My Brighter Self

Prioritize joyfully, not bottling up any sorrow

[mybrighterself]

It's not indifference, it's just that we're too used to that prospect and it's not a bad habit to criticize. Still determined that it would not be needed, so I didn't care about it lightly

[mybrighterself]

Great morning!

Actually, it's not all great; I only focused on the positive aspects.

Somehow He still doesn't want to share his actual thoughts with me. His words feel like generalities that anyone could say without much consideration. I still sense that he's hiding something, something he's unwilling to admit.

Anyway, it's still fine for what I've finally decided…

[mybrighterself]

Change your thinking and perspective to feel at peace.

Of course, I also make comparisons, but reading their conversation is to know where I stand. They are the ones who chose to leave my life. So, there's even more room for other joys…

Somewhere, I still feel a little down, but that feeling will give me the strength to overcome it. The concept of "husband and wife" is something I haven't understood for six years, but I understand that the current relationship has stopped at "roommates." You can absolutely be alone, but you need a roommate to share expenses, maybe for a few casual conversations, but each person will have their own space, their own affection for the person they care about.

I guess that's where I am right now. And I'm gradually adapting to that definition…

[mybrighterself]

Writing is healing activity

Sometimes it feels like bullshit to others when they hear what I say. That's why I choose to write it down. All the sorrow follows the words lying on the paper, and I feel better after that.

#healingactivity #quote

[mybrighterself]

sometime you want the truth just a lie

The moment I found out he had been cheating on me for years, going to cafes with girls, I really lost all trust. I didn't have much expectations, or maybe that's why the man beside me was like that. He seemed to like taking care of and pampering weaker girls, I was really disappointed and upset…

My hands were shaking, not because of fear, but just an indescribable feeling of loss. There were too many bonds to be willing to let go, but continuing was really tiring.

[mybrighterself]

Have you ever wondered what the purpose of your marriage is?

There are times when I feel marriage is truly pointless. Instead of living alone, carefree, eating whatever I like, doing whatever I like, going wherever I want with complete freedom. When you get married, suddenly there's someone by your side. If you're lucky, the two of you are compatible in your way of life. If not, you'll argue and bicker all day long, outwardly agreeing but inwardly disagreeing. Most of the time, I feel like I'm in the latter situation. The way he thinks is too simple, while there are countless things to worry about. Instead of sitting around playing video games for more than half the day, why not find a job to provide for the family? The naive thinking of a child who hasn't left their parents' embrace. Getting married is somewhat tiring. Except for having children, the feeling of having two little ones who care about and understand me more than the man beside me ....

[mybrighterself]

Write to me in the future

Hello future me, are you ok? I'm overwhelmed by the thoughts in my head right now, things I don't understand why exist. There was a time when I was tired, I would dream of an old friend, like a carefree version of me. Now I'm also tired, but I don't see that friend anymore. What I dream about now are things that make me even more tired. Will I be able to get through this phase? Everything feels so suffocating. Will I have more happiness in the future? Will I be more free and at ease than I am now?

[mybrighterself]

Let's start the new week in a more organized and well-structured way.

Good morning, new week has just started.

Today is quite a special day for me, so I want to change myself a bit.

I am starting to seek an app to control my time because I mostly spend time working online. Do you know what I found? I think people have used it for a long time, but it's okay to just start now. It's Clockify.

Hope everything is alright and organized.

Let the week run smoothly.

[mybrighterself]

"Write what should not be forgotten." - Isabel Allende

Hello all and Welcome to my blog

It's not too late to find a space where I can share all my thoughts. I want to keep them, whether they're happy or sad, because when I look back, they'll become cherished memories.