i love you, but I need another second to myself.

clothes, music and boys. 30

[greelin]

[as if this is not a normal and natural human thing to want] yeah i just really want to connect with people for some reason. Like some weird loser freak

[mahuikaaa]

have you seen someone made a vanmccann.com website on the same day as the Catfish one

Yeah… ugh. But it has been taken down at lightning speed, and “van mccann” isn’t a trademark while catb is. I feel like if the other one wasn’t legit it would have been taken down by now *inhales copium*

[mahuikaaa]

Depression looks good on me apparently? I’ve lost like 2 kilos in the past week (yeah yeah water weight I know) and my face looks SNATCHED

[mahuikaaa]

I want a nipple piercing so bad

[mahuikaaa]

At this point if the website is fake the person behind it has to be MACHIAVELLIAN

[ryanevanmccann-deactivated20200]

[gaytanic-panic]

[mahuikaaa]

Do you think the website is real?

I really have no clue, but given how chaotic the updates are I personally think it’s either some rando poking fun at us or Van himself 😂

[mahuikaaa]

door from the catfish website is from barcelona (not that it matters i think, but still)

[heartshappedballoons]

god bless Van McCann

[junglejim4322]

They need a pride flag for this

[mahuikaaa]

dear anon who got curious about my writing, THANK YOU. I know you probably meant to inquire if i wrote about Van Mccann considering catb is the main topic of this blog as of lately, and I'm sorry the answer was no, but it is definitely spurring me on to write a chapter of my latest fic lol

[mahuikaaa]

Do you think my cat knows I just towel washed his paws because I didn’t want him to lick the dirty and soapy water that just leaked out of the washing machine (that he promptly walked in), and not because I enjoy bothering him? Judging from the squealing, I believe not

[mahuikaaa]

who do you write?

no real people, characters from games mostly

[mahuikaaa]

do you write fic?

I used to. But with English being the fic language (and not my first language), ever since I moved back to my home country it’s been more difficult because it doesn’t come as natural anymore :’) last chapter on AO3 was posted in January

[mahuikaaa]

it’s good. All good.

[mahuikaaa]

I don't know what made Van disappear in the first place but I completely understand why he wants to stay so private now. People say the wildest stuff about him online and love to dissect everything he does 😔 I hope he's okay

I agree. At the same time I think it would take him so little to post even just a screenshot of his notes app with a message or some shit just to apologize for the cancelled tours or tell us he’s alive etc. and people (MYSELF INCLUDED, I AM NO BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE) would stop speculating a bit. But I guess “fuck it if we talk” isn’t just a piece of lyrics ;)