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you don’t love me anymore

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It may come as a surprise the first time you fall in love. The feeling is so indescribable and intense that the first time you fall in love, every other love is compared to it. It sounds a little strange, but I have to ask, does anyone know what it’s like the fall out of love? Does it hurt? I’d...

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You know what? There’s nothing more tempting than a locked door.

That’s how I feel right now. Tempted to start a blog. Why, might you ask? Because I’ve seen the diverse range of blogs scattered through Tumblr. I want to keep this one as real as it possibly gets. A blog that people like you can...

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need some inspiration? look at this blog!

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Hi tumblr, I want you to meet me. I want to tell you why your fat acceptance movement is complete bullshit.

See that photo on the left? I was 160kg. That’s 352.7lbs for my American lovers out there.

I did not know I was 160kg. I didn’t go near a scale. I had gorgeous blonde hair extensions and jeans with chains and a leather jacket. I thought I was heaps fly. I could not see the girl in that picture… until I was tagged in that picture on Facebook.

I cannot tell you how long I cried for. Hours? Yes. Days? Probably. Weeks? It’s likely.

I went to a doctor to see just how much I had been putting my body through. I was 21 at the time. He told me that he would be very surprised if I made it to 30, as my back and my organs were already struggling, coupled with the fact that I have some blood issues anyway… I was just putting a lot of stress on myself physically.

So I learned how to eat. I learned the value of protein, the implications of sugar and the fun of a cheat day. I started watching my portion sizes and keeping my water intake up. I went on short walks - nothing too strenuous. Really, I didn’t put a whole lot of effort in at all. But the weight started falling off.

I remember the day I sat down comfortably at the Imax theatre in Sydney. I wasn’t sitting right at the edge so I didn’t get stuck. I was completely in the seat and it was incredible.

I dropped 50kg in 6 months without even trying.

My weight has fluctuated randomly since then, and I haven’t quite hit my goal yet, but I have never gotten near 160kg again. I used to work out by putting the weight I had lost in a back pack, but eventually it got too much and I was really hurting myself. Do you even understand that? I couldn’t even carry my own weight once I didn’t have to.

I spend a lot of time preparing food and working out, because nothing terrifies me more than going back to that.

Tumblr, I’m going to tell you what 160kg was like.

Some mornings, I woke up and my back had seized - I couldn’t go to work because I couldn’t walk. If it wasn’t my back, it was the unbelievable chest pains. I had so much trouble finding clothing in a size 24. And I’m going to be honest - sex was REALLY difficult. I was engaged to a wonderful man at the time, and I didn’t have the confidence or ability to take charge in the way I wanted to and he wanted me to. Plus, not to be crude, but certain positions were completely out because my fat got in the way. It’s something I STILL get unbelievably self conscious about - even though my situation has changed dramatically.

Sometimes, if I sat on a chair, I was afraid it would break. I spent a lot of time absolutely constipated because of my poor diet, and the flight up to my unit was the hardest thing in the world. I made frequent excuses for myself - including the age old “But I EAT REALLY WELL AND EXERCISE” yeah, if doritos were a vegetable and The Sims were a full body work out, I had those bases covered.

Everything hurt for no damn reason sometimes, and I was light headed and just plain sick so often it started to feel normal. My joints felt like those of an 80 year old woman. I was desperately, unbelievably unhappy and suicidal.

I want to share another thing with you before I get to my overall point.

That was the first picture I EVER took of my full body after dropping that 50kg. It was one of the scariest things I’ve ever done.

So. My point.

When you look at women like Tess Munster, and you tell me that she’s the epitome of a happy, healthy, and confident woman, I think you’re an ignorant asshole. I can’t believe that people choose to normalise that kind of lifestyle, and accept the fact that she will probably send herself to an early grave, because at least she’s happy. She’s making a movement out of being too lazy and apathetic to make a beneficial change, and it’s sickening.

Some girl came up to me once and criticised my weight loss, because I inspired her by being an overweight girl on stage. What the fuck do I even say to that? “Sorry I’m not killing myself slowly to make you feel better about yourself.”

When you tell me that thin people have privilege, and that people should love you because you’re morbidly obese, it takes everything inside me not to hunt you down and slap you silly. You’re an idiot. No one is obligated to find your laziness and lack of concern for yourself or your health hot. No one should ever have to respect someone who can’t respect themselves. Being thin is not a privilege - for some of us, achieving it is damn hard work.

I’m still overweight, and I know better than to demand someone find me attractive, or to get angry at someone for making fun of me with their friends. I also know better than to let it derail me or destroy me - rather, it fuels me.

Your fat acceptance is bullshit. You’re telling women to accept a body that is killing them. You’re telling women it’s ok that you’re a massive drain on the medical system, as long as you think you feel good.

Fuck your movement. I’d take actual, legitimate health over having my fat become a societal norm. I’d rather be relentlessly mocked for my weight than praised for it.

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TOM MILSOM / hexachordal

Here’s the post Olga made about Tom Milsom. And another. Third. Hank and John Green talking about Tom. Melissa Anelli’s post about Tom. TomSka talking about this whole situation.  Tom writing on twitter. Alan about Tom and donating to RAINN. In this video, from a year ago, at the 35 minute mark, a guy called Joe who made videos in 2008/9 talks about Tom Milsom acting inappropriately when Joe was 14/15 and Tom was 20.

Here is a post about how both Alex Day and Tom Milsom were friends with Jonathan King. King has committed sexual offenses against minors. 

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MIKE LOMBARDO / MikeLombardoMusic

Hayley G. Hovers post about Mike Lombardo. Morgan’s post about Mike. Hank and John Green posting about Mike. Meg’s post about Mike. Savannah’s post about Mike.

Savannah shared her experience with Mike in a video. Morgan made a video showing a “real view of how triggering all of this can be”.

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ALEX DAY / nerimon

First Anonymous person talking about Alex. Second Anonymous person reblogging the first person. Third Anonymous person talking about Alex. Damien coming forward about Alex. Tikken talking about her former relationship with Alex. And here. Lex talking about Alex. and another post. Lindsey talking about Alex. Also here and here. Louise talking about Alex. Kerri’s post about Alex and unnamed Canadian YouTuber.  Tove’s post about Alex and unnamed British YouTuber. Anonymous underage person talking about Alex. Hanna talking about Alex. Bree Essrig talking about meeting Alex Day and Sam Pepper. Beckii’s answered an ask, talking about Alex.

Alex Day defending himself. "I don’t know about anyone else but when I read Alex’s post it seemed (as Marina would say) hella manipulative. From what I’ve gathered he knows what to say and when to say it which is how all of this started." (x)

First Anonymous person responding to Alex’s defense-post.  Second Anonymous person responding to Alex’s post: [ONE] - [TWO]  Hank Green talking about Alex Day.

Alex Day realizing he was wrong. Then read this! And this!!

Lindsey responding to Alex’s second post realizing he was wrong.  Carrie writes on twitter. Responds to a post. Tumblr post. Charlie McDonnell about Alex Day.

The Wiki-page about Alex is not updated. Continuing the discussion.  The Wikipedia page is now updated. 

Carrie has been seen hanging out with Alex. Her response. Alex has been ‘reaching out’ to (teenage, female) friends. His book deal might be cancelled. 

Alex defending himself on facebook. Alex writing on reddit. A photo of him in Camden. x. Alex commenting on Ed’s video defending Ed. Sarah, Kristina and Whitney about Alex Day, Alex Carpenter and Luke Conard.

Alex is active in a Doctor Who forum. Alex is active on BitTorrent selling his music.

YouTube: Alex uploaded an unlisted video in May. Read what it’s about here.

YouTube: Alex Day uploaded a new video “The Past”. Here is a transcript of the video. Here is a reupload of that video to another site. Here is a video Neafcy made in response to Alex’s. A tumblr post MarinaShutUp wrote about the video. Another comment on the video.

Here is a post about how both Alex Day and Tom Milsom were friends with Jonathan King. King has committed sexual offenses against minors. 

YouTube: Alex Day is still active on YouTube, however we are not going to add any more links to transcripts/reuploads/posts about this here. Instead look through the tag “Alex Day video” or this post.

(A blog that has reblogged most posts about Alex Day)

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ED BLANN / eddplant

A post about Ed.   Eddplant’s post about “the past 24 hours…”. 

YouTube: Ed uploaded a new video on the 6th of June 2014, singing a song called “Inhuman Nature”. I am not going to link the video since I DO NOT encourage you to watch it. Don’t show your support for him in anyway.

Video: Morgan’s video about Ed returning. (It also has the lyrics in the description if you’re curious of what he’s singing about). Liam’s thoughts on Ed’s video. Lex’s thoughts on Ed returning to YouTube.

Ed has returned to twitter.

YouTube: Ed uploaded a second video. (transcript of it) Alex Day commenting on Ed’s second video.

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TOM McLEAN / frezned

Frezned (Tom McLean) being accused. 

He hasn’t acknowledged the accusations against him.

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JOSH MACEDO / confusedtree

One article about Josh Macedo. And another masterpost about him.

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KELLY MONTOYA / K3LLYRI0T

One post about Kelly Montoya.

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DANNY HOOPER / danmann44

Danny Hooper being accused by Laura. Laura reblogging her post. Another post about Danny by goshpenny. UPDATED: An anonymous ask about Danny. A video of Danny inventing a new sopio card.

Danny is now back on twitter after a 3 month silence. 

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ALEX CARPENTER / AlexanderCarpenter

Rosi talking about Alex Carpenter.  Sarah Snitch talking about Alex Carpenter.  Scrabblized’s post about Alex Carpenter. Llouteasdale’s post about Alex. Halliedarling’s post about Alex. Sunny Williams’ post about Alex.  Jenn Hammond’s post about Alex and the Wizard Rock Community. Emma’s post about Alex. Kellelucas’s post about Alex.

Sarah, Kristina and Whitney about Alex Day, Alex Carpenter and Luke Conard. Whitney Lynn’s post which mentions Alex Carpenter, Luke Conard and Corey Vidal. 

Sarah has been receiving anonymous messages from Alex, but he accidentally sent this one off-anon. 

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ADAM ROACH / TheGearsKeepTurning

A post about TheGearsKeepTurning by Elizabeth. This post reblogged. Elizabeth’s friend confirming her post. A post about Adam (thegearskeepturning) by Alice. Beccy’s post about Adam. Maria’s post about Adam. Rumlittleskallywag’s post about Adam. Cass’ post about Adam. Another (short but still important) post about Adam by hodor-kingofwesteros.

And here is a masterpost about The GearsKeepTurning with all the links above and some more comments.

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LUKE CONARD / lukeconard

Kristina Horner writing about Luke Conard and Alex Day. Whitney Milam’s post about Alex Carpenter and Luke Conard. Then Rachel Kiley continuing and writing about Luke.

Luke Conard apologizing. But then please read this! Luke realizing his first apology was terrible and attempting to write a new one. And then read this!

Sarah, Kristina and Whitney about Alex Day, Alex Carpenter and Luke Conard. read this! Whitney Lynn’s post which mentions Alex Carpenter, Luke Conard and Corey Vidal. 

Updated: Luke has since the allegations came out about him, uploaded new video/s. Instead of adding links to every video in this post we will reblog posts about this to the tag ‘Luke Conard video’.

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COREY VIDAL / ApprenticeA

Shannon Antilles writing about Corey Vidal.  Corey saying he’s going to make a video about this. Corey says (again but in a longer post) that he’s going to make a video. UPDATED: Corey briefly talking about the accusations against him in a 2.5 h video.

Corey made a tumblr post apologizing.  Corey made a video, explaining how he was molested as a child.

My Story - Corey Vidal | by kerrisvideo

Whitney Lynn’s post which mentions Alex Carpenter, Luke Conard and Corey Vidal.  Corey wrote a response to this post.

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TRAVIS NEUMEYER / WhatTravisSays

Carson’s post about WhatTravisSays. Carson’s conversation with Travis.(tw incest & pedophilia) Fizzylimon’s post about Travis. This post reblogged. Reyna Villa writes. And here. Emily’s post about Travis.  Nora’s conversation with Travis. Updated: An anonymous ask about what Travis.

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GREGORY JACKSON / Onision

A masterpost about him and his former relationships.  Another masterpost about Gregory.

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STEPHEN PURCELL

Shawn writes about Stephen Purcell.

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BRYON BEAUBIEN / Psyguy  

A masterpost about Psy. Him trying to apologize. 

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HARRY GILLIATT / TheHazBeckShow / Hard G

Harry saying he will no longer be on the internet. Bekn writing a letter about their band seaqueens. Bekn continuing to explaining that their band has split up. Vincent writing about Harry. And here. notsasha’s post about Harry. notquiteluke’s post. kirst’s post about Harry. Fox’s post about Harry leaving the internet.  Pepper’s post about Harry. Nick’s post about Harry. Fluoxiteen’s post about Harry.

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RICKY RICHARDS / RickyRichardstv

Sammi (beautycrush) and Ricky was in an abusive relationship and then broke up. My break up story by RickyRichardstv. Domestic Abuse by TheSammiMariaShow.

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SAM PEPPER / OFFICIALsampepper

Video: A Cautionary Tale | thisbedottie. Comments on this video saying similar things happened to them. Video: Sam Pepper - The Real “Reveal” (Warning: Explicit Content). and a tumblr post related to the video. And another tumblr post with evidence. Sam Pepper asking for nude photos. Sam asking another person for photos. Shirley’s tumblr post “I was sexually assaulted by Sam Pepper”. Neesey’s video about her interactions with Sam. Tianna’s post about Sam supporting the anonymous video. Jack Payne who worked for Sam Pepper share his experiences. Sam Pepper doesn’t understand the word no. (explicit) by Anonymous. My Personal Experience with Sam Pepper by Annie. Another anonymous post about Sam. Bree Essrig talking about meeting Sam Pepper and Alex Day. Marina made a video about Sam. Updated: Another post about Sam. Updated: Musical Betahn wrote on twitter about Sam Pepper.

Video: Laci Green summarize the situation, talk about other similar YouTubers and more. WATCH THIS! Laci was aslo threatened by Sam. 

Sam Pepper is still active on snapchat. And he’s on twitter. Sam has also uploaded video/s since the allegations came out about him. Instead of adding links to all of these videos here we will reblog posts about this to the tag ‘Sam Pepper Video’. 

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JASON SANSOME / VeeOneEye

Aniamags’ video about Jason. An anonymous, written tumblr post about Jason.  A second anonymous post about Jason on tumblr. Kali’s tweet about her interaction with Jason. Annie’s post about her experiences with Jason. And her writing on twitter that he that he talked to her 2 weeks ago. Here is their conversation from snapchat. Jason asking Alessandra for nudes. Hannah’s experience with Jason.  Jodie’s video about Jason. An anonymous tumblr post about Jason. Lauren has poster her conversation with Jason on twitter. Part 1. Part 2. AND here is a video Lauren’s friend made talking about Lauren’s incident and her own (with a non-youtuber). The friend, Ellis, she went to the police and her case is going to court. This is a very good video to watch! Another anonymous post about Jason. And another anonymous post about Jason. Note that the only last paragraphs are about him. Another post about Jason from someone who knew him before YouTube.

Jason has posted a video trying to cover up what he’s done and make himself look better. This video was originally unlisted and sent to Ania Mags in a tweet. But he has deleted the tweet and made the video private. Here is a reupload of the video. George sharing his opinion/thoughts on Jason’s apology and Ania’s video. Ania’s written response to Jason’s “apology”. She also has screen caps of other stories regarding Jason in this post.

Video: Evan Edinger’s talks about how he earlier confronted Jason about these rumors and Jason lied about it.

Jason is active on twitter and has deleted the tweet he sent Ania with the link to his unlisted Apology video. Jason is active on snapchat.  And he’s on twitter.

YouTube: Jason made a video about his new tattoo, “Remember why you’re alive”. Here is a reupload of it. Here is a transcript. 

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NEIL JOHNSON / love-and-confessions / banananeil 

Eden’s post about Neil. Sophie’s post about Neil. Zoe had a similar experience with Neil when she was 14. She wrote on twitter. Jenny’s post about Neil.

Neil writing an apology.

Sophie wrote a second post about Neil. Eden replying to Sophies post.

Neil’s girlfriend Rachel writes an open letter.

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DESTERY SMITH / DesandNate

Kristina has written a post about Destery.

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JEREMY SACKS / WhatJeremy

UPDATED: Lauren who previously wrote an anonymous post about Jeremy has now decided to not be anonymous anymore. 

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PAUL PARKER / PaulsJournal

Elsi made a video explaining how Paul sexually harassed her. Paul responding to Elsi’s video.

Emma Blackery left a comment on Elsi’s video explaining he staled her.

Elsi made a tumblr post continuing to explain what happened.

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DANIEL GLOVER / ShoutItOutTV

Shelley writes about her conversations with Daniel Glover.

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ALEX GOOT / gootmusic

Here is an anonymous post about Alex Goot.

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PAUL SYKES / YogscastSjin

Some time ago Paul Sykes tried to get underaged/young girls to send him nudes via Facebook and Skype. People speaking up about this were scared away and blamed by fans. But the person who made this blog still has some screenshots and similar reblogged. 

Here is another blog about this.

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TOM SINCLAIR / isinclair / tomsin123

An anonymous person has asked us to add his name to the list, but can’t write a post about what happened since it’s being taken to court. He has not been active on social media since he was arrested in June.

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KARIM SLIMANI / karimabridged 

Abi (@corruptedlungs) tweeting about Karim asking for nude photographs. Courtney-Leigh (@cutiecutforth) tweeting about how they used to have ‘flirty’/inappropriate conversations when she was 15. @pixiedvst writing about her experiences with Karim. BriBry tweets about how he believed Karim to be asexual. Dodie Clark saying that Karim lied to her (presumably when confronted) Hannah Witton saying Karim has gone to LA - we assume it was to see Jason (veeoneeye). Dodie Clark saying that ‘there is more to come’ regarding Karim’s actions Karim denies the posts made about him saying they are ‘bullshit rumours’ in this tweet . UPDATE: Karim continues to deny alogations about him here and here. UPDATE: Dodie Clark has made a video on her experiences with Karim. UPDATE: Karim continues to deny allogations against him. 

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LUKES BEANS

Danny (DanIVlog) confronting Luke on the phone about the allegations  Isabelle Coffins about her experience with Luke Ash about Luke abusing her, part 1 and part 2

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RYAN O’CONNOR / PleasantRyan

An anonymous source has contacted us, explaining how Ryan has shown manipulative behavior.  A post related to this.

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CURTIS LEPORE / CurtisLepore

A vine user who also uploads his vines to YouTube. He raped his ex JessiSmiles when she was sleeping.

An ask explaining what’s happened and linking to articles. A video Jessi made on the topic.

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CRAIG DILLON / craigtdillon

A video from Tate Wolverson about his experiences with Craig. A video by Jamie Pine about his experiences with Craig. MikeJerry’s video about Craig. And a longer tweet about it. DrewIsSharing’s video about Craig. FelixxMackky tweeted about his experience with Craig. An tumblr post about Craig by everythingmakesmenerv0us. Ben Cook’s friend sent Ben his experiences with Craig. An anonymous tumblr post about Craig.

Craig’s tweet in response.  Craig made a video ‘The Truth’ arguing that he didn’t rape Tate. Note that all the comments beneath the video are by people believing and forgiving him. Here’s a comment Ben Cook wrote.

Craig claiming he didn’t rape Mike.

UPDATE: TenEighty article saying that Craig Dillon having a lawyer is a false claim 

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NICK BECKMAN WHELAN / TrickyWithNicky 

Eleni tweeted about her experience with Nick. Aimy’s tumblr post about Nick. And another message about Nick. Amy posted her old conversations with Nick.

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ROB COSH / ShmoNerd

An anonymous source has contacted us explaining how he manipulated them and was sexually inappropriate. They also know of another person in the community who he has manipulated. 

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Liam Dryden talking about what to do now. Hank Green talking about what has happened. Lucy talking about what’s happened and speaking up. Marueen Johnson wrote a post. Summer in the City addressing safety. 

A Probation Officer that goes into detail about how offenders see their actions and the way they use language. An open letter to YouTube about all of this. (read this)

YouTubeSpeaks, a tumblr demanding discussion by popular YouTubers. Women of KWMC, a support group for survivors on tumblr and twitter.

UPDATED: Unsubscribe together - A one click unsubscribe button to all youtube abusers.

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Victim blaming is wrong.  If you’re a survivor of sexual assault or abuse, you can get help through RAINN, a great organization. International help. 7CupsOfTea - an anonymous chatroom to talk to volunteers about problems, issues or feelings.

Educate yourself on what CONSENT means. What to do if you suspect your friend is a sexual abuser. 

Video: Lex made a video about what CONSENT means. Video: Hank Green made a video about CONSENT. Video: The Science and Dangers of YouTube Celebrity. Video: TomSka’s Guide to Gatherings. Video: Charlie McDonnell: Sex & Consent. Video: Bryarly Bisop: We Are Edited. Video: Laci Green: Consent 101. Video: Jack and Dean: Consent (song).

Video: Lidsey: What is Emotional Abuse?

Video: YouTuve Abuse Recovery | Ann McGavin (thegeekyblonde).  Video: Sexual Abuse on YouTube | Pottermoosh.  Video: Tell Someone | abb3rz07. Video: Wrongdoings and Growth in Our Community | Teryn Gray. Video: UNDERAGE SEX & CONSENT | hayleyghoover

Video: Women on YouTube Panel at VidCon 2014

Video: Marinashutup’s video on the topic. Video: GaryC’s video on the topic.

How to Treat YouTube Abuse Survivors by JustMargaret.

 ”Don’t let anyone else influence your opinions: make an effort to educate yourself on the matter and decide how you feel on your own.” - Lindsey.

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