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@napworthysunbeam is my 'reblog blog'

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Do art -> feel better

Feel better -> start taking it for granted and spend time on things other than art

Doing less art -> feeling worse

Feeling worse -> rumination, spiralling

Negative spiral -> debilitating depression, substance abuse to avoid discomfort

Avoidance -> numbness

Numb -> not feeling creative

Not creating -> not expressing myself, not earning money and experiences

Depression -> rock bottom

Rock bottom -> start drawing again out of sheer self-preservation

Drawing, doing art -> feel better

But I can literally just disrupt this by drawing again. I always end up back at these abstract shape drawings out of sheer rock bottom anhedonic depression, and the drawing itself is what thaws me out of my existential stupor. It’s so ridiculous tbh but I can see the ways that my recent viral illness and PMDD episode derailed me. Onwards and again for another cycle 🫡

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my stomach clenches up at the prospect of…… her

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Should unemployable agoraphobic people who spend most of their time at home still bother getting dressed. Asking for Myself

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making a bday card for a fellow leo friend

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midwinter bloom of lavender

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Note to self stop wasting time trying to make sense of things unnecessarily and only against anecdotal past experiences lol

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OH MY GOD WHY AM I SO SAD

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I’m a bozo sometimes even a fuckwit tbh :/

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Coloured pencils

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I fucking love my beast cat muzzle pet animal creature baby

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Coconut oil on the ends of my hair

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Why is Adventure Time GENUINELY terrifying sometimes

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there are many soft areas on my beast pet cat.

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