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[artseamoni]

My little art tribute to Bucky Barnes <3

I talked about this a lot before, but I started to really appreciate him as my disability representation. It gets me so emotional, especially the Wakanda scenes, when he’s at peace & without prosthetic arm. I truly hope he’ll get some happy story-lines in the future.

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The ending we all deserved.

Credit to twitter user: tishtashtosh25

her YouTube is tishtashtosh edits

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Why, Marvel?

This is a deleted scene of CATFA. Can we talk about this? About the way Marvel destroyed Cap’s 3D-ness by cuting it out. Lets take a closer look. We see Steve’s all alone in his apartment which is quite poor for details exept for his uniform on the mannikin like tte only thing that matters, saying that he’s still the man of war and he can’t let go. He’s watching old footage from the world where he was important, where he ment something. His friends’ files (where’s Bucky’s BTW?!) reminds him about things he lost. Even colour is important. In the begining we see Steve in his apartment and it’s sepia tone - the colour of Steve’s time we saw earlier. When he walks outside we see cold colours of curent time. Especialy in train part, where the inside world around Steve and outside world behind the window are not the same colour. The picture itself tells us what Steve is going through. He’s lost and lonely. 

He’ve got no friends, no family, nothing to hold on. This city (read This world) is strange for him, and he feels like looking at it from behind the glass, and he can’t touch it. He might as well float around in outer space - cold, dead and empty, with nothing familiar or even ground under his feet. 

And he goes to gym. And it’s sepia all over again. Cuz Steve knows that - he fought all his life, and here he feels like home again, but not quite. And he’s angry. While Steve’s beating up the sandbag we see flashbacks from his past (which by the way weren’t in final cut). He regrets all these years in ice, that his time is gone, that it wasn’t enough life for him (“it’s not enough time” in flashback, and I could swear that cell-seller shouted “buy some time”, and I bet Steve thought “yeah I wish…”). And only after that Fury has come. And what we’ve got in final cut? Nothing. No emotions, no drama, no depth. It’s just Steve. Workout because of workout. Actually this deleted scene was the only scene where we see how the adaptation process is going for Steve. How it was hard for him. Because it’s not just information gap, it’s an emotional abyss and you can’t cover it by googling. Why Marvel is so affraid of depth? Why did they cut this wonderful scene? Did they really think that we are so stupid to understand this?? The answer is “yes”, cuz otherwise they wouldn’t have erase Stucky and wouldn’t have send Steve in the past to Peggy.. Yeah, cuz we’re so shallow and stupid…

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well, i guess they wanted him to be a mannequin for the uniform...

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You know what?

You know what? I never was a fan of Stucky-ship, like in romantic way. At first I never knew it was in the comics. All I saw was Stucky-Bromance. But I wouldn’t mind, I’m ok with shippers. And when I found out that it was in the comics, I thought “Ok, but I like the bromance better (but no side-girls love-stories either), besides it would never make it to the movie so…” But now, after that horrible Endgame, I really feel like…. like Stucky, ya know? Now it’s like “Go Stucky! Stucky’s the head-canon! Kiss him damn it!”. It made me actually WANT them to be this way, not just be OK if they would. What’ve this movie done to me XD

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Post-Endgame CA:CW thoughts

I always felt that something was off in CA:CW. It sends quite mixed message. And Endgame shed new light on it.

Stay tuned.

I do think that studio didn’t really like all this hoopla with #givecaptainamericaaboyfriend and #stucky in twitter trends. Well, publicity is good promotion but it had a certain tinge. Of course in the interview everybody was very supportive, like “we support different interpretation of Steve/Bucky relationships” and that was pure queer-bating because they never confirmed anything, never made it a canon even off-screen, never gave a direct answer. Well actually, they did by shoving absolutely unnecessary forced as fuck love line with Sharon Carter. That was the answer.

What’s with the mixed message then?

I think that initially the idea of CA:CW was about “Steve opposes the whole world for Bucky”. But after CA:TWS and all this stucky-hype they added as many masculinity and heteronormativity and less Steve/Bucky interaction as they could. CA:TWS had non of these imposed details thus it felt natural, but CA:CW has plenty of this alien things that stand out from the picture and feel misplaced like selfie-stick in hands of Mona Lisa.

Let me give you a list of this “sticks”:

1. Thick (THICCCCCC) Sebastian. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind this bear in red shirt but the thing is Bucky’s image was changed in order (maybe) to make him more manly. More facial hair, more muscles, less of those soulful emotional eyes which speak more than any words could express. CA:CW got rid of every hint on Bucky’s femininity (though it wasn’t a hindrance in CA:TWS and Winter Soldier was a real threat despite his neat figure)

and possibility to express strong emotions. Men don’t cry, right? That one tear in the scene with Tony’s parents murder is for very attentive viewer.

2. There is no real reunion between Bucky and Steve in CA:CW. At first Steve met Bucky and they had SWAT on their backs, no time to talk. Ok, I got it. But when Bucky woke up after the fall with helicopter, Steve spoke demanding and flat despite the fact that this was actually the first time when Bucky was showing that he ACTUALLY remembered Steve! This scene in the first trailer was more emotional because of the way Steve called Bucky by his name and the way he reacted on Bucky’s words. They changed it in the movie and put more distance (physical and emotional) between Steve and Bucky again.

On the jet later we got at least one short talk in which Steve doesn't look at Bucky when he says: "I don't know if I'm worth all of this, Steve." and he doesn't answer. Plus they cut out this scene.

3. Forced bromance between Sam and Bucky. I don’t mind Sam, rly, he’s a good guy but he’s more Cap’s pal. And for me it looks and feels unnatural when instead of Bucky and Steve they try to feed me Sam and Bucky.

4. Forced heteromormativity. As mentioned above, instead of emotional Steve/Bucky reunion we got this - a talk about a girl whose name Bucky doesn’t remember and the most awkward kissing scene with Cap and Sharon. And Bucky approved. So no one out there would dare have a slightest thought that they are gay.

5. Flat goodbye before Bucky goes into cryo in Wakanda. My heart was broken from lack of emotion and connection there.

But then we have this fight in Bucky’s apartment with this shot

and we have this

and this

and we have Cap fighting Tony and dropping the shield once more for Bucky.

A lot of action but no talks.

So the mixed message is in contradiction between the whole idea “I will stand against the world for you” and lack of emotional connection in the process.

And I felt where it was going. I was afraid of it.

After that it was not much to do to get rid of all this stucky-thing - reduce the interaction to naught, reduce Bucky's screentime to cameo rate, and here we are. Bucky became somewhat a ghost, a distant memory to Steve. He saved Bucky because of the memory, of their past, but Bucky was not the same person from the 40s. And comparing to Steve's experience, Bucky will never be ok. Steve saved Bucky twice but it didn't make them friends they were before. It wasn't shown and it felt this way from what was actually shown. So from this point of view, it was not so unexpected Steve left Bucky for Peggy. It doesn't make pain any less though.

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These eyes… It’s just killing me….

Sebastian Stan is a great actor, and good at crying… Maybe too good….

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The beginning and the end

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13 reasons why “Steve  goes in the past-happy-end” ruins everything.

1.        Breaks the laws of the universe and time travel (do you consider  yourself a god or something, Rogers?)

2.        Makes Steve an awful friend (Don’t let me get started on Bucky alone).

3.        Ruins everything character said and done throughout the movies. Steve  was portrayed as honest and straightforward guy and then he decided to mess  around with universe laws in order to be selfish (what???)

4.        Sends a message that the only way you can be happy – you need to get  back in time. Teaches you not to cope with a loss but to cherish it and wish  to go back. You will never be happy otherwise.

5.        No, I can’t stress this enough. It was so deep when Peggy let Steve go  (by pouring out his blood) and when Steve let Peggy go (on the funeral). It  was really deep and emotional in the right way. Yes, it’s not a tell tale, sometimes  things don’t work out. Losses are part of our life. It’s essential that you  need to move on, to love again, to be happy. It all was TRASHED.

6.        Fucks the sacrifices of the fallen – Nat, Tony, you died for this world, Steve left it.

7.        Fucks the responsibility to help restore the world.

8.        Steve gets back in time where the war still goes on or just ended and that world needs a restoration too. And what about the polio and boiling everything... cold war, racial segregation... Is that what you really wanted, Steve?

9.        No matter if it’s another timeline or the same one – it has 2 Steves now. And one doesn’t belong there (guess which!) 2023!Steve is 12 (+70 in ice)  years apart from that 1945!Steve. 1945!Steve has unbroken connection with  Peggy and she has a thing for him. Now tell me – do you really think that it’s  the same with a person who came back after 12 years of absolutely unique  experience?

10.    Did Steve tell Peggy the truth about where he came from and that there’s  another Steve (and she just accepted that????what???) or did he lie to her  (again – what?????) and live with this lie. Or steal a life from your other self doesn’t count as stealing? Stealing Peggy’s life is fine because she’s nothing more but cap’s love interest?

11.    If Cap was her husband all along did it mean he just stayed home and did not get involved while Hydra was growing and Bucky was tortured?

12.    If Cap was her husband and did get involved in all the matters – then why leave the world that needs you to work your ass off in different timeline? Is that a retirement?

13.    Or Cap didn’t want to retire, he was ready to “do it all day” but in the past along with Peggy? Peggy is above all this. Sorry, but you failed to portray this relationship and love as something unique and strong (you did so with another relationship but trashed in the end). Because looking at the photo does not establish strong connection, ok? We had a closure of this line  – when he buried her, he said goodbye (and kissed her niece). Peggy is a part of his past, she influenced his personality, but that is that. It was over.

So apparently the only thing that makes all of this shit a happy ending is a picture of Steve dancing with Peggy. A picture with no words. Because if you say a word – so called happy-end will crumple down and bury the character underneath it.

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Winter Soldier Rock!

Me: This picture can’t be funnier XD My sister: Hold my beer

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What if Bucky and Steve went to Vormir...

...to get soul stone?

Me (nothing original): I think they would fight over the right to jump (as Nat and Clint did) and though Steve is stronger, Bucky would fall anyway, because he is not the main character and he needed redemption for his crimes Hydra made him commit.

My friend (decided that I haven’t suffered enough because of Endgame and the way it trashed Steve-Bucky arc): Well, actually Steve could read activation code and order Bucky to stay still or even to throw Steve from the cliff...

Me (gasping): WHY DO YOU HATE ME THAT MUCH????

P.S. I know Shuri kinda cleared Bucky’s head BUT Russo said after Endgame on why didn't Bucky get the shield: “Bucky always has the ability to have his mind corrupted, it can always be taken over by someone else. That hasn't been resolved for him...”... so it could be like this.

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Sun will shine for you

Bucky deserved so so much better…

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A horror movie indeed

just a strip to express my sadness and madness with a little bit of humor.

[lesbvan]

liar.

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Endgame final scene break down.

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Glance

I can’t forget his eyes in that scene... so i needed to draw it...

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All the things we’ve lost...

While I’m thinking to fix the final of the Endgame, I watch this old video. The winter soldier inspired me so much, I couldn’t resist the urge to do something about it!

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All I wanted...

was a recognition during the battle between Steve and Bucky when Bucky came back from the ashes.

And one scene with a proper talk, not 2 lines from the past movies. 

ONE. PROPER. TALK.

A closure for friendship they built for 3 movies.

Does that make me a “delusional stucky fan”? 

Oh for fuck’s sake...