Oct 1, 2017
It has been a little over a week that I have loved you…but it feels like forever. Every day, every second brings with it a new possibility, a new feeling, something that I have never felt ever before…with this, I would like to tell you how I feel when I am thinking about you, what I am thinking when you catch me staring at you mid-speech. Not really a diary…just a log of thoughts that I will experience for the very first time and will change my life forever, every day…
Your beauty
Some say that beauty is skin deep, others say its not the cover that matters…for me, there is beauty in the air when you are around me… there is beauty in strangers when I am thinking about you… there is beauty in the music that reminds me of how cute your nose is… When you are around, everything that your smile touches becomes beautiful in its essence and I see the world through this filter…that is you… I have never felt so much innocence and purity in a single being ever before, you are like a world within that I would call Jannaat, that is infecting this world with your beauty…
Your smile
Like the sunrise over the horizon, like first sip of coffee, your smile is the highlight of my day. The joy it brings is unparalleled. Nothing really like it, I can try to compare, but nothing comes close, your smile melts me, to the core, you make me realise what the world can be… that my worries are nothing…that there is hope in the worst situation. Your smile is the essence of my being now, what makes me me… what makes me smile like an idiot while I walk down the street then laugh at the realisation of the power your smile has over me, even if it only exists as a thought. You surprise me of how you can make a day perfect with just a brush of your cheek as it forms that magnificent smile through the phone…hearing your smile makes me feel like I can do anything! Honestly, there are no amount of words to describe what your smile does to me, it is truly a blessing and a miracle that I am worthy to see it for what it really is… I will do anything…ANYTHING…to see that smile every morning, it feels like the reason for my being and gives me purpose, no matter what, I will do everything in my power to protect your smile…
Today, I am leaving briefly…I feel selfish enough to say that I am sure I will miss you more than you miss me… in these few days, you have changed the course of my life… and for that I will forever be grateful. Hang tight my love…have faith in us… we will be together shortly, be brave my Jaan, you are my strength… don’t let those priceless tears fall… save them for the happiness when I am back and there to stay with you forever.
Looking forward to the amazing days ahead with you… Be strong my love, yours and only yours, forever…
Your Mojji