So I heard what happened. And I'm sorry. Sorry for not realizing it sooner. Sorry fornotchecking up on you enough. Sorry for not being able to do anything about it. I'm sorry that I saw the signs but never thoguht to do anything about it. I'm sorry that you have to go through all this pain. I'm sorry that I'll never understnad what you're going through. I know I've told you a lot about my pain, but I'm sorry i could never do that same for you. You told me that you were fine and I believed you. And I'm sorry for that. Now I'm begging you, please don't leave me. I know I never showed you how much you mean to me, but you mean so much to me, I cant even put it into words. You helped me when no one else could, and I hate myself for not showing you how much I appreciate it. I hope you know that I'm praying right now. I know you dont believe in God, but I sure do. And right now I'm praying, begging him to keep you safe. I hope you know that I'm here for you all the way. I hope you realize that I'd match you, cut for cut, if you asked. Im begging you, please get better. Great, now I've cried my eyes out now. You know how you always say that once you die, you cant feel anything because youre dead? Well, i cant ay that I agree with you, but what about all the people around you. Because while I know its nothing compared to what youre going through, this hurts like hell for me, and youre still here. I cant even imagine how much itd hurt to not have you with me. To have to get through the next couple of years without you. To not have you by my side when I graduate. Please dont leave me alone to facemy demons by myself. Sometimes it seems like youre the only one that understands. God, why couldnt I see this coming. Ugh I told you guys that it wasnt a good idea. I told you that it would blow up in your face. I told you that youd get caught eventually. But you never fucking listened. You never thought youd get caught. Well I hope you fucking learned your lesson because I cannot go through this again. I know that its selfish, but I dont need you here because I need you around. No, I need you here because you are the one that I've grown to know, trust, and love over the past few years. The one that taught me to play basketball. The one that helped me get over Lizzie. You know Ill never admit it, but I know you know that your metaphor helped. Youre the one that I would cheat on a final for. Youre the one that taught me to longboard. Youre the one who helped me grow into the person I am today. No, I dont need you for you. I need you because no one can ever replace you. You're a part of me that'll never heal if you left. I need you because youre so much more than a friend. And fucking, you better not leave me. You still owe me $40. And 4 slaps. Yea youre not taking $40 away from me. Anyways, I hope you read this some day, because it'll mean you made it that far. Remember how far youve made it already. You've made it this far, and I believe you can go so much farther. I hope you know that I love you and that no matter what happens, I will never forget what you've done for me. I appreciate everything that youve done for me and just wish that I could tell you this in person.
discoholicmusic
gummygunk
snowghoul
titsay