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swagga's personal/system blog

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hey guys i totally forgot

you can find us over as @multiple-musings now

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i hate that i cant get my friends anything and i hate that i cant get myself anything

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I would love to actually look at pictures of myself and not immediately get dysphoria so we could actually post pictures of us and like idk Maybe have people compliment is and shit? I don't have a job so I can't buy us things to make us feel good We don't get random comments or conversation with anyone whether it's on my are or just randomly And we can't post photos because none of us are okay with how we look I just want to feel good and there isn't anything in my life right now I feel good about.

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everyone around me is 10x better at everything im trying to do and when i ask how they do it they just shrug

like how is this so fucking easy for you

how can people just apply for jobs and get them. how do people just apply for jobs while theyre currently working, and get one so they could leave their current one

how is it that easy

what am i doing wrong what is wrong with me do people know immediately when they see me that im bad news

literally no one wants anything to do with me

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a good thing happened today but i cant even remotely enjoy it

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I'm going to fucking scream I need to scream I can't scream People have more problems I just want to go home I am ten seconds away from losing it.

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I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays

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I want this to be normalized. I want to be able to talk to her friends. I want our every day life to be so normal that we could willingly and openly talk about it.

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"oh don't mind her, she's just being Ashley" "Who else would she be lol" :) I wish death upon me :)

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Why do I even attempt to vent anymore Not that I do it often either

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I hate this

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new alter :))) lokes hates her :))))))))

nothing but loud complaining :)))))))))))))))

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So on top of having a complete break down about not being accepted for separate health insurance so I don't know how much longer I can see my therapist, but tonight I had to rush Ares to an emergency vet. He just came out of brumation and hacked up phlegm everywhere. Thankfully I caught the RI in time but I am just Every single night this week I have had a break down And this month is the anniversary of Apollo's death so like Idk I'm so numb right now

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Hey guys, commissions are still open!

I’ve fallen on very hard times recently and I could really use the help. And as always, what I’m offering is not limited to what is listed here! So if you have something specific in mind, shoot me a message and I’ll give you a quote.

You can contact me through here or through email at [email protected]

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It's official We have a new fucking member.

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I can't fucking breath

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we were supposed to get better

this was supposed to work

and now we cant get help

we cant get any help

and there arent enough pills in this goddamn house to take