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my digital diary - main: @cannibalistic-fag

[cannibalistic-fag]

how quickly my mood changes the moment i remember any of the shit ive been through

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as i realized 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 there was no one 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 who could kiss away my shit 🤣🤣🤣🤣 🤣🤣🤣🤣

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jerking off while being dead inside, call that shit necrophilia

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having crushes on people (even if its jst friend crushes) makes me feel so fucking pathetic because i physically cant think about anything other than them even if im actively doing something else completely unrelated to them.

If ive messaged them then ill genuinly start tweaking tf out if they dont respond to my stupid messages quickly enough. If they dont show enough interest in me, ill literally start shaking nd shit. Im not ok

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my whole life is online and i feel like such a loser for it. If i didnt have online friends i wouldve killed myself by now. being on the internet made me worse but also saved me.

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when i relapsed so now i lwk cant sleep on my side for atleast a few days without hurting

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i try my best to act pretty masculine in general but i fold like a napkin every time he calls me "sweet boy" or "good boy" holyy fuck

[tankhall]

i do not know how to speak anymore

[cannibalistic-fag]

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Posting forcemasc makes me feel like tyler durden in fight club. Like yes, im making myself more masculine and acting like someone else is doing it. Thanks for asking.

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bf who makes me wear his clothes because theyre more masculine

bf who cuts my hair for me and tells me that i suit shorter hair more

bf who does my tshot for me, telling me that im being a good boy when its over

bf who makes me work out with him, telling me ill look good with some muscles

bf who gets annoyed if i call my tdick a clit