spoken unspoken

20. Venting out. Hopeless Romantic. Thinking of not thinking at all is still thinking, you know.

[myindicoliteletters]

Do you ever just randomly miss me ?

Do you think we are like stars ?

Seeming close yet light years apart ?

Do you ever wonder when did we get like them ?

[myindicoliteletters]

I don't talk about what I feel for you but my actions do and I hate me for it. Beacause its my own body betraying me . For if i can't have you I want the feelings to remain to me.

I owe them.

But do I owe them to you too?

Even when u don't have them for me ?

[myindicoliteletters]

Wonder when did I start hesitating to text you....

maybe when all I did was talk to myself.

[myindicoliteletters]

Where the sun doesn't burn;

Where the moon doesn't glow;

Where the stars don't shine;

Where the meteors don't fall;

I'll be there.

Let silence be your friend, until I come for you

[myindicoliteletters]

I know I say many things and words seem to leave my mouth here and there but

I don't think you ever realized that when I said you remind me of home I meant it . you were my home in a sense. were. I do wonder when I lost my home.

Was it when we went separate ways or was it when I talked too much. I wonder if you ever felt fond of me..

Did you?

or maybe you did all for the sake of mere existence but you were my home you know, some time ago, and to this day you still, sometimes are,

Those sometimes when I come home I seem to find just the memories of you in the feeling I decided to call home.

Did I lose you?

or rather did I ever had you ?

[typicalabdullah]

كيف أقول أشتاق اليك بطريقة تؤلم قلبك كما“

"تؤلمني؟

- How do I say I miss you in a way that will make your heart ache as mine does?

[myindicoliteletters]

But thieves, we are

All in love,

With stolen hearts,

And we all fall down,

And fall apart for love.

[myindicoliteletters]

“I know I’m not the same person I was when we first met. And I’m so thankful you have not become disappointed or tired of the person I have become. I can’t promise you the best days, but I can promise you that I will try and be better than I was yesterday. And if I wasn’t, I will try tomorrow. And the day after. But I will never give up on you. Never."

Don't we all want someone that doesn't give up on us no matter how terrible the times be ?

[typicalabdullah]

And I realize that no matter where I am, whether in a little room full of thought, or in this endless universe of stars and mountains, it’s all in my mind.

[myindicoliteletters]

Can we just lay down on grass with our hands intertwined while we look at the peaceful skies and you tell me how you're mine and I'm yours.

[myindicoliteletters]

I promised myself to move on from things I never spoke about.

But how do you do that?

[typicalabdullah]

Strict parents: "I'm just protecting you"

Congratulations now you have a kid that lies to you 24/7, never open up, and anxious all the time about wrong things they do and scared that it'll never be fixed and forgiven.

[myindicoliteletters]

Your words have always been just words. I learnt that when you left me with no one and nothing to rely on.