daisy

i just wanna feel pretty

[iloveheli]

[xxsl3epy-sk1nnyxx]

♡♡♡♡

[mynamelessedd]

so I ate around 400 cal for breakfast

that’s it for today I guess

[lovenotlogic]

me: (doesn’t directly tell anyone that i am struggling)

me: kinda interesting how nobody is ever there when i need them ://

[mynamelessedd]

okay my goal is to lose weight until my birthday (2 months) and I’m starting tomorrow. If this goes wrong imma unalive myself istfg

weight goal: 138

current weight; 165

🤡

[mynamelessedd]

imma try gaslighting myself just like my ex did

“I’m hungry”

Mmmm honey I don’t think so… I mean you’ve got a point but I don’t think you’re reaaLly hungry. I love u tho but I just don’t see it

[mynamelessedd]

sounds like someone’s getting worse!

[mynamelessedd]

This two months have been incredibly stressful and disorganised for me. A breakup, moving again with my parents (they’ve noticed my disorder and want to “help”), being so stressed with work… so I’ve been picking myself up step by step and I’m on the gym now!

So I think it’s time now to start again, leaving behind all of the failure (I’ve gained 5 kg/11 pounds) and keep on working for it. Crying won’t make anything. I’m going to try this one diet, so then I can get back again to my 500 cal intake per day.

[roseyfuck]

attn to all you youngins who have never purged before 🗣

there is nothing cute about it lmao

hunching over your toilet- fingering your throat like a straight man trying to hook the g spot

puke all over your hands, spit running down your arms. that doesn’t matter tho cause your dignity is gone, so you’ll shove them chunk covered fingers back in your mouth np

so. much. snot.

so much.

your throat is on fire, your entire body aching. don’t even get me started on the stomach pain.

u deserve better than any of this.

honestly, so do I

[mynamelessedd]

I can’t take this anymore. I can’t stand the fact that my life depends on weight, food, numbers, and feeling always like I should do better. I hate trying everything and getting 0 results. I hate hating myself so much and not enjoying a single thing that happens in my life, and then I hate feeling guilty because I’m not enjoying them. I hate living like this and I’d hate another way of living besides this one.

[brinithejellyfish]

at the ed clinic i went to i overhead this one girl saying "when jesus doesnt eat for 40 days its called a miracle but when i do it i get sent to an ed clinic"

[mynamelessedd]

I can reach the goal. The anger I get when I look at myself and the motivation from the gym makes me feel like an obligation to keep on moving. It will take maybe some time, but I will make it. And I will look at myself and won’t see a disaster.

[mynamelessedd]

I had a little binge today but purged, except from that I had an amazing day. Feeling so proud of myself for not letting food control my goal. I’m in control. I’ll reach the goal, no matter what.

[mynamelessedd]

Sea sticks, tomato and omelette ✨✨ 234 cal

[mynamelessedd]

so doctors told me I should go to a psychiatrist:)) I’m kinda fucking scared about what’s gonna happen

[mynamelessedd]

konjac + some veggies ❤️❤️❤️ 135 cal this plate

[mynamelessedd]

Konjac + chili sauce, only 132 cal this whole plate ❤️❤️❤️

[mynamelessedd]

I’m really embarrassed because I gained a lot of weight and I need to start from the bottom. I moved on with my mother and started eating “regularly” and stuffed my face some days, so I gained all the weight I lost last month. Again.

But I start at the gym today, so I already have the motivation to start with cal tracking. I can’t stand looking at my thighs that got fatter. I can’t stand my stomach who looks bloated. I can’t stand looking at the mirror.

So I’m going to start with the abc diet, so I’m going with 500 cals today. I can’t fail this one.