love

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

I'm never on this app and even when I am, in never on these other blogs I own.

I might have updates but it's all in the air. def smitten tho

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

I totally forgot about this blog. I wish I’d kept up more with it. I’m in love and for the first time in my life I’m getting that same energy back. 

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

Gosh darnit

I had a dream.

A very detailed and real dream.

Last time i had this dream was over three years ago.

Maybe because i was texting her?

I shouldn't text her. She'll be the death of me and what i have.

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

I'm pretty sure that

Wednesday was the first time I've ever been to a big lots store

It was definitely the first time I've ever made out in a big lots

[battlevilla]

When you reblog a post to the wrong blog

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

I hate doing this

[kevingetem]

get u a shorty w/ resting bitch face that only smiles at u

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

*A shorty with an intimidating face*

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

Lo and I

Made out last night for the first time in what felt like forever

I'm glad she's still fine with me

[janefondalesbian-archive-deacti]

girls thighs rb if you agree

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

Yo i think

The more time I'm sending with Lo as a friend I'm realizing she's a great companion which I've been longing to have.

Only problem is that like every time i see her she seems to look better and better

[goodquoteco]

[pi-la]

[lezbsrs]

[saudiflacko-deactivated20210617]

im picky and i picked you.

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

This past Thursday

I broke things off with her. I know where i am right now mentally just isn't healthy and i don't want to bring her down

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

So

I think i should talk about what happened over the last three months

I met a beautiful girl at a party and started talking. A few weeks in to getting to know her and taking her out i asked to be exclusive and she said yes. The day after i regretted it. I committed to her too early and i didn't have very strong feelings for her.

She was always nice and encouraging. She wouldn't let me say bad things about myself. She always seemed to have my best interest in mind.

In early April after about 5 or so weeks of knowing her i realized i had no strong feelings for her. I was numb and didn't have love to give and i told her. She was teary eyed but i wanted to just be friends.

No more than 24 hours later i was feeling like crap and realized that i had some feelings for her. So i buckled and a few days later we were back to seeing each other.

Now fast forward to early May. I'm increasingly becoming unhappy and generally hateful towards a lot of things. More and more i begin to find less joy in things. Including being with her. At the same time i felt that i had finally built a strong enough connection to her to the point where I'd really want to see her every day.

[myfavouriteplanetisuranus]

Right now, I am very content with being single. This is something that I've struggled with for about 8 years

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