If I knew you, I'd love you the same

18+ | fineP, TetoraP, TsukasaP |  EN/TH || enst / nuc / crsm / twst. I LIKE THE PINK (and often, blue) THINGS

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My love for you wouldn't change

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heh hey first of all your art is so peak and yummy and good! everytime u post smthn related to twst i run away with a suspiciously art shaped lump ij my throat

and secondly! sometimes i think about octotrio’s whole dynamic with one another and it sometimes just makes me go AUGHSHHHEHHAGWHAHA they make me ILL i need to EXPLODE because while they go “oh yeah we’ll just leave each other when it gets boring” you can really see how much they care for one another (even if it’s in their own silly way. the octotrio are the silliest freaks like that and i love them for it ⭐️). ITS EVEN MORE EVIDENT IN BOOK 7!! they have so much trust in one another its so AUSGHHHHHHHH

thank you! :D and YES 1000% AGREE, my favorite thing about them hands-down is that the reason Jade and Floyd feel free to mess around and give Azul such a hard time is precisely because they have so much trust in him and his ability to get them out of any situation (with a net profit to boot). dealing with their sabotage is enrichment for Azul.

and of course that bit in their arc in 7 where Azul is getting eaten by the Darkness and they're just like. ha ha. :) can't wait to see how you get out of this one. :) any minute now. :) :) ...A-Azul???

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4/105 i was trapped in the outside world yesterday

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3/105 (OC) I thought that day, you were smiling back at me.

(Doing a drawing challenge for 105 days!)

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Packing always makes me think . Something something todays natsumugi on brain maybe its . Maybe its the way that summer (our past) has gone by. Summer i loved u. I loved u and u tangled me up but i told myself i wouldnt love u anymore not after all of it is over // love the me in the present that promised to love the you that you are now and no longer who you are in the past (that red string wont go away) i love natsumugi bro

I dont talk about them a lot but i love old enstars i dont really follow the current uhhh new kids etc im sorry i dont wanna be that guy whos stuck in the old arcs but . ! Era natsumugi will always be it for me

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The summer I loved you (i never stopped) psychedelica of the black butterfly anyone. Anyone? .

The summer i never stopped loving you but i stopped being the same person who loved you back then, so who am I to say I love you still, when the love I hold is an image of you blurred in the colors of the summer I left you. (Green is the color of clover patches and jealousy)

(jealousy for the ones who remain, jealousy not unfounded, but existing in a place of awareness that it is not honest jealousy, but maybe even an excuse, to excuse your own feelings and actions)

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Something something wade into the lake while stormclouds are on the horizon because theyre not here yet and when they are, then you can run with your jackets over your head - together - youll be together then too, and it'll be ok (because their laughter combined is louder than the rainfall, and in that moment, you can forget about your health, your faults)

(Eichi, reasoning out his own life)

I need to see eichi crouched down asian squat on the floor thinking about what he rly has . How much he has man. Man.

Not the money not the wealth not es. Just uaghhhh.

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Just three people who would wait for the last second to run from stormclouds with him

Because sometimes (always) at the end of the day wataru is a storm but wataru is wataru hibiki. And wataru is the man laughing beside eichi with his h&m three toned jacket hauled above his head and running (not fast, but enough to have fun)

(Looked at this polaroid again)

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Because wataru is the eye of the storm to eichi but it wouldnt be home without the lighthouse and the sailor (that came home) standing by the shore shouting over at the two of them as the waves roll in .

Because tori is in yuzurus arms one way or another (be it held up sat on yuzurus forearms or just leaned against him) and theyre both saying things but its not like eichi can hear them over the rainclouds coming in. And then theres the bits and pieces he hears of wataru laughing next to him; running with him. Not sheltering Eichi, not holding an umbrella above him anymore just. Living. Running to the shoreline holding both of their shoes and laughing.

Wataru's laughter is just loud enough to be heard over the rain, and it's enough. Its enough for Eichi. That by the time Eichi and Wataru have reached shelter - Yuzuru has put tori down and is grabbing towels to wrangle everyone's hair dry with a much heavier hand than anyone would expect from a butler; and a kind tone of voice coupled with words you'd think were kind.

Id think its the type of love Eichi would never be able to live through again.

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My one and only

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Its only been four months. What happened.

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Down bad thats what happened .

Yuzuru fushimi the man youve learned to be for those that you love for the sake of you yourself (even as you say its for another)

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Loves me loves me not

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My one and only

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Its only been four months. What happened.

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I lost to my inner demons ⚠️⚠️⚠️😥😥😥 that one shot has been in my head all day theres no way that should be ok isnt that hand positioning so intimate for the stage in a way you never think of? Under the arm is such a. ?????????? ? Ive lost. Im losing. That was not drawn with my brain on. Holyyyy Holy . I had to rewatch for wataru. I was busy staring at yuzuru

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Like genuinely i think its driving me insane

One hand behind your back very gently clasped the other under toris arm . Near his heart. Near his heart !! . That specific portion of the human body being allowed to be in contact is so . So . Im driving myself insane. Its not the front portion either its . Anyways. Also the gap between them is so gorgeous. That gap is beautiful wow. Thank you yuzuru fushimi thank you tori himemiya

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Diagram attached. This space. Is so good.

HIS HAND IS OVER TORIS HAND. dont run away? """ and then spinning tori out. Ohhh my hod. That triangle shape like youre too scared to fully commit but you need the lingering touch to exist still. That sense of intimacy being so disconnected at a full angle is so . Good . Its so good.

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I lost to my inner demons ⚠️⚠️⚠️😥😥😥 that one shot has been in my head all day theres no way that should be ok isnt that hand positioning so intimate for the stage in a way you never think of? Under the arm is such a. ?????????? ? Ive lost. Im losing. That was not drawn with my brain on. Holyyyy Holy . I had to rewatch for wataru. I was busy staring at yuzuru

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Like genuinely i think its driving me insane

One hand behind your back very gently clasped the other under toris arm . Near his heart. Near his heart !! . That specific portion of the human body being allowed to be in contact is so . So . Im driving myself insane. Its not the front portion either its . Anyways. Also the gap between them is so gorgeous. That gap is beautiful wow. Thank you yuzuru fushimi thank you tori himemiya

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I lost to my inner demons ⚠️⚠️⚠️😥😥😥 that one shot has been in my head all day theres no way that should be ok isnt that hand positioning so intimate for the stage in a way you never think of? Under the arm is such a. ?????????? ? Ive lost. Im losing. That was not drawn with my brain on. Holyyyy Holy . I had to rewatch for wataru. I was busy staring at yuzuru

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I dont talk about it a lot but i love akeshu (unreciprocated) (dream of 2/2) (trying to force an ideal onto someone else to prove i can love it / to the you that never existed because even in truth, deep down, your morals were never exactly so - it was what I wanted to believe, to become, so badly.) To a world where you were who i wished you were [its perverted, its maddening. Deeply sickening to want the other still after that realization. To know that every step of agreement - even to the fact of him saying "it is trivial" those are steps though up by you. By a you that could only handle minor resistance to a love that never existed. But you can have this, with the guilt and pleasure. Isnt that enough?

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Its grief that can never be accomodated for with the person being alive in front of you (have you lost that gentleness, already - are you who I left, so many years ago, and returned to your existence unstagnated.)

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cross posted on x [🔗] !!

If there is lulu who sees 🐣 as lin daiyu; and a 🐣 who sees lulu as frau eva: then maybe it is not that they (mimilulu) are similar but that they are reaching out to what they are attracted to in hopes that that person will turn around ?

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Redraw. Its been 2 years? Oh frau eva . Mimilulu revived im so sorry i miss them and im terrified for lulus chapter

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A year and a bit later, 2 cantos down and a smile that means a budding sense of home wherever you are (one that you won't want to let go of, later on) (mimilulu 3 years)

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Yuzuru has fallen for Every Single Member of fine On this Island AND JED PSYCHEDELICA?

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An amazing blooming

To kinda go with this eitori art!