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What are the baddies using for our perimenopause pits? Mine are funky lately and I’m over it. My deo is giving wet dog vibes lately 🤢

Guys it really freaks me out how little girls are dressed as brides for their communions. I really can’t. So many evolved lovely people I know IRL positing baby bride photos this weekend. How is this still ok? I try really hard to suspend judgement but the baby brides are so triggering to me.

I understand the symbolism but it doesn’t resonate with me. Idk. I’ll stay in my lane and pipe down.

Remember when airports used to have those ventilated smoking rooms? I wonder if we can get those for farting. Something about pressurization blows me up like a balloon. I need a safe space to let the air out before my next flight.

How are we doing? Surviving?

The military reserve space near me is currently blowing off massive explosions at 930 at night. So that’s fun for everyone. Except everyone who isn’t there.

I also wonder if my recent mattress woes are somewhat tied to the changes in my body. My broken in spot is no longer mine! My car seat and shoes are all very similar too. There is also less padding on my body and it hurts to lay and sit more than it ever used to!

BMI is fucked up but just for perspective, I need to drop 20 more lbs to be “healthy” and not “overweight.” I’m not sickly or at any kind of weight where anyone needs to express concern for my weight loss or potential health. I have no signs of food restrictive eating disorder (quite the opposite as soon as the ol GLP wears off actually!).

It’s almost like you just shouldn’t comment on people’s bodies… at all. Ever. The comments like “wow you’ve just lost so much” or “have you started a new workout routine” or “omg don’t lose anymore weight” are just as bad as the ones about how my body used to be too big or whatever else. No, the loss hasn’t been fast or sudden, yes I see you’re just noticing it, but it has been 2.5 years actually. And really, I have lost like 5lbs in the last several months total, my weight is actually pretty stable right now and I’m approaching my goal (I think? I don’t know, I never dared to have an ambitious one because I had failed them all before this).

That said, even with my metabolic doc who I meet every other month, I’m feeling like I need some bloodwork. I’m freezing, to the point that my lips are bluish, fairly often. I’m tired. My hair is ugh. If I’d had bariatric surgery I’d have a bunch of people up my ass monitoring this all closely - tho I guess it also would have been really rapid. But zero people are even curious about my bloodwork after several years of consistent caloric deficit.

I’m on a multivitamin but I think I need to add iron.

Anyway. Shut up about other people’s bodies.

Where are we all getting our mattresses now? I need a new one I think and it doesn’t matter if u spend a million dollars or $6, they’re toast after like 5 years I swear. Ugh.

Friends. The DELICIOUS journey I am on with the man child at work who was so ridiculous to me.

My boss just suggested that we do the thing I said we should, which caused man baby to tantrum and freak out and cc my boss.

ALMOST LIKE I WAS FUCKING RIGHT TO START WITH. ALMOST LIKE THE ONLY INAPPROPRIATE THING ALL ALONG WAS HOW YOU SPOKE TO ME!!!

Hahahahah being right is amazing.

What the fuck is this timeline where Iran is releasing videos to the US and Trump that are Lego music videos? What the fuck is going on? I want off these drugs.

I must be having one my those weird IUD fake periods. I am so tired. Sleep does nothing to ease the exhaustion. I am SO grumpy and short. Everything is annoying and irritating and stupid. I also started with weird half cramps tonight. At least it makes a little more sense now. I was wondering if I was just losing it for a while.

The little baby man who had his tantrum on Friday has HALF as much experience as I do, and has ONLY ever worked in this company.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA

Ok he is ACTUALLY a baby and now I have a better idea of how to handle him. But also, baby boy, sit down because you’re gonna hurt yourself.

Another woman I work with told me today that Fridays shitty email was “just how he communicates.” And while this was happening she said my boss messaged her to urgently ask if a customer was fixed fee… and she was ranting while she pulled the doc open and I was like “girl I know we like to call outselves and life sciences service or whatever the fuck, but can we just take a second to acknowledge that we’re women working for a fucking technology company and this is SOME SHIT these men are on.” Like writing a decent email or pulling your own contract are too much? Please save me from this idiocy.

This job blows the old one out of the water but nothings perfect. Especially when you’re trying to live as a woman in the wild.

I’ve had several weeks of nonstop travel. I’m learning where my limits are… it’s here. Right here. I found it.

No travel booked between now and the end of April, so far. It looks like I’ll get a trip to Barcelona at the end of April (!!!!!). I’ve never been and it’s a chance to work with my old boss who I adore… I think that travel will be worth it!

This job is solid. I like what I do. But let me tell you, this company is fucked up. The CEO is the founder and these tech innovator people are just… special. The culture is weirdly intense, people weaponize the CEOs words, and the tantrums are big. Half of the senior leaders in this company are less qualified for their jobs than I am, and it really shows in the emotional maturity. Like if my benign email sparks such a tantrum and boss cc, you need to do some deep breathing and practice some regulation skills.

Men in tech companies are a real trip.

Holy overreaction Batman. Go ahead and copy my boss. I’ll stand by it, I think your team is way over their heads. Screwed me twice this week already; feel free to misread my words and jump to conclusions, it only proves my point.

Ask me how excited I am to fly out today. YAY. ICE in airports, plane and fire truck crash at LaGuardia. Just me trying to casually get to NJ.

Maybe I’ll take the train.

99.9% of people say nothing about my changing body, which is how I know I surround myself with good humans. But it does make me chuckle when someone will randomly say… like this weekend… “have you lost weight? Like, a lot?”

Oh yeah, I have! A few pounds short of 100 actually!

😳😳😳

Hahaha yeah. I know. It’s crazy. The shots work!

It was a dude friend I’ve know for 30 years who is the least threatening, kindest soul. But yeah, after 100 it’s hard not to be like “hey wow good work.” His wife is one of my best girls and she’s been really struggling with her weight (as a result of struggling with her mental health), and I feel for her. I’ve been there. Save yourself, heal your mind, then sort out the body. It’ll be there waiting if you can get thru the rest.

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