Et In Arcadia Ego

ty, 27, girl, appalachian, vegan

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same, same

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credits x

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Dewi Plass - If You Could Only See What I See (Everything Is Golden), 2023

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baby bat

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“Where you come from is gone, where you thought you were going to was never there, and where you are is no good unless you can get away from it. Where is there a place for you to be? No place… Nothing outside you can give you any place… In yourself right now is all the place you’ve got.”

— Flannery O'Connor, Wise Blood

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love this little space

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little project

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laugh until my head comes off

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Edwardian Platinum, Opal, and Diamond Snake Pendant/Brooch

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Hanōi, Uma Promessa

Apistat Commander, the second track off Xiu Xiu's 2003 album A Promise, was written about suicide, and coping with suicidal thoughts. Jamie mentions former band member Yvonne Chen's name in this track, as well as her siblings Wei and Huai. Jamie stated in an interview that

“[The names] are more there to illustrate what there is to lose from suicide.”

This track is marked by its change in dynamics, from a soft opening to blaring distorted synthesizers and percussion. This intense rise in volume and tone is archetypal of much of Xiu Xiu's music, and accompanies the deep emotion that Jamie puts into his vocal performance.

Jamie goes on to say that the track is not pro-suicide:

“It's more just dealing with it as a way of life. Not promoting it as a way out, but just as a way of just... dealing with it. It is an option, and thankfully it's not something that is as big of a part of my life as it was then. But it was, at the time, a daily concern. Not so much now, thankfully.”

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