finish what you started, hm?”
An indignant huff and you take him back in your mouth, suckling it noisily for show before you bring yourself forward, a choke rising involuntarily as he touches your tonsils halfway in.
Yoongi hisses. “‘ts what I'm talking ‘bout.”
You swallow once, relaxing your throat to take him further, swallowing again.
“Baby, that feels… fuck,” he praises. “You’re so good at this shit.”
Warmth is spreading on your cheeks, a little caught off guard because Yoongi is usually not this vocal. It seems he's a little less restrained this morning. Looser with praise and affection. Maybe because it’s early and he’s still halfway between sleep and wakefulness. You wouldn’t know for sure because the only time you’ve been with him at this early hour was in rehearsals.
Whatever the reason, there’s something less guarded about him right now from the sounds he lets slip to the way he keeps looking at you, sticky like molasses.
You tighten the seal of your mouth around his girth, bobbing your head up and down, sucking the life force out of him. Whatever doesn’t fit, you pump with a flick of your wrist, twisting your fist every time it bounces lightly against his balls.
“A-aah…”
Got this grown man stuttering and his deep grunts are making you gush between your thighs.
As salt starts to coat your tongue, a sharp, unexpected spark of pleasure shoots through you. It takes you a second to realize why. Yoongi’s toe scrapes your center, the material of your thin shorts offering little to no barrier against your bare cunt.
Is he—? Oh.
Okay.
Shit.
You’re already soaking through your shorts. The thin fabric clings to the slit between your folds, and his toe keeps brushing right over it.
Your mouth hovers his fat bulb, lips barely touching it as the tiny sparks from your cunt renders you immobile.
“You’re drooling everywhere, baby.”
And he’s not wrong.
You moan into his cock.
Honestly you’ve become a little distracted since he started wiggling because fuck—that feels so supremely divine—and you swear you don’t have a foot fetish or anything but! The motions are just driving you in-fucking-sane right now.
Yoongi lifts his hips slightly, thrusting upwards so he is just flopping against your mouth, sliding out to the side of your cheek, then back inside again.
Brain empty.
Pussy wet.
Eyes completely unfocused.
All the while he dips his candy-coated cock in and out of your pathetic mouth, yanking it back, smearing wetness all over your face, your chin, before sliding back in.
You want to regain your composure, you really do. But you love this, the mess he’s made of you, debauched and desperate for that monster between his legs.
Caressing your jaw, he tilts your chin up, bringing you back to the present. “Will you let me fuck your throat?”
You nod eagerly and he beams like he’s won something. He stands up and you adjust your stance, sitting on your heel like a well-mannered sub.
“You’re so good to me, baby,” he praises as you watch his reddened head poke in and out of his clenched fist. He gives it a few more pumps, a tiny pearl shining on the slit, before seeking entrance in your mouth.
Just as you open up for him, you lift your gaze to meet his. “You don’t have to be gentle.”
“Tss,” he huffs out a laugh. “You say that now.”
“Try me.”
Yoongi makes a few shallow passes, a gag getting caught in your throat as he goes deeper. You relax your jaw, breathe in sharply through your nose, as Yoongi really shoves it in, hips stuttering at a steady pace. Soon enough, he’s bucking into you with more force, the skin at the edges of your lips tears with every pass.
You’re crying now, oscillating between the pain and the pleasure as he wrecks your shit. Fingers threaded through your hair are spurring you forward as your throat tightens and molds to the shape of him.
You kind of regret egging him on now.
“Oh look at you,” Yoongi gasps. “So fuckin’ perfect. Go on, baby, you can touch yourself.”
It’s not like you to wait for his, or anyone’s, permission. And it just occurred to you that you were maybe waiting for it. What the–
“Mmph…” you cough violently when he unplugs, air finally rushing inwards like a salvation.
“You okay?” A thumb swipes a rogue tear from your cheek. “We can stop.”
“No, I’m fine.” You reply, shaking your head.
He studies you for a beat before agreeing, his expression morphing into something achingly fond as he tucks a stray tendril behind your ear.
Ignore ignore ignore
You busy your fingers underneath damp satin, rubbing your nub raw, distracting you from any discomfort from your abused throat or, worse, from the unsolicited affection. Shit. Thankfully you’re wound so goddamn tight and are just seconds away from tipping over the edge.
“Get yourself off, baby. Make yourself feel good. Wanna see you cum for me.”
Yoongi looks like the devil incarnate looking down on you like that, watching you pleasure yourself.
You're chasing your breath, deliriously close to your orgasm, but you’re able to croak out an instruction that you just know will snuff out the tenderness in his eyes before it undoes you.
“Paint my face.”
And it sure as hell works, if the way he begins pumping his dick furiously is any indication. Your brain helpfully supplies memories of him impaling you, reaching places inside no man has ever touched before. Soon you’re tipping forward, a desperate cry of his name ripping from your chest, your body heaving, clenching, shaking with the force of your release.
It’s a miracle you hear him beneath the static in your ear drums.
“Shit. Baby, show me your tongue.”
You stick it out for him, soft and flat.
Gripping his shaft, Yoongi slaps his angry-red tip on your wet muscle relentlessly, sloppy thwacks filling the room.
“Fuck,” he curses and gasps with each lewd stroke, tapping his cock into your open mouth, pumping it aggressively, groaning roughly. The veins in his hand flex with every move, and it’s obvious he’s close, so you encourage him.
“I need your cum, Yoongi…” you moan salaciously. “Please…”
You shut your eyes and even in the darkness behind your lids you can imagine his gentle features contorted in ecstasy and with a low growl he vandalizes your face with white-hot spurts of his cum.
It gets quiet after that, the aftermath.
You open your eyes and there it is again, feline eyes gone unexpectedly glassy. He starts rubbing the slick on your cheek, smoothing it like it needs to sink deep. You sense a bead near your mouth and you swoop it in with your tongue, lapping up the liquid with a satisfied hum.
Yoongi sighs, grins tiny. “Stay there.”
You shouldn’t. You should actually get up because your knees are burning, your face is feeling gooey, and a quick douse of warm water would clean you right quick.
Your heart pounds against your ribs because you know what’s next. The part you always refuse. The part you’ve always pretended to not care for.
Yoongi comes back with a washcloth, sits ass-bare on the couch and coaxes you to follow on his lap.
Gentle as ever, white is wiped from your skin. The hotel’s terry cloth is a little rough, but he’s so tender with it, one smooth swipe after another until the slick is gone. He flips the towel on the other side and passes it over your face again.
But when the cloth is gone, his own hand stays, thumb tracing the soft swoop of your jaw before brushing across your lower lip, catching it briefly against his finger before letting it slip free.
The gesture draws your attention to his mouth. His tongue flicks out unconsciously, wetting his lips beneath your stare.
God. Would it really be so bad?
It’s only, what, 8 am and he got you doing downright nasty shit, but the fantasy is still as simple as ever.
A kiss.
Slow and lush and unhurried and then maybe fast, faster, tongues tangling and from there it’s just impossible to stop.
You're so close you can imagine it: he cups your jaw, parts your mouth with his, kisses you over and over until you’re dizzy and breathless. You link your arms around his neck, pulling him closer…
“Y/N…” Yoongi snaps you out of your reverie.
You blink back to the present. “Yeah?”
“I fuckin’ hate your rule in case I haven’t told you,” Yoongi says matter-of-factly.
You smush his lips with your palm, shoving his face playfully away before you get off his lap.
It’s still at the tip of your tongue, you know.
His cum.
As well as the truth you almost say out loud:
You hate it, too.
⊙⊝⊜
It’s been about four months now since the tour kicked off. Long enough that the chaos feels a bit more controlled now.
At the beginning, every venue felt like a maze. Endless hallways, identical black curtains, staff corridors that all looked the same under fluorescent lighting. Now, you can just tell. You can step into a new stadium and figure it out within minutes. Which tunnel leads to where. Which stairwell gets you quickest to wardrobe. Which backstage corners have decent signal. Which production staff to avoid when they’re stressed.
Tour life doesn’t feel borrowed anymore. It feels like it’s yours. The girls help with that too.
You’ve become closer in the way only people surviving the same madness together can. Especially Angel who has started dragging you into wardrobe work whenever she’s overwhelmed and needs to yap with somebody. Now you moonlight beside her sometimes before shows, surrounded by rhinestones and loose thread while listening to her bomb ass playlists.
Your latest masterpiece had been Yoongi’s baseball jersey. Well, okay. Masterpiece might be generous. But you did spend almost 40 minutes bedazzling the name Tang and a tiny silver cat onto the sleeve.
You never told him it was you, but during soundcheck, you caught the exact moment he noticed it. His fingers brushed over the tiny rhinestone cat absently before his mouth twitched into that quiet amused grin he gets when something genuinely catches him off guard.
It just might be the prettiest smile you’ve seen on him.
⊙⊝⊜
And then, there’s Namjoon.
There are nights you end up eating backstage together, sharing food while he talks about whatever book currently has him spiraling philosophically. Other times he finds you stretching before rehearsals and starts rambling about his new Pokemon hyperfixation.
Nothing with Namjoon ever feels hidden or awkward.
Your conversations happen under bright lights. In crowded hallways. Out in the open where anybody could walk by and misunderstand absolutely nothing. Even when he invites you to hang out, it doesn’t feel like a secret. He even mentioned it one time within earshot of Jungkook, who seemed unfazed.
Sometimes you catch yourself wondering if this is what being close to someone is supposed to feel like.
Then you stop thinking about it before your mind wanders somewhere dangerous.
Because Yoongi—
God. That’s a puzzle. Maybe even a Rubik’s cube. Or twenty of them.
Because somehow everything between you has stayed exactly the same while also becoming completely different.
The arrangement hasn’t changed. You still slip into his room late at night. Still leave before morning. Still hide behind small rooms. Still finish quick and clean up fast.
But now you know things about him you didn’t before.
The face he makes when he’s concentrating on lyrics. How he goes soft when his eomma checks in late at night. His face in the morning when pleasure washes over his features.
And worse, he’s started knowing things about you, too.
Sometimes he does things that catch you so off guard it leaves you staring at him after like your brain can’t process what just happened.
Tiny things. Like calling you pretty. Like taking you to a Michelin-starred hole-in-the-wall in Madrid. You’re still a little fucked up about that, not gonna lie.
No matter, they’re inconsequential enough that you can still lie to yourself about them if you try hard enough. And it scares you because the closer you get to him, the harder it becomes to pretend losing him wouldn’t hurt. Though you know you have to. Eventually.
⊙⊝⊜
[East Rutherford, NJ, August 2026]
Production rented an entire pickleball rink in New Jersey and invited anyone who wants to play after the boys’ Run BTS shoot.
A couple of you signed up. You’ve tried it before and you’re pretty decent. Plus, there wasn’t much to do during your day-off and you didn’t want to go outlet shopping with Rei and the other girls.
Eventually you and Seung Eun, Angel, Tiff and some other staff members piled into a van and into The Rink.
The automatic doors slide open and cool air hits your skin instantly, carrying the sharp smell of rubber flooring and sports cleaner. Bright fluorescent lights spill across polished courts while music from an old BTS album (Love Yourself!) echoes faintly from overhead speakers.
On one court, you see Taehyung aggressively stretch like he’s competing in Wimbledon.
“Wow. He’s so serious about all this,” Angel mutters beside you.
“You’re literally wearing a whole tennis outfit.” You bump your hip against hers.
“It’s aesthetic.” She throws a wink over her shoulder before skipping happily towards her waiting man.
You find the equipment counter, observing the people who are still around. Jungkook and Jimin probably left already. Meanwhile, Namjoon is sweating buckets by the coolers and Yoongi—
Why is he still willingly here and… oh, he’s running towards you?
“Hello.” You say awkwardly. “Didn’t think I'll see you here.”
“Heard you signed up.”
“Uh, yeah…”
He’s dressed simply. Black shorts. Oversized grey shirt with a small sweat stain on his chest. A baseball cap tugged backwards which is doing inexplicable things to your mind.
“Been wanting to play again,” you murmur.
“You any good?”
“I’m decent.”
“Okay, one game?” He rolls his shoulder, kneading the muscle there.
“Is your shoulder okay to play?”
The question slips out too naturally. Shit. Months ago, this would’ve stayed trapped inside your head, buried beneath all your rules about what you were and weren’t allowed to care about.
Yoongi glances at you. “Mm,” he says. “It’s fine.”
“You sure?”
A beat.
Then the corner of his mouth lifts slightly. “You worried?”
Immediately defensive, you scoff. “No! I just don’t wanna win because your body is 90 years old.”
“Yah! I literally ran a marathon recently.”
“Mhmm and you almost died?” You grin slyly before grabbing an unmanned paddle on the counter, testing its weight. Then, you hit the side of his hip with it. He shakes his head at you, motioning his head for you to follow him.
“So did you win?” you ask about their Run BTS shoot.
“No.” He winces.
“Oh, so you suck at this, too?” You tease, recalling how he was teased relentlessly for his grandpa-esque foot volley performance.
He narrows his eyes on you, but before he gets a word out, you say, “I can give you some pointers, if you want?”
An arm suddenly slings around your shoulders.
“Y/N-ah.”
Namjoon.
You stumble slightly from the force of it, laughing immediately.
“You’re with me,” Namjoon declares. “Doubles.”
You glance instinctively toward Yoongi and his expression doesn’t change much at all, but his gaze flicks once toward Namjoon’s arm around you before dropping away.
Yoongi licks his teeth as he declares his teammate. “Jin-hyung and me versus you two.”
Which you didn’t think was unfair at first, but apparently Kim Seokjin is the ace.
“Why are you good at everything?” you yell after he effortlessly sends another shot flying past you.
Jin points his paddle at you smugly. “God gives his hardest battles to his handsomest soldiers.”
“That doesn’t make any sense,” Namjoon winces before lining up to serve.
Yoongi misses what would have been an easy volley completely and the silence afterward is catastrophic.
“Yoongi-yah!” Seokin explodes and Namjoon hits the floor laughing.
“I thought it was yours!” Yoongi protests immediately.
“It was going to you??” Jin screeches.
You’re laughing so hard your knees nearly give out.
Yoongi glares at all of you. But honestly? He’s terrible. Absolutely terrible! Half the time he swings too late. The other half he hits the ball with way too much force like he’s trying to launch it into 134340.
Meanwhile, Jin is carrying their duo on his broad ahh back. Like seriously, how come his shoulders are so wide and his arms are a mile long?
“Ah Yoongi, don’t be so useless!” Jin shouts dramatically across the court.
“We’re still leading by 5 points!”
“Forget the points, your aura’s in the negatives now!”
Yoongi has nothing to say after that, just turns to look at you with a :] and suddenly you are endlessly endeared.
And before you can stop yourself, you holler. “You got this, Yoongi.”
He didn’t expect that. Hell, you didn’t expect to say that out loud, too. But you blame the adrenaline and the endorphins coursing through your body.
Yoongi’s lips press together tightly in a pout. He has this smile that looks reluctant, like he’s trying very hard to stay composed and failing by degrees. It’s a cute look.
Regardless, Yoongi stays terrible after that, but it was kinda worth it to see him a little flustered.
⊙⊝⊜
By the second game, everyone’s sweaty and louder and way too competitive for people who are supposedly here to just have fun.
You’re bent slightly at the waist catching your breath when you feel someone bump your shoulder lightly.
Yoongi.
“You’re with me this round.”
You blink up at him.
There’s no teasing in his voice. No hesitation either. Just quiet certainty.
“Against who?”
He tilts his chin toward the opposite court where Angel and Taehyung are already bickering like an old married couple.
“Oh,” you grin slowly. “Easy win.”
“Really,” Tae points immediately. “Yoongi-hyung, you’ve been taking the L every game.”
“Not this one,” Yoongi says simply beside you. “Not gonna lose with her.”
You look at him. He looks proud.
The game starts pretty badly. Mostly because Yoongi is downright awful.
“You gotta move your feet,” you laugh as he misses another return.
“I am moving!”
“That was one step!”
“I can do two max.”
You shove him playfully. “Get your head in the game, Yoon.”
And somewhere in the middle of the match, something clicks. Not skill. God no. It’s chemistry. You start anticipating each other naturally.
Somehow, you know when he’ll hit too hard so you compensate automatically. He starts setting shots up for you without realizing it.
At one point you dive for a low ball, barely saving it. Yoongi cuts in and slams the return clean across the court.
The point is yours.
“Oh SHIT!” you yell.
Yoongi turns toward you instantly, eyes wide as adrenaline flashes across his face.
“Fuck yeah,” he laughs breathlessly, holding his hand up.
You smack your palm against his.
“That was sharp!”
“You saved that.”
“No, YOU finished it!”
Tae scoffs from across the net. “The fuck? So much dramatics for one point.”
Angel makes a face at the two of you.
Neither of you even notice, because you’re too busy grinning at each other.
Later, during match point, Yoongi completely whiffs on an easy shot.
“Oh my god,” you collapse against him laughing. “You suck so bad. We could have won.”
“Why do you look happy?” he shoots back.
And you don’t really have an answer for that.
⊙⊝⊜
Or this.
Maybe you’re both tired after pickleball. But tonight, he was exceptionally gentle. Like everything happening was moving in slow-mo.
You’re on your back, the mattress dipping beneath you as he follows, one hand braced beside your head, the other coaxing your thigh to come up around him.
You wind your legs around his torso, ankles crossing at his back as you pull him close.
You feel him slip inside you and when he bottoms out, he exhales softly through his nose, forehead dropping to your neck.
You’re closer than you have been all night. Or ever, it seems.
Everything is so quiet, still. Just the sound of ragged breaths, fanning against each other’s bodies.
There’s a comfort in the way his cock is nestled inside you like it’s made a home, and for a minute, maybe more, neither of you moves.
Yoongi groans. “Feels so fuckin’ good.”
“I know…” you mumble.
“Shit…” Yoongi rasps, voice frayed at the edges. “Always feels good with you…”
Lifting his head, he nuzzles his nose against yours, brushing lightly as he moans at the way you’re clenching involuntarily.
You’re not kissing. You made it clear from the start. But you’re fighting for the same air, mouths a fraction apart. If either of you leans in even a little…
No. You can’t. That’s your rule.
It should feel casual. It is casual.
His slow gaze moves between your eyes and your mouth, like he’s thinking about it. He’s been doing this more and more, and you don’t know what to do with him.
It’s a question. He’s asking your permission without words.
Your hands slide up around his neck, tugging his hair back with a necessary force because everything else feels a little too soft, a little too real. You lick his bared neck, feeling the vibration from his throat against your tongue as he groans. The tenderness breaks.
“Yoongi. Move…” You claw at his back, resting your palm just above the curve of his ass.
Slow at first, he slides all the way out before stuffing his length back in with enough force to shake the sense out of you.
You cry in pleasure as he pulses his thumb against your puffy folds and wiggles it against your swollen clit. He knows your body so well now. Knows it’s not gonna take much.
“Oh, Yoongi…” you beg as your thighs quiver against his torso, each nasty thrust from him pulling out puffs of air from your throat.
You’re almost folded in half now as he snaps his hips forward, the tip of his cock kissing your g-spot making you delirious.
“I got you,” he rasps, voice low and gravelly.
And then his hands find yours pressing both palms steady against your own. But then his grip deliberately changes, fingers slipping between yours, interlacing like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
You tighten your hold without thinking. And he doesn’t pull away. If anything, he holds on harder.
This is new. Oh this is fucking new and you don’t know what to do.
The rhythm between you turns unsteady for a second—like you both feel it at the same time—and then it settles again, slower, deeper, more intentional.
Your foreheads meet. He huffs your name under his breath.
You’re feeling so much. His hand in yours. Your legs wrapped around him. The way your breathing falls out of sync and then somehow finds its way back together again.
His pace doesn’t falter even as your walls continue to swallow all of him as your climax nears.
“Baby… I can feel you sucking me in… fuck.”
“Yoongi…”
“Ah… you wanna keep me in, huh?”
Your hips falter at the insinuation, a temporary glitch in your brain, but he picks up the pace again and soon you’re back in that haze.
“Need you, baby…”
“I’m here…” he whispers, leaning to plant his lips on your cheek, and another, dangerously close to the edge of your lips. “Not going anywhere…”
It’s those words. Lust-driven words dressed up as a vow that did it for you.
When you come, he follows, spilling himself inside you with a broken gasp.
⊙⊝⊜
You can hear the electric kettle whistling as you step out of his bathroom.
Yoongi stands near the window, chest still bare, trousers sitting deliciously low on his hips.
There are nights you’re still kind of mesmerized by how incredibly handsome this man is.
Funny how two Kim Seokjins break the thought. Worldwide handsome is staring back at you from cups of Jin ramyeon on the table.
“I got hungry.” Yoongi says simply when he sees you, walking to retrieve the kettle. “Wanna eat?”
Two cups of ramyeon sit on the table. One is already cracked open, seasoning packets emptied inside. The other is still sealed, waiting patiently beside it.
You’re thinking, processing, buffering. You never ever stay beyond the clean-up. But the familiar and comforting smell of the broth makes the decision for you.
<3
//part four
A/N: Hi! Hope you liked? This Yoongi just... honestly, it was hard to write him at first, but I'm kinda falling in lo💥💥💥
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Warnings: cussing; dirty talk; breast play; fingering; orgasm denial; cunnilingus; face-sitting; protected sex
Word count: 4.6k words
Summary: After years of being best friends, you and Jihoon share one night of completely sober, consensual sex—something you both swore wouldn’t change anything. But it does. Now you’re caught in the in-between, where neither of you knows how to talk about it, afraid that telling the truth might ruin the one thing you’re both trying to hold onto.
A/N: This is a follow-up to this story, which I fully intended to be a one-shot only. And then Woozi started ruining my life after that, so you can send your complaints to him. You don't need to read the first part, but there are some callbacks to that. So yeah. This is just something completely indulgent for me.
Maybe @roaminginthenights and I can cook up a third installment—where all patience has been drained from this man 🤣 Until then, enjoy!
Your phone pings with a DM from your match.
You tap the screen, hoping for something exciting–or at the very least, normal. Instead, your face twists in immediate disgust. Blocked, without hesitation.
"You’ve got to be fucking kidding me," you grumble, tossing your phone across the couch.
Reactivating your dating profile was a mistake. Deep down, you knew it. But pretending nothing's changed was easier than facing the truth.
Except, everything has changed—since the night you slept with your best friend, Jihoon.
It wasn’t some drunken mistake. It was intentional. Clear-headed. Consensual. Mutually beneficial.
The memories are vivid: his fingers tracing your skin, the breath between you before that first kiss. And after, with your foreheads pressed together, neither of you wanting to be the first to let go.
It was supposed to be a one-time thing. A problem he helped you solve. Now it’s become a new problem you can’t stop thinking about.
Because Jihoon has raised the bar for everyone else. He didn’t mean to. He just showed you how it could be.
Sex with him wasn’t just sex. Every touch was unhurried and purposeful. It was the kind of experience that made you feel seen. Your body's needs weren't just being met, they were being understood. For once, he made you feel safe enough to let yourself sink into that space completely.
And now, every swipe on your phone feels pointless and hollow.
The truth is, nothing will ever come close to that night. Nothing. You're just not ready to admit it out loud.
You haven’t seen him in weeks—not because of anything dramatic, but just…life. Work. Deadlines. Obligations pulling you both in opposite directions.
The texts and calls never stopped. Neither did the inside jokes or snarky memes. The way his check-ins come in right as you're about to spiral from stress. He’s still your best friend, Jihoon–steady and comforting. But he’s also the guy who’s wrecked you in every which way. Both can be true.
He kept his word, honoring the boundaries you’d set. He didn’t push, much less think about leaning against the edge of that boundary, unless you asked.
And God, you’ve wanted to. Not just ask, but beg. Beg for him to cross it, jump over it. Completely obliterate it.
You’ve typed it out a hundred times, but you’ve also deleted it every time. Saying all this over the phone feels wrong, just like fast-forwarding to the ending you haven’t earned yet.
Words on a screen can’t express all this.
So here you are, fully dressed. Sitting on your couch, watching the minutes tick by, waiting for it to be a reasonable time to show up at Jihoon’s place. To watch sports, of all things.
Luckily, he's invited a few other friends. Built-in buffers, at least! Showing up too early means being alone with him. And the thought of it feels dangerous, despite looking forward to seeing him again.
Your phone buzzes. Thankfully, it’s not the dating app this time. You glance at the text notification and smile before you even read it.
Jihoon: Where are you? The game's about to start!
You: Still debating which top matches my pants, you lie.
Well… it’s half a lie. You tried on at least four outfits before settling on one that felt effortlessly cute, even though you're still second-guessing it.
Jihoon: You could show up in a garbage bag and still make it look hot.
You: Flattery won't make me move faster.
You laugh to yourself as you send off your response.
Jihoon: Bring them all. I’ll help you decide… but I can’t guarantee I won’t get distracted halfway through 😏
Warmth unfurls in your chest as you head toward the door. One last glance in the mirror. And you're off, with just enough mischief in you to match his.
************
The elevator dings on the seventh floor. You step out, clutching a box of Jihoon’s favorite cookies. Technically, you didn’t need to bring anything. Soonyoung had covered all the food and drinks after apparently losing a bet. Still, you feel weird showing up empty-handed.
Music and laughter seep through the seams of the door.
You knock once, then adjust your top. Which you’ve already checked in the elevator. Twice.
The door swings open, and there’s Jihoon standing there with a freshly bleached buzzcut.
You blink, caught off guard, and blurt out, “Wow. That’s… new.”
His smile switches to something slightly self-conscious. One arm lifts automatically, pulling you in for a hug.
His hoodie brushes your cheek, and that familiar mix of clean laundry and warm whiskey hits you like a punch to the gut. His body is solid, heat rolling off his chest, like your presence flipped some hidden switch inside him.
“Come on in. I’m glad you made it.”
“Oh, you know… just me and my walls this weekend,” you deadpan.
He glances at the box in your hands, clicks his tongue, and sighs dramatically. “I told you not to bring anything.”
“Unfortunately for you, my manners disagreed.” You press the box against his chest.
He spots the label and his face lights up instantly. “These are getting hidden. Immediately.”
“But I brought two dozen!” you reason, eyes wide.
“And sadly, still not enough to share,” he says dryly as he leads you into the kitchen.
You laugh, more at ease than you expected. Soonyoung and his girlfriend, Lia greet you. Jun waves from the couch, and a few other friends nod politely.
Jihoon nods at the counter filled with food. “Help yourself.” He then hides the cookies in one of the overhead cupboards.
You grab a plate, but your attention drifts back to his hair. “So,” you say, hand gesturing mid-air, “were you ever planning on mentioning this?”
His ears turn red. "Wasn't sure if it was selfie-worthy," he mutters, his hand sweeping over the strands. "Soonyoung's been making jokes about it. Is it that bad?”
Your fingers reach out before you can stop yourself. It’s softer than expected.
He steels himself, his breath catching.
“It’s different,” you say. “But good-different. I like it,” you finish with a sincere smile.
He breathes out a small, shy laugh. “Really?”
“Yeah! It looks badass.”
A slow smile spreads across his face. “Thanks.”
You catch yourself staring. His shoulders seem broader. Maybe they’ve always been like that, and the shorter cut is making them more noticeable? Or maybe it’s just you looking longer than you’re supposed to.
“So, you were just… chilling at home?”
You hesitate, then sigh in defeat. “That, and trying not to hurl my phone at the wall.”
He raises a brow, leans against the counter, and folds his arms across his chest. “Okay. Spill.”
You pull your phone from your pocket and hand it to him. His eyes drop to the screen, lips moving silently as he reads the message—the one that prompted you to immediately block the sender.
Do you like anal?
His brows lift, then his eyes flick to yours. “Well… do you?”
“Jihoon!” You shriek, snatching the phone back then swatting his shoulder.
He laughs, utterly unrepentant. “I’m so sorry.”
“Sure, you are,” you say sarcastically.
He shrugs. “Seems like a harmless question.”
“Yeah—but not as the first message.” You sigh, shoulders slumping. “It’s brutal out there,” you say, shaking your head. “I didn’t realize how bad it’s gotten.”
“Some people are just bold,” he quips.
“Some people are just douches. Is this really all that’s left?”
He tilts his head. “Maybe you’re just unlucky?” Then after a beat, “Or too picky.”
Clearly, not picky enough. “Or maybe I’m just looking for something I already found,” you mumble, your attention returning to the spread of food on the counter.
You don’t see the smile he’s fighting. His eyes flick toward the living room, then back, softening his voice. “You know, if you were feeling…some type of way, you could’ve just told me.”
His suggestion catches you off-guard. You inhale sharply before you turn to face him. “I…didn’t think this was that kind of friendship.”
His gaze doesn’t waver. “This friendship can be whatever kind we want it to be.”
You glance down, fingers tugging at the hem of your shirt. “I just… didn’t want it to seem like I was using you. Like that’s all I see you as.”
Jihoon’s expression shifts, but it’s unreadable to you. “Are you? Using me?”
You shake your head before the words even form. “No! God, no! You mean way more to me than that.”
He watches you, silent but expectant—waiting for you to elaborate on what more really means.
There’s a storm of thoughts surging in your head. Words you want to say so badly, but it all feels too raw, too exposed. What if he doesn’t feel the same? No, no, no. You didn’t plan for this conversation yet.
But it’s happening now. Whether you’re ready or not.
“I guess what I’m trying to say is—”
“MAKE THE FUCKING SHOT, YOU USELESS FUCK! GOD!!!”
You flinch at Soonyoung’s screams bellowing from the living room. Jihoon snorts, visibly annoyed but used to it.
“Guess he’s about to blow the over-under on this game again.” Then he turns back to you. “Sorry. You were saying?”
You open your mouth… then close it again. The moment's already slipped through your fingers.
“You know what, we’ll talk later.” you say, smiling tightly. “Let’s go watch the game.”
“Y-you sure?”
“Yeah. Go.” You nudge him back toward the others. But as he walks away, his eyes linger on you a moment longer.
Yes, you’ll say it. Just not yet. But soon.
*************
Your conversation might’ve been sidelined earlier, but Jihoon keeps sneaking glances during the game. Every so often, he finds an excuse to walk by—grabbing a drink, tossing a napkin, each trip lasting a little longer than the previous one.
Eventually, Lia catches on. “Do you want to switch seats with me?” she asks innocently, though the look she gives you says she suspects something.
You laugh nervously and push at Jihoon’s arm. “Don’t mind him! He’s just trying to get his steps in, right?” Then, when Lia looks away, your eyes flare wide at him, and through clenched teeth whisper, “Stop it.”
“Alright, alright…” He relents and finally retreats to the couch, but his eyes still find you again and again. You pretend not to notice, though a small part of you hopes he doesn’t stop.
The game ends in a buzzer-beater loss that sucks the energy from the room. One by one, people trickle out of Jihoon’s apartment, leaving behind crumpled cans, empty bottles, and half-eaten plates of pizza and wings scattered across every surface.
You and Jun stay behind to help clean up.
“I think that’s everything off the balcony,” Jun announces, dropping a couple of empty bottles into the bin.
“Thanks for coming, man,” Jihoon says as they exchange one of those bro-hug-backslap routines.
“Always a good time, bro.” He calls out to you and says goodbye. “Good seeing you!”
“See you around!” you wave at Jun as he steps out.
That leaves just you, Jihoon, and a pile of leftover wings.
“Should I put these in the same container?” you ask, already reaching for a zip bag from one of the kitchen drawers.
Jihoon calls over his shoulder, dragging a trash bag toward the door. “Nah, leave it. It’s late. Go home.”
You scrape the leftovers into a bag anyway and tuck it into the fridge before turning to the overflowing recycling bin.
“I’m almost done,” you say, tying the bag closed and lifting it. “Just have to—hey!”
Your hands collide when he tries to snatch the bag from you.
“I said, leave it,” he teases.
You clutch it tighter. “This is literally the last thing, then I’ll go home, I promise!”
“No, let go,” he says, attempting to keep a straight face.
“Or what?” You arch a brow.
He steps closer, his scent overwhelming you again. He drops his voice, narrowing his eyes at you. “Don’t test me.”
You hold your ground. The silence buzzes, with that same electricity you’ve been trying to ignore all night. Then his gaze drops to your mouth.
You take it as an opening, snatching the bag, and turning away triumphantly. “Hah!”
But you don’t make it far before his hands catch your waist, grounding you mid-stride. Your breath hitches at the contact.
“Told you not to test me.” His voice turns dangerously low.
You twist in his grip just enough to meet his gaze. “So what, you gonna wrestle me for it?”
The corner of his mouth quirk. “Do you want me to?” He’s teasing, but not really.
The flame in the base of your belly ignites. You let the bag fall to the floor with a quiet thud, suddenly forgotten.
“Okay, chill out,” you say, lightly, trying to cut through the tension. “Are you just salty about the game?”
Jihoon doesn’t answer right away. He pulls you in closer, his breath grazing your ear. “I’m not thinking about the game.”
Your stomach tightens. Every inch of space between you feels charged.
“Do you wanna stay over?” His offer is careful and sincere. No pressure, but no pretense, either.
“I thought you wanted me to go home?”
“I did,” he keeps his voice steady. “But now I changed my mind.”
It would be so easy to give in. To let the moment swallow you whole again. But something inside holds you back. Something more urgent than the ache pooling between your legs.
You take a breath, searching for the right place to begin. “I don’t want to kill the mood but… we need to talk.”
Jihoon steps back slightly, his hands loosening from your waist. “Sorry,” he says. “I got carried away.”
You catch his wrist before he can retreat further. “No, don’t.”
He regards you intently, waiting for what you'll say next.
“I think…” Your words are stuck behind nerves, but you push through. “I think I’m having a change of heart. About all this.” You motion vaguely between you.
A flicker of confusion crosses his face. “So you mean, you don’t want to—”
“No, no!” you say quickly. “I do. Believe me—I really, really do. And that’s the problem.”
His lips quirk in amusement.
You exhale, heart hammering beneath your chest. “I’m just…I’m just scared that this is headed towards something casual. Then eventually, nowhere. And before you know it, it’s nothing.”
He’s quiet for a beat. Then his expression softens. “It doesn’t have to be.”
“But what if—?”
“It doesn’t have to be nothing.” He steps closer again, not crowding you, but just closing the distance. “You set boundaries, and I respected them. I still do. But I haven’t stopped thinking about you.”
You search his face for any trace of sarcasm or deflection, the armor he usually wears when things start getting too deep. You see none of that. It is just him. Frank and open, as he's always been throughout your entire friendship.
“I didn’t know if you’d feel the same, so I gave you space. I focused on work. Tried to distract myself. But… none of it worked.”
The memory creeps in—waking up next to him, tangled in your sheets, his fingers gliding along the slope of your shoulder like he was memorizing a page he’d never get to read again. You told yourself it was a one-time thing. A fluke. Fun and harmless.
But the moment you parted ways that morning, you knew better. Something had shifted. From then on, seeing him as ‘just a friend’ felt like a lie you couldn’t keep telling yourself.
“I was scared to mess it up,” you admit. “You’re one of the good ones and I didn’t want to complicate what we have.”
“I think it’s a little too late for that,” he replies wryly.
You peer up at him, his smile is faint yet affectionate.
He lifts a hand, brushing a strand of hair away from your face. “I just couldn’t forget any of it. Especially…” His thumb lingers beneath your lower lip. “The sounds you made. The way you felt. Tasted.” His voice drops with each word until it is barely a breath.
“Sounds like you needed a full memory reset,” you say, pulse racing.
Jihoon’s eyes lock with yours, his lips hovering near your mouth.
“Or maybe…” he counters, “I needed a refresher.”
Your eyes lock with his, and the hunger there is unmistakable. The smirk tugging at his lips tells you he knows you want this just as badly.
“Didn’t I tell you to quit staring at me like that?”
He tilts his head in mock innocence. “Oops. Guess I managed to block one thing from my memory.”
Your laugh tumbles out before you can stop it, with his following right after, melting some of the tension.
“So does this mean,” you ask quietly, “we can stop pretending?”
“I never pretended,” he says. “I was just waiting. Hoping you’d come around eventually.”
You smile, fingers reaching up to trace his jawline. “Guess I must have really tested your patience, huh?”
Distracted by your touch, he doesn’t answer right away. His hand flexes at your waist, eyes darkening again.
“Even now,” he murmurs, “you’re still testing it.”
You rest your palm on his chest, brushing your nose against his.
He curses under his breath, eyes fluttering shut. “Please,” he says, voice rough with restraint.
Your smile curves mischievously. Your fingers drift beneath his hoodie, skimming over the skin above his waistband.
“Please what?” you purr.
The groan he lets out is raw and tortured. There’s no posturing and his pride is out the window. If you told him to drop to his knees, he would.
“Jihoon?” you whisper, unsure if he’s still with you. You dart your tongue out and lick his bottom lip to reel him back.
His eyes snap open, pupils blown wide with arousal. His fingers dig into your hips, hard enough to bruise. The pain is delicious.
“Please... I need you. Let me fuck you,” he pleads.
A slow, cocky smile tugs at your lips—then you pull him in, kissing him hard.
Your kisses are frantic, teeth clashing. His hands slide up your back, pulling you close like he’s about to consume you. It’s messy. Addictive. Overwhelmed with want after holding back for so long.
He breaks away, trailing his lips down your jaw, your throat. You tilt your head, giving him more access.
He groans your name as he sucks at your pulse point. And God, hearing him say it like that? You’re done for.
Every filthy thought he’s tried to suppress—the sounds of your moans, the feel of your body, your taste—it’s all happening, now. In real time. And he’s ready to revel in every second of it.
Your hand slips past his waistband. Your fingers wrap around his cock, and begin to stroke. He freezes mid-kiss, moaning into your mouth.
With a low growl rumbling from his chest, he pulls your neck closer, kissing you harder. His hands roving over your body. You grind against the thick length straining under his pants, both of you dizzy with need.
You fumble with his bottoms, but he grabs your hands, tugging you toward his room. You both stumble on your way there, laughing.
You strip each other’s clothes off between kisses. He lowers you onto his bed, mouth hot against your neck. He slides down to the swell of your breasts, sucking bruises into the soft flesh as he slips your bottoms down your legs.
Your fingers rake over his scalp. You’re briefly caught off-guard by how different it feels now that his hair was much shorter. He moves up to kiss you again, and you push up on your elbows, trying to flip him over so you can be on top. But he rolls you onto your side instead, your back pulled firmly against his chest.
He spreads your thighs with ease, tucking it under his leg, and finds your cleft. His fingers massages your folds, keeping your mouth sealed with his own as he teases you mercilessly. You moan into his mouth as he slips two fingers inside, then drags them out slowly to coat you with your own slick.
“Is this what you want?”
Your jaw goes slack, and all you can manage is a whine.
“You like hearing me beg like that?”
You try to respond, but his fingers thrust in deep again, and your words fade into a gasp.
Then he pulls out again. And again.
Each time leaves you more frenzied, more desperate. He’s punishing you, and you’re loving every second of it.
“Don’t think. Just feel,” he whispers in your ear—the same words he used that first night, when he took his time, coaxing you gently toward your orgasm, savoring every moment it took to unravel you.
“Yes…keep going,” you pant.
It turns him on, how easily you come undone for him. You feel it in the way he holds you, attuned to every flinch, every hitch in your breath—chasing each reaction like a reward. Every touch spurs him on, to find what else will make you scream out his name.
“God, you’re so fucking wet. Why is that?” he teases.
“It’s you,” you breathe. “It’s always you.”
“You like it when I make you feel good?”
You nod, too consumed by pleasure to form words. He doesn’t let up—keeps dragging it out, keeping you teetering right on the edge, only to pull you back again and again, until it’s almost unbearable.
“Let me come. Please.”
He chuckles low, smug. “Since you asked so nicely…”
No more teasing. His rhythm shifts, fingers plunging faster, deeper—giving you exactly what you begged for.
“I’m close!”
“I know. I can feel it.”
Amazing, how that one night was enough for him to familiarize himself with how your body worked—which he’s happy to take full advantage of.
Finally, everything in you snaps. Your climax crashes over you in waves. You cry out hoarsely, clawing at the sheets as your body shudders.
You’ve barely caught your breath when he leans in your ear.
“You want me inside?”
In an instant, your whole body tenses again with need.
“Yes,” you whisper. “Please.”
“Mm-mm,” he tuts. “I don’t think you’re ready for me yet.”
He pulls away and your core clenches at the emptiness. He stretches out lazily on the mattress, a hand reaching for you.
“I want you to sit on my face.”
You slow-blink. “What?” It’s not that you didn’t hear. It was more of a knee-jerk reaction than anything.
“I know you heard me. C’mere.” He grabs your hand, pulling you toward him, sending another wave of arousal through you. You climb over him, thighs shaking. Slowly, you lower yourself onto his mouth.
The groan he lets out when his tongue finds your clit is diabolical.
“Jihoon—fuck—” You gasp, your body trembling from the pleasure. Within moments, you’re reaching for the headboard, steadying yourself.
He grips your legs tighter as he licks and sucks greedily. You rock your hips in slow, deliberate drags against his relentless mouth. Desperate for friction, moaning his name over and over.
His lips wrap around your clit again, and he sucks deeply. Your thighs tighten around his head.
“Oh my god—don’t stop…”
He doesn’t stop. He keeps at it until your release tears through you again. It’s a slower build than the first, but so much more intense. It shatters to pieces on a whole different level.
Legs shaking, you slide off him, collapsing at his side.
“Holy shit,” you choke out breathlessly.
“I could do that all day.” He wipes his mouth, still covered in your arousal, his cock painfully hard. He catches you staring at it.
“I’d very much like to return the favor.”
“You can repay me by coming all over my dick,” his voice strains. “I need to be inside you.”
When you nod, he reaches toward the nightstand, and grabs a foil packet.
“Lay back.”
You do as you’re told. He looms over you, settling between your thighs, one arm braced beside your head. His face hovers just above yours, and brushes his lips over your temple.
“So beautiful,” he whispers.
Warmth blooms in your chest. The kiss that follows is deep and slow. Reverent, even. His tongue brushing yours, gentle and coaxing.
He nudges your thighs open, then pushes into you—inch by inch, taking his time. You gasp, arching into him. Every thrust hitting you just right, combined with each slide of his lips makes you fall deeper.
“I missed this,” he groans, hooking your leg around his waist to get in deeper. “You ever touch yourself?”
Laughing softly, your cheeks flush. “What do you think?” You roll your hips to meet his thrusts.
He smirks, then pulls out. “This is better though.” And slams back hard into you. “Right?”
“Ah! Yes.”
He picks up the pace, each thrust turning rougher, more desperate. Your bodies crash together in a frenzy—kissing through gasps and moans, keen on chasing that final, blinding rush of pleasure.
“You feel so good. I’m gonna come so hard for you.”
You keep your eyes on him, cradling his jaw, your thumb brushing across his cheek. “Look at me,” you whisper.
And he does—eyes locking with yours, dark and desperate, like he’s hanging on by a thread.
“Come for me.”
Your words undo him. Within moments, he groans your name, hips stuttering as your walls tighten around him. You both cry out, clinging to each other as you unravel together.
For a while, you just lay there quietly—bodies spent, sweat-slicked. The only sound is your shared, uneven breaths and the steady thrum of your hearts still racing.
***********************
The sheets are a mess. Pillows kicked halfway off the bed. Your clothes dangle from the edge in the midst of the chaos. Traces of your post-sex haze still linger in the room, and neither of you is in any hurry to move.
You're lying on your stomach, cheek pressed into the pillow, fighting to keep your eyes open.
Jihoon lies beside you, one arm tucked under his head, the other lazily stroking your bare spine. He’s got a smug, Cheshire-cat grin plastered on his face.
“So… dating still seem like a good idea to you?”
You hum into the pillow, cracking one eye open. “I don’t know if I can seriously commit to someone who can’t even manage to fully undress when we fuck,” you say dryly.
His laugh bursts from his belly, bouncing off his bedroom walls.
“Seriously, what is this?” You gesture at his shirt, still clinging to one shoulder like it gave up halfway through.
“What? I was lost in the moment,” he says between laughs. “And you pushed me to the brink!”
“Oh, so now it’s my fault?”
“You just had to stay and put the fucking chicken wings away!”
You look at him wryly. A beat of quiet stretches between you before it’s broken by soft, easy laughter, your bodies still buzzing with the aftermath.
You sigh, rolling onto your side. “You know you’ve officially ruined casual sex for me, right?”
He scoffs, grinning. “Oh, 100%. You’re done for. Spoiled for life. There’s no turning back after this.”
“Hmm…” You prop yourself up on one elbow, pretending to think. “Guess you’d better stick around, then.”
He brings his face closer, pressing a kiss to your bare shoulder. “Yeah,” he says. “I plan to.”
Your heart aches in the best way. His lips find yours, and you surrender to the moment. He eases you down, arms drawing you close until your bodies meld again.
Whatever this is, it feels right—like the pull of gravity. And that’s not just a feeling. It’s science.
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Genre: Conglomerate au! Heirs au! Marriage Contract au!
Type: fluff, humour, slow-burn, smut (mdni!)
Word Count: 18k
Summary: Ignoring all the red signs, what started as a friendship blossomed into something Jeonghan never expected. He'll marry you? No way! Right?
It was Saturday night. Jeonghan had just wrapped up drinks with his friends and stumbled through the door close to 1 a.m. With the grace of a man on autopilot, he showered, slipped into his pajamas, and flopped onto his bed, already picturing a peaceful descent into sleep.
That peace lasted all of three minutes. As he casually checked his email—just to pretend he was a responsible adult—his phone lit up with a familiar name. Your name.
He blinked. Once. Twice. What now? he thought, already sobering up just from the possibilities. He swiped up with a sigh and answered the call.
"Hmm, what's up?"
“I'm sorry to call this late, Mr. Yoon, but Doctor Ji is very, very drunk right now—and none of us know where she lives.” The voice on the other end was one of the residents, clearly panicked, with the chaotic background noise of laughter, clinking glasses, and someone yelling about karaoke.
Jeonghan stared at his ceiling, jaw slack. “You’ve got to be kidding me.”
He pinched the bridge of his nose, then muttered to himself, “What kind of doctor gets drunk before the residents do?”
He could already feel a headache forming—not from the alcohol, but from the sheer absurdity of the situation. Nevertheless, he dragged himself upright and asked, “Where is she? Text me the address. I’ll pick her up.”
As soon as the call ended, he stood up from his bed with the dramatic flair of a man who’d just been betrayed by the universe. Again. He trudged into his closet like a soldier going to war.
“It hasn’t even been an hour since I got home,” he grumbled while throwing on a hoodie. “And now I have to babysit this disaster of a genius.” He paused, briefly considering calling for backup, he can’t be alone.
“Why don’t you go there alone?” Seungcheol grumbled, slouched in the passenger seat like a sack of regret, his eyes barely open, hair pointing in every direction.
Jeonghan didn’t even glance at him as he started the engine. “Because you’re the only one who can carry her without dislocating something. She went full spaghetti mode, apparently.”
Seungcheol let out a long, tortured groan, dragging his palm down his face like he was trying to erase himself. “I was asleep, Jeonghan. Deep, peaceful sleep. Like dead-to-the-world sleep. You dragged me.”
“You were snoring like a truck,” Jeonghan said flatly. “You needed the break.”
“I was asleep for forty minutes!”
“Exactly. Power nap. You’re welcome.”
Seungcheol shot him a side glare, but it was hard to be intimidating when he still had pillow creases on his cheek and was clutching a bottle of water like a lifeline. Jeonghan smirked as he turned the corner. “Come on. It’ll be fun. Like a surprise field trip, but worse.”
“God,” Seungcheol muttered, leaning his head against the window, eyes still half-closed. “This better be the last time your friend gets wasted on a Saturday night.”
“She’s your friend too,” Jeonghan shot back, eyes fixed on the road. Seungcheol nodded solemnly, resting his temple on the cool glass. “And every time this kind of thing happens, I regret that fact deeply.”
It had always been the three of you—Jeonghan, Seungcheol, and you—since junior high. The kind of trio fate stitched together because your parents were business acquaintances who ended up liking each other enough to start arranging awkward family dinners. None of you particularly cared what the grown-ups did, but somehow, you stuck together anyway.
Jeonghan’s family owned a sprawling property empire—buildings, department stores, hotels—you name it. He was groomed from birth to take the reins, and it showed. By college, he was already studying business with laser focus, juggling classes and internships at his grandfather’s company. The strange part? He actually enjoyed it.
Seungcheol, on the other hand, came from a construction family. He’d been on-site since his teens, wearing hard hats and acting like he knew what rebar was. Unlike Jeonghan, he wasn’t the eldest son, so the pressure wasn’t as intense. His older brother was the heir to the business empire. Seungcheol? He was more like the wildcard—half working man, half professional napper.
And then there was you. The doctor of the group. Your family ran hospitals, dabbled in healthcare business and insurance, and made sure everyone had a checkup whether they liked it or not. You were the brainiac—dedicated, overachieving, caffeine-fueled and sleepless. Safe to say, you were the smartest, most disciplined, and most respected member of the trio.
Until alcohol entered the chat.
“Let’s go to the unicorn world! I’m flying, I’m flying!” you had squealed, arms spread out like wings, as you practically pirouetted across the party. Jeonghan could’ve melted into the floor from sheer secondhand embarrassment. He bowed to every stunned resident in the room, murmuring apologies on your behalf like a PR intern during a scandal. You had originally told him about the gathering. Said you wouldn’t come. That you didn’t want to intrude on the younger residents’ night off. That you needed rest. Clearly, that plan had gone off the rails somewhere between the tequila shots and the glittery karaoke mic.
Seungcheol looked like a man betrayed by both fate and gravity as he crouched down and hoisted your limp, giggling self onto his back. “Why does she keep saying lollipops?” he grunted, adjusting your deadweight on his back like a dad carrying a sleep-paralysis demon.
Jeonghan tried not to laugh. “Maybe it’s a metaphor.”
“I want rainbow lollipops for my unicorn friends!” you declared joyfully, as if this were a medical order. Seungcheol’s face looked like he aged ten years. “She’s a whole doctor,” he mumbled. “With a license. Who let this happen?”
He maneuvered you into the backseat with the delicacy of someone defusing a bomb, while you hummed a melody only you understood. Jeonghan got behind the wheel with a sigh that carried the weight of several lifetimes. “We’re getting too old for this.”
“And too sober,” Seungcheol muttered, rubbing his temple.
Jeonghan glanced at you through the rearview mirror. You were smiling at the ceiling, whispering something about glitter. Somehow, this was still better than paperwork.
*
You woke up to a splitting headache and the unpleasant dryness in your mouth that only came from a long night of drinking. The ceiling above you wasn’t familiar—it was too neat, too modern, too... Jeonghan. You blinked slowly, trying to piece together how you had ended up here.
Turning your head, you noticed the soft navy sheets and the glass of water placed neatly on the bedside table. Beside it was a strip of painkillers and a small folded note. You reached for it with heavy limbs and unfolded it.
“You owe me. Water and meds provided. – YJ”
A sigh escaped your lips as you sat up, every movement making your head throb. The memories returned in fragments—bright lights, the sound of laughter, someone shouting something about unicorns—which you were that someone. Then Jeonghan’s voice, steady and annoyed, telling someone to get the door. Seungcheol’s back. Your shoes. You winced. Dragging yourself out of bed, you made your way slowly into the hallway, guided by the faint smell of toasted bread. The apartment was quiet, bathed in the soft gray light of the overcast morning. You passed by the minimalist decor—clean lines, neutral tones, everything in its place. Jeonghan’s taste had always been meticulous.
In the kitchen, Jeonghan stood by the counter, coffee mug in hand, scrolling through his phone. He looked up at the sound of your steps. “You’re up,” he said, voice calm, though his eyes lingered on you like he was assessing whether you could still walk straight. “There’s toast. Sit.”
You nodded silently and lowered yourself into the chair, still trying to sort out where the nausea ended and the shame began. He slid a plate toward you and turned back to pour more coffee. The kettle clicked in the background, the only sound filling the space between you. You picked at the toast, avoiding his eyes, though you could feel his presence—calm, composed, and, somehow, not entirely annoyed despite everything.
“Thanks,” you finally murmured.
Jeonghan took a sip of his coffee. “Don’t mention it. Just remind me to never trust you when you say you’re ‘just going to rest tonight.’”
You gave a quiet hum in response, unsure of what else to say. Your head still pounded, and your stomach twisted at the thought of facing the residents again. But for now, in the quiet of Jeonghan’s kitchen, you allowed yourself to breathe.
“Seungcheol’s going to kill you the next time you make him visit a site without sleep,” Jeonghan said casually, taking another sip of his coffee.
You groaned, just imagining the wrath that would follow. “Why’d you bring him anyway?”
Jeonghan raised an eyebrow at you. “Because you’re heavy.”
You shot him a flat look. “That’s insulting.”
He shrugged, completely unfazed. “It’s just the truth. I wasn’t about to throw out my back for your drunken acrobatics.”
You pressed your palm against your forehead, partly because of the headache, mostly to hide your embarrassment. “I can’t believe I drank so much…”
Jeonghan leaned against the counter, arms crossed now, looking far too composed for someone who had hauled your half-conscious self home just hours ago. “You know I had to bow to your residents, right?” he said, voice dry with lingering disbelief.
You blinked up at him, wincing. “Like… say sorry?”
“No. Bow,” he emphasized, straightening his back before dramatically mimicking a deep, ninety-degree angle. “Full. Respectful. Formal. Like I’d committed a crime on behalf of my drunk accomplice.”
You covered your face with both hands, letting out a muffled groan. “God, no…”
“Oh yes,” he nodded solemnly. “You stood on a chair at one point and yelled, ‘Let’s go to the unicorn world!’ before asking a confused intern if he believed in candy rain.”
You let your forehead fall to the table.
“I had no choice,” he went on. “I bowed so deeply, I think I pulled something in my spine. Your future underlings now think I’m your guardian, therapist, or some combination of the two.”
You peeked up at him through your fingers. “Are you done humiliating me yet?”
He smiled, a little too satisfied. “Just making sure you know the price of your glitter-filled delusions.”
You groaned again and reached for your coffee. “I’m never drinking again.”
“Good,” he said, already walking away. “I’ll print that on a shirt for the next time you forget.”
*
The last time Jeonghan and Seungcheol had seen you cry was years ago—on a bleak afternoon neither of them ever forgot. It was ten minutes before the next class. Seungcheol had been looking for you, clutching a half-finished math worksheet in one hand, fully intending to beg for your help. He spotted you slipping into the restroom and figured you’d be out in a minute or two. But time stretched. One minute became five. Five became ten. You still hadn’t come out. Jeonghan showed up just then, sweaty from football practice, jersey clinging to him, his forehead glistening. He slowed when he noticed Seungcheol standing awkwardly near the entrance to the girls’ restroom.
“Why are you here?” Jeonghan asked, eyeing Seungcheol suspiciously, brows drawn together. “You better not be turning into some creep.”
Seungcheol scoffed, waving the math sheet. “Y/n’s in there. I need her help before class, but she’s been inside too long.”
Jeonghan was about to make a smart remark when the door swung open.
And that’s when they saw it.
You stumbled out of the restroom, pushed by a group of girls who scattered the moment the hallway came into view. You hit the floor hard, your knees scraping the tile. Egg yolk ran down your hair, staining the collar of your uniform. The shell fragments clung to your shoulders. You didn’t even look up. Your fingers trembled as they gripped the edge of your skirt, your shoulders shaking as silent sobs began to rise.
For a second, the hallway froze.
Seungcheol’s face twisted in disbelief—then fury. His voice roared through the corridor, echoing off the walls like a thunderclap. “HEY!” The rage in his tone sent students scattering, teachers peeking from classrooms. You could almost feel the walls tremble from the force of it. Jeonghan, quicker on his feet, rushed toward you. Without saying a word, he crouched down and gently reached for your arm, helping you up with a firm but careful grip.
Teachers began rushing over, alerted by the commotion and Seungcheol’s outburst. A crowd formed, but the two boys stayed focused only on you. While the staff tried to piece together what had happened, Jeonghan and Seungcheol quietly helped you clean yourself up. Jeonghan gently patted the egg out of your hair with tissues someone had handed him, his jaw tight, eyes lowered in uncharacteristic silence. Seungcheol stood close, arms crossed tightly over his chest, his foot tapping in agitation as he watched the teachers murmur among themselves.
“Tell us,” Seungcheol said finally, his voice low but heavy with restrained anger. “What did they do to you… all this time?”
You hesitated, still trembling, your hands fidgeting with the edge of your sleeve.
“That’s okay,” Jeonghan added, softer this time. He crouched slightly, bringing himself to eye level with you. “You can tell us. We’re here.”
You looked between the two of them—their faces, so familiar, so fiercely protective—and something cracked inside your chest. The tears spilled faster now, your voice shaking as you whispered:
“They said I didn’t deserve to be friends with you two.”
The words hung in the air like something sharp and cold.
“They said… girls like me don’t belong around guys like you.”
Jeonghan’s hands froze. Seungcheol’s face twisted in disbelief and rage, his knuckles going white as he clenched his fists.
“So they did all this to you… because of us?” Jeonghan muttered, his tone laced with guilt and disbelief.
You nodded, tears still rolling down your cheeks, and Jeonghan swallowed hard, brushing a piece of hair from your face. “I’m so sorry.”
Seungcheol took a step back, pacing now, muttering curses under his breath before spinning to face the teachers. “You heard her, right? Are you going to do something or do we handle this ourselves?”
The teachers quickly moved to disperse the crowd and collect statements, while Jeonghan stayed beside you, gently guiding you toward the nurse’s office again.
From that day on, it wasn’t just protection they offered.
It was loyalty. And a silent promise: no one would ever hurt you again—not while they were around.
And they hadn’t seen you cry ever since.
It was a quiet testament to your strength. Through the sleepless nights of medical school, grueling exams, endless shifts, and the burden of responsibility that came with being a doctor—you carried it all with a calm, composed grace. Even when things got hard, you wore your tired smile like armor.
Jeonghan and Seungcheol, as tough as they liked to act, had both cried in front of you more than once—Jeonghan when he lost his dog, Seungcheol after his first failed business pitch. You were the one who listened, the one who stayed solid while they fell apart. But you never let them see you break.
Not until the day Jeonghan received the call: your mother had passed away.
He’d just stepped out of a late meeting when his phone buzzed with the news. For a moment, the world stood still. He didn’t even think—he just grabbed his keys and drove, breaking every speed limit until the hospital’s tall white building came into view.
Your family hospital.
He rushed in through the emergency entrance, eyes scanning frantically. That was when he saw Seungcheol—already there, crouched in front of a figure slumped on the bench outside the ICU.
You.
Still in your hospital coat, hands limp in your lap, eyes staring into nothing. The lights above cast a pale glow on your face, and even from a distance, Jeonghan could see how hollow your expression was. You looked like someone who had forgotten how to breathe.
Seungcheol gently held your wrist, whispering something, his brows drawn in pain.
Jeonghan approached slowly, like something sacred had cracked in the room and he didn’t want to shatter it further. His throat tightened at the sight. You, the strongest one among them, looked so small.
And for the first time since high school, he saw your tears again. Silent, slow, like they had been waiting years to fall.
*
The funeral had gone by quietly, solemn and dignified—just the way your mother would have wanted. You hadn’t spoken much, but Jeonghan and Seungcheol stayed by your side the entire time, like silent shadows that grounded you when everything else felt like air. Afterward, the three of you got into Jeonghan’s car and drove in silence toward your family home. The atmosphere was heavy, as if the car itself understood the weight of where you were headed. A meeting had been scheduled with your mother’s lawyer—an urgent, important matter concerning her will.
Your mother hadn’t just been the heart of your family; she was also the true pillar behind the hospital’s legacy. While your father held the position of director, it was your mother who built it from the ground up—brick by brick, department by department. Her name was the one that opened doors, earned respect, and kept the hospital’s vision alive.
And now, she is gone.
Two days later, Seungcheol stopped by Jeonghan’s office early in the morning, still in his work clothes after a visit to the construction site. His shoulders looked unusually stiff, his expression unreadable as he sank into the couch with a quiet sigh. He didn’t say anything at first, just sat there like a man lost in thought.
Jeonghan, watching from behind his desk, narrowed his eyes. “Say it,” he urged, standing and making his way to the seat across from Seungcheol.
Seungcheol finally looked up, brow furrowed like he was still trying to wrap his head around it. “Y/n called me this morning.”
Jeonghan tilted his head slightly, already sensing this wasn’t just a casual update.
“It was about her mother’s inheritance,” Seungcheol said slowly. “She’s not getting any money. No property. Nothing.”
Jeonghan’s eyebrows shot up in disbelief. “What? But she’s the only one following in her mother’s footsteps. She works in healthcare. She’s the most qualified out of everyone.”
Seungcheol nodded, eyes still distant. “Exactly. But the lawyer said she’ll inherit the hospital—not the money, not the land—only the hospital.”
Jeonghan leaned back, frowning. “That’s not bad, though.”
Seungcheol lifted a hand. “There’s a catch.”
Jeonghan stared at him, already bracing for it.
“She can only inherit the hospital if she gets married.”
Jeonghan blinked. “Excuse me?”
“And…” Seungcheol hesitated for a second longer. “She asked me to marry her.”
That snapped Jeonghan upright. “What?”
His voice was louder than he expected, heart thudding as the words echoed in the room. Seungcheol just stared back at him, not saying a word. He let out a long breath, leaning forward with his elbows on his knees, palms rubbing together as if the friction might help him make sense of it all.
“I want to help her, of course I do,” he said quietly. “She’s my best friend. You know that. She’s like the sister I never had.”
Jeonghan stayed still, eyes narrowing slightly.
Seungcheol went on, voice heavy with sincerity. “If it was just about signing papers or pretending in front of the board, I’d do it in a heartbeat. But this isn’t just some temporary fix. It’s marriage. And I’m not ready for that—not emotionally, not mentally. I’d end up hurting her, and she doesn’t deserve that.”
His fingers curled into fists for a moment before he looked up again, meeting Jeonghan’s gaze.
“That’s why I suggested your name.”
Silence settled in the room like a weight. Jeonghan’s eyes flickered with something unreadable—shock, maybe, or something more complicated.
“You,” Seungcheol said slowly, “understand her better than anyone. You’ve seen her at her lowest, at her best. And I know—no matter how you act—you care about her deeply.”
Jeonghan didn’t respond right away. He stared at Seungcheol like he had just been pushed off a cliff and was still waiting to hit the ground.
Jeonghan blinked slowly, then scoffed—loudly. He leaned back against the couch, crossed one leg over the other, and stared at Seungcheol like he’d just confessed to selling his soul for bubblegum.
“You’re stupid,” he finally said, his tone half in disbelief, half in frustration. “That’s your solution? Throwing your other friend under the bus?”
Seungcheol frowned. “I’m not throwing you—”
“Yes, you are!” Jeonghan snapped, pointing at him. “You get hit with a hard question and suddenly, ‘Oh! Let’s sacrifice Jeonghan! He can take it!’ What am I? The neighborhood rescue dog?”
“You make it sound worse than it is,” Seungcheol muttered.
“It is worse than it is!” Jeonghan stood up and paced a few steps, dragging a hand through his hair. “Do you think this is a joke? Marriage? With Y/n? She’s not just anyone. This is her life. Her grief. Her mother’s legacy.”
Seungcheol looked down at his hands, quiet for a beat. “That’s exactly why I thought of you.”
Jeonghan turned to him, still fuming.
“You're the only one who won't hurt her. Even when you're pissed, you take care of her. You’re the only one who can handle her breakdowns, her sarcasm, her late-night hospital shifts. You’ve already been doing it for years. This wouldn’t even be a stretch.”
Jeonghan paused. The silence that followed wasn’t light—it hung in the air like the stillness before a storm. “You’re not wrong,” he finally said, his voice low. “But don’t ever decide for me again.”
Seungcheol met his eyes, apologetic.
“So,” Jeonghan said, almost like a challenge, “did she say anything else?”
“She asked if it was a dumb idea,” Seungcheol answered, faintly smiling. “I told her it was—but that if anyone could turn a dumb idea into something real, it’d be you.”
Jeonghan let out a quiet, mirthless laugh. “You’re so lucky I don’t punch you for sport.”
“You love me.”
“Unfortunately.”
Jeonghan stood by the window of his office, arms folded, his eyes locked on the city skyline, though his thoughts were far from the view.
“I’m not going to marry her,” he said flatly, his voice devoid of hesitation.
Seungcheol blinked, stunned. “What?”
“I said I’m not going to marry Y/n.” Jeonghan turned around, walking back to his desk with deliberate steps. “I’ve never seen her that way. Not once. She’s my friend. She’s like… like a teammate I’ve been stuck in the same chaotic group project with since we were twelve.”
Seungcheol frowned. “Jeonghan—”
“I don’t see her as a woman,” Jeonghan said, firmer now. “Not in that sense. She’s Y/n. She’s the one who used to eat her lunch with gloves on because she didn’t want to smudge her notes. She’s the one who screamed at me for skipping class but once stole hospital scrubs just to sneak me in when I twisted my ankle.”
He let out a breath, quieter. “She’s family, Cheol. And I don’t marry family.”
Seungcheol leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. “But family is the reason she’s doing this. You know her—she won’t marry for love, not now. She just wants to protect the hospital.”
“And I get that,” Jeonghan nodded, gaze hard. “But she deserves someone who will at least try to see her differently. Someone who won’t just treat it like a task. If she marries me, she’ll never get that.”
There was a brief silence. A mature one. Heavy.
“…So what are you going to do?” Seungcheol asked.
Jeonghan exhaled. “I’ll talk to her. But I’m not going to lie and pretend I can be that person.”
*
Jeonghan woke with a pounding headache, the weight of last night's whiskey still pressing against his skull. The faint hum of the hotel’s air conditioner and the filtered morning light slipping through the curtains made him squint. He rubbed at his eyes and let out a low groan, slowly sitting up. His head throbbed harder when he took in the room—still the executive suite at his family’s hotel, where he’d had a meeting yesterday. The same place where he’d waited for you after your hospital shift, sipping on whiskey in the private lounge while the hours bled together in blurred conversation and laughter.
Bottles—empty, half-empty, forgotten—lined the table and nightstand like silent witnesses. Jackets were slung across a chair, shoes scattered in odd places. He recognized his own watch on the floor, next to a trail of clothes that didn’t belong solely to him. And then, instinctively, his eyes drifted to the side—his breath caught.
You were there. Curled up under the duvet, sleeping deeply, hair a mess, bare shoulders exposed. His eyes dropped lower and quickly darted away. The pounding in his head was now joined by a growing pit in his stomach. He glanced down at himself—also bare under the sheets.
Jeonghan froze, every nerve in his body suddenly alert despite the hangover. His brain scrambled, trying to piece together the end of last night. The drinks. The conversation. Your tired laugh. Your hands brushing his when you reached for the bottle. A kiss. God—there was a kiss. Then—
“Shit.”
He dragged a hand down his face and leaned back against the headboard, staring at the ceiling. He didn’t remember the details, but he remembered enough.
This was supposed to be a conversation about the hospital. About you, asking him if there was any way to make things work.
It wasn’t supposed to end like this.
“Y/n,” he muttered quietly, as if saying your name would make you stir, so he could ask what the hell happened—or maybe apologize before either of you remembered it all too clearly.
But you didn’t move. You were still peacefully asleep, unaware of the chaos swirling in his mind. And Jeonghan could already feel the fallout coming like a wave.
You stirred with a faint groan, blinking at the ceiling. Your head felt heavy, your mouth dry, and for a moment, you couldn't quite remember where you were. The bedding was softer than your own, and the faint scent of Jeonghan’s cologne lingered in the room.
Then you turned your head.
Your gaze met his. Eyes wide. His were already on you—equally frozen.
You blinked again. Slowly sat up. Felt the cold air on your bare shoulders. Glanced down. Sheets. Your breath caught in your throat.
“Wait—” you started, pulling the blanket tighter around your body as panic registered in your eyes. “No. No, no, no—”
Jeonghan shifted upright too, the sheets crumpling over his lap as he sat against the headboard, just as stunned.
“I—I don’t—” You struggled to speak, grabbing your phone off the nightstand like it could explain what had happened, but it only showed missed messages and your alarm.
You looked back at him, mortified. “Did we…? We didn’t…?”
Jeonghan didn’t answer right away. His jaw clenched slightly, eyes flickering to the bottles on the nightstand, then to your flushed and confused face. “I think we did.”
You stared at him, heart hammering in your chest. “Oh my God.” Your voice cracked as the memory fragments came rushing in—your shift ending late, Jeonghan waiting for you with drinks, your frustration spilling out in emotional rambling, the comfort, the nearness… the way you let your guard down.
And then—nothing. Just heat, blurred kisses, and now this.
“I don’t remember,” you whispered.
“Me neither,” Jeonghan admitted, rubbing his temple with one hand, eyes falling shut in disbelief.
Silence stretched between you, loud and suffocating.
Then you exhaled shakily and muttered, “We’re screwed.”
Jeonghan didn’t disagree.
The tension in the room crackled as you both scrambled to collect your clothes, the sheets tangling and slipping with every sudden movement. Jeonghan cursed under his breath as he checked the time on his phone. “Shit. I’m late.”
You were already half-dressed, pulling your blouse over your head with trembling fingers. “I need to go home before anyone notices I’m not back.”
Jeonghan hopped awkwardly on one foot as he tried to tug his pants on, his shirt still unbuttoned, hair a mess. “This didn’t happen. Okay?”
You glanced at him, eyes wide. “It happened.”
“Yeah, but—” He buttoned his shirt wrong and huffed. “We don’t remember it.”
“Exactly,” you nodded, slipping your shoes on. “We don’t remember. So technically, it’s like it didn’t happen.”
“Just one night,” he muttered, running a hand through his hair and grabbing his keys.
“One mistake,” you replied without thinking, then paused. “I mean—just a slip. We were drunk.”
“Super drunk,” Jeonghan agreed quickly.
You met his eyes for a second too long. And then both of you looked away, awkwardly clearing your throats.
“Let’s never talk about it,” you said as you reached for the door.
“Never,” Jeonghan echoed, already stuffing papers into his bag like a man fleeing a crime scene.
You stepped out first, your heart still racing. Jeonghan followed a few seconds later, closing the hotel room door behind him with a click. Neither of you looked back.
*
“So how did the talk go?” Seungcheol’s voice rang casually through the phone as you stepped into your apartment, the door clicking shut behind you.
Your eyes caught your reflection in the mirror by the entryway—tired eyes, tousled hair, and—
Oh God.
Your hand instinctively flew to your collarbone, fingers brushing over the unmistakable marks scattered along your skin, trailing up to your neck. Hickeys. Bold, undeniable evidence of something you had no memory of.
“It went... well,” you replied, voice a little too high, a little too unsure.
“Yeah?” Seungcheol sounded genuinely hopeful. “So… did he agree?”
Your heart thudded. Did Jeonghan agree to marry me? You remembered he had said no—clear, direct. But after that? Your memory was a blur of golden lights, his glass of whiskey in your hand, his laugh, your boldness, the heat—
You cleared your throat, forcing yourself to stay calm. “We were just talking, you know…” you said slowly, choosing each word like it was a landmine. “The conversation didn’t really get to a yes or no. We got distracted. Talked about other things.”
Technically not a lie. Just… not the whole truth.
“Still,” Seungcheol continued on the other end of the line, completely unaware of the storm in your chest, “I think Jeonghan would understand you. He’s always treated you well. I mean, out of the two of us, he’s the one who always had more patience with your chaos.”
You let out a nervous laugh, trying to keep your voice from shaking. “Yeah… he did.”
“Just be honest with him,” Seungcheol added, almost gently. “Jeonghan might act like a brat sometimes, but when it comes to you, he’s different. He cares. You know that.”
Your hand tightened around your blouse
And that’s when it happened.
A flash—so quick you almost thought you imagined it.
His hand on your cheek. His lips on yours. The taste of whiskey between you. The slow burn of a kiss that felt nothing like friendship.
You blinked, your fingers going still.
“Y/n? You still there?”
You swallowed hard. “Yeah. Yeah, I’m here.”
But part of you wasn’t. Part of you was still stuck in that hotel room, with the soft memory of Jeonghan's mouth on yours, and the way your heart had almost stopped.
“…he’s always been there for you, Y/n. I just think if there’s anyone who could help you through this, it’s Jeonghan,” Seungcheol said, his voice calm through the receiver.
But his words became a blur as your mind started to slip—like a dam cracking open with every syllable he spoke. You could still feel it. The heat of Jeonghan’s breath against your neck. The way his hands gripped your waist—hesitant at first, then desperate. The sting of your back hitting the cool sheets as he hovered over you, his brows furrowed, pupils blown wide, whispering your name like it meant something new.
Like it was no longer just “Y/n,” his friend.
You bit your lip hard, hoping the physical pain would erase the memory. It didn’t.
“Y/n?” Seungcheol’s voice snapped you back. “You okay?”
“Yeah—yeah, sorry.” You cleared your throat, forcing yourself to focus. “I just… didn’t get much sleep.” Which wasn’t a lie. You hadn’t slept. Not really. Not after the warmth, the weight, and the realization of what you had done with Jeonghan.
And now, you weren’t sure what scared you more—
The fact that it happened or the fact that a part of you… didn’t regret it.
The next time you and Jeonghan crossed paths was on Seungcheol’s birthday.
Unlike the lavish celebrations expected of a conglomerate’s son, Seungcheol never cared for extravagance. Neither did you or Jeonghan. Since high school, birthdays had always been about the same three things: the three of you, some good food, late-night conversations that stretched until dawn, and a morning-after spent groggy on the couch with empty plates scattered around.
You had just finished a long night shift at the hospital, and thankfully, the rest of the day—and tomorrow—was free. You arrived first at Seungcheol’s place, arms full with takeout and a small cake box. The hallway was quiet, the lights dimmed. You punched in the passcode on the door panel—his birthday, reversed, a code that hadn’t changed in years—and stepped into the familiar apartment.
It smelled like wood and faint cologne, the kind Seungcheol always wore when he had meetings. You set the food on the kitchen counter, the soft thump of containers echoing in the stillness. No lights, no music, no sign of the birthday boy yet. You glanced at the time—he and Jeonghan were running late.
You sank into the couch, stretching out your legs and letting the silence settle around you.
It had been two weeks since that night with Jeonghan.
Two weeks since the hotel room, the drinks, the foggy heat of something you still couldn’t fully piece together.
Two weeks of zero contact.
And now, you were here. Waiting.
The digital clock ticked louder than usual, each second dragging a bit more tension with it. You tried not to overthink, tried to focus on anything else—your phone screen, the soft hum of the refrigerator—but your mind kept drifting back to the last time you saw Jeonghan… and the things you didn’t say.
The sound of the door unlocking pulled you from your thoughts. A soft beep, followed by the mechanical click of the passcode panel disengaging. You sat up instinctively, smoothing your hair as footsteps approached.
The door swung open, and there he was—Jeonghan. He paused in the doorway when he saw you, the chill of the hallway air still clinging to his coat. His brows rose slightly, surprise flickering across his face. His hair was pushed back messily, like he’d run his fingers through it a hundred times on the way here.
“…You’re early,” he said slowly, stepping in and shutting the door behind him. “Didn’t expect to see you here first.”
You stood, wiping your palms down your pants out of habit. “I had a night shift. Got off earlier than planned. Figured I’d bring food before you two showed up.”
Jeonghan shrugged off his coat and hung it by the door. “Seungcheol texted. Said he’s caught up in some family business and running late.”
You nodded, the air between you tightening slightly. The silence that followed wasn’t loud, but it was thick—weighted by everything unspoken, everything half-remembered.
Jeonghan walked into the living room, glanced at the table. “You brought japchae?” His voice tried for casual.
“Yeah. And chicken. And that weird yogurt drink Seungcheol likes for no reason.”
Jeonghan smiled faintly and let out a soft, amused breath, the tension momentarily diffused. “You still remember his obsession with that stuff?”
“I wish I didn’t. It haunts me.”
You both let out a low chuckle, but it didn’t last. Jeonghan’s eyes eventually met yours again—this time, slower, more hesitant. Neither of you mentioned the last time you’d seen each other. Not the hotel. Not the drinks. Not the hazy memories.
Not the fact that you hadn’t talked since.
But it lingered anyway.
Just beneath the surface.
Before either of you could say anything else, the familiar beep of the door's passcode rang through the apartment again, followed by the sound of Seungcheol’s voice calling out, “I brought the good stuff!”
You and Jeonghan turned toward the entrance as Seungcheol walked in with a plastic bag in one hand and a bottle of whiskey proudly held in the other. His coat was half off his shoulders, hair slightly tousled from rushing over.
He spotted you both and grinned. “Oh good, both of you made it. Now it feels like my birthday.”
You offered a small smile, grateful for the interruption. “You didn’t have to bring anything.”
“I had to. It’s tradition,” Seungcheol said, setting the bottle down on the table with an exaggerated flourish. “Besides, this one’s aged fifteen years. Older than most of our decisions lately.”
Jeonghan gave a dry chuckle and raised a brow. “Including yours?”
“Especially mine,” Seungcheol smirked before plopping down onto the couch and glancing between the two of you. “So. Are we gonna pretend everything’s normal or do I need to spike your drinks first?”
You sat down beside him while Jeonghan stayed standing, his hands resting in his pockets. The tension hadn’t disappeared. It just moved aside to make room for Seungcheol’s usual way of diffusing it—with humor and whiskey.
*
Seungcheol had long retreated to his room, knocked out cold from the whiskey he insisted on drinking more of than anyone else. The walls of his apartment were thick, thank god—but not thick enough to silence the storm brewing next door.
The atmosphere had shifted the moment his bedroom door closed. You and Jeonghan were left alone in the living room, both pretending to focus on an old movie playing on the screen, but neither of you actually watching. The silence wasn’t comfortable—it was charged, thick with memories neither of you had fully come to terms with.
Your breath hitched when Jeonghan shifted closer, his knee brushing yours on the couch. You turned your head slightly, only to find him already watching you—eyes unreadable, voice low.
“Do you remember anything from that night?” he asked.
You swallowed hard. “Pieces.”
“Same,” he muttered, before pausing. “But I remember how it felt.”
The two of you breathed heavily, the sound echoing in the quiet room. Once. Twice. Then, with a swift motion, he pulled you closer, your arms instinctively wrapping around his neck. His large hands tenderly cradled your cheeks, the warmth of his touch sending a shiver down your spine, before his lips descended onto yours with a fervent intensity.
"Shit... I've been thinking about your lips lately," he murmured, his voice a low, husky whisper that sent tingles through your body.
His other hand found its way to your waist, firm yet gentle, guiding you effortlessly to settle on his lap. The kiss remained unbroken, a seamless blend of passion and longing, as time seemed to stand still around you.
"Seungcheol is in his room," you murmured breathlessly, breaking the kiss that had left you both gasping for air.
"Forget him," Jeonghan replied with a mischievous glint in his eyes. "He's too drunk to notice anything." Without waiting for further protest, he drew you back into a fervent kiss, his lips capturing yours with an urgency that sent shivers down your spine.
In one swift motion, Jeonghan stood up, effortlessly lifting you into his arms. He carried you down the dimly lit hallway to Seungcheol's guest room, nudging the door open with ease. The soft creak of the hinges was barely audible over the sound of your quickened breaths. Gently, he laid you down onto the bed, the sheets cool against your skin. His hands began to explore the contours of your body with a deliberate tenderness, slowly unbuttoning and removing your blouse.
Your own hands found their way to the hem of his shirt, tugging it free from his pants with an urgency that mirrored his own. Your fingers fumbled slightly as they worked to unbutton his shirt, tracing the lines of his chest as you maintained the passionate kiss.
"Seungcheol is going to kill us," Jeonghan murmured, a hint of playful defiance in his voice, as his hands deftly moved to your pants, sliding them down to reveal your bare skin.
"Fucking in his guest room," he chuckled softly, "He's going to kill us."
Yet, the thrill of the moment was too intoxicating to resist.
You woke up just past noon, your head pounding like a bass drum. The sunlight bleeding through the edges of the curtain felt far too aggressive for your condition. Groaning, you sat up and realized you were no longer in your own clothes. Instead, you were dressed in one of Seungcheol’s oversized T-shirts—soft, worn-in cotton that practically swallowed your frame. Jeonghan must’ve grabbed it from your friend’s closet sometime during the night.q
You shuffled out of the guest bedroom, rubbing your temple, and found Jeonghan and Seungcheol slouched over the dining table. Both looked equally wrecked, hair messy and eyes puffy, nursing bowls of takeout soup in complete silence.
“Go eat this,” Jeonghan said as he pulled out the chair beside him without looking up. His voice was low and hoarse, like it hadn't fully woken up yet.
Seungcheol finally looked over—and froze. His eyes widened at the sight of his favorite T-shirt hanging loosely on you.
“Yah!” he exclaimed, pointing a dramatic finger. “Why are you wearing that one?! That’s my favorite!”
You squinted at him, then turned slowly to glare at Jeonghan, who was now struggling to hide the smirk tugging at his lips. That motherfucker definitely knew what he was doing when he dressed you in it.
You huffed, muttering, “I’m sorry… I was too drunk to realize.” Then, without missing a beat, you shot Jeonghan a sharp look. “Apparently, someone wasn’t.”
“I got you another one,” Jeonghan said innocently—like he’d planned this whole thing.
Seungcheol rolled his eyes. “You two are unbelievable.”
You sat down across from the two men, your eyes flickering between Jeonghan and Seungcheol as you tried to piece yourself together. The hot soup in front of you sent a wave of steam into your face, grounding you for a moment. But not enough to forget the way Jeonghan’s lips had moved against yours last night. Not enough to forget his fingers fumbling with your buttons, the urgency in his breath, the way he whispered your name like a secret meant only for the dark.
You stirred the soup absently, heart pounding all over again.
Seungcheol groaned, leaning back in his chair. “Seriously though, how much did we drink? My head’s splitting in half.”
“More than we should’ve,” Jeonghan muttered, voice calm—almost too calm. His fingers tapped against the ceramic bowl rhythmically, but he hadn’t taken a single bite. You knew that look—he was pretending everything was fine. Like last night didn’t happen.
You hadn’t even had the nerve to look him in the eye.
“Why do I feel like I missed something?” Seungcheol mumbled, squinting between the two of you.
You flinched slightly, and Jeonghan cleared his throat.
“You missed your chance to stop me from letting her steal your favorite shirt,” he said, with a casual smirk that didn’t reach his eyes.
You forced a laugh, weak and quick, and focused again on your soup.
But the silence between you and Jeonghan stretched thin, thick with the weight of unspoken words and the memory of skin against skin—while Seungcheol had been passed out in the next room, completely unaware that his two closest friends were crossing a line that neither of you had dared touch before.
And now here you were—sitting in your best friend’s kitchen, wearing his favorite shirt, next to the man who'd kissed you breathless hours before—and neither of you knew what to do next.
“So,” Seungcheol said, dragging the word out as he slumped deeper into his chair. He set his empty bowl aside and gave you a long, expectant look. “Have you thought more about the hospital situation?”
Your spoon hovered mid-air, steam curling around your face as you blinked. A quiet clink echoed when the utensil touched the edge of the bowl. Across the table, Jeonghan stiffened—just slightly, but you noticed.
“I’m… still thinking about it,” you murmured, eyes focused on the soup like it held all the answers.
Seungcheol frowned, tapping his fingers against the table. “You said that two weeks ago.”
You didn’t reply. Mostly because you didn’t know what to say without glancing at Jeonghan. And you couldn’t afford to glance at Jeonghan right now.
He barreled on. “Look. I know it’s insane. ‘Get married or lose the hospital’ sounds like something out of a bad K-drama. But your mom built that place. She poured her whole damn life into it. It’s not just a building—it’s your inheritance. Your future.”
You drew in a breath, let it out slowly. Seungcheol had always known how to strike right at the center of things. You hated him for it sometimes.
“And when you asked me…” He leaned in now, elbows on the table, voice gentler. “I really did consider it. I mean, you’re my best friend. You’ve been with me through every breakup, every hangover, every stupid decision I ever made. Of course I thought about saying yes.”
You lifted your eyes to meet his. There was sincerity there. Regret, even.
“But I knew I’d screw it up eventually,” he added, chuckling dryly. “We’d end up resenting each other. I’d probably forget your anniversary and show up late to your divorce hearing.”
Despite yourself, you laughed softly.
Seungcheol smiled. “I’m chaos. You need someone steady. Someone who knows how to make you breathe instead of panic. Someone who… already knows you inside out.”
The room suddenly felt smaller.
“That’s why I told you to ask him.”
There was no need to look. You felt the shift in Jeonghan’s posture before Seungcheol even gestured toward him.
You didn’t turn your head. You couldn’t. The air felt too thick now. Even blinking felt like a risk.
“But this guy,” Seungcheol said, waving his spoon at Jeonghan with mock betrayal, “just flat out refused. No hesitation. No drama. Just a cold-ass no.”
There was a sharp pause. Jeonghan set down his bowl with more force than necessary.
“I didn’t refuse,” he said, his voice quiet, clipped. “I said I didn’t think marriage was the solution.”
Seungcheol scoffed. “Same difference.”
Jeonghan’s jaw flexed. “It’s not.”
You finally looked at him then. His face was unreadable, but his fingers were curled too tightly around the edge of the table. Tension lived in every part of him.
Seungcheol leaned back, sighing like a man fed up with the world. “You two already bicker like you’ve been married five years. The chemistry’s right there. Even my mom thinks you’re dating.”
You flushed, dropping your gaze. Jeonghan didn’t say a word.
“She’s not someone I see that way.”
His words landed with the dull thud of a stone in water. No ripple. Just sinking.
Your stomach twisted. You could still feel the weight of his hands from the night before. The way his breath had hitched when your lips met. The way he’d held you like he was afraid you’d vanish. And now—this.
“Oh, okay,” Seungcheol said, eyes flicking between the two of you. “Cool.”
You forced a breath through your nose and tried not to react. You weren’t going to ask. You weren’t going to break.
“I’ll figure something else out,” you said quickly, your voice a little too tight, a little too rehearsed. “I always do.”
Seungcheol looked at you, brows drawing together in concern, but didn’t push further.
You felt Jeonghan’s eyes on you, though. Like a weight you couldn’t shrug off. You didn’t dare meet his gaze.
But under the table, your knees brushed. A fleeting contact—barely noticeable. And he didn’t move.
Neither did you.
And maybe that was the problem.
*
The clatter of silverware and the low murmur of polite conversation filled the dining room, where Jeonghan sat awkwardly between his mother and a cousin he barely recognized. His parents had insisted on a full family dinner—“We haven’t all been together in months, Jeonghan-ah!”—and now he was regretting not faking a fever.
He was halfway through picking at a slice of galbi when his father leaned in a little too casually and said, “Did you hear about Y/n’s father?”
Jeonghan blinked. He hadn’t heard her name all evening—had tried not to think about her, if he was honest.
“What about him?” he asked, trying to sound neutral, but his voice already had a tension to it.
“He’s getting remarried,” his father said, mouth full of japchae. “Some woman from Busan. Younger. Pretty well-off, I heard.”
Jeonghan stilled. His chopsticks hovered mid-air.
Jeonghan couldn’t sit still after dinner.
Three months.
Three damn months after your mother passed, and your father was already signing marriage papers with a woman who had no history with your family, no ties to the hospital, no respect for what your mother built. The news echoed in his mind like a warning bell—and the worst part? You hadn’t even told him. Or Seungcheol.
By the time Jeonghan slammed the car door shut and stalked into Seungcheol’s apartment, his jaw was already locked tight. His parents had dropped the bomb at the tail end of dinner like it was gossip over dessert.
“Did you hear? Her father’s remarrying already. Three months. Can you believe it?”
Three months since her mother’s funeral. Jeonghan remembered how you barely made it through the eulogy without shaking. How you’d curled up in the backseat of his car afterward, still in your funeral hanbok, silent except for the occasional sound of your breathing—too calm, too quiet, like you were holding your whole grief together by the thread of not saying anything out loud.
And now this.
“She doesn’t know,” Seungcheol said lazily from the couch without looking up from his phone, glancing over Jeonghan’s stormy entrance like it was just another Tuesday. “Or at least… she didn’t tell me either.”
Jeonghan stopped mid-pace, scoffing. “She knows.”
He ran a hand through his hair, the strands falling back into place messily. “She always knows. She just—doesn’t want to talk about it.”
The room quieted. Even Seungcheol lowered his phone now.
“Ya,” Jeonghan said, his voice low. “She just lost her mom. And now her dad’s acting like she was never part of that life. Like she’s replaceable.”
“I know,” Seungcheol murmured. “I didn’t think it would actually come to this, but….”
Jeonghan turned, alert.
Seungcheol hesitated, brows furrowed, voice heavy with guilt. “Y/n’s dad is planning to take back the hospital. Legally. If she’s not married by the time the board votes on succession, he’ll have the right to reclaim everything.”
Jeonghan froze.
“…What are you talking about?”
“There’s a clause. In her mom’s will. You remember how traditional her family is, right? Her mom added a provision that said Y/n could inherit the hospital—if she was married, as a show of stability.”
“That’s insane,” Jeonghan said, shaking his head. “That’s not—She’s been running that place half her life.”
“I know,” Seungcheol said again, quieter this time. “But with her mom gone, and no spouse to secure her position, her father—who technically still holds a dormant stake—can challenge the board’s vote. And they’ll side with whoever seems more ‘qualified’ to run a multi-billion-won legacy hospital.”
Jeonghan’s breath caught in his throat. “So if she’s not married… she loses everything?”
“Exactly.”
The word dropped like a lead weight.
The hospital. Your mother’s legacy. Your life.
All of it—hinging on one outdated clause and a man who was more concerned with reclaiming power than preserving what mattered to his daughter.
Jeonghan’s hands slowly curled into fists at his sides.
He didn’t say it out loud, but the truth was sour in his mouth: He could’ve helped. He’d been asked—hell, handpicked. And he said no.
But those nights… those kisses… the way you trembled in his arms, the way you didn’t pull away—
Maybe it wasn’t just your future that was unraveling.
Maybe it was his, too.
*
Jeonghan heard it first from Seungcheol, in a conversation that left a bitter taste in his mouth.
“You helped her send a marriage proposal to the Hong family?” he asked, trying to sound neutral—but the words hitched somewhere between surprise and something less noble.
Seungcheol nodded, leaning back in his chair. “Yeah. She’s being practical. The Hongs are powerful, respected, and Jisoo’s around our age. It’s a smart match.”
Jeonghan’s mind flicked back to university days. He remembered Hong Jisoo—gentle voice, crisp suits even back then, the kind of guy professors liked and girls swooned over. Polite, well-mannered, probably the kind of man who’d pull your chair out at dinner and remember your dog’s birthday.
He hated how reasonable it sounded.
Still, he needed to know.
“Is Jisoo even single?” Jeonghan asked, almost too quickly.
Jun, his ever-efficient secretary, looked up from his tablet. “Actually… no, sir. He’s dating someone.”
Jeonghan blinked. “How do you know that?”
Jun cleared his throat, a bit sheepishly. “I saw them at two or three events. He wasn’t exactly subtle.”
Not long after, right on cue, news came that your proposal had been rejected. Politely, but firmly.
Jeonghan didn’t know what stung more—that someone else had the chance to say no to you, or that you’d gone through the process without even telling him.
At your next lunch with him and Seungcheol, you stirred your iced tea with a distracted expression before saying, “I’m moving on to the Jeon family next. Remember Wonwoo?”
Jeonghan’s brows lifted. “Jeon Wonwoo?”
Seungcheol let out a soft whistle. “Now that’s a solid bet. The board practically drools over that guy. Youngest regional director in five years. Clean record, sharp thinker. He could probably get you the hospital single-handedly.”
Jeonghan forced himself to nod, even as something in his stomach tightened.
Wonwoo was perfect.
Too perfect.
A week later, the news broke: Wonwoo was already engaged—privately, quietly, to someone outside the industry. A secret fiancée. One no one had expected, and no one dared question.
Jeonghan said nothing when he heard. Just closed the tab on his screen and leaned back in his chair, staring blankly at the ceiling.
How many more names would you have to cross off?
It was Seungcheol who brought it up over dinner one evening.
“There’s another option,” he said, chewing thoughtfully on a piece of steak. “The Kim family. They reached out.”
You blinked. “Kim? As in…?”
“Kim Jongin,” he confirmed, glancing up. “Their eldest son. The family’s powerful, old money, and still holds shares in three major medical networks. If you marry them, the board will bow down without a fight.”
Jeonghan’s fork paused mid-air.
“Kim Jongin?” he repeated slowly, like the name tasted wrong in his mouth. “As in that Kim Jongin? The one who once got kicked out of a charity gala for flirting with a diplomat’s wife?”
Seungcheol smirked. “That was years ago. He’s cleaned up, mostly. Spends more time in boardrooms than clubs now.”
You raised an eyebrow. “He still flirts with everyone. He sent me flowers once and signed the card as ‘Your Future Headache.’”
Seungcheol, chuckling, muttered under his breath, “At least he’s honest.”
Jeonghan didn’t laugh.
Instead, he leaned forward, eyes narrowing. “You can’t be serious. Jongin has more scandals than business articles to his name. You’d be a headline before the wedding cake even sets.”
You shrugged, feigning nonchalance, but your voice was quieter. “I’m running out of names, Jeonghan. I don’t need a saint—I need a shield. The board only cares about a surname that scares them.”
Seungcheol nodded grimly. “And the Kim name does that.”
Jeonghan looked at you then—really looked. There was exhaustion behind your smile, a quiet kind of defeat.
How many times have you been rejected, redirected, shut out? How many times had you kept it together just to protect the hospital your mother left behind?
He couldn’t stop you from trying again.
But he hated that you even had to.
That night, Jeonghan poured himself a drink in his living room, alone.
“Kim Jongin,” he muttered bitterly. “Over my dead body.”
*
“Jeonghan just called me. Is that true?”
Seungcheol’s voice crackled through the phone speaker, a strange mix of urgency and disbelief. You barely registered his tone, your mind still half-occupied with the scribbled patient notes in front of you.
You shifted in your seat at the nurse station, eyes still on the clipboard. “What’s true? Did he win the lottery or something?” You let out a soft, tired chuckle. “I mean, honestly, would anyone be shocked if Jeonghan secretly played the odds? He’s... Jeonghan.”
On the other end, Seungcheol sighed. The kind of sigh that wasn’t amused or tired—it was preparing you for something.
“No, Y/n.” His voice lowered. “He told me to turn down the Kim family’s proposal.”
Your pen slipped, leaving a smudge on the paper.
You blinked.
“What?”
The pen rolled out of your fingers and onto the desk with a soft clatter. Your body leaned forward, suddenly too alert. “Why would he—?”
“He said…” Seungcheol hesitated, as though trying to choose the least explosive version of the truth. “Because he’s going to marry you.”
The words didn’t land so much as settle, like the moment before a storm hits—silent, still, choking on meaning.
Your gaze fixed on the wall across the room. White. Blank. Too bright under hospital lights. Somewhere down the hall, a monitor beeped steadily, unaware that your pulse had just doubled.
You didn’t answer. Couldn't. Your lips parted, but no sound came out. Your hands, resting on the desk, had gone cold.
And still, Seungcheol didn’t say another word.
He didn’t need to.
“He didn’t say anything to you, did he?” Seungcheol asked quietly.
You exhaled sharply, dragging a hand through your hair. “No,” you mumbled, eyes narrowing as you stood from the nurse station chair. “Not a word.”
You could hear Seungcheol curse under his breath on the other end, but you were already pacing down the hallway toward your office, phone still pressed to your ear.
“Is he crazy or something?” you muttered, your voice low and laced with disbelief.
Seungcheol tried to lighten the mood. “Should I bring him to the hospital? Get his head checked?”
You scoffed, pushing open your office door with a bit more force than necessary. “No, you should’ve kicked him in the head instead.”
Dropping your white coat onto the couch, you finally sank into your chair, hand covering your eyes for a second before dropping it with a frustrated sigh.
“He said no, Seungcheol. No. So what the hell is this now?”
Silence hummed between you for a moment. Then, quietly, Seungcheol said, “Maybe he changed his mind.”
You leaned back in your chair, the ceiling suddenly very interesting. “If he did, he sure has a weird way of showing it.”
*
Jeonghan didn’t expect to find you there—not tonight, not like this.
He had barely stepped out of the elevator, keys jingling in one hand and a bag of groceries in the other, when his footsteps slowed. His gaze caught on your figure leaning against the wall by his apartment door. Arms crossed. Eyes unreadable. A stillness about you that unnerved him more than any outburst could.
He swallowed hard. The hallway light flickered above him as if mimicking the beat of his pulse.
“Y/n?” he said, cautious, testing the sound of your name like it might trigger something.
You didn’t answer immediately. You just looked at him like he was something unfamiliar—like you were trying to remember why you'd ever trusted him in the first place.
He approached slowly, key poised at the lock. “Did… Seungcheol tell you?”
Your voice cut through the quiet. “So it’s true?”
Jeonghan winced at the edge in your tone. He gave a small, reluctant nod.
You followed him inside without waiting for an invitation. The slam of the door behind you echoed through the room like thunder—loud, final, impossible to ignore.
You whirled on him. “After all the dramatic no’s, after everything—you just decided yes?”
He set the bag on the kitchen counter with trembling fingers. “I changed my mind.”
You scoffed. “Oh, now that’s convenient.”
He turned to face you, heart crawling up his throat. “It wasn’t supposed to happen like this. I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
You raised your eyebrows. “Didn’t mean to? You told me you didn’t see me that way, Jeonghan. Your exact words. And now, what—suddenly you do? Right after I get another proposal?”
Jeonghan flinched. “I didn’t know how to say it. I didn’t know how to face you after…”
“After those nights?” Your voice cracked on the words, and it gutted him.
He stepped forward, cautious like you might bolt if he got too close. “I know I messed up. I should’ve said something the night it happened. I should’ve said something before you started sending out proposals like you were auctioning off your future.”
“Don’t,” you snapped. “Don’t pretend this is about you protecting me.”
“It’s not,” he said quietly. “It’s all about business. You’re trying to protect your mother’s legacy, right? A marriage of convenience should do exactly that—secure power, eliminate risk. Jongin is a risk.”
You stared at him like you could see straight through the wall he was building with every word. “So you offered yourself instead? What kind of convenient marriage involves someone who told me—explicitly—that he didn’t see me that way?”
The question sliced through the air.
He gripped the edge of the kitchen counter, knuckles whitening.
“I’m stable,” he said flatly. “I know the hospital. The board respects me. I have no scandals, no secret fiancée, no bad press. We wouldn't have to pretend much, and we’d get the media on our side. You’d be safe. The hospital would be safe. It’s a rational solution.”
But even as he said it, his voice faltered at the end.
You stepped closer now, slow, deliberate. “So this is about logic?”
“Yes,” he lied.
You waited.
He didn’t look up. Couldn’t.
Because the truth had nearly spilled out earlier—I can’t stand the thought of you marrying someone else.
But he buried it. Deep.
Because feelings were messy. And you deserved clarity, not confusion.
So he said nothing more. Just stood there in his perfectly structured silence, hoping you wouldn’t notice the way his heart was hammering under his shirt.
On the next day, Jeonghan sat quietly in the sleek, dim living room of the Yoon estate, the tick of the vintage clock on the wall growing louder with every second of silence.
The dining table remained untouched—no one had the appetite to eat after his announcement.
“I’m going to marry her,” he repeated, tone clipped, businesslike. “It’s not romantic. It’s a business marriage. The hospital stays under her control, and in turn, the Yoon family’s reputation gains an institutional ally.”
His father leaned back in his chair, expression unreadable. “You do realize what you're signing up for, don't you?”
Jeonghan kept his chin up. “I do.”
His mother placed her glass down a little too loudly. “That family—her father has scandals trailing him like a shadow. You’ve seen the tabloids, Jeonghan.”
“I’m not marrying her family,” Jeonghan said evenly. “I’m marrying her.”
His younger sister scoffed. “That’s the problem, isn’t it?”
The tension hit like a sharp wind. Jeonghan could feel the weight of their warnings pressing into his spine.
“She’s… someone I trust. She’s capable. She doesn’t deserve to lose the hospital over a power play. This is the cleanest solution.”
His father shook his head slowly. “You don’t protect people like this, son. Not with your last name. Not with a ring.”
But Jeonghan’s voice didn’t waver. “This isn’t about protection. It’s about business.”
No one believed that—not fully. Especially not him.
Still, they didn’t stop him.
They just let him go.
The very next week, he arrived at the law office early. He had barely slept, but he looked sharp. Tailored blazer, no tie, and his fingers twitching slightly as he waited.
You walked in —expression composed, but Jeonghan knew how to read past that. The subtle tightness in your jaw. The way your eyes darted quickly toward the folder in your hand rather than meeting his.
He stood as you sat. You didn't greet him, just nodded.
Professional.
Just like he’d asked for.
His lawyer spread the documents across the table. “The key terms have been adjusted: one and a half years of legal marriage, public announcement optional, privacy clauses intact. Divorce may be filed on mutual grounds with assets protected under current holdings.”
You read through the text quietly, flipping each page like you’d done this before. Jeonghan watched you instead.
This wasn’t what you’d wanted. Not really. You’d looked for alternatives. You’d begged for options. And when those doors kept closing, you chose the least damaging one. Him.
“I added a clause,” you said, sliding the paper forward. “I’ll retain decision-making rights over hospital board matters. I don’t want you getting dragged into internal politics.”
He blinked. “That’s not necessary.”
“It is,” you said quietly. “You’re already doing enough.”
That silenced him.
Jeonghan leaned back in his chair. This was supposed to be a simple deal, numbers and clauses and black ink—but the air felt heavier than contracts should allow.
You cleared your throat. “You don’t have to—if there’s even a 1% chance you’ll regret this—”
“I’ve already regretted worse,” he cut you off gently. “At least this time, I’m choosing.”
That struck harder than expected.
The lawyer pushed forward two pens. One for you. One for him. When your fingers brushed as you reached out, you didn’t pull away. Neither did he. And for the briefest moment, something unspoken passed between you. Not affection. Not relief. Something quieter. Lonelier. Like two people agreeing to build a house with no intention of living in it.
He watched you sign.
Then he signed, too.
Later that evening, Jeonghan stood by his window, overlooking the city as the skyline blinked softly into the night. A message from Seungcheol sat unread on his phone.
“Are you really going to go through with this?”
He didn’t reply. Instead, he whispered to himself, almost bitterly, “It’s just business.” But his reflection in the window—the tightness around his eyes, the tremble in his hand—betrayed him. He hadn’t lied to you. He wouldn’t hurt you. But what he didn’t say, what he couldn’t say, was this: That part of him didn’t want to protect the hospital.
He wanted to protect you. And now, he was bound to you by paper and law—and silence. Because feelings had no place in business.
Right?
*
The courthouse was stark—walls painted a dull beige, fluorescent lights humming overhead, the faint smell of disinfectant and stale coffee lingering in the air. The atmosphere was anything but celebratory. There were no flowers, no music, no friends or family smiling and whispering behind gloved hands.
You sat rigid in the cold metal chair, hands folded neatly in your lap. Your outfit was businesslike—dark gray trousers and a tailored blazer, practical shoes. Not a stitch of white, no trace of sentimentality. You were here to do one thing: make this marriage legal.
Jeonghan arrived minutes early, his usual composure in place but with an edge of fatigue in his eyes. His black suit hung perfectly on his lean frame, but the absence of a tie made him look less like a groom and more like a reluctant businessman caught in an inconvenient meeting. His jaw was clean-shaven but tight, lips pressed into a thin line.
The clerk barely glanced up as she recited the required lines, voice flat and rehearsed: “Do you, Jeonghan Yoon, take Y/n to be your lawful spouse…” She handed him the pen first, and he signed without hesitation. Then it was your turn. Your hand trembled slightly as you picked up the pen, the sterile atmosphere pressing down like a weight on your chest.
“Congratulations,” the clerk said, but it felt hollow, like an echo in a room already emptied of meaning.
You both nodded curtly, standing side by side as if you’d just closed a deal on a corporate merger rather than pledged to share a life.
Outside, the sky was heavy with thick gray clouds. A cold wind tugged at your coat as you stepped into the parking lot, clutching the envelope of signed documents like a lifeline. Jeonghan was beside you, expression unreadable.
Then, from the corner of the lot, a figure emerged.
Your father.
His suit was tailored but brighter than appropriate, the kind of showy fabric meant to command attention. His smile was thin, practiced—a smile that didn’t reach his eyes. Those eyes scanned both of you like a chess master sizing up pawns.
“Congratulations,” he said smoothly, voice low but laced with something sharper. “I’m glad to see you’ve finally made the practical choice.”
Your shoulders stiffened imperceptibly, your breath catching for just a moment. Jeonghan’s gaze locked onto your father, cold and measuring.
“I see you’ve gone for political utility over sentiment,” your father continued, glancing at Jeonghan as if daring him to respond. “Smart move. The board will be swayed by this union, no doubt.”
“Don’t,” you said quietly, the word clipped but filled with warning.
Your father ignored you, stepping closer, his tone patronizing. “Now that the marriage is secured, the revised foundation charter is ready. You’ll find the documents waiting in your office.”
You paled, your fingers tightening around the envelope as your lips parted slightly—words trapped somewhere between anger and resignation.
Jeonghan stepped forward, voice steady but sharp. “Is this what this has been about all along? Using your daughter’s marriage as leverage for control?”
Your father’s smile remained unshaken. “Legacy isn’t sentimental, Mr. Yoon. It’s power. And power is survival.”
You didn’t move or meet either man’s eyes, instead staring down at the cracked concrete beneath your feet as if it might swallow you whole.
In that moment, Jeonghan’s posture shifted—his usual calm replaced by a simmering realization. This was no business arrangement for you. This was a battlefield, and you’d been fighting it alone.
He said nothing further, merely opening the car door with an automatic gesture of protection.
You slid inside silently, the door clicking shut behind you.
Jeonghan lingered a heartbeat longer, then followed, closing the door. The car’s interior was dim and silent, the weight of unspoken truths thick between you.
You held the envelope tightly, the crinkling paper sounding unnaturally loud.
Marriage, Jeonghan thought bitterly, should be a choice—not a chain.
He glanced at you, rigid and pale, and knew he had underestimated just how much this ‘business’ was costing you.
Jeonghan found himself in the sleek, glass-walled conference room of his family’s business headquarters a week later. The boardroom was large, with polished oak tables and leather chairs, the kind of place where decisions that shaped industries were made. Around the table sat key members of the hospital board—men and women whose loyalties were divided, some still unsure whether your father’s legal challenge could unsettle the current balance.
Jeonghan sat at the head of the table, his posture relaxed but authoritative. His sharp eyes scanned the faces before him, reading hesitation, doubt, and the flicker of ambition. With a quiet nod to his personal lawyer beside him, he opened the discussion.
“Thank you for coming on short notice,” he began, voice steady and deliberate. “I understand there has been some concern about the hospital’s future leadership and the potential legal complications following Mrs. Y/n’s recent loss.”
A few board members exchanged cautious glances.
“My wife’s inheritance is tied directly to the hospital’s legacy. It’s a responsibility she takes seriously—not just because of family, but because she believes in the institution’s mission.” He let the words hang for a moment, deliberately invoking a sense of duty and stability.
“But,” he continued, “there’s also the question of the will’s conditions—specifically, the marriage clause. Some have suggested it could be challenged, that your loyalties might shift.”
He reached forward and slid a thick legal dossier across the table, its cover embossed with the family seal. “Our legal team has reviewed every clause meticulously. The marriage between Mrs. Y/n and myself satisfies all stipulated conditions. Any attempt to invalidate this union on legal grounds would be both unfounded and harmful to the hospital’s reputation and stability.”
His tone sharpened slightly, no longer just informative but subtly warning. “We cannot afford the disruption that a public dispute would bring. Investor confidence, donor relations, patient trust—all of these depend on a unified leadership.”
The room was silent for a beat. Then, one elder board member spoke, voice low but firm. “Mr. Jeonghan, your family’s influence is undeniable. We want what’s best for the hospital, but we must ensure governance remains transparent and effective.”
Jeonghan nodded respectfully. “Agreed. Transparency and stability are non-negotiable. That is why my family is prepared to provide the necessary financial and strategic support to secure the hospital’s future.”
He could see the subtle nods around the table. The message was clear: resistance would be costly and futile.
*
Seungcheol stepped into Jeonghan’s apartment, letting the door close behind him with a quiet thud. His eyes scanned the space, half-hoping to catch a glimpse of you curled up on the couch or busy in the kitchen. But the place was quiet—too quiet for a newly married couple.
“She’s got a shift,” Jeonghan said simply, already walking toward the open kitchen. His sleeves were rolled up, and he looked like he hadn’t slept much.
Seungcheol nodded, settling into one of the stools by the counter. “Of course she does.” He watched Jeonghan pour himself a glass of water, the silence thick with unspoken questions. Then he asked, more lightly than he felt, “So… how’s married life?”
Jeonghan paused for a moment, leaning his weight against the counter as he stared at the glass in his hand.
“Strategic,” he said finally, his tone dry.
Seungcheol raised an eyebrow.
Jeonghan sighed. “It’s complicated. The hospital isn’t just some legacy—it’s a battlefield. Her father’s been trying to claw his way back into control using every legal loophole he can find. The marriage? It was the only option left to secure her position before the board meeting.”
Seungcheol let out a low whistle. “That bad, huh?”
Jeonghan nodded. “Worse than I thought. The clause her mom put in the will was meant to protect Y/n, but it became a weapon the moment her father figured out how to twist it. I had to act fast. If we hadn’t gotten married when we did, she would’ve lost everything.”
Seungcheol leaned back, arms crossed. “And now you’re both stuck in a business deal wearing rings.”
Jeonghan didn’t respond immediately. He ran a hand through his hair, the exhaustion showing in the lines under his eyes.
“She’s doing everything she can to keep it together. Between the hospital, her shifts, and pretending all of this is fine…”
Seungcheol shook his head, a small frown forming. “Poor wifey.”
Jeonghan smirked faintly at the nickname, but it didn’t reach his eyes. “Yeah. She didn’t deserve any of this.”
“How about a honeymoon?”
Jeonghan scoffed at the mere mention of the word.
“Honeymoon?” he repeated, half-laughing, half-exhausted. “Yeah, we celebrated with a three-hour strategy meeting and a rushed signature on a marriage certificate. Very romantic.”
Seungcheol chuckled as he opened a can of soda from Jeonghan’s fridge, shaking his head. “You’re unbelievable.”
Jeonghan slumped into the chair across from him, stretching his legs out beneath the table. “You’re the one who brought it up.”
“I mean, come on,” Seungcheol said, leaning on the counter. “You sign a deal that big—hospital, marriage, family reputation—and you don’t even take my best friend somewhere nice? Italy? Maldives? Hell, even Jeju?”
“She’s working,” Jeonghan muttered, eyes fixed on the floor. “There’s no time for beaches. We’re still cleaning up the legal mess her father left behind.”
Seungcheol’s smile faded. He set down the can and looked at his friend seriously. “Speaking of legal mess—I assigned you an expensive shark of a lawyer. Jung Haejin. She’s the best in estate protection and corporate inheritance. If anyone can outmaneuver her father’s moves, it’s her.”
Jeonghan glanced up, surprised. “You really did that?”
“You’re my best friend,” Seungcheol said, shrugging like it was nothing. “Even if this whole thing started out cold, I know you’re not going to let her fall.”
A silence settled between them—soft, but loaded.
Jeonghan gave a faint nod, running a hand through his hair again. “Thanks, Cheol. I mean it.”
“That’s why,” Seungcheol insisted, leaning forward, eyes gleaming, “plan a honeymoon already! You know how Y/n loves beaches, right?”
Jeonghan raised a brow, caught off guard. “How do you even know that?”
“Please,” Seungcheol scoffed, grabbing a handful of nuts from the bowl on the table. “She used to beg me to take time off and go to Busan during uni breaks. Even dragged me to a travel fair once, just to collect brochures of islands she couldn’t afford to visit yet.”
Jeonghan blinked, his lips tugging into something unreadable. “She never told me that.”
“Of course she didn’t. She probably thinks you’d laugh or roll your eyes.” Seungcheol pointed at him. “But I’m telling you—she’s a beach girl through and through. You want her to breathe? To stop thinking about the hospital for a second? Take her somewhere with sand and waves.”
Jeonghan exhaled slowly, mind already racing with a dozen tabs he’d need to open later—locations, flights, resorts.
“Think of it as strategy,” Seungcheol added, slyly. “A well-rested co-CEO is more effective in a boardroom.”
Jeonghan rolled his eyes but couldn’t help the smirk forming. “You’re really pushing this.”
“You’re really resisting it,” Seungcheol shot back. “Let her live, Jeonghan. This isn’t just your name or your family legacy on the line anymore. It’s hers too.”
Jeonghan grew quiet, the weight of those words sinking into him. This wasn’t just business—at least not anymore. Not when her hands shook in secret after meetings with lawyers. Not when her shoulders tensed at every call from her father’s associates. Not when she didn’t complain, but her eyes told another story.
Maybe it was time he gave her something she didn’t have to fight for. Even if just for a weekend.
“Alright,” he finally said, grabbing his phone. “Let’s find her a beach.”
*
Jeonghan hadn’t exactly imagined his first honeymoon would come with a third wheel—especially not in the shape of Choi Seungcheol, who was now sprinting barefoot toward the water like a golden retriever let off the leash.
It was supposed to be two days of peace, just the two of you, tucked away in one of his family’s private villas in Busan. A short escape Jeonghan had been desperately looking forward to—a breath of air after months suffocating beneath hospital politics, endless meetings, and legal negotiations. After tirelessly working with the lawyer Seungcheol had assigned, attending back-to-back board meetings, and overseeing the investigation regarding the hospital owner’s misconduct, the decision had finally been made: the board would postpone any changes in ownership for at least two more years. During that time, they would conduct a thorough audit of your father while he served as vice director—buying Jeonghan and you some time, but also keeping everyone under scrutiny.
Still, as he trailed behind you, watching your face light up at the sight of the ocean, your smile wide and childlike as the waves crashed onto the shore, his irritation softened. Almost.
“This is supposed to be a honeymoon, you know,” he muttered, arms crossed, a mixture of amusement and mild annoyance twisting his lips.
You didn’t even look back. “As if that ever stops you from fucking me when he’s around,” you tossed the line over your shoulder so casually it knocked the wind out of him.
Jeonghan stumbled mid-step, coughing on his own breath. “Yah—!”
Too late. You had already taken off, splashing into the shallows with Seungcheol while laughter filled the air.
He sighed, staring out at the two of you like a man who’d just realized he was going to have to fight his way through his own honeymoon. And despite himself, he grinned.
You were going to drive him insane.
And he couldn’t wait.
The three of you lounged in the cozy villa living room, sunk deep into plush cushions after wandering the village in search of a good local restaurant. The salty air still lingered on your skin, and laughter from dinner hadn’t quite faded. But Seungcheol, sitting cross-legged on the rug with a can of beer in hand, was giving you and Jeonghan a look—as if you'd both sprouted unicorn horns right in front of him.
It wasn’t unfounded. Anyone paying close attention would’ve noticed the shift. The way Jeonghan’s arm had draped a little too comfortably around your shoulders on the walk back. The way you leaned into his touch like it was second nature. The subtle glances. The softness in your voice when you said his name. Seungcheol had known the two of you for years—but something was definitely different.
He narrowed his eyes, took a sip of his beer, and asked bluntly, “Are you two secretly dating or something?”
You rolled your eyes and tossed a cushion at him. “We’re married, you idiot.”
Jeonghan chuckled, his fingers brushing yours as if to prove the point.
Seungcheol blinked. “No, I mean like... actually married. Emotionally. This is giving... romance vibes.”
Jeonghan only raised an eyebrow, the ghost of a smirk tugging at his lips. You stayed quiet this time, eyes locked with your best friend's—because neither of you were ready to admit out loud that Seungcheol might be onto something.
Seungcheol groaned, dragging both hands down his face in exasperation. “God, I knew it! I freaking knew it.”
You blinked at him, amused. “Knew what?”
“That you two—” he gestured between you and Jeonghan like he was pointing out an obvious crime scene, “—have always had something. Even before all this marriage contract nonsense. The way you argued, the way you defended each other, the way you acted like you weren’t each other’s person when everyone could see you were.”
“I hoped I was wrong,” Seungcheol said dramatically. “Because if I’m right, that means I’ve been stuck in the middle of one long, slow-burn, emotionally constipated love story without getting any closure.”
Seungcheol had always known. Jeonghan never said it out loud, but it didn’t take a genius to see it—the way his eyes lingered on you a second too long, the way his tone softened when your name was mentioned in a conversation, the way he’d show up unasked, unnoticed, always around when you needed him most. He didn’t flaunt it. He didn’t make grand gestures. But he had this quiet, steady way of being there, of making it clear he wasn’t just looking out for a friend—he was holding space in his heart for something more.
But you? You had your head buried in textbooks, deadlines, and responsibilities, chasing excellence like it was the only thing that mattered. Love was a luxury, not a priority. At least, that’s what you told yourself.
Until Seungcheol realized you were drifting onto the same ship Jeonghan had been sailing all along.
He called you that night, voice low and serious.
“I know you didn’t want to hurt him… or yourself,” Seungcheol said gently.
On the other end of the line, you hesitated. “I just…”
“I know, Y/n. Trust me. I always knew.”
Silence stretched between you like a string pulled too tight. Seungcheol could almost hear the thoughts racing in your head, the weight of things you’d buried deep finally making their way to the surface.
He sighed softly, his voice filled with something between sympathy and relief. “It finally hits you, right? That you like him. Not just as a friend.”
Still, you didn’t answer.
Then finally, in a voice so quiet it almost broke, you spoke.
“I… I don’t remember when it started, Cheol. But it just… happened.”
And Seungcheol smiled faintly, not because it was funny, but because after all this time, after all the dodged feelings and almost everything, you’d finally said what he always suspected.
“Yeah,” he said. “Love usually does.”
Jeonghan sighed beside you, slouched on the floor across from Seungcheol. He rubbed his face a little too roughly, the frustration clear in the way his fingers dragged down his cheeks.
“What do you want to hear, bro?” he muttered, voice low and exhausted—less from the conversation, more from everything that had been left unsaid for too long.
Seungcheol just shrugged, casual as ever, but his eyes were sharper than his tone. He gestured lazily between you and Jeonghan.
“You figured it out. You guys are adults anyway,” he said, pushing himself off the floor with a grunt. “Took you long enough.”
You glanced at Jeonghan, who stared at the floor with a small shake of his head, as if Seungcheol’s approval or commentary was the least of his concerns—but the pink tint rising to his ears said otherwise.
Seungcheol stretched his back and yawned dramatically. “Anyway, I’m heading to bed early. Got a long drive tomorrow and I really don’t want to get in the way of your honeymoon,” he said, the last word dripping with smug mischief.
He was halfway to his room before he turned back, poking his head around the doorframe with the most shit-eating grin you’d ever seen on his face.
“Oh—” he added, “just make sure to use a condom this time. You didn't last time at my place.”
Jeonghan froze. You stared. The silence in the room was deafening.
“Cheol!” you hissed, a pillow flying in his direction as he cackled and slammed the door shut behind him.
Jeonghan groaned, burying his face into the cushion beside him. “I’m going to kill him. Slowly.”
“Why is he so stupid?” you muttered under your breath, eyes narrowed in disbelief. “You both got vasectomies at my hospital. Together.”
You pinched the bridge of your nose, trying to wave away the sheer absurdity of the situation—not just the fact that Seungcheol blurted it out like it was nothing, but also that he knew you and Jeonghan had slept together and still had the audacity to tease you about it.
Jeonghan leaned his head back against the couch, sighing like the weight of his entire friendship with Seungcheol was too much to carry.
“That’s why I’m killing him,” he deadpanned, eyes closed as if he were mentally planning the most efficient method to end his best friend.
The laughter eventually faded, replaced by a quiet stillness between you and Jeonghan. The ocean outside whispered against the shore, and somewhere in the villa, Seungcheol had finally shut his door.
Jeonghan sat upright, arms resting on his knees, staring ahead without really seeing anything. You watched his profile, the way his jaw clenched slightly, the weight behind his silence.
Then he spoke, voice quieter than usual. “You know… I never really understood what line I wasn’t supposed to cross.”
You tilted your head, confused. “What do you mean?”
Jeonghan exhaled slowly. “With you. Us. I was your friend, right? That’s how it started. But I’d be lying if I said I didn’t start feeling something more, years ago. I just… I didn’t know if it was worth risking the friendship.”
Your heart thudded once, uneven and loud.
“I kept telling myself it was better to just be near you—helping you study, listening to you rant about your professors, showing up to your part-time jobs with coffee.” He smiled faintly at the memory. “It was enough. Or I convinced myself it was.”
You remained still, letting him talk.
“But every time someone came close to you, like seriously close, I’d get... weird.” He gave a dry chuckle. “Petty. Distant. Sometimes too obvious. And I hated it. I hated that part of me. Because I thought friends weren’t supposed to act like that.”
You lowered your eyes, your own emotions swirling quietly.
“When Seungcheol told me you’re about to get involved with the Kim family, something in me just snapped. I couldn’t sit back and watch someone else take you—not for business, not for love, not for anything. So I did something stupid. I played the same game.”
“The marriage,” you said softly.
He nodded. “Yeah. I made it sound like business. And in some ways, maybe it still is. But I wasn’t honest—not with you, not with myself.”
There was another beat of silence before Jeonghan turned to look at you.
“I don’t expect you to feel the same way,” he said, voice steady despite the vulnerability in it. “And I’m not saying this to pressure you into anything. But I needed you to know that this isn’t just about protecting you or your family’s name. It’s you. It’s always been you.”
You opened your mouth, but nothing came out. Jeonghan offered you a small, tired smile.
“I know it’s a lot. We’re already in something messy and complicated. I just... I’d rather you hear the truth from me now than keep pretending I’m okay with being just your business partner.”
The waves outside kept rolling. The tension sat between you, thick and alive. But there was also something else now—something raw, maybe even freeing. Truth always had a way of stirring still waters.
A few seconds passed in silence after Jeonghan’s quiet confession. You could feel the sincerity lingering in the air, like smoke after a fire—thick, lingering, and oddly comforting. The vulnerability in his voice had peeled back a layer you never knew he kept hidden so carefully.
You took a deep breath, eyes still on him, and then—“That’s hot.”
Jeonghan blinked. “What?”
You grinned. “You being honest. It’s kinda hot.”
A slow, incredulous smile spread on his face as his brows lifted. “Wow. I bare my soul and you turn it into thirst content?”
You shrugged, the tension breaking into playful air. “I mean, what do you expect? You were emotionally constipated for years. Seeing you finally say what you feel? Sexy.”
Jeonghan groaned, leaning back against the couch like your words physically wounded him. “This is why I can never have serious moments with you.”
“And yet you married me,” you teased, scooting closer and nudging his knee with yours.
He glanced at you, something softer behind the usual amusement in his eyes. “Yeah. I did.”
You held his gaze a moment longer, before reaching for a throw pillow and gently thwacking him with it. “For a business deal, that is.”
He caught the pillow mid-air and raised a brow. “Sure. Business.”
You leaned in and whispered with mock-seriousness, “Very professional of you, Mr. Yoon.”
Jeonghan narrowed his eyes playfully. “Don’t tempt me to write that into the contract.”
You burst out laughing, and for the first time in a while, it didn’t feel complicated. It felt like the two of you again—just tangled in a bigger, messier story now. But at the center of it, still you and Jeonghan.
Jeonghan’s smile lingered as he nudged your arm, softer this time. “Thanks for not running away.”
You looked at him, warmth blooming behind your ribcage. “Thanks for finally saying it.”
And outside, the waves rolled on under the Busan moonlight. Inside, the silence between you no longer felt heavy—but full of something new, something promising.
*
You approached your mother, who had come all the way to attend your graduation ceremony, her eyes soft with pride. Behind you, Jeonghan and Seungcheol followed respectfully, both dressed sharply for the occasion. As they reached her, the two of them bowed politely.
“There’s Jeonghan and Seungcheol too,” your mother noted with a warm smile, acknowledging them with a slight nod. “Thank you both for supporting Y/n all this time.”
She then turned to you and handed you a bouquet of fresh white lilies and pale pink roses, wrapped in delicate paper. You took them with a small laugh, grateful but slightly embarrassed.
After a few minutes filled with cheerful conversation, light teasing, and a dozen photos with your friends—who had helped you prep tirelessly for this big day—you hugged them goodbye, waving as they left in different directions.
Your mother and you eventually got into the car waiting by the curb. She slid in beside you in the backseat while the driver started the engine. As the campus slowly disappeared behind the tinted windows, she looked over at you, pride still glimmering in her eyes.
“They’re wonderful friends, aren’t they?” she mused aloud. “They’ve been with you since junior high, right?”
You smiled at the thought. “Yeah. Unlike our parents, we weren’t friends for business.” There was a playful sarcasm in your voice, but the humor was clear.
Your mother chuckled, then gave you a sideways glance. “Never caught feelings for one of them?”
Her question made you pause. The teasing lilt in her voice was unmistakable, and she raised a knowing brow when you didn’t respond right away.
“Gotcha!” she said, triumphant.
You groaned. “Not that again! You say this every time you see them. They’re just my friends. There’s a reason we’re still friends after all these years.”
“Alright, alright,” she conceded, holding up her hands with a smirk. “So, I guess Seungcheol’s not your type…”
You wrinkled your nose dramatically. “Ugh, no way!”
She nodded slowly, her grin widening. “So it’s Jeonghan, then.”
“Mom!”
“I see you’re not denying it.”
“Moooom!”
She laughed out loud this time, satisfied with her small victory, while you buried your heated face in the bouquet, wishing you could disappear into the flowers.
*
Seungcheol sat quietly on the couch, the floral scent of rosella tea wafting up with the steam. He sipped it slowly, savoring both the warmth and the familiarity—it was always rosella at your house. Your mother insisted it was the healthiest tea, even if its tartness took getting used to.
“Thanks for taking care of Y/n, Seungcheol,” your mother said as she settled into the armchair across from him. Her voice was calm, laced with something deeper—something quieter than gratitude. “She’s such a handful sometimes.”
Seungcheol chuckled, setting his cup down gently on the saucer. “She’s like a sister to me,” he replied, smiling. “Loud, brilliant, too stubborn for her own good.”
Your mother’s laugh was soft, almost distant. “She gets that from me.”
There was a pause. Not heavy, but deliberate. She leaned back, fingers gently tracing the rim of her own teacup. Her eyes drifted to the window, watching the curtain sway in the light breeze before she spoke again.
“Seungcheol… I haven’t told her yet,” she said quietly. “And I don’t plan to until it’s time.”
He looked up slowly, his expression tightening just a little.
“I’ve been sick,” she said, her eyes finally meeting his. “The kind that doesn’t really go away.”
He didn’t know what to say. His throat caught on something—shock, sorrow, helplessness. The words hovered but didn’t land.
She offered him a small smile, like a mother comforting someone else's child. “Don’t look so heartbroken. I’ve had a good life, Cheol. And she’s strong. Smarter than I ever was.”
“But she needs you,” he whispered, unable to mask the weight in his voice.
“She’ll have you. And Jeonghan. And everything I didn’t know how to give her before.”
He swallowed hard, then nodded. “I’ll take care of her.”
Her smile deepened—not joyful, but full of trust. “I know you will.”
Your mother took a long sip of her tea, her fingers curling around the delicate porcelain as if bracing herself for the truth she was about to voice.
“I knew about my husband's affair,” she said, quietly but firmly. “For years. It was a doctor from the Busan branch. He thought I’d never find out.”
Seungcheol looked at her, surprised but respectful, his silence giving her the space to speak.
“I let it go. Not for him, but for Y/n. I stayed to protect what was mine—what should be hers. But now that I’m sick… I’m afraid the board might push the hospital into his hands once I’m gone.”
She set her cup down gently and folded her hands over her lap. “I want the hospital for Y/n. But she’s definitely not eligible to claim it on her own. Not now.”
Seungcheol leaned forward, slowly understanding where the conversation was going. “She needs an affiliate,” he said.
Your mother nodded solemnly. “She needs to be married. Someone with influence. With a name that can counterbalance her father’s power. And I don’t have anyone in mind other than you or Jeonghan.”
Seungcheol’s jaw twitched slightly, processing her words. “You might see how much I care for her,” he said carefully, “but I promise you—I’ve never seen her in that way. She’s family to me.”
“I know, son,” she said, giving him a soft, grateful look. “And that’s exactly why I trust you. But she’ll need more than love. She’ll need power.”
He stared into his half-empty cup, his lips pressing into a thin line. “Then… the Yoon family is the answer,” he said at last.
Your mother exhaled, as if she had been waiting for him to say it himself.
“Y/n likes Jeonghan,” she blurted, almost too casually.
Seungcheol’s brows lifted, but not with real surprise. He leaned back slightly and let out a quiet scoff, remembering the moment it all became clear. “She told you?” he asked.
Your mother gave a knowing smile.
He smirked faintly, but there was no humor in his eyes—only memory. It was during junior year. You dragged him to the beach after midnight. Said you were celebrating exam week being over. But you had a bottle of cheap soju in your hand, and all you did was cry about how happy Jeonghan seemed with his new girlfriend. Then you said it felt stupid, but every time you saw Jeonghan smiled at someone else, it burned.
He paused, looking down at the tea again.
“She loved him then. Maybe earlier. But she buried it.”
Your mother’s voice softened. “That’s what she does. She tucks things away so deep even she forgets they’re there.”
And in the quiet that followed, with the scent of rosella still lingering and the sun just beginning to sink behind the window, Seungcheol made another silent vow—one that felt heavier than the first.
Years later, Seungcheol smiled from his seat in the front row of the auditorium, dressed in a navy suit that hadn’t changed much from his usual styles—still a little snug at the shoulders. But his eyes? They were glassier now, a mixture of pride and nostalgia pooling in them as he watched you take the podium.
It was the ceremony announcing your appointment as the hospital’s new director. Your mother’s legacy, polished by your perseverance and finally, officially, placed in your hands. You stood tall in a crisp white blazer, your hair swept neatly to the side, your presence commanding. Yet there was a softness to your smile as you glanced at the crowd—at your people. At your family. Your voice rang with the clarity of someone who had long prepared for this day. There wasn’t a stammer, not even when you thanked those who believed in you “when I hadn’t even believed in myself yet.” You looked at Seungcheol, and he simply nodded once, as if to say I told you so.
Beside him, Jeonghan shifted slightly, cradling your firstborn daughter, Sera, against his chest. Her tiny head of dark curls peeked out beneath a miniature headband, her chubby arms reaching forward to grasp the first thing within reach—Seungcheol’s pinky finger. And once she had it, she refused to let go.
“She’s got your grip,” Seungcheol murmured to Jeonghan with a teasing grin, but didn’t try to pull away.
“She’s stubborn,” Jeonghan replied with a proud chuckle, rocking Sera gently in his arms. “Just like her mom.”
Sera gurgled at that, kicking slightly as if she agreed.
The room erupted into applause as you finished your speech, bowing graciously before stepping down. Your eyes scanned the audience once more—first finding Seungcheol, who gave you the softest, proudest smile, then falling on Jeonghan and the little girl in his arms.
You made your way to them slowly, shaking hands, accepting congratulations, until finally you reached them. Sera squealed when she saw you, arms flailing until Jeonghan helped her lean toward you.
“She didn’t let go of my finger the whole time,” Seungcheol said as he gently passed her into your embrace.
You kissed her round cheek and whispered, “She knows her people.”
Jeonghan smiled at you, brushing a loose strand of hair behind your ear. “So does her mom.”
"Do you have a plan after this, Uncle Seungcheol?" you asked, your voice high and teasing as you leaned slightly toward him, still bouncing Sera gently in your arms.
Seungcheol blinked, caught off guard. "What?"
You cleared your throat, scrunched your nose a little, then wiggled Sera’s tiny hand like a puppet and baby-talked, "Wanna babysit me~?"
Jeonghan nearly choked on his laughter beside him, covering his mouth as he leaned forward.
Seungcheol stared at the two of you—the smugness on your face and the completely unaware baby now drooling on your shoulder—and groaned dramatically. “Oh no. Not this again.”
“You said you were free,” you chimed sweetly.
“I said I was free for lunch, not free for life,” Seungcheol shot back, though he was already holding out his arms.
Sera squealed the moment he reached for her, latching onto his shirt like a koala. You smirked, triumphant.
Jeonghan patted Seungcheol’s back with mock sympathy. “Congrats on your promotion to part-time nanny.”
“I’m going to file for emotional compensation,” Seungcheol muttered, but he was already swaying gently with Sera in his arms, smiling despite himself.
And just like that, with the hospital behind you and your family by your side, the next chapter didn’t feel so daunting after all.
*
Later that afternoon, with the ceremony wrapped up and congratulations exchanged, you finally found a moment to breathe. Seungcheol had taken Sera to the garden with his girlfriend, Hana, who had instinctively stepped into a rhythm with Sera as if she'd known your daughter forever. You caught a glimpse of the three of them through the large glass windows—Seungcheol holding Sera up high while Hana clapped from the side. Your baby’s laughter echoed faintly through the hallway, and it melted your heart.
“Should we feel guilty?” you asked, sipping from a paper cup of iced coffee as you leaned against the railing of the hospital rooftop.
Jeonghan looked over at you, hair tousled a little by the wind, one hand in his pocket and the other holding your half-eaten sandwich. “For what? Letting Uncle Cheol discover his true purpose in life?”
You snorted, nudging his elbow. “I meant for sneaking off like this.”
He smiled, soft and knowing. “We don’t get many days like this, Y/n. You deserve a moment.”
You let the silence stretch, comfortable and easy. The city buzzed beneath you, the familiar hum of Busan wrapping around the rooftop like a lullaby. You felt his fingers brush against yours, subtle and warm, before he laced them gently together.
“I still remember when we couldn’t even hold hands without making it weird,” you murmured.
Jeonghan tilted his head, amusement tugging at his lips. “You mean when you pretended that sitting on my lap during beach bonfires was totally platonic?”
You laughed, cheeks warming. “That was for warmth! The wind was freezing!”
He pulled you a little closer, pressing a kiss to your temple. “Sure. Just like how marrying me was only for business.”
You leaned your head on his shoulder, your smile lingering. “Well, if this is business, I guess I signed the best contract of my life.”
Down below, Seungcheol was now lying dramatically on the grass while Sera bounced on his chest, and Hana took a photo with an amused grin. You and Jeonghan watched them in fond silence.
“Do you think we’ll get to do this forever?” you asked softly.
Jeonghan looked at you with eyes that held all the answers. “With you? I hope we never stop.”
Jeonghan picked you up from your office the next day right on time, leaning against the side of his car with his sleeves rolled up and his tie loosened, looking like he stepped out of a magazine but still very much your husband. The sun was dipping low, casting gold along the pavement as you walked toward him, your steps finally relaxing after a long day.
“Where’s Sera?” you asked as you slid into the passenger seat, slipping off your heels with a sigh of relief.
“With my mom. She’s already winning them over with her toddler charm,” he replied with a smile as he started the engine. “So tonight, we get a few hours of just us.”
You glanced at him, curious. “What’s the plan?”
Jeonghan shot you a boyish grin as he turned the wheel. “I planned a dinner. Three-star Michelin. Like your favorite.”
You blinked, eyebrows rising. “Wait, seriously? You got us a reservation there?”
He chuckled. “I pulled a few strings. Remind me to thank Seungkwan later for calling in a favor.”
Your heart swelled at the thoughtfulness, and you reached over to gently rest your hand on his arm. “You didn’t have to go all out. A street cart and you beside me would’ve been enough.”
“I know,” he said, glancing over at you with that soft, slow smile that still made your stomach flip. “But you’ve had a hell of a year. You deserve more than enough.”
Your throat tightened a little at that. Sometimes, Jeonghan’s words slipped past your defenses so easily.
“You’re really good at this, you know?” you murmured.
“At what?”
“At making me fall for you all over again.”
Jeonghan let out a quiet laugh as he reached for your hand and brought it to his lips. “Good. Because I plan to keep doing it for the rest of our lives.”
As the car glided through the streets lit by soft city lights, Jeonghan kept your hand in his, occasionally stealing glances at you when he thought you weren’t looking. You caught him once, lips tugging into a smug little smile.
“You’re staring,” you teased, turning slightly in your seat to face him.
He didn’t even flinch. “Of course I am. My wife’s glowing after bossing an entire hospital today.”
You laughed, leaning your head on the headrest. “You’re ridiculous.”
He squeezed your hand. “Ridiculously in love.”
You groaned at the cheesiness, but your cheeks warmed. “You sound like Seungcheol’s girlfriend when she drinks too much wine.”
“Then I’m in good company,” he said, bringing your knuckles to his lips for a soft kiss.
The restaurant was everything he promised—romantic, elegant, but still private enough that you felt like it was just the two of you in the world. He helped you with your chair, ordered your favorite dish before you even had to say it, and poured your wine with a flourish like he was auditioning for a drama.
“You’ve really upgraded your husband skills,” you commented, swirling your glass.
Jeonghan winked. “Sera’s been giving me performance reviews. Apparently, I’m doing well.”
You leaned closer over the table, whispering like it was a secret, “You know… if you keep this up, I might just fall harder.”
He mirrored your lean, eyes warm and playful. “That’s the plan. Every day, a little more.”
The rest of the night passed with soft laughs, clinking glasses, shared dessert bites, and the kind of conversation that felt like soul food—filled with dreams, memories, and plans you both had yet to chase.
Later, as you stood by the elevator in your apartment building, he quietly laced his fingers with yours again.
“Want to dance with me?” he asked suddenly.
“Right now?” you blinked.
“Yeah. No music. Just us.”
You laughed, but you let him pull you into his arms anyway. There, under dim hallway lights, Jeonghan swayed with you—no rhythm, no reason, just warmth and love. You let your head fall to his shoulder, giggling as he twirled you softly like you were in a ballroom instead of outside your apartment door.
“I think I’m the luckiest,” you mumbled.
He kissed your temple and whispered back, “No. I am.”
And in that quiet, almost ordinary moment, you knew—this was the kind of love that would last lifetimes.
*
Such nights were a rarity, a treasure tucked away in the chaos of everyday life, when exhaustion didn't weigh you both down, and the demands of parenting didn't siphon the last drops of your energy. Jeonghan was poised above you, the warmth of his skin a comforting contrast against the cool sheets. He drew back from a lingering kiss, his breaths mingling with yours in the dimly lit room. As he entered you with a slow, deliberate rhythm, a moan slipped past your lips, a symphony to his ears that matched the gentle hum of the ceiling fan above. His hips moved with a precision that spoke of intimate knowledge, hitting that perfect cadence that sent shivers spiraling through your body and left your eyes fluttering in bliss. God, how he adored that expression on your face.
“You like it, huh?” he murmured softly, his voice a low, tantalizing whisper as he thrust a little more forcefully, igniting a spark of raw pleasure that danced between you both. His primal instincts stirred, driven wild by the sound of you crying out his name and the intoxicating sensation of your body responding to his. It was a heady mix of addiction and ecstasy, a dangerous concoction that he craved.
“Jeonghan...” you gasped, a desperate plea as he found that elusive sweet spot within you, the one that sent shockwaves of ecstasy coursing through your veins.
“Hm... What is it, baby? You want me there?” he teased, his voice laced with playful mischief, as he deliberately shifted his angle, leaving you yearning, aching for that precise touch once more.
“Please... Jeonghan...” you begged, your voice a breathless whisper, drenched in longing and desire.
He grinned, the kind of devilish, all-too-pretty smile that should have been illegal on such a cherubic face, and pushed your knees wider with his hands. “God, I love you,” he whispered, almost reverent, then buried himself in the rhythm, driving you both toward that singular, shattering point of bliss.
You lost all sense of time or consequence, the room collapsing around the epicenter of your bodies, the tangled sheets and half-open blinds dimly visible through haze. Your fingers clung to his shoulders, blunt nails leaving marks you’d find the next morning. He was unhurried but relentless, the slow, deep surges building in intensity until you could barely remember your own name, let alone worry about the prospect of Seungcheol’s inevitable wrath.
At the moment you broke, shuddering and stifling a cry against the pale slope of his neck, Jeonghan wrapped his arms around you so tightly you were sure you would shatter, right there, under the weight of him and the enormity of what you felt. The world righted itself only after, in the lull where your ragged breaths mingled, and you realized you were delicately cradled, as if he could keep you together with gentle hands alone. For a long moment, neither of you spoke, content to let limbs remain tangled, hearts thundering in asynchronous duet.
Jeonghan was the first to move. He propped himself on one elbow, brushing the hair from your damp forehead, his eyes still swimming in the afterglow. “Are you alive?” he asked, and the laugh that escaped you was small, shaky, but sincere.
“I think so,” you managed, voice thick. “I might need CPR.”
“Please. You always say that,” he teased, rolling onto his side and pressing kisses to your collarbone, the line of your jaw, the tip of your nose.
It was somewhere between a breathless laugh and a whispered “I love you” when the soft cry of your daughter filtered through the baby monitor on the nightstand.
You both froze.
Jeonghan groaned dramatically, dropping his forehead to your shoulder. “Why is our daughter’s timing so impeccable?”
You giggled, brushing the sweat-matted hair from his forehead. “She’s your daughter. Born to be dramatic.”
He sighed, rolling off you gently and grabbing a shirt from the edge of the bed. “I’ll go. You rest.”
You watched him pull the shirt over his head, the faint moonlight casting a soft glow over the stretch of his back. He still moved like a sleepy prince—even when interrupted mid-magic.
“Tell her she owes us twenty more minutes when she’s a teenager.”
He chuckled, already halfway out the door. “I’ll invoice her.”
You lay back on the pillows, heart still thudding from both the intimacy and the sudden interruption. Through the monitor, you heard the door to Sera’s room creak open, followed by Jeonghan’s soft, sleepy voice.
“Hey, princess... what’s wrong, huh?”
Her tiny sobs grew quieter, replaced by hiccups and his quiet hums—probably the lullaby he made up that never made sense but always calmed her down.
You smiled to yourself, listening to their voices mingle. It wasn’t the ending you had planned for the night, but somehow, it felt even better. Because this was your life now—love, laughter, messy timing, and a little girl who stole both your hearts.
A few minutes later, the bedroom door creaked again. Jeonghan tiptoed in, climbing back under the covers.
“She just wanted a cuddle,” he whispered, slipping his arms around you. “Guess she’s like her mom.”
You chuckled against his chest. “Did you just call me clingy?”
“I said cuddle-loving.” He kissed the top of your head. “But yes.”
You swatted his chest lightly. “I was about to give you the best night of your life.”
He grinned, already pulling you closer. “We’ve got a lifetime of nights. But for now... I’ll take cuddling both my girls.”
And just like that, tangled together in the quiet, you drifted into sleep—interrupted, imperfect, but full of love.
WANTED: A CUTE BOY WITH MESSY HAIR WHO IS TALL AND SMELLS NICE AND ENJOYS CUDDLES, WHO WILL TAKE ME TO AQUARIUMS AND POINT TO THE UGLIEST FISH THEY CAN SEE AND SAY “THAT ONE IS YOU” BUT WHO WILL ALSO TAKE ME TO PLANETARIUMS AND TELL ME THAT I AM PRETTIER THAN ALL OF THE STARS IN THE SKY.