Eira’s harsh answer came back quickly, surprisingly Lily in how easily, how clinically, Eira could detach herself from the misery they were seeing in front of them. Misery in human form. The suddenness of the attack, even coming from someone as weak looking at this woman, made Lily freeze. More so the plea. It reminded her, a little, of looking Bellatrix in the eyes and relentlessly questioning her rather than offering help. Before she could move - whether it would be to defend herself or actually offer the help the woman was asking for - Eira had stepped in front of Lily and warded the prisoner off. “Thank you. I don’t quite know how I would have handled that. Any of this, if you weren’t here.” The words were almost automatic. But rang with true relief. Lily didn’t know what she would have done, but she also knew making another mistake - whether it was a mistake of pity or a mistake of hard-heartedness - might have been too much for her.
Eira’s blank and professional mask was back in place as they moved through the cells, but her immediate defence of Lily meant she was unable to consider her so cold as she might have intially thought. The truth was Lily suspected something worse behind her neutral demeanor, had caught the brief hint of emotion. “Healer MacDougall… Eira … have you lost someone in this war?” Beneath it all, she thought she heard the ring of personal stakes behind Eira’s hard words. Personal stakes Lily was yet to truly achieve herself. She was a target of the war, of course, a fighter in it, but as of yet, it hadn’t truly, truly touched her. Her loved ones and Lily herself had all remained mostly unscathed.
That didn’t meant her very worst fear wasn’t realised by Eira’s explanation of the crimes of their first patient. Muggles murdered. Her mind and heart immediately went to her parents. Defenceless, innocent. Completely unable to fight back against magic. “I’m Muggleborn, you know,” she said quietly. “My parents, it’s my very worst fear. Losing them. That because of me, because I live in a world they can’t even touch-” she broke off, realising how much the Dementors, not physically present but existing in every corner of this prison regardless, were affecting her. “I’m saying I understand. If you did lose someone. Why the idea of suffering is appealing.” They had reached the last cell on the floor. Lily raised her wand to cast the spell herself this time, having studied Eira carefully despite her distress.
“Right. The rebel force,” she echoed back. Usually the Order was a thought that brought her quiet, steady-burning hope. Lily couldn’t feel it this time, heart too cold. Was that the effects of the Dementor or simply the sorrow she felt at the sight of the prisoners? Which, in the end, was what she and the Order were working to bring about. Analytically she looked at Eira, wondering if the other witch did. Maybe if she could convince her, Lily could convince herself again. “I do believe the rumours. I think … someone must be fighting. Don’t you? There’s always balance, for people who want to hurt … like you said, there’s others who’d give anything to stop them. Isn’t there?”
Eira barely glanced at Lily when the girl thanked her. In all honesty, she had no clue why she had really done it. Eira had never truly felt compelled to protect anyone before, she'd never had to. But Lily was still young, fresh out of Hogwarts, and Eira could see that there was still a relative amount of innocence left in the redhead, something Eira had lost long ago. That gentleness was what the world needed right now more than anything, and maybe that's why she felt the need to protect her, though she didn't doubt the girl could very much protect herself. Maybe it was because the woman behind bars reminded her of her mother, and Lily of herself, younger version of herself; believing there was good in people. The sick monsters in this prison wouldn't touch a strand red hair on her head as long as Eira was there.
"Have you lost anyone in the war?"
There it was. The question people always asked when she expressed her opinion about the prisoners or dark wizards in general. Had she lost someone? The war was still fresh for the younger ones, they'd been protected from the outside world, mostly. Some of them only had contact with the wizarding world during the school year, because they were muggle-born. They hadn't been a part of the war yet. They hadn't seen the sick and cruel parts of it that the newspapers blurred out. The deaths of muggles and wizards alike, how truly gruesome and personal some of them were. They hadn't had to tell a child their mother wasn't coming back yet, they hadn't seen it all yet. Eira had been in this dark and cruel world for only four years, but four years was plenty of time to see it all.
"I've lost hundreds of someones, Eva- Lily." She stopped walking, staring ahead at nothing. "I've seen patients die from spells I didn't even know existed. I've lost so many patients because I didn't know what was wrong with them. But I don't think that's what you're asking." She turned to the girl, her face still as neutral as she could keep it, but her eyes slightly watery. This place, it messed with her emotions, it made her so vulnerable. "Have I lost anyone close to me? Both my parents. My mother, the bitch-" she spat out those words, anger rising, "she left to join her family, with Him. The dark side. And my father, he lost his mind. Tried to get her back. Save her." She scoffed, turning away from Lily again, trying to regain her composure. "He walked right into a nest of Death Eaters. Never stood a chance." She finished her story and continued walking again, hoping that would be the end of it.
Eira waited until Lily had finished casting the spell before responding to her statement, mildly impressed that she performed so well under what she supposed was quite a bit of emotional pressure, given the dementor that was a little too close for comfort. "I hope you know I don't give a rats arse about your blood purity." It was a common misconception about her, that since her mother was a blood purist, then Eira was one too, especially because she was as Pureblood as they got. "You're a witch all the same, doesn't matter much what you're heritage is." She finished softly, the edge in her voice that was usually there gone. At the mention of Lily's parents not knowing about the wizarding world, Eira frowned slightly. "Have you cast any protection charms on their house?" She asked with a raised eyebrow. "It's not much if Death Eaters are directly targeting your parents, but if they're just doing raids, it's enough to deter them and set off alarms in your own home so you can apparate there. Help you sleep at night." She said with a shrug. Eira had done it on her own home, in case someone- anyone tried to break in when she wasn't there. Maybe her mother would come looking for her.
Eira scoffed when Lily said she believed in the Order. "The fact is that, if there is some sort of organization going around, trying to save the world, they're not doing a good job now are they?" She said with a gesture around her. "There are not many people in Azkaban, but there's plenty of them on the streets, hiding in plain sight. But they're only human, of course." Eira shrugged once again. "And that lord guy, whatever his bloody froo-froo name is, he's not human, I don't think. I mean, how could a human being be so sick as to murder people in cold blood, just for blood purity." She remained silent for a moment, pondering over her own words. "I read about a man, in the Muggle world, who killed six million people of a certain ethnicity, and he was in power for many years. In the end, he killed himself, no one else did. The attempts on his life failed. Who's to say that it may be the same for this dark twat?" She asked, turning to Lily. Usually, Eira truly hated politics, but she was so angry and upset right now, with no reason to be. She knew it was the dementors, affecting her, and with that thought, she hurried along to the next floor, wanting to get out of there as soon as possible.