my mumma said SOON

[randomactsofchaos]

[mymummasaidsoon]

Everything feels like it is starting to fall together. I'm still not sure what the future holds, that still scares me, but in a way I like the possibilities of what might happen. 

[mymummasaidsoon]

I keep searching for your face in a crowd I know you're not in.

[5pointzbristol-deactivated20150]

[mymummasaidsoon]

... And thats the thing about losing someone. They will be the last person you see before you sleep and the only person you see in your dreams. 

[discolor3d]

[daraniashley]

[cyberunfamous]

[themusingsofasimpleton-deactiva]

[mymummasaidsoon]

While i was sitting in my first psychologist session last week i realised that what people say is true, when someone is ready they will seek help. My psychologist said 'thank you, thank you for being here today'. While she was saying thank you i thought of all the people i should thank. If it wasn't for particular people i wouldn't be sitting here typing this. So on mothers day, I thanked my mum for bringing five daughters and four of my best friends in to this world. They make my life, everyday. 

[hippiesispunkz]

[mymummasaidsoon]

You hurt because you're alive

[winternow]

[mymummasaidsoon]

And that's the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too.

[mymummasaidsoon]

My new ritual is lying outside of a night and looking at the sky. Its overwhelming and humbling. At first it made me feel scared. Scared that I was this tiny being in this huge world. After thinking about why it made me scared i came to realise being this tiny thing is pretty damn awesome. I can be who I am. There's millions of people out there and truth is out of the millions of people we will cross paths with in this life, very few will care or remember me. Being scared is pointless. 

[mymummasaidsoon]

Each one of us continues to carry the heart of each self we've ever been, at every stage along the way, and a chaos of everything good and rotten. And we have to carry this weight all alone, through each day that we live. We try to be as nice as we can to the people we love, but we alone support the weight of ourselves.

 Banana Yoshimoto, Goodbye Tsugumi

[fourlikeminds]