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JULIAN
Career Change
Avery sat at the bar, drinking his third hard seltzer of the evening and getting lost in the haze. He couldn’t believe he was just laid off from his office desk job of 10 years. He didn’t know what he would do now or how he was going to make rent for his apartment. He had enough savings for a few months, but living in Boston was expensive.
The bar was loud but he drowned it out. There were a group of construction workers having beers a few tables away and having a good time.
Avery didn’t drink often. When he did though, he became a lot more talkative. He was telling the bartender everything. How he was laid off and how he was worried. The bartender just listened and kept him supplied with White Claws.
“Hey, buddy,” a deep voice sounded behind him. It was met with a touch of a hand on his shoulder, which startled him. “Doing alright?”
Avery turned around and saw a large man with a long beard. He was both muscular and hefty. His skin was tan and sun baked. He wore a construction vest. He looked dirty from working outside all day. He smelled of sweat and smoke. He stopped to talk as his buddies left the bar.
“Oh…umm…I’ll be alright,” Avery answered.
The man sat next to him and asked, “Sure about that?”
This man seemed intimidating, but also warm in an almost protective way. Avery opened up and flatly said, “No. Not sure what I’m going to do. I just have been laid off.”
“Heard that,” the man said, “Name’s Ox.”
“Ox?” Avery asked back, never hearing that name before.
The man leaned in and whispered, “Short for Oxford, but nobody knows that. And I plan on keeping it that way.”
“Gotcha. I’m Avery,” he chuckled.
Ox held out his hand, “Nice to meet ya, Avery.”
Avery shook it with a “You too, Ox.”
“So, you’re out of a job?” Ox continued, “Ever done construction?”
“No, never,” Avery answered.
“Want to?”
Avery remembered watching the construction workers across the street from his office window. He sometimes was envious of being able to work outside all day and being free from all the formalities that came with a corporate job.
“Umm…not sure if I would be a right fit. Look at me,” Avery confessed.
Ox laughed, “We all start somewhere. Know it would be different than whatever office you came from, but you’d learn. Better than being unemployed. Can be temporary until you find something else.”
What Ox was saying was true. It would be better than being unemployed.
“Sure, okay,” Avery said.
“Perfect!”
The two of them chatted for a bit and Ox told him where to report to tomorrow morning before heading out.
Outside, Ox took out a pack of Marlboro Reds and slid one out with his lips before lighting it up. Before parting ways, Avery asked, “Why are you offering to help me?”
“Trust me bubs, I was once in your shoes. Exactly in your shoes. It didn’t seem like it at the time, but it was the best thing that ever happened to me,” Ox answered.
Avery reached out his hand and Ox shook it. “Thanks, I appreciate it.”
—
Avery reported to the job site. He woke up with second thoughts, but decided to not let Ox down and to give it a go. He wore his tennis shoes, jeans and a long sleeved dress shirt.
The minute Ox saw him, he said, “Buddy, I’m glad you showed up but you can’t wear tennis shoes on site.”
The color in Avery’s face drained, “It’s all I have. I don’t own boots.” Avery feared he was going to be fired before even starting.
“I got an extra pair you can borrow in my trailer. Follow me,” Ox said.
Ox unlocked the trailer and gestured Avery inside. His trailer was messy and smelled of stale smoke. Ox lit up a cigarette as he grabbed a pair of boots that were sitting on a chair.
“Put ‘em on,” he said as his lit cigarette bounced, “And if you got an undershirt, take off the fancy one.”
Avery did as he told as Ox looked through some filing cabinets. The boots fit just right and he had a tank top under his dress shirt, luckily.
“You have to fill these out then when can get started,” Ox said as he handed Avery some standard new employment paperwork.
When he was done, Ox looked over it, “Bullock? Your last name is Bullock?”
“Yes,” Avery confirmed, “Why?”
Ox chuckled as smoke exhaled from his nose, “I’m calling you Bull from now on. Ox and Bull.” Ox then gave Avery a vest and a hard hat, “Put that on and let’s get started, Bull.”
Ox showed Avery the job site. There were other men already hard at work who all knew what they were doing. These men looked rugged and strong. He noticed most of the men were smoking and wondered why most blue collar men smoke. Ox must have felt Avery’s lack of confidence because he said, “Don’t worry, Bull. You’ll be working with me for a while. I’ll teach ya.”
The two men started working. Avery was surprised that Ox was a good teacher; he explained everything, was patient and never made Avery feel stupid. After a couple of hours, Avery was already feeling exhausted so Ox suggested they take a “smoke break” - even though Ox was smoking the entire morning as they worked.
“You smoke?” Ox asked.
“No,” Avery answered.
Ox laughed and said, “Never smoked myself until I started construction work.”
“Oh,” Avery responded, knowing he would never pick up the habit himself.
After a long day at work, Ox invited Avery to go to a bar for some food and beer. “First day beer is on me, Bull,” he said.
“Umm…sure, I’ll go. Thanks, Ox,” Avery said.
—
After a month of working as a construction worker, Avery was getting use to working long, hard days. He found himself liking the work and spending his day with Ox and the other men. He was starting to feel like he belonged, but still felt a like a fish out of water. He and his coworkers were still just too different. Most of the guys, with the exception of Ox, called him “Pretty Boy”. Avery knew it was in a friendly teasing way, but it still bothered him.
At lunch, Avery and Bull sat down on a makeshift bench. Ox lit up a fresh cigarette and the smoke drifted into Avery’s face. By now, Avery was use to it as Ox seemed to smoke all the time.
Avery looked around and saw most of the men were smoking on their lunch break. The workers chatted and smoked, almost like their same habits almost united them. Like a shared connection.
“Umm…Ox? Mind if I try one of your cigarettes?”
“Sure, Bull,” Ox said as he tossed him his pack and lighter, “Tryin’ the fit in, eh?”
“You could say that,” Avery confirmed. He figured most of the guys seem to enjoy it, so he might as well give it a shot.
After watching Ox smoke for a month, Avery had an idea what to do. He slid a Marlboro Red out of the pack and placed it between his lips. He then flicked the lighter and brought the flame to the end. He took a drag and inhaled, deeper than he planned. To his surprise, though, he didn’t cough. He exhaled the smoke and saw Ox grin.
“Smokin’ like a pro,” Ox laughed, “You like it?”
“Yeah, actually it’s not bad,” Avery answered truthfully. It wasn’t what he expected. It was better.
The two men finished their smokes before heading back to work.
—
A few months passed and the construction work was now natural to Avery. He had bulked up with the hard labor and had grown out his beard. He felt like he was now one of the blue collar guys. Everyone stopped calling him “Pretty Boy”. He was now Bull.
Bull worked hard as he smoked throughout the day by Ox’s side. He enjoyed smoking; it felt manly. He kept with it to blend in and connect with Ox and the other workers, but it was now a necessity. He slipped into addiction and realized it when it was too late. He didn’t mind though.
He and Ox not only were coworkers who grabbed a beer after work, they had become good friends.
They were carrying some lumber when Ox spoke up, “So still looking for a new job?”
“No, stopped looking,” Bull said as he exhaled some smoke, “Enjoy the labor too much. Feels like home.”
“Atta man,” Ox grinned.
After work that day, Ox and Bull went to the nearby dive bar to get a few beers in and eat a grease filled dinner.
“Going to have to find a new place though,” Bull chimed in, “Rent is too high. Gotta downsize and downgrade, unfortunately.”
“Come live with me,” Ox suggested.
Bull laughed but Ox’s face said he was serious, “Oh shit, you for real?”
“Yeah man,” Ox confirmed, “Got my own house. It’ll be cheaper for ya. And less rules than that pretty boy apartment you got too.”
“I’ll think ‘bout it,” Bull said and it was left at that.
—
Another few months had passed and Bull was spending a lot of time with Ox. They became pretty close. Even on the weekends, they hung out. They chained smoked, drank many beers and ate unhealthy food. Bull gained a bit of a beer gut.
On a Sunday night, Bull was at Ox’s house. They ordered a couple of pizzas and watched a football game.
Bull loved spending time at Ox’s house. He was able to smoke inside and light up at anytime, unlike his apartment.
Later that evening when Bull got back home, he stood outside having a couple of smokes before heading in. It was time to cut ties to his old self.
He gave Ox a call, “Hey Ox, your offer about living with you still on the table?”
“Of course, Bull,” Ox said.
—
It had been over a year since Avery became Bull, the gruff construction worker. He loved his new life and couldn’t imagine going back to the corporate office.
Without even realizing it, Ox had quite the influence on Bull. Bull had buzzed his head and got a tattoo sleeve. He was planning on getting the other arm done soon.
He spent his days off hanging out with Ox, drinking beer and eating whatever he wanted. He had no worries in life. It was simple and freeing.
The two men would indulge in pleasures on their days off while watching tv in only tank tops and boxers.
Bull’s voice became deeper from all the smoking and extra weight; he had never felt manlier.
Most people had assumed Bull and Ox were brothers as they looked a lot alike.
One day on a construction site, the two men stood taking a break from their work.
“Remember when you said getting fired and working construction was the best thing that ever happened to ya?” Bull asked.
“I sure do,” Ox said.
“Well, I gotta say it was the best thing for me too,” Bull said.
University of Westbrook: Standardizing the Future
Chapter 1: The Last Day of Liberty
The Quad of the University of Westbrook Liberal Arts & Sciences was a chaotic tapestry of 21st-century individuality. It was a humid Tuesday in September, Month 0 of the new academic year. The air was thick with the sound of conflicting bluetooth speakers, the smell of street vendor food, and the absolute uncurbed freedom of thousands of adults navigating higher education.
Near the central fountain, four friends were gathered, embodying the peak of modern campus life.
Jaxson, the undisputed star of the varsity swim team, was lounging on the grass. At 21, he possessed the lean, V-tapered physique of a professional athlete. His defining feature was his hair—a sun-bleached, golden-blonde mane that fell past his shoulders, smelling of chlorine and surf wax. He was currently wearing a tattered vintage graphic tee, distressed denim shorts, and backwards baseball cap.
Sitting opposite him was Eli, the group’s resident counter-culture historian. Also 21, Eli was lanky and unconditioned. His dark brown hair was a wild, unkempt thicket reaching his mid-back, partially obscured by a woven beanie. He wore a patched tie-dye hoodie, hemp trousers, and Birkenstocks with socks, holding a paperback on radical theory.
Nearby, the two "Big Brothers" of the group, Brody and Mason, were sharing a large pepperoni pizza. Both were 21 and clinically obese, representing a completely different modern aesthetic.
Brody, a gentle giant of a blonde, had hair almost as long as Jaxson’s, though it was straight and thin, falling around his soft face. He wore an XXXL neon-green e-sports jersey and sagging cargo shorts that strained against his frame.
Mason, who shared Brody’s hefty stature, preferred his hair short. It was a messy, dark buzzcut that required zero maintenance. He was squeezed into a tight black hoodie and sweatpants, his focus entirely on his smartphone. They were comfortable, unjudged, and entirely representative of the diverse student body.
Chloe was saying the Eco-Activist Coalition is staging a sit-in at the admin building today," Eli mentioned, nodding toward the distant structure. "They’re protesting the new endowment investment portfolio."
"Good luck to them," Jaxson stretched, showing a sliver of defined obliques. "Liam from the basketball team said Dean Sterling hasn't been seen in three weeks. Apparently, he’s been locked in his office with some consultants from Europe."
Just as Brody started a joke about the Dean being replaced by an AI, every smartphone in the vicinity pinged simultaneously. It was a mandatory university-wide alert.
ATTENTION STUDENTS: Mandatory Assembly at 4:00 PM today in the Westbrook Auditorium. Dean Harrison Sterling will announce the 'Westbrook Renaissance' Initiative. Attendance is non-negotiable for all undergraduates.
The four friends exchanged confused glances. Non-negotiable? That wasn't how Westbrook operated.
They weren't the only ones confused. As they stood up, they saw Maya Rodriguez and Ethan Cross arguing with Liam Foster near the campus pride center about whether this violated student autonomy laws. Sophia Chen and members of the Esports League were already live-streaming their annoyance.
The mood on the campus shifted instantly. It was the first ripple in a flat pond.
At 4:00 PM, thousands of students crammed into the auditorium, a chaotic sea of individuality. They sat in small groups, including the Young Socialists Network, the Greek Life Council, and the Digital Arts Collective.
The lights dimmed.
When Dean Harrison Sterling stepped onto the stage, he was not the dishevelled academic they remembered. He was clean-shaven, his grey hair cut into a severe, shellacked side-part. He wore a pristine, sharply tailored charcoal suit that looked like it belonged in a 1950s period drama.
His presence was magnetic, authoritative, and terrifyingly cold. When he spoke, his voice boomed without the need for a microphone.
"Students of Westbrook," Sterling began, his gaze sweeping the modern crowd with evident disdain. "You are not here to 'find yourselves.' You are not here to wallow in mediocrity under the guise of expression. You are not here to be comfortable. The modern experiment has failed. Westbrook will no longer produce soft, undisciplined adults."
A murmur of protest rippled through the crowd, but Sterling raised a hand, and silence fell like a guillotine.
"As of this moment, the 'University of Westbrook Liberal Arts & Sciences' is defunct. We are returning to a foundational model of excellence. We are initiating the shift. We are standardizing the future."
He snapped his fingers, and a massive screen behind him illuminated.
THE WESTBROOK TRANSITION BLUEPRINT
MONTH 0: THE INITIAL MANDATE
The following protocols are immediate and mandatory for all students remaining at the institution.
I. Uniform Code
At this preliminary stage, standard civilian clothing is permitted. However, apparel must be intact. Ripped jeans, distressed shirts, or clothing with "vulgar" modern graphics are banned.
II. Gender Separation
The institution is beginning the transition to an all-male structure. Co-educational housing is disbanded. Male students will be grouped in North Quad; Female students will occupy South Quad pending imminent transfer protocols.
III. Behavioral Standards
All co-educational social interactions must be supervised by faculty proctors.
The auditorium erupted. Brody dropped his phone. Eli looked sick. Jaxson simply couldn't comprehend what he was reading.
Dean Sterling stood center stage, a grim, satisfied smile on his face as the screen brightened, already broadcasting images of faculty members in standardized grey blazers moving out into the rows to enforce the new decorum rules.
The modern era of Westbrook had just died. Thanks for reading the first chapter of the Westbrook Transformation! Drop a comment and let me know your thoughts on the starting characters.
TEASER: PROTEUS LABORATORIES - SOCCER
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An upcoming interactive, choose your own adventure tf story! Progress on this has been slow, so I did a poll here on tumblr to see what ending yall would like to see next! Yall picked the soccer player ending, so here you go champs!
"Please select any of the following sports you consider to be an active hobby or interest of yours:". The options are a bland list, but one stands out to you. Soccer.
A wry, almost bitter smile touches your lips. You haven’t played a sport since compulsory PE in secondary school, where you’d been the last picked, the clumsy one who preferred the library to the pitch. But a faint, ghostly sensation flickers in your memory: the fleeting, forgotten thrill of connecting your foot with a ball, the cheer of a non-existent crowd. A fantasy. A lie.
Your hand, holding the pen, hovers. On a whim, a tiny act of imagining a different life, you check the box next to Soccer. You aren't sure what to expect, but it isn't a jolt.
It starts at your fingertips, where your fingers touch the pen. A sharp, electric SNAP of static that races up your arm, not painful but profoundly invasive. The simple form seems to blur, the letters swirling into a vortex of green pitch lines and ghostly, roaring chants. A low hum fills your ears, syncing with the frantic, sudden pounding of your own heart.
The scent hits you first, exploding in the sterile air: freshly cut grass & mud, cold rain, and hormonal musk. It is the smell of the pitch. It is a smell your brain associates with... you? A deep, resonant hum vibrates through your bones. Your spine, used to being hunched over a keyboard, pops and cracks, forcing itself straight, then settling into an athlete’s ready, balanced posture. Your shoulders, narrow and sloping, begin to burn. A fierce, stretching, and tearing sensation as your clavicles broadened, your deltoid muscles swelling from nothing, rounding into powerful, defined caps. Your rib cage expands with a groan of cartilage, pushing outward, creating a vast, cavernous space in your chest. You can suddenly breathe much deeper than before, full lungfuls of the potent, masculine air that now fills the room.
The hum becomes a river of molten, golden energy, surging through you. It is the adrenaline of a last-minute goal, the power of a sprint down the wing, the relentless drive of a training session. It detonates down your spine, thickening the ropes of muscle along your vertebrae, erasing the softness of your back. It floods your shoulders and back - the trapezius muscles thickening into a formidable form, lats flaring outwards into a dramatic V-taper that makes your waist seem narrower, yet harder. Your pectorals, previously undefined, swell into thick, firm slabs, pressing against your slim-fit shirt, the buttons straining.
Your arms, resting on the desk, begin to bulge. Biceps thicken like coiled hawsers, triceps harden into dense, horseshoe-shaped slabs, your forearms have veins that rise to the surface like blue rivers beneath skin that is darkening to a healthy, sun-kissed tan. Your hands ache, fingers thickening, knuckles becoming pronounced and strong - a player’s hands, meant for controlling a ball, for throwing it in, for gentle, celebratory head-tousles that were really displays of power. Your thighs press against your chair, quadriceps harden into powerful tree trunks, the chino fabric groans in protest. A deep cramp seizes your calves as the muscles there expand, shaping themselves into sculpted diamonds of pure power. You groan, a sound that starts as your usual shocked gasp and deepens, mid-note, into a guttural, resonant rumble that vibrates in your newly cavernous chest - the sound of pure, athletic power awakening. "Ungh... yeah..."
The energy surges upwards, as your jaw aches as it squares off, your cheeks losing their softness, becoming defined and harder. A dark, prickling shadow erupts across your jaw and cheeks - thickening instantly into a perfect, sexy scruff, meticulously messy. Your cheekbones sharpen. Your nose seems straighter, stronger? Your lips, once thin, become fuller, settling into a permanent, confident, slightly cocky smirk. Your hair - your carefully styled, longer hair - darkens at the roots to a rich, chestnut brown, then shortens violently, coarsening into a short, textured, effortlessly cool crop that screams of post-shower gels and fingers running through it after a win. Your eyes... your intelligent, thoughtful gaze vanishes, being replaced by a bright, vacant blue. They hold no complex thoughts, only a dawning arrogance, a competitive fire, and a deep, smoldering, hunger.
The faint scent clinging to you is violently annihilated. Erupting from your pores is a new, potent signature, matching that you smelled just seconds ago. It mingles with the phantom smells of the pitch, creating a new cloud: The old you is gone. This new man smells like a football star. You smell expensive and horny.
The golden fire in your mind is blazing away as your old world dissolves. It is erased with a violent, final contempt. Gay? The thought surfaces only to be met with a wave of aggressive, confused disgust. Weak. Soft. That isn't you. It has never been you. Your thoughts are replaced by a flood of sensations and memories that are sharper, more real, more yours than anything that has come before. You recall the burn in your chest during a full-pitch sprint, the thud of a perfectly timed tackle, the roar of the crowd chanting your name. The smell of the locker room after you bring a win, the feel of your teammates' slaps on your back, and you giving them head ruffles, the taste of cheap champagne. The sight of girls on the sidelines, their eyes wide and mouths open, screaming for you. The way their bodies look in tight tops, the only thing that feels... right. The constant thrum in your blood, the ache for competition, for physical release, for women. A pure, hormonal surge, that becomes the centre of your universe. Your fuel.
Your entire personality narrows into a single, laser-focused channel: Football. Fitness. Females. In that order. Intelligence is a currency you no longer trade in. Bliss is this simple, brutal, hormonal clarity.
A slow, arrogant smirk spreads across your new face. It feels natural. Right. Yours. You look down at your body, at the shirt that is now stretching drum-tight over your sculpted, powerful torso. You flex an arm, watching the muscle swell and the fabric strain. Pride, fierce and warm, floods you. 'Look at that. Absolute weapon.'
You are Lucas. Lucas, who plays striker for a Sunday league team you are sure is gonna go pro. You’ve always been Lucas.
The low thrum in your body intensifies, becoming a hot, liquid pull low in your gut. The arousal is immediate, insistent, a demanding pulse that syncs with your heartbeat. Your new, thick cock strains against your ruined chinos, a heavy, unfamiliar weight that feels utterly, perfectly right. It is a tool for pleasure. For women’s pleasure.
With a grunt, you shift stance, adopting a more cocky, manspreading position. You don't need to think; you act. Driven by the primal heat coursing through you, by the dumb, horny certainty of your new self. Your thick, strong fingers tear at the remains of your trousers. Your new, calloused hand wraps around your thick, hard cock. The touch is electric, a circuit of pure, narcissistic lust completing, images of women flashing in your mind.
You begin to stroke, not with shame, but with a confident, possessive rhythm. Your eyes aren't closed; they are locked on your reflection in the dark monitor screen - on the powerful arm working, the bicep bulging and swelling with each stroke, the thick veins, the perfect stubble, the vacant, hungry blue eyes. 'Fuck, look at me.'
“Yeah… score…” you grunt, your voice a deep, stupid rasp, a hint of a laddish accent colours your words. Each pump is practically an affirmation. With each stroke, another fragment of yourself is annihilated, and replaced by the solid, sensory reality of Lucas.
The phantom roar of a crowd echoes in your ears. The smell of the pitch. The feel of a trophy in your hands. The memory of a hundred girls, their numbers in your phone, their eager mouths. It is all yours. It has always been yours.
Your rhythm becomes more urgent, your breath comes in ragged, powerful grunts. The muscles in your stomach clench into a hard, rippled board. Your powerful thighs tremble. The pleasure builds, a terrifying, incredible peak of pure, mindless, straight release. With a final, guttural roar that is pure, unadulterated Lucas, you cum. Thick, hot ropes shoot across your now defined abdomen, the smell of it - musky, potent, and virile - mixes with the scent of your sweat.
You slump back in the chair, breathing heavily, a sheen of sweat glistening on your incredible new physique. You look down at the mess on your stomach, then at your own hand, and let out a low, throaty, arrogant laugh. “Fuckin’ legend.” You are Lucas. You are strong. You are sexy. You are horny. And you are so, so fucking dumb. The survey lies discarded and forgotten on the floor, a meaningless trigger for your true form. You need to hit the gym. You need to find your mates for a kickabout. You need to find a chick. Right fucking now. The king of the pitch is ready to play.
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The Birthday
For Nate's birthday,his family wanted to help him become like them,by offering him very special gifts instead of the money he wanted, at first he didn't understand, but the perfection of his polo shirt helped him align with his family's mentality, his Uncle was a skilled psychologist in hypnosis and told Nate not to worry about feeling lonely in this preppification because soon all his friends would be exactly like him.
Do you want to know Their motivation? Believe me, it's deeper than you might think.
23 year old me vs 33 old me
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Don´t buy cheap truck-stop cigars
Beautiful eyes zero guard buzz...
Shaved and Claimed
(I was feeling horny, so I wrote this story, well, my cock did most of the writing lol.)
I never gave the new tenant much thought until the day he moved in. I’d lived in this quiet, leafy block of flats for six years, solid brick, good neighbours, the kind of place where solicitors and accountants waved politely in the hallway. Then he arrived. Bald head gleaming under the corridor lights, thick tattoos crawling up his neck, heavy boots thudding on the carpet. I told myself it was none of my business. I was Alexander Thorp, thirty-eight, senior manager at Hargrove & Partners. Suits, spreadsheets, and a glass of Merlot after work. Orderly. Safe. That summed me up.
The first knock came that same evening.
I opened the door, and there he was, two cans of lager in one meaty hand. “Name’s Mal,” he said, voice low and rolling, as distant thunder smoothed with gravel. “Just moved in next door. Thought we should get acquainted.”
“My name is Alexander,” I stuttered, nice to meet you. “Yeah, good to meet you to, Alex.” I hated being called Alex. I tried to tell him that. But he brushed it off.
He offered me a lager, something I don’t usually drink, but something about the way he looked at me made refusing feel rude. We stood in my kitchen.
He cracked open the cans and started talking, nothing special, just about the building, the area, how he liked it here. His voice had this rhythm. Steady. Deep. Each sentence seemed to settle in my chest and loosen something. My shoulders dropped. The usual tension from the office drained away.
“Feels good, doesn’t it?” he murmured after a while. “Just two mates having a drink. We’re going to be best of friends, Alex. Real close.”
I laughed, a little hazy. “Yeah… sure.”
He smiled like he knew I’d say it.
He started coming round most evenings. Always with drinks. Always that same calm, rolling voice telling me to relax, to let the day go. I found myself looking forward to the knocks. The flat felt warmer with him in it. One night, he handed me a cigarette without asking. I hadn’t smoked since university, but I took it. The first drag made my head spin pleasantly. Mal nodded approvingly.
“Looks right on you,” he said. “A man should have a smoke at the end of the day. Clears the bullshit out.”
I started keeping a pack in the drawer. When I got home from work, I’d change out of the suit into jeans and a polo shirt, comfortable things I suddenly preferred. Mal would already be on my sofa, boots up on the coffee table, and I’d join him. We’d drink, smoke, talk. Or rather, he’d talk, and I’d listen. It felt… good. Simple.
The changes at work crept in so quietly I barely noticed them at first.
I snapped at a junior solicitor over a minor filing error. Nothing major, just a sharper tone than usual. The satisfaction that followed surprised me. A week later, I caught myself loosening my tie in the lift, impatient with the starched collar.
Once a month, we had dress-down Friday. We paid one hundred pounds, all the money went to charity, that Friday morning I pulled on a pair of black Doc Martens I’d bought on a whim after Mal mentioned them. They looked ridiculous with chinos, so I swapped the chinos for darker jeans. Then I added a crisp Ben Sherman shirt, pale blue, buttoned neatly, and a set of white braces I found tucked in the back of my wardrobe. I don’t remember buying the braces, but they felt correct. Natural.
I looked in the mirror before leaving and felt a low, warm pulse of approval. Stronger. More solid.
Colleagues noticed. Sarah from Accounts raised an eyebrow. “New look, Alexander?” “Comfortable,” I grunted. The old easy smile I used to wear felt like an effort.
When one of the partners questioned a report later that morning, I felt heat rise in my neck. My voice came out harder than intended. “It’s correct. Don’t waste my time.
”The words tasted metallic and sweet.
Mal was waiting when I got home that evening. He looked me up and down and grinned slowly.
“Starting to look the part, mate.”
I should have asked what he meant. Instead, I opened two cans, lit a cigarette, and let that deep voice wash over me again. He told me how much better I looked. How much clearer things were becoming. How weak the old version of me had been, always apologising, always smoothing things over, always soft. His words sank in like warm oil.
“You’re stronger than that, Alex. You feel it, don’t you?”
I did. The anger at work wasn’t a problem; it was honest. The boots felt powerful on the pavement. The braces held me upright. When I walked into meetings, I now saw the little flinches, the way eyes dropped. Respect, finally.
Last night, Mal brought round a razor. He sat me down in the bathroom, clippers buzzing.
“Time to clean it up proper,” he said softly.
I watched in the mirror as my hair fell away. The man staring back looked harder. Clearer. Mal’s hands were firm on my scalp. His voice never stopped murmuring, friends, crew, belonging, strength. When he finished, he rested a heavy hand on my shoulder.
“You’re coming along nicely he whispered.” Taking me out of my trance-like state.
The old Alex, the quiet, careful, soft-handed man, felt like someone I used to know. Distant. Irrelevant. I took a long drag on my cigarette and smiled at my reflection. The boots, the braces, the fresh-shaved head. It all fit.
Mal asked how I felt. My answer surprised me, “About time,” I said, voice lower than it used to be.
Mal clapped me on the back and laughed. I laughed with him deep, easy, certain.
It was Friday night I stood in front of the mirror, running my hand over my freshly shaved head. It still felt strange, smooth, cool, powerful. The old Alexander would have been horrified. The new Alex felt a low, steady thrill every time I caught my reflection.
Mal had been watching me from the doorway, that slow, satisfied grin on his face.
“Looking sharp, mate,” he said, voice low and warm like always. “But we’re stepping it up tonight. My lads are down at The Crown. Proper local pub, none of that poncey wine-bar shit you used to go to. Time you met the crew.”
I nodded without thinking. Of course. Mal was my best mate. The only one who really understood what I needed now.
He disappeared into the hallway for a moment and came back carrying a pair of bleachers. They looked tight, heavily worn. The kind of trousers I would have sneered at six weeks ago.
“Get changed,” he told me. Not a suggestion. A calm instruction.
I trusted him completely. He was the one who had shown me how weak I used to be. I stripped off the dark jeans I’d been wearing and pulled on the bleachers. They hugged my arse and legs tightly. I then laced up my boots after Mal had told me to replace the laces with white laces. I kept the Ben Sherman shirt. Pulled the white braces over my shoulders.
The whole outfit felt locked together now. Complete.
Mal stepped up behind me as I adjusted the braces in the mirror. I felt the heat of his body close, his breath on the back of my newly shaved head. One heavy hand came down on my shoulder and squeezed. “Fuck me, you look the part now, Alex,” he murmured, voice dropping into that hypnotic rhythm that always melted my thoughts. “No more pretending. No more soft little manager hiding behind a suit. This is you. Tonight’s going to seal it. You’ll drink with the lads, you’ll stand tall, and you’ll feel exactly who I have changed you into.”
A shiver ran down my spine, part nerves, part excitement. I met his eyes in the mirror.
“I’m ready,” I said. My voice sounded deeper. Rougher.
Mal clapped me on the back, hard enough to make me straighten up.
“Good lad. Let’s go.”
We walked out of the flat together. The bleachers felt strange at first, tight and obvious, but every step made them feel more natural. The heavy Docs thudded on the stairs. A couple of neighbours glanced at us on the way down, eyes widening before they quickly looked away. I didn’t care. I actually liked it.
Outside, the evening air was cool on my shaved head. Mal walked beside me, shoulder to shoulder, guiding me towards the pub at the end of the road I’d never bothered visiting before. I could already hear the low rumble of voices and music spilling out. I felt my heart beating harder, but not with fear. But with anticipation.
Mal glanced sideways at me and smirked.
“Tonight, you stop being their Alexander,” he said quietly. “Tonight you become Alex and ours.”
I pulled a cigarette from my pack, lit it, and took a long drag as we approached the door. The smoke curled up past my face. I exhaled slowly, feeling the last faint traces of the old me dissolve.
“About time,” I replied.
And I meant it.
The heavy wooden door of The Crown swung open and the noise hit me like a wave: laughter, shouting, the clink of glasses, old Oi! tracks playing low on the speakers. The smell of beer, smoke, and sweat filled the air. For a split second, I hesitated on the threshold in my bleachers, braces, and boots.
Then Mal put his hand reassuringly between my shoulder blades and pushed me inside.
Everything changed the moment I crossed into the pub.
My shoulders squared. My jaw tightened. The nervous middle-manager part of me that still lingered in the background simply switched off. I felt my face settle into a hard, confident sneer as we walked through the pub. Heads turned. A few older lads nodded at Mal, then their eyes moved to me, appraising, measuring.
Mal steered me toward a large table in the corner where five skinheads were already drinking. All shaved, all tattooed, all dressed in similar: tight polos, bleachers, braces, and boots. They looked up.
“This is Alex,” Mal announced, his voice carrying. “The new neighbour. He’s sound. He’s One of us now.”
For a second, they just stared. Then the biggest one, a stocky bloke with a spiderweb tattoo on his neck, grinned and slammed a fresh pint down in front of me.
“Welcome to the crew, Alex. Any mate of Mal’s is welcome here.”
I didn’t smile politely as the old me would have. I grabbed the pint, raised it, and took a long, deep gulp. Beer spilt down my chin. I wiped it with the back of my hand and slammed the glass back on the table.
“Cheers, lads,” I said, my voice loud and rough. “Fucking good to be here.”
They cheered. One of them clapped me hard on the back. Another lit a cigarette and passed it straight to me. I took it naturally, inhaling deep while I eyeballed every one of them. No weakness. No hesitation. I felt powerful. Accepted. Home.
The rest of the night blurred into pints, stories, and aggression. I laughed louder than I ever had. When one of the lads told a story about smashing some posh twat who looked at him funny, I found myself adding my own sharp comments, my temper quick and vicious. They loved it. They accepted me completely. I was no longer the suited middle manager from the nice flats. I was Alex the skinhead.
Mal’s boy.
By closing time, I was buzzing, half-drunk, fully alive.
Mal and I left together, arms slung around each other’s shoulders as we walked back through the quiet streets. My bleachers and boots felt like a second skin now. The shaved head, the braces, the attitude, it all fit perfectly.
“You did well tonight,” Mal said, that deep hypnotic tone back in his voice.
“Proud of you, mate.”
I nodded. “I’m still at the law firm during the day,” I told him, almost amused by the absurdity. “Still closing deals, still wearing the suit. But it’s just a disguise now. The real me is this.”
Mal grinned. “Exactly. And you’re going to help me bring in the rest of the block. Starting with that accountant on the third floor. Soft hands, soft life. He needs fixing. You’ll invite him round for drinks. You’ll talk to him the way I talked to you. Yeah?” “Yeah,” I said without a flicker of doubt. “I know exactly how to do it. He’ll trust me. I used to be like him.”
Mal clapped me on the back again as we reached our building. “Good lad. I’m the boss, but you’re my right hand in that block. We’re going to own it.”
We stopped outside my door. I looked at him, my best mate, my leader and felt nothing but loyalty and pride.
“Fancy a nightcap, Boss,” I said.
We stepped into my flat, wearing our bleachers and braces, I caught my reflection in the hallway mirror. Hard face. Shaved head. Cold eyes. A proud smile crept across my lips.
I fetched two more lagers and settled on the sofa, our boots resting on the coffee table in front of us.
As I leaned over, something snapped inside of me. I felt a great attraction for this man, who had broken me and remade me in his liking. I kissed him deeply, our cocks sprang to life. I soon found myself on my knees looking up at him as he gave me the nod.
We made our way to the bedroom, where he fucked me hard, dominating me, l knew that this was my place with my skinhead Boss. I might be the one in charge in the workplace, but at home, he was the Boss in every aspect of my life from now on.
The rest of the weekend was spent in bed, or lounging around the flat, both of us knowing our places. We ventured out to The Crown that night. The rest of the crew could see the dynamic had changed between the two of us, but did not say anything.
On Monday morning, I looked at the clock, five-thirty AM. I leaned over, my Boss took me into a passionate kiss, and entered me. I had lost count of how many times over the weekend I had been fucked.
I got dressed for work in my suit, I wore a pair of braces, not my skinhead ones. Also, I was wearing a pair of black DM shoes with black laces.
When I walked into the office, several people looked at me, now with a closely cropped head. My secretary asked me about it, “What have you done with your hair?” she asked. “I did it for charity” I jokingly said. Knowing too well, I would never let it grow any longer, Boss’s orders.
That night, The Boss was waiting for me in my flat; he had full access now. I stripped out of my suit and changed back into my Skin gear. The stress of the day melted instantly. He then handed me a lager, in the same place where it all started six weeks ago.
The Boss turned to me, “We had some planning to do.” Adding “you will need a few tattoos to fit in with the crew.”
I just nodded, “Yes Boss.”
Soon, the rest of the building would join us.
One by one.
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