𝖘𝖎𝖉𝖊 𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖌 ʚɞ @mysistermi4 - Tumblr Blog

update 07/25 - only my tags

this shouldn't need to be said but hi

this is not a cute 2014 aesthetic blog. i was a teen on here in 2014 and it's not what you think, it was scary. if you're new here get out and save yourself.

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t0r1r3x1aaaa

in a way I’m almost grateful for those experiences I had. they helped me understand how sick and evil men can be, how many men are pedophiles, how men will leverage their resources to exploit women

ivyyy777

Whatever your problem is, the answer is not in the fridge.

xxsangelposting

+ for future reference, (please read)

I'm not really comfortable sharing tips. I know people mean well when they ask, but I don't want to help anyone hurt themselves even more, yk?

the most I can do is share my own experience, habits or what works for me, but that's about it.

thanks for understanding! ݁ ˖Ი𐑼ֶָ֢

bloodmoonchic

and suddenly I have a DV advocate accompanying me to my police interview, and a protective order that I didn’t seek out against the man that I saw myself with in every lifetime

bonypuppet

how it felt finding out you could just ⭐️ve

miawasthere

tumblr angels do not support ICE btw 🩷🪽

sadbnuuygirl

being mistreated by my therapist is actually one of the worst betrayals i’ve ever felt.

i wanna k!ll someone, but i also wanna k!ll myself.

lizzyraecooks

Peanut Noodles

You will need

- 3 large carrots

- 3 large mushrooms

- 1 box rice noodles

- 1 lb ground turkey OR pork (can use beef just make it spicy!)

- Soy sauce

- 4 tbsp peanut butter

- Spices: curry powder, cinnamon, roasted garlic & herb mix (includes garlic powder, onion powder, coriander, salt, pepper, mustard)

- Optional toppings: chopped peanuts, crushed red pepper, sweet chili sauce

1) Spray cooking spray in a large frying pan. Brown meat on medium high (6-7) heat.

2) While meat cooks, julienne carrots. This takes a disturbingly long amount of time

3) When meat is browned, add carrots and spices. Reduce heat to medium low (3).

4) Boil rice noodles in a pot of water. If it overflows, reduce heat (8).

5) Slice mushrooms and add to pan. Add soy sauce to taste (I used about 6 tbsp).

6) Add rice noodles and some water (about 1/2 cup) to pan.

7) Add peanut butter and stir. Turn off heat.

8) Serve with optional toppings if desired.

Nutrition Info

323 calories

10.2g fat

47.7g carbs

19.5g protein

NUT ALLERGY WARNING

SPICE ALLERGY WARNING

Use Beyond Meat ground beef for vegan option, add black pepper (a LOT of black pepper)

DISCLAIMER: Nutrition facts are an estimate. I am not a medical professional and the recipes I post are not to promote any diet or medical advice. Consult your doctor before changing your diet and be mindful of allergens.

mysistermi4

info for my noodles (my recipe blog)

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today i made a LOT of noodles. ended up with 8 servings. dm for recipe blog. 323kc/10.2f/47.7c/19.5p

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so now on top of the shitshow that is my 18 years of going "it's because you're fat" any time something bad happens inconveniences me, i also have to fight the urge to go back to an ex because "you made more money when you were with them"

even though they saw that as a direct insult and tried to take my money from me

ugh.

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mysistermi4

trying to quit smoking for the millionth time. i lost more before i started, plus i get lightheaded so then i have to eat

mysistermi4

update: failed in 4 hours because of this bullshit

i can't catch a fuckin break

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Hey you

Yes you. Younger Mia/Anna/Edward.

That heaviness in your chest in the middle of the night? It's not depression; it's your heart struggling to keep beating. If you don't get enough protein (120+ grams daily), your body starts to dissolve its own muscle. No, you don't magically burn fat only at 15+ hours fasted. And you burn muscle long before that. Your heart is a muscle.

I know you think you have nothing but time. Most of you think you have too much of it. I've been sick since I was 11 and now I'm almost 30. I understand. In fact, when I look back at ages 11-19 I genuinely wonder why I wanted to be gone so badly; my problems are real now, and much worse. I have survived unimaginable horrors in my 20s, usually from people who claimed to love me - myself included - trying to "punish" me. I have had 3 heart attacks. I have been shocked to wake up after drinking too much and hoping I didn't.

And even after all that?

A large part of my believes that if I were just a bit smaller, they would have treated me right.

If I were just a bit smaller, I would be invisible to those who want to hurt me or use me.

It's not true, in my experience. Actually, it seems to make me a bigger target because those people want someone who is easy to control, mentally and physically.

But still the thoughts persist.

Why? Because the human brain loves repetition. And I have been repeating these lies to myself since I was 11.

So if you're struggling, especially after SA or the loss of a loved one, go to the gym and lift heavy shit. Eat protein from soy, meat and fish. Run sprints to release your rage. Jump into a lake and feel the cold water on your face. Talk to someone - NOT someone who reminds you of that person, though. Someone who makes your stomach and legs still and calm when you sit across their desk.

But don't let the sickness consume you.

I am so young still, like you. You may think I'm ancient - I thought 26 was elderly when I was 11. But I am young. And I've wasted 2/3 of my life on this. I will be lucky to live to be 50 - your grandparents' or even parents' age. Because I let myself believe that if I was just a bit less, I would be worth more.

Please show someone your blog if you're too far in already. And don't resist their attempts to save you. Rehab is lovely, actually; if it didn't cost so much without insurance, I would gladly go back. It is a place to find yourself. And then you have all the time in the world to practice being yourself in the world.

Find peace.

Get out.

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mysistermi4

someone needs to know

i have lose it and mfp on my phone. i log what my coach tells me to eat in mfp and i do her workouts, but i log what i'm actually eating in lose it and i do extra stuff. i ran a 10k last weekend and all i can think about is how much i used to love running...and how fast it works. i just want to be happy. i left my ex for good finally (no contact no warning no cops) and i am so fucking sick of hating myself for what he did to me. i want to shed it all - literally and metaphorically. plus i know i can lose and NOT gain it back now. lost 40 in 2022 and have stayed there since (minus a couple times i was LOWER, not higher)

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life update i suck at lying and i HATE mfp so i quit getting coaching

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tag list

will add to my pinned later but for now:

- #mysistermi4 = all my posts

- #mysistermi4diary = emotional and life stuff

- #mysistermi4log = numbers

- #mysistermi4quitting = off subs (current attempt: nicotine)

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trying to quit smoking for the millionth time. i lost more before i started, plus i get lightheaded so then i have to eat