Thoughts, Ramblings and my Life

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I literally had to change some fb settings so I would stop seeing posts from someone I know who’s toddler son is still on a pacifier and bottle to the point his teeth are looking like the attached picture.

Her parenting choices completely and I would never say anything to her about it but it severely bothers me every time I see pictures of her son. It breaks my heart to see and almost feels like neglect or bad parenting to allow your child’s teeth to get to this point because you can’t step up and wean them off it

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Absolutely annoyed at every single person I call a “friend”

My father passed away and while I got the typical condolences remarks, not one person bothered to come by and check in if I was ok, I didn’t even get anyone calling me in the days after to ask if I was ok.

I sat and dealt with everything by myself

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I hate Mother’s Day.

My own mother is a narc bitch and my kids have never had a positive role model to show them how to appreciate their mother. So I’m lucky if I even get a verbal “Happy Mother’s Day”

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I’ve had a dream for the past little bit now that if I keep it in I’m going to explode. I don’t feel comfortable telling anyone in my life.

I want to go to university for linguistics with a minor in Japanese studies so I can then move to Japan and teach English

I have a few obstacles that are keeping me from pursuing this. I’m a 35 year old single mom of 2 and we’ve been living in poverty for the past 10 years so I can’t afford to take time away from work for more education. I also can’t get a student loan as I already have an outstanding one that I need to make payments on before I could even try to apply for another one.

I fear that by the time I’m able to go to university for these programs I’ll be too old to be considered for a work visa to Japan 😔

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Thoughts

Just sitting here and thinking about everything that’s going on with my oldest daughter. Wondering how much her dad is influencing her and the opinions she’s expressing at this time.

Wondering if his influence is the reason she wants nothing to do with her indigenous culture anymore.

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Life

I don’t usually talk about myself to other people to tell them my likes and dislikes. I’m scared that my unusual interests will turn people off.

But I need to learn to admit it and be unashamed

I prefer to mostly watch anime, k-dramas and cartoons

I prefer to listen to Japanese and Korean music

I like to collect and decorate my room with my “nerdy” interests. Mainly right now that is Naruto

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Thoughts

Whoever came up with the idea to have people be “YouTube famous” needs a punch to the throat

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Thoughts

Any time I see someone doing their make up on the bus I secretly hope that the bus hits a pot hole and the person screws up.

I don’t need to see you putting on layers of make up out in public like this.

I mean seriously it’s 2 o’clock in the damn afternoon! If you didn’t have enough time to do your make up before leaving the house then I think you need a life adjustment in time management.

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Anxiety Mind

I’m in class and a thought occurred to me...  I’m sitting here and learning all this stuff but how am I going to remember this information to be able to implement it when I start working? And I had a panic moment about whether or not I’ll be able to do it and function out in the working world.  

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Anxiety Mind

Well Parent Support Group (PSG) started back up today at the Mi’kmaq Child Development Centre.

We were having a discussion about a program that got filled to twice capacity and they were looking for suggestions tonight on how to manage it.

Well... conversation got chaotic and apparently I got overwhelmed as when I finally got the chance to voice my opinion I ended up speaking very loudly.

My friend pointed it out, then I ended up rambling (still loudly) trying to apologize and explain 🤦🏼‍♀️

Now I feel like an idiot.

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Life

Yesterday was my birthday and no one from my family called or even texted me 😔

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Life

All this week and next week I have my youngest in day camp and I have my oldest at home. My purpose for doing that is because I very rarely get to spend one on one time with my oldest, she goes to her dad’s every second weekend but my youngest is just with me... her dad signed his parental rights away less than month before she turned 2 and none of my family lives close by. My youngest also has some special needs and it can cause some stress when we’re out as a family, I end up having to focus on handling that and my oldest doesn’t get the equal attention she deserves/needs as an 11 year old getting close to her teens.

So for this time I wanted my focus to be on her.

Monday we tried sweets from a new bakery and went a candy store 🍪 🍬

Tuesday we went for brunch and then to Clay Cafe 🍳 🎨

Today we are going to the movies 🎬

Tomorrow is a walk on the waterfront ☀️

And Friday and next week are TBD 🌸

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Life

Ok, so I live in a low income neighbourhood, some of the kids around here are a bit rough but no big deal cause they all play together pretty good. Today though all the kids are out here playing with toy guns. Now, that I’m already not comfortable with because I don’t think normalizing guns as something fun to play with is ok. So the kid who owned all those toys was getting ready to go home so he was getting his toys back... this kid holds up a toy knife and says “give them back or I’m going to cut you” .... Like 😦 what?

Not only that but other kids were going around saying things (even to adults) like ‘everybody’s going to be dead’ and pointing the guns in people’s faces. And not ONE. DAMN. ADULT said ANYTHING to these kids. Blew my mind. And god forbid if I say something, the parents will be yelling at me for speaking to their kids.

Don’t even know what to think...

I got my kid out here with bubbles though

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Life

So I’m having a bit of a panic moment right now....

Where I live we’re expected to get a big storm 15-20cm of snow and blowing winds up to 110km/h+. We had similar winds Christmas Day and a lot power lines were knocked down (we have no unground power lines here) and some people were out of power for 2-3 days. My house didn’t lose power then but I’m scared we will this time. I’ve lost power before during storms but nothing that’s lasted longer than overnight. This might be my first time with potential to lose power for multiple days and I’ve never dealt with that on my own before, especially not as a parent with 2 kids. I know I’m not prepared for it, I don’t know how to prepare for it and I’m freaking out

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