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🦖Mars | 18 | she/her 🦖

[murderonmars]

Uhh since I am more "actively" posting on here I figure I should make a small pinned.

This is a life posting/vent side blog. My main is @mars1749. Follows and likes will come from there. Most posts are ARFID or auDHD related. I am professionally diagnosed with ADHD but due to my current situation I can't/won't get diagnosed for anything else.

My name is redacted most people call me Mad or some variation of that (like Madz) (English is not my native language dw. Mad is a very short version of my actual name. Spoken more like Matt) or Mars. :)

I am currently 18 years old. I study urban green development and I plan on continuing in either ecology/biology or Forest and nature management. Which is kind of a park ranger study. But cooler.

I love y'all 🫶

[murderonmars]

My hometown makes me sick and sad

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Please please please just let me sleep pleaseeeeeeee

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Tw sh

At this point the literal hundreds of musquito bites I've got replace the need to cut myself

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I hate myself and my stupid ass decisions

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Last SOTM/W was a success. So here we go again. Where is your head at. I jam with this shit I really like it

Mightttt link this to my new oc page :P

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Shit, shit, shit I'm royally fucked

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FUCK idk anymore man I can't I just can't. How the hell do I do this. I'm not gonna make it. I hate it I hate everything. HOWWW HOW gosh damn it there is noway!!

There is no way, I'm so done I can't anymore

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Shit, shit, shit I'm royally fucked

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My best friend just came out as gender fluid. I'm so proud of them for embracing herself. And trusting me. Love him.

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It is that I know she can't do anything. But I have got that same feeling as coming home knowing I'll be punished for something.

Please no yelling.

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Then the question is. Into what abyss do I throw my words. This blog or the silly place where my Donald duck obsession has got free range

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Used to do this on my space hey. Guess I can do it here now

Song of the week (SOTW)

I don't wna cry-kurffew

[mars1749]

Gosh I love listening to music and making playlist

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Tw: sh

I wanted to keep this post for a bit and add a lil drawing as a way to vent and it just seemed like a right way to do. Because I don't really talk about this topic. But I need to get this out of my head.

Working hard represses the urge to hurt myself.

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Yep pretty sure THAT was the point of no return.

Whatever it's not like I have important things to do /s

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Sweating out of my eyes fr

[murderonmars]

Yep pretty sure THAT was the point of no return.

Whatever it's not like I have important things to do /s

[murderonmars]

Out of character for me to get this internally mad over an interaction with my mom.