Rambling's

[myhdbuniverse]

Scars

Scars tell stories, etched in skin, every mark from without, within, Nick's from others, wounds unseen, gashes from self, a silent screen.

Picked scabs of younger days, festering unkindness, lost in the haze, yet healed they are, under a new, smooth and bumpy, a tale to view.

A roadmap of hurt, leading deep, to the chambers where memory sleep, red and swollen, from lack of care, sensitive to touch, yet stronger there.

Each scar a lesson, forever etched, a journey of growth, lightly sketched, on the canvas of the heart, they in part, hard lessons learned, a testament, a start.

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That smile

In the gentle curve of your lips, that smile, a beacon of bliss, warmth at home, welcoming hearts, in their embrace.

In the moment shared, joy does reside, for in your presence, love abides, pride, a gleam in your eyes so bright, your grin wide, a radiant light.

Laughing freely so silly and sweet, your rosy cheeks, a joyful feet, eyes sparkling, dancing with glee, at the point of pride and accomplishment.

Understanding flows, a river serene, kindness, a balm, evergreen, in your smile, such grace does dwell, a sympathy of love, a story to tell.

[myhdbuniverse]

Racism

Shocked that people can have this mindset.

Fear for my beautiful black children that live in this world.

Sadness that someone could hate someone for skin color.

Anger that my black kids STILL have to deal with racism.

Outraged racism is alive and spreading.

Confused why this is even a thing in 2020??

Hurt for the lives that have been lost.

Hopeful that WE can do better!

Praying that hearts and minds can be opened to love and acceptance of one another.

[myhdbuniverse]

Dear Jonn...

I'm sorry, but I don't think we can ever be apart again. Any holes I had in my heart you have filled. You have made me laugh like no other has. Your tenderness in your touch makes me melt. I could not find anyone else in the world that is as perfect for me. The small acts of kindness you have done will forever be in my heart. Not only are you my man, you are my best friend. The thought of growing old with you makes me happy. I can't imagine my life without you. Sincerely, Me

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I wish you were a better man I wonder what we would've become If you were a better man We might still be in love If you were a better man You would've been the one If you were a better man Yeah, yeah Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I can feel you again And I just miss you when I just wish you were a better man And I know why we had to say goodbye like the back of my hand And I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man We might still be in love if you were a better man Better man

"Better Man" by Little Big Town

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Gone

You were gone, we were not. Alone in the overwhelming nothingness of us. Encompassing my every thought. Drowning in my tears. Smothering, overwhelming, choking. Indifferent silence of my mind.

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Weakened By Your Kryptonite

So strong here alone in my world. Total control Able to leap buildings in a single bound. No problem that can't be fixed. My heart tucked away safe from the world. Total control Hard to breath, mind wanders, heart out from its hiding place. Your love is encompassing. Making me to weak to be alone in my world. Losing total control Your Kryptonite love is taking me down. Can't fight to weak in the knees. Lost all control

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To good to be true

We stumbled upon each other as if we would pass by like all the others. To many similarities to ignore Drawn to each other Missing pieces falling into place Easy, comfortable, butterflies, exciting, whole Mine, yours, we

Too soon to be thinking of the future So fast but time drags when alone Where is it? That hidden flaw that big dark secret that’s waiting to be found? Has the dues been paid, time been served released for good behavior? Are we to good to be true?

[myhdbuniverse]

Scar

Starting over, peeling off the scabs you left behind on my heart. Raw , red, tender to the touch. Seeping with the hurt your neglect caused. Itching to move on but the scar remains for all to see.

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Dirty Bitch

Dirty Bitch Slave to wants Secret deeds only thought about in the deep dark corners of your mind...Dirty Bitch Don't be surprised by my willingness Open up wide until it touches... Just. Right. In my hair, on my face, dripping down my chin Dirty Bitch Turn me around bend me over...take what's yearning to be yours Kiss me...Dirty Bitch Ass wanting to be red with your handprint Grab a handful of my hair Fuck! Dirty Bitch

[myhdbuniverse]

Damaged

Am I damaged beyond repair? Is it worth it to try to care? Can I open up again as if it was never closed? So much time has passed. Pathways over grown with thorns. Dark with shadows lingering waiting to creep in again. No light shining through to brighten the path.

[myhdbuniverse]

Fingerprints

In the corridors of my heart. Fingerprints dance their art.

Leaving a trail of stories untold, a race of crimes, a mystery to unfold. Smudges on my mind, a foggy haze, Clouding thoughts in a bewildering maze, I wipe them clean, but they return anew, persistent imprints, a haunting view.

Like the mirror in the bathroom's light, reflecting truths, both day and night, a message of pain forever lingers there, etched in glass, a burden to bear.

Yet amidst the echoes of memories past, I find strength in shadows cast, forr every mark, every line, every scar, bears witness to the battles that shaped who we are.

So let the fingerprints linger, let them stay, a testament to the journey, come what may, for in their presence, I find release, a reminder that pain can also bring peace.

[myhdbuniverse]

Broken

Broken inside from all the pain you caused. To proud to admit you had that much power. Chipped away at my heart. Bit by bit. My whole self is scattered about like a broken mirror. Picking up the pieces, blood dripping from my fingers to put them together again. Strong on the outside so nobody knows my secret. Insecurely going about my day. You creep in my head with your hurtful words and actions. The darkness is consuming at times. You are gone that is my ray if hope to heal. I am not those things.

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Karma

Waiting for the day to understand the why. Karma would come and make things right. Swooping in to serve its justice for the deed done wrong. Now I have the key to break the silence. Tear down the dynasty that is. Will that release the chains that I have been bound with?

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Married

I married for love so long ago… So happy, deep, forever. Hard times and struggle was part of life. We could look into each others eyes and just know. You smashed my heart like a delicate crystal glass dropped from a ten story building. No second thought of the damage you left behind. Here to recover & rebuild our life.

I married the safe choice the one I knew would never stray. Stable, boring, steady. I thought if I would learn to love him like you. No flutter or fight like with you. I have my house, car, and life. With no passion, love, or true happiness.

[myhdbuniverse]

Gone

We said goodbye to you today. Gone is your laughter, your stories, your love. Why now? No warning or signs for us to know. Who knew that kiss would be the last? Now here in our bed…now just mine. Our journey together ended for now.

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Head down

When I found out you were growing inside my belly I was scared, confused, worried. No job, security, house of my own. Head down I can do it. I have to.

I can’t let you down. Making the best out of nothing. Wondering will it always be like this? Your father gone for days with lies in between.

Head down I can do it. I have to. Bouncing from here to there, nothing but my love for you. I did all I could I tried too hard. Another baby on the way. No job, no car, no house, no way!

Head down I can do it. I have to. Left my babies to go to work. If you won’t do it I have to. We need food. Can’t live like this it’s not fair! What did they do? What did I do? Don’t touch me…you don’t deserve my love. I, we are better than that.

Head down I can do it. I have to.