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Sw: 172 2/18/26

gw1: 150✅️ 4/22/26

gw2: 142 (reward: makeup order) 🔒

gw3: 132 (reward: new swimsuit) 🔒

gw4: 122 (reward: myviolet dress or clothing order, order rodeo dress) 🔒

gw5: 112 (reward: treats from french bakery, 1 weekly max) 🔒

ugw: 102 (idk the actual number doesnt matter as long as im too small for all my current clothes and kinda like my body) 🔒

Okay so BAD long weekend but im only up 10lbs from my current lw 🤪🤪🤪🤪

Anyway back to the grind, easing into it a little cuz yesterday was like a Whole Thing, currently aiming for 510 but gonna check if my spinach is good later and allow myself as much of a full bag as I want to snack on, 40 if I eat it all for total 550

Not too bad

Got new konjac jellies so might also have some of those and not count em cuz theyre all under 10cal lol

Oh and coffee too prolly, 40, total like 600 for the day actuallyyy

Not quite a drunkarexic but overdid it last night and hit a new lw cuz of all the yartzing oops

143.6 💞💞 amazing

Can't rly care if ppl are mad at me about it but listen i didn't know 3 drinks would do me in 😭😭

Was feeling like a zombie at work so I had some trail mix and it helped but now I wanna die about it why didnt I have something lower cal ffs

Like i know trail mix is the objectively healthier choice than a cookie or something but the cookie woulda been lower cal!!!

Im hoping this makes me eat less at dinner

Okay so weird but partner is going home Saturday after coffee (we're going out so I can probably get away with a tiny breakfast) and then might come back saturday afternoon/evening so just 2 meals and ill try not to snack too hard, sunday will just be breakfast and picnic assuming partner is up for it and then theyre going back home

So its gonna be intermittent people and food but I might be able to get away with not eating as much as I thought which is good

Just tryna lose 5lbs and then 5kg lmfao

Id kill to be under 60kg for the first time in my life

Sometimes I wonder how many steps I get in just walking back and forth from my kitchen just getting water and tea and shit

I swear I can only eat an 4n4 meal otherwise my stomach hurts and gurgles and gets so mad at me

Which maybe is a sign that I should just only eat 4n4 meals

Still fuccking pissed off that my roommate got a scale

Im gonna win asshole, choke

Absofuckinglutely unrelated but I wonder if i get tiny enough ill get picked up by a queer sugar daddy/mommy cuz im too queer looking for a gender strict anything but id love a queer rich bitch to decide im cute and tiny and delicate enough to give me money and take me to fancy restaurants

145.0

I was right about water retention lol 145.6 when I woke up but 145.0 with my hair soaking wet after my shower?? Dumb bullshit fr

Logging my weight as 145 for today

Body finally stopped aching so much (????) so i might actually have energy to exercise at work thankfully. Been slacking so bad

Already tired and its gonna be not only a long day but a long weekend and im lowkey dreading it

Just an rx bar for breakfast 200 and then ill try to eat a small amount of dinner which might actually happen cuz ive been having Negative Partner Thoughts which usually results in a low appetite and undereating for me thankfully

But also we have a show tonight and that means more cals burned but also long ass night and alcohol

Idk i think im in a depressive episode lol

I just wanna keep losing weight about it cuz the less I weigh the hotter I get fr, like thats not even my brain thats skinny privilege and how people treat me

Going to yet another show tomorrow night and im like. How do I make sure Im not bloated like a balloon after eating the high volume meal that I PLANNED LIKE AN IDIOT

Like. I know how to make fucking good mashed potatoes without adding almost anything aside from salt and pepper and maybe a bit of butter so honestly im less worried about the cal count (altho between that and the alcohol im def gonna have i feel like I should keep breakfast under 200, or maybe an rx bar at 200 even?? That might be the move)

But my stomach is gonna be so ROUND cuz of my stupid VISCERAL FAT CONTENT like yeah I was down a bit on that today according to my body fat scale but. I still have such a stupid round tummy and ass and thigh thighs and I just wish it would even the fuck out

Like can I get some of that moved to my arms so I look less like a literal gorilla,,,,

But mostly im scared of water retention cuz i can feel the tightness in my hands that means I had too much sodium too late in the day

Fucking soy sauce, and i used low sodium soy sauce too but between that and fruit and veggie volume....idk just tear my flesh off atp forreal what do I need this winter fat coat for

Ended up at 730 which logically i know is still very low but also im mad cuz it coulda been less. Currently at like 2100 burned tho with bmr so at a net of 1400, gonna be at least 1500-1600 by thr time I sleep which is good, but I still feel bad

Prolly cuz i was 145 when I got home instead of 144 which is fucked cuz I only had 250 for breakfast so I shoulda been at most 144.2 when I got home and idk why I wasn't

Anyway im kinda assuming water retention tomorrow morning even tho im drinking so much water, might have some green tea to try and counter

Might have some coffee with a bit of creamer for 40 too and end the day at 770....

142 142 142 142 142 142

Im so close to my next gw and the weekend is gonna set me back but there's no way im gonna be able to get down 2lbs before tomorrow afternoon.....fuuuuuck

On the bright side partner is going back to just having 1 weekend day with me cuz of work which makes it way easier for me to eat less and lose consistently

I just wanna be under 140 already. Im kinda close to my lw (somewhere around 10lbs cuz i cant remember exactly what it was but it was somewhere between 130-136) and i have nothing else to ruin it (last time it was cuz winter holidays happened and I lost momentum but now its almost summer so no big events to set me back)

Like. I know 4-5 days of setback isnt the worst in the world but im fucking impatient and I want to be lw so bad

Manifesting 144.0 when I get home todaaaaay 🙏🙏🙏🙏 wl gods pls

144.6

I KNEW something was fucky, had a biiiig visit from the doodoo fairy last night and this morning and im pretty sure like 2-3 days of food weight came out of me so i skipped right over 145 💞💞 didnt even use lax this time

I know i wont be able to pull off the same today, but hopefully I can still be at or under 144.0 tomorrow morning

Loooong weekend with the partner again so im gonna have to be super duper careful which im bad at :(((

It just sucks cuz i have such a caretaker personality so I feel like I have to make sure they eat a lot but also dont want to let myself eat too much either yk??

But also meta day...

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