Well judging from the characters’ interactions alone, the core dynamic between Ada and Leon has never really been one of care, understanding, or honesty. It has long centered instead on information asymmetry, concealment, manipulation, and emotional withdrawal. That does not mean she has no feelings, nor does it mean she has never suffered in her own way. But in narrative terms, her role is indeed much closer to that of someone who repeatedly appears and disappears, withholds her true intentions, and manipulates the situation whenever necessary. A character like that can absolutely have complicated feelings for Leon, but to claim that she “shares” Leon’s Raccoon City trauma feels extremely forced, to the point of being almost repulsive.
??? She didn't seem to care one bit about what was going on around her. She was focused on her mission. She owes Leon her life when she was that night and that's the only thing she carried with her from that night. That and her fall.
I never came across such discourse but if it's what's being said in the general fandom, then it's indeed disgraceful on so many levels.
The opening CG cinematic begins with a torrential downpour. Two special forces units parachute into a village at the edge of a dense rainforest. Everyone is in full tactical gear—helmets, masks, visors down. Amid the crackle of radios and rustling gear, one soldier cracks a regionally charged joke to the blue-eyed guy beside him. Another man—clearly a commanding officer—stands and cuts through the noise with a sharp voice, telling everyone to stay sharp. Above, a helicopter hovers with tense instability, its pilot muttering over comms as the men begin fast-roping down into the wet jungle below.
Then the camera shifts. Inside the tents, helmets come off. And it’s only then the players see them—two piercing pairs of blue eyes. The faces: Krauser and Leon, revealed together in a moment designed to floor you with sheer charisma. These are your dual protagonists.
From here, players choose which character to control. Regardless of choice, Krauser and Leon move together as an inseparable unit. The opening hours build a sense of brotherhood and teamwork—your “tutorial village.” You can explore the camp freely, in a blend of Call of Duty and Red Dead Redemption energy: field-stripping and reassembling weapons, survival mini-games, analyzing strange data, or even sparring with Krauser or other NPCs squadmates. Conversations trigger flashbacks or war stories—gruff complaints about Krauser’s brutal discipline always laced with deep respect. You witness Leon’s evolution from green recruit to a finely tuned operative.
Outside the camp, there are small, morally murky missions: eliminating possibly infected locals, receiving vague answers from command, increasingly ambiguous objectives. The sense of unease builds. Then comes the order: break camp. The night before departure, Leon privately informs Krauser that he’s carrying a classified White House mission. He’ll need to split from the unit once they’re deep in the jungle. Krauser clearly wants to ask more—but holds back. Instead, he offers Leon a firm, weighty piece of advice: stay alive. Leon replies, “You too, Major. I’ll see you on the other side.” They shake hands, the bond unspoken but deep.
What follows is a descent into hell. After a large-scale mid-game boss battle, the game splits: players go solo.
If you chose Krauser, you’re plunged into a nightmare of comrades dying one by one, with no time to process. If you’re Leon, you face the emergence of B.O.W.s and the enigmatic Manuela. When the two finally reunite, tension snaps. Krauser, traumatized and furious, refuses to trust Manuela. A violent argument erupts. But there’s no time to resolve it.
The team faces Javier and his grotesque army. Krauser’s last two men fall. Javier deals Manuela a near-fatal blow. And when the villain unleashes his final, devastating strike meant for Leon—Krauser steps in, takes the hit, and sets his fate in motion.
As the chapter closes, the rain still falls—but sunlight finally breaks through. It cuts across the muddy battlefield, illuminating the waterlogged ground like the glimmering surface of a lake. It looks just like Mott Lake back at the base in North Carolina, under the heat of a summer sun.
Synopsis : What happens when Krauser has to leave the base for a few days...
The room was dim, lit mostly by screens.
Satellite feeds, grainy footage, heat signatures drifted through jagged terrain halfway across the world.
Voices overlapped—measured, clinical and detached from the lives flickering in green and white across the monitors.
“Movement along the eastern ridge.”
“Zoom in—hold there.”
“Thermal spike at grid nine.”
Jack sat with his back to the table of the briefing room, hunched forward and fingers steepled before him, tracking with piercing blues the satellite feed cycling through on the screen in grainy infrared, along with the the timestamp running in the corner and the heat signatures of men moving through the ridgeline corridor southeast of Priština.
He'd been watching the same loop for forty minutes on another monitor. The terrain was the familiar Kosovo highland: broken, heavily wooded on the eastern exposure - the kind of ground that swallowed movement and made clean extraction a complex exercise. He knew it. He'd been studying the Yugoslav theater since '97, when it became clear to anyone paying attention that the KLA's escalation wasn’t going to resolve quietly, and NATO's patience had a ceiling.
He also knew the terrain better than the analysts presenting it to him, which was the kind of thing he didn’t need to reaffirm when it was the reason why he’d been pulled in from the base and put on a plane to Belvoir in the middle of a steak bite.
“They’re too exposed,” he muttered.
Around the round table were two men in suits from the National Security Council whose names he's been given and already set aside, a colonel from the Joint Chiefs with too many files spread before him, one DIA liaison who kept clicking his pen, and a couple of tech analysts to better explain what went on on the screens.
Standard configuration for something that rushed and urgent.
One of the suits closest to his seat caught his grumble. “They’re following the planned route.”
“Then the plan’s bad.”
A few heads turned.
The colonel piped up solemnly, “It’s decided then. The deployment window is locked. Ground team moves at 0400 and Air support is on standby. We want eyes on the ground before the handoff window closes.”
Jack nodded. He'd already calculated the window. Forty-eight hours, maybe sixty if the weather on the eastern corridor cooperated, which the satellite data suggests it wouldn’t. “Then I better gear up—”
“Actually, that won’t be necessary, Major,” the same suit next to him interjected without preamble, like interrupting a man of Krauser's particular dimensions was something he did regularly and never reconsidered.
Clearly a lifelong habit of being unimpressed by men who could fold him in half.
Fucking feds.
Jack’s eyes cut towards him sharply. “Excuse me?”
“We’re keeping you stateside,” the man continued, his tone carrying the quality of a decision being communicated rather than discussed. “Your current assignment takes priority. That unit in Colorado took considerable time and resources to select. Pulling you from that now compromises long-term readiness.”
Krauser flagged the first lie in that prattle instantly—or else they’d have to explain to him where the pretty boy they dumped onto their so-called top-secret program counted in that statement.
“Long-term readiness? Haven’t we been watching the same loop for over thirty minutes now? What about the long-term readiness of these men.”
“And we have a very capable team ready to be dispatched into the field for the handoff.”
“I know that terrain very well. That’s why you brought me here in the first place, after all, isn’t it?”
A flicker of irritation crossed the suited man’s face. “Major, we brought you in as a valuable advisor. Your role—”
“My role is to make sure soldiers don’t die when they don’t have to,” Krauser cut in, voice low but controlled. “Right now, they’re moving into a dozen threat indicators they won’t see coming.”
Silence tightened across the room.
Jack pushed off the chair, stepping closer to the main display. The convoy crawled forward, right into a narrowing corridor of terrain.
“I’ll get there—with the team you’ve readied,” he stressed out, indulging the man his petty managements, sensing that fastest route through this room was compliance, “pull them out of that mess—” He glanced over his shoulder at the rest room as his tone took a sharper edge, “—and I’ll be back before our precious assets start thinking the worst is behind them.” A beat. “Every last dipshit one of them.”
The speech earned a few looks, some amused, some less so and that pen finally stilled.
The NSC agent studied him, weighing. “You’re confident in that.”
Jack didn’t hesitate. “Affirmative.”
A beat passed where the table looked around one another in silence.
Finally, the liaison exhaled before turning away, already reaching for his cellphone. “…I’ll make the call. See if we can get authorization.”
Jack didn’t thank him, he just turned back to the screen, eyes narrowing as the feed flickered, already halfway there.
***
“Hey, Kennedy.”
Leon glanced up from his bunk. He'd been lying there with a knife balanced loosely in his hand for an hour now, not doing anything with it in particular, just turning it over and back in the way it had slowly become a tic when lost in thoughts.
A couple of soldiers lingered in the doorway, already half out of uniform, boots and trousers staying but their khaki jackets knotted around hips or tucked beneath arms as if they couldn’t be out of them soon enough—Leon was still in his, had gotten used to the weight of it somewhere along the way—and carrying the energy of men who've decided the night belongs to them.
“Some of us are heading out to Malone’s for drinks and a few rounds of pool,” Kyle Rives said.
The other one, whom Leon wasn’t familiar with, grinned. “Figured you might need a stiff drink after that nosedive in the mud you took yesterday.”
Leon looked at them for a second, then at the knife in his hand.
He flipped it once—clean—catching it by the handle without thinking.
“Thanks but I’m good,” he said.
the two men exchanged a look.
“Seriously?”
“Yeah.”
“Dude, you know Krauser’s not around, right?” the one he didn’t remember the name of said—as if Leon hadn’t seen him being pulled from his mashed potatoes right before his eyes.
“Wha—where are you going, Major?”
Krauser passed back the phone, already up and moving. “Some business that needs to be taken care of. I’ll be back. Finish your plate.”
Finish your plate, he’d said.
Leon huffed.
His appetite had gone the moment Krauser left him hanging in their familiar picnic bench.
These had been his parted words for him and Leon was pissed at how silly they were when the matter concerned the current war in eastern Europe—something he learned later that day, after playing off his charms on the receptionist at the restricted area, where he learned federal agents had waited for the Major to escort him in a black SUV.
Shit’s about the fucking war and that was what he left Leon with.
Tch. Well, Leon didn’t finish his stupid plate and didn’t feel like dinner either.
How about that.
“We know he rides your ass harder than anyone but he’ll never know about it if it's all of us sneaking out.”
Leon shrugged, slinging a smile across his face even when he’s already half-tuned out. “Not about that.”
It was though. Part of it. But not in the way they thought.
They lingered a minute longer, then Kyle clapped him lightly on the shoulder, laughing. “Suit yourself. Just don’t bleed out here or something.”
“Yeah, if Krauser gets back and finds his chew toy looking like warmed over garbage, he’s gonna ride our asses to Kingdom Come,” the other added.
Leon huffed a quiet breath that passed for amusement. “Yeah. I’ll try.”
As they walked away, Leon caught the whisper of What’s wrong with him? and Kyle Rives’ Leave him alone, he’s just a kid.
And those were their parting words for him, too. But Leon could only hear the echo of one.
If.
Even if he’d been in the mood for a change of air, he’d lost any motivation for it.
Kyle’s stupid friend wasn’t wrong though. He could use a drink or two. However, he wasn’t sure he could stop at that and Krauser made him promise to never get shitfaced again after that Christmas Eve… And for some reason, he didn’t want to break that promise.
So he was not feeling like eating, he was not feeling like drinking and he was also too restless to fall asleep.
Eyes fell to his hand and stared at the saw-edged knife the way Krauser taught him to look at any weapon—
“No fear. The size of it is irrelevant. What matters is that you don't take your eyes away from it.”
Was Krauser joining the war?
War… What a load of bullshit.
Leon swung the knife.
As his arm stayed suspended, position locked, Leon followed the dull light skating along the blade with his eyes up to his wrist for a beat.
Shit.
Bad grip.
He’d been rebuilding his wrist work from the ground up for two weeks now.
He adjusted his position on his bed. Crosslegged. Back straight.
Simple rotations first. Controlled tosses no higher than eye level—the foundational stuff; the kind of movement that looked like nothing until it set the pace for everything that followed.
The knife rolled over his scrapped knuckles, flipped between fingers, spun cleanly back into his taped up palm. The rhythm found him fast, the way it always did when he stopped thinking about it and let his hands remember.
“Slow is how you find the mistakes. Fast is just how you hide them.”
Spin, catch, turn.
Spin, catch, turn.
His breathing evened out a little and he leaned back against his pillow, stretching one leg out while the other bounced faintly with the leftover current of adrenaline.
And anxiety.
The knife kept moving. Reverse grip transition. Clean.
Forward spin. Catch.
Palm roll—the blade slipped. Leon caught it before it dropped, jaw tightening.
Sloppy.
Krauser's voice arrived at the front steps of his mind without knocking.
Leon exhaled through his nose and tried again. Faster this time. More deliberate. The correction sat itself and he ran it again from the top, building the sequence back up from where it broke, the way he'd been taught: You didn’t paper over the error, you went back to where the error began.
Again.
Again.
The knife became something close to a blur between his fingers, the motion shedding its individual parts until it was a single continuous thing, instinct being carved into muscle one repetition at a time.
His hands knew things his mind had to explain to them once. That gap had been closing for months without his fully noticing until moments like this one, alone in the low light, when there’s nobody to perform for or impress.
Krauser had caught the wrist earlier into their sessions. He said nothing for most of it, watched him work through it and see if he’d catch onto the mistakes on his own. And if Leon did before the moment of correction, when Leon's form finally matched what it was supposed to look like, he’d be given that single, small nod.
Not even praise.
Just acknowledgment. The recognition that something had been done correctly, offered flatly, almost as observation rather than approval, and somehow that made it—... Leon didn’t have a word for what it made it. He just knew that nod had started to mean something he never really cared to stop and think about…
If the major was here, Leon would already be wallowing in the look those frigid eyes got when he did something right. This was around the time they usually started their one-on-ones after all…
The smile faded like a cheap fragrance and the restlessness was back. It built pressure somewhere under his ribs like there was too much current in too small a space and his wrist work wasn’t drawing enough of it off.
He sat with it for a moment, slowly recognizing it for what it was.
If.
Leon’s jaw tightened as if the word could be snapped in two between his teeth—and he pushed to his feet in a single shot.
Since they were a small unit of thirty one cherry-picked soldiers—not accounting for him—the base allotted four buildings for their sleeping arrangements, divided into small groups rather than stacking them down in one barracks. A smidgen of privacy, which was the concession, and the size of said arrangements being the trade.
Thirty-two feet long, twenty-three wide—which sounded generous until you put seven men and their footlockers into it. Three beds ran along one wall, four along the other—an unwelcomed asymmetry courtesy of Leon’s addition—and fifteen feet of open floor running down the middle. Just enough to pass through without grazing either side.
It wasn’t like the whole base wasn’t designed to remind you at all hours that comfort was a civilian concern they were meant to check at the front door the day they accepted this draft.
Leon’s bunk was against the farthest wall, a last minute addition and closest to the one fluorescent tube left buzzing faintly, throwing long shadows across the bedframes, footlockers and other personal effects regulations allowed for keepsakes.
The only thing Leon had as such was his gun and the RPD badge—a cherished collection of ghosts he begged the feds not to take away.
In retrospect, even without feeling crabby, Leon might have still passed on the night out for a moment of utter and complete privacy like the one right now.
He took the center of the room and started moving between the two pillars standing in the middle.
Light steps, controlled pivots, shifting his weight from heel to toe while the knife ran its patterns in his hand.
Suddenly, the barracks got the particular quality of a space that felt like it belonged solely to him—as if he was back home, in his childhood bedroom, and that alone couldn’t compare to any drink his mind conjured every minute of every day spent here. And so he moved through it like such—unhurried, finding his ground, learning the geometry of it the way his Major told him to learn any space he moved through.
And little by little, slow turned to fast.
He weaved through the narrow aisles, ducking around bedframes, pivoting off the support beams, boots whispering across the floor in the half-dark. The fluorescent light at the far caught the blade on each pass, brief cold flashes like moonlight skipping across broken glass.
Step. Turn. Flip. Catch.
Too wide.
The voice in his mind carried grit and disapproval but a smile crept to Leon’s lips, anyway.
He tightened the motion before Krauser's voice finished the reproach inside his brain, the feedback loop so internalized that it coursed through his veins unbidden.
In the beginning he’d needed it said out loud. Three months ago he'd needed it said once and it’d be enough. Now it was just there, running in the background like the phantom of his opera—the voice in his mind and behind the curtain, guiding his limbs as his moves like the perfect puppet.
Telegraphing.
He tightened again.
The burn built in his legs without fully registering it and the shallow cut across his palm from yesterday's session reopened—he could feel the faint sting of it, the warmth—but his grip didn't loosen, his eyes didn't check it and his knife didn't slow.
And Leon moved through the barracks like nobody but him could see who or what he was trying to outrun—or chase down.
An opponent taking form in the pillar he twisted around before tipping his blade against the invisible neck on the second pillar with a solemn flick of wrist.
Sweat dampened the collar of his shirt and he shrugged his jacket off thoughtlessly, sending it flying to some bunk that wasn’t his.
Heartbeat was jagging out of place but all was lost in a scarlet rush he couldn’t contain. He felt loose and light as a feather—lighter than he ever had before—lighter than the academy’s training or anything had ever come close to making him feel.
It was like he’d unlocked something he never thought possible—
The power to fucking fly.
He vaulted over the end of the last bunk, landed clean on the balls of his feet, pivoted and sent the knife through a single clean arc behind his back—
—and caught it perfectly.
Teeth bit into flushed lips as a grin spread in the silent space, slow and unaccountably wicked like a predator feeling at home in the dark.
The satisfaction shot hot and immediate—bright as a struck match. He stood with it for a suspended beat in the middle of the empty barracks, chest heaving, blade hanging loose at his side, and let it encompass him—let it pull him through its wild fire, let it burn the bitter thoughts beneath the high.
This new feeling… this ache he started to seek, subconsciously chasing it through the barracks in the dim light—this ache with blue eyes that lit his veins with crimson fire, that made blood drip down his palm—this new feeling, Leon started to like it.
And if it burned him then let it stay.
Maybe it was his destiny to feel this way…
He finally slowed near the far wall, breathing hard, the adrenaline crackling uselessly through his extremities now that the movement had stopped.
The barracks felt vast in the sudden stillness—like a black hole, void of thoughts and emotions—too empty like it was missing something it had before, even if that something was never in this specific room to be exact…
What he was missing was inside his head.
Backwards crash onto his bed. Blue peepers suspended between wide open and openly tired…
Leon thought about Krauser somewhere over the Atlantic. Or already on the ground, moving through foreign terrain that had no shape in Leon's mind—no coordinates, no map, nothing he could picture or place or follow. Just the fact of him being somewhere that wasn't here, leaving Leon alone in his own foreign world—and the thought seized his chest like a loving cobra.
…
If
That nameless asshole, Leon couldn’t wait to face him in the fight ring.
***
He almost walked past it.
Eighteen hours of pure logistics; DC first, the debrief in Belvoir eating through the afternoon and into the evening, then the drive back through the forest that made the Fort disappear from the world past a certain checkpoint taking the rest of it.
Somewhere along the drive, Jack stopped tracking the hours and let his body relax into the miles, allowing himself to enjoy this narrow window between operation and return where nothing was required of him anymore.
At least until he reached the real comfort of a pillow that knew his neck and a bed that didn’t have to be rolled up on frozen ground at oh-four-hundred…
He knew the Fort by feel now. The specific texture of each hour of the day and night as it fell over every nook and corner. That was why as he crossed the courtyard, the yellow rectangle of the window against the dark face of a certain building stopped him in his tracks.
Jack stood in the middle of the field for a moment as he looked at it.
That was hangar number eight. And just like that, hand readjusting around the strap of his duffel, he already had a guess.
When he pushed the door open, his eyes instantly adjusted from the dark outside to the lit interior, taking in the familiar space, instinctively scanning it for what had changed, what hadn’t and what was where it shouldn't be past curfew…
Leon’s back was hunched over a small table, shoulders curved forward and forearms flat on the surface. The cone of the single overhead light fell directly over him and his hair swallowed it all.
That ridiculous quantity of blond fluff that he himself allowed from day one—the First Sergeant snarling about shaving it himself. Jack had let him finish, then he spoke three words.
The hair stays.
And the hair stayed ever since.
At first he liked the reminder that this one was an oddity he needed to keep track of. Something that must not disappear into the ranks so easily given the redacted file and the Secret Service that personally delivered it. He first thought of some kind of mole but that idea soon died in the bud on that Christmas Eve night…
Then little by little he started to like that excess of blond sitting on Kennedy's head like the latter never got the memo about what this place was and what was asked of the men inside it.
He also liked that it made it easy to locate him from a distance, if only to better watch him squirm through the hell Jack knew he was going through.
And yet, Leon never made a move towards chopping it off despite all the dissent it added onto his plate.
Obstinate and bright and entirely out of place.
Jack wouldn’t have had it any other way to be honest.
Right now, it was throwing a soft halo that reminded him of the painted angels on the ceiling of this small church outside Vicenza during a European posting… How the light still found them despite the dimness and narrow windows had fascinated him.
The door’s metal creak broke the stillness of the allotted space and Leon jerked up, instantly turning before Jack had finished putting a foot inside.
The shift that went through the kid was not small nor subtle at all. Jack watched it happen almost in slow motion. The way Leon's body froze like a mouse that had made it three quarters of the way across the kitchen floor before the light came on, the way his eyes went wide and very blue in the floodlight—round with something between surprise and relief—a terrain more foreign than where Jack came from.
Then Leon's mouth fell open and Jack was once again struck by the sheer foolery of such a face being niched deep inside this merciless place.
He looked like he just caught Santa climbing out the chimney.
Fucking hell.
"You're back," Leon breathed out.
Jack stared for a moment. “I am,” he said, and let the door fall close behind him.
“You just got here?”
Jack advanced further into the light. “I have.”
When he finally stopped by the rookie's side, he saw what was so important to make him brave the metaphorical whip of the First Sergeant and the not so metaphorical extra hill climb that would follow.
A suture kit and a row of stitched up pads lined up the edge of the table. He counted them without meaning to, hoping the number told him approximately how long Leon had been sitting here in this room under this one light.
Those baby blues bore into him like sunken treasures and there were mixed signals written all over them - the deep violet shadows of exhaustion pooled beneath while something else entirely sparkled in the gaze above. Two different stories running in the same pair of eyes.
Jack waited for him to explain himself the way he always waited for Kennedy now—for him to find his own mistakes before being told, testing to see if a few grunts or furrows would suffice. It had become their particular rhythm and Leon often got there now. Sometimes it just took a few moments.
What he got instead was more mixed signals.
“You jumped,” Leon stated.
“Jumped?”
“You were deployed to Europe, right? Everyone heard about it. So you jumped on a parachute. From an aircraft.”
“... That’s usually how it goes.”
Leon’s smile was simple and scrupulous. “How was it?”
A brow ticked up. The only move he seemed to have left lately when the kid caught him off guard with that particular brand of puppy-ish nonsense.
“Is that why you’re not in bed yet? Waiting for a bedtime story?” Jack asked archly.
Leon dropped his gaze into his suture pad and his smile folded into the only pout he encountered in the course of a given day - the only people that pouted around here were Marla at the front desk and the nurse around a busy day.
He also knew that pout. It wasn’t the kind that crumpled his little mug in pain or fury. No, this one was the kind that preceded a snarky little—
“Not my dad.”
Honestly, he couldn’t remember when he started allowing all this cheek. Somewhere between the brat’s first broken nose and third breakdown, maybe.
The kid played with the spark in a room full of gas but Jack had never been one to back down from a little kiss of death…
However, before he could shut down the insolence, something caught his eye—light and hair colliding at the right angle, putting something on display that hadn’t been visible a moment ago, and his earful died on the tip of his tongue.
His large hand dove into pale blond strands and tugged.
Leon’s neck bent obliquely instantly, eyes going wide but his silence betrayed another unspoken ritual.
That hand raking through his hair to literally grab his attention had joined the long, quiet list of things that had accumulated between them without negotiation; their afterhours one-on-ones, the little picnic bench behind the refectory, the chair always present beside his infirmary bed…
For Jack, it split the apple nicely: a small tax on the insolence and a reminder that the golden crown stayed under certain concessions... Fair by any measure in his opinion.
For Leon though, the complaints had stopped somewhere around the fifth or tenth tug-of-war. Jack couldn't pinpoint the reason behind the surrender, still. Spite, maybe. Habit, possibly. Yet Jack found that neck bending to the will of his hand and the rebellious spark that stayed lit in the eye regardless—refusing to be extinguished by the compliance of the body beneath it—unreasonably satisfying.
The neck yielded, the eyes held, the routine masked as choice continued and through it all, he could see it—
The blotches of a bruise hidden under all that cornsilk.
“What happened.”
“Nothing.”
“Mhm, try again.”
“It’s fine.” Leon twisted himself out of the grip and went back to fiddle with his needle as if he suddenly remembered that he was actually very busy. “I handled it…”
“Well I sure as hell hope so with the amount of work I beat into your skull,” A couple of knuckles found said skull in punctuation. “But I’ll still need a name. I don’t have the time—or the interest—to babysit every ego in this goddamn place, but there’re rules here and as long as you little shitheads are under my roof, nobody gets to swing their dick around like they own it.”
“... McCain.”
His fist tightened around his duffel bag.
Dammit. One of the good ones.
The problem was that this wasn't a typical training program. Not the kind where green recruits arrived soft and frightened to be broken down and rebuilt from the ground up according to the familiar template.
The men here were different. Exceptional assets, hand-selected, already disciplined and hardened by the time they walked through the gate. Already dangerous.
They hadn't been sent here to learn shooting and chains of command. They'd been sent here to be built into something a little more complex. More precise than the usual parameters of warfare.
So Jack filed it under the growing list of problems this particular program kept generating by virtue of putting exceptional people in close quarters, under extreme pressure and expecting them not to occasionally try to destroy each other.
However, he was still the chief commanding officer of this operation, and that meant David McCain was his problem to handle—efficiently, though. In a way that didn't make it look like Kennedy had gone crying to his mama.
Not like it’ll be the kid’s first rodeo; although he thought the bullying had stopped a while ago.
“For what it’s worth,” Leon added after a beat, tone shifting just a shade lighter beneath the sullenness, “you might notice him limping tomorrow.”
The brow ticked up again.
Jack watched that pout struggling to contain the proud, shit-eating smirk he got served more often nowadays—had he always had that attitude underneath all the waterworks? Or had Jack beaten that into him, too?
He was doing a lot of beating when he thought about it. But the kid was supposed to be a survivor. He was just testing that theory…
“The kind of fuckin’ bullshit I come home, to…” He sighed.
Leon peeked up at him finally again. “Welcome home, Major,” he quipped, but it was not that quicksilver tongue that gave him pause. Not completely.
It was actually the shape of the mouth that spouted them.
Where Jack had expected the edge and the cheek curling at the corners, what he got was an impish little smile, almost coy—but most all, devastatingly genuine.
Those words might have been spoken as the usual dose of lip but that genuine smile—growing full and true as the seconds passed, was what flipped a switch behind Jack’s eyes all of a sudden.
Every thought arrested in that moment; on the precipice of a revelation.
Was it possible the kid… missed him?
“Well I have been thinkin’ about getting a maid around the place. You sound the part so far.”
He’d balk for now. Too exhausted to willingly pull on that thread and his little blue bird of sulkiness would still be a pain in his ass tomorrow. It also made that smile crumple instantly into another pout for the collection—and this one Leon meant if the deep dent carved between his brows was any indication.
“C’mon, get your ass up and let’s go.” He curled his fingers unceremoniously around Leon’s forearm and dragged him up from the chair without waiting for a reply.
“Wait—let me clean up—”
“Leave it, you can do all the cleanin' ya want tomorrow.” He was the only one with the keys to hangar eight. The only reason Leon could be found here past curfew at all was because Jack hadn’t gotten around to locking it a week ago after being nabbed in the middle of his lunch.
However, the moment he opened the door, Jack felt a sudden tight clutch at the stem of his jacket that made him pause.
“Are you going to be deployed often like this, Major?” Leon asked lowly, eyes downcast and hidden beneath his fringe.
The tone caught him more off guard than the question itself.
“If there’s an emergency, sure. I’m still on duty, Rookie,” he said even as he remembered that he was never meant to jump at all.
‘Strategic advisor’ they called him. Close by in case the mission went south before their very eyes.
It still burned his ass that they dared treat him like that comfortable pencil-pusher Colonel who chose the briefing room when he was barely a decade older, still perfectly capable of leading a few hundred in a field.
He let out a sigh. “But they made it clear that my primary objective right now is to complete this unit’s training. So unless some catastrophic shitshow happens, I expect they’ll keep me stateside and reachable from here on out.”
It chafed him to say that and the grip on his duffle bag turned white once more—and yet, it felt like the right thing to say for at least one of them because a smile lifted those round cheeks again without warning, sudden and full as a fucking flare going up in the dark.
If the kid dared say some stupid shit like ‘I'm glad’ now, he was finally going to deck him. He did seem to be in a weird mood.
“I see.”
Good enough.
The fist around his clothes loosened.
“I… I heard…” Leon quietly piped up again, “that you also have your own squad?”
“... Yeah.”
“And that by the end of this training, you’re allowed to choose two men to join it?”
Jack’s eyes narrowed as he seized him up with the particular attention he reserved for foreign objects. “That’s right. Why? You wanna join my team now, Rookie?” He smirked.
Leon seized his gaze suddenly—blue on blue, that cutting edge so precisely mirrored in that suspended second that the original and the reflection became indistinguishable.
And the coy curl of that mouth was slowly but audaciously getting comfortable in places that had made stronger men look away first.
“No. It’s you who’s gonna want me.”
The way he turned and walked out first into the open night with no hesitation and no backward glance—no waiting around to see how those words landed—was like the move of a man who'd thrown a grenade and had the good sense to already be walking away.
A solid minute of open incredulity was allowed as the whole well-oiled machinery of Jack’s mind pulled up short.
Now out of all the things he came to expect from this walking, talking little hazard dumped onto his lap, he hadn't seen that one coming. Which was in itself remarkable, because Jack Krauser saw things coming. It was arguably his most marketable skill.
You hadn’t seen that snotty liplock in the torture room coming, though, a voice in a distant corner of his mind that was still trucking snarked back.
But just as Leon got as far as the edge of the light, something made the latter stop—clearly some belated, poorly-timed instinct for self-preservation that arrived about ten seconds too late—and Jack watched as the line of that soft jaw peeked from a reluctant angle.
"...To join your team."
Jack didn’t know what microexpression was telling the truth in that instant; the nervous eyes flickering between him and the ground or the teeth biting onto that lip.
Now—extremely loaded declaration held purposefully or not in the air between them aside—the little brat had bled on his knuckles. Had cursed him blind and blue. Had literally thrashed in his grip to get away. By any reasonable measure, Leon should be looking for an out—should be counting the fucking days or at the very least building distance.
Not sit alone in the penumbra of a hangar past midnight practicing stitches and thinking about what? Joining his goddamn squad out of thin air?
Somehow, for the first time in recent memory, Jack felt like a current somewhere inside of him had reversed direction.
Being drawn instead of drawing… That was new.
He’d either hit that head a few too many times or the brat managed to get a concussion in the few days he was away. Regardless, he was sending him for a check up first thing tomorrow just in case.
I don't know if someone ever thought about this, but hear me out: If there is ever going to be another real life movie about Resident Evil and Jack Krauser will be a part of it...
I come across this ⬆️ yesterday and I just saved it but then today, zbam, what I see as I'm looking for a movie...
I don't even know who this actor is but I recognize a universe-message when I see one.
Now let's see if this really hit the Jack Krauser spots (they already have the 'engineer' part on point as I totally headcanon Krauser to be something of the kind (Have you seen his tent??))
[...] The satisfaction shot hot and immediate, bright as a struck match. He stood with it for a suspended beat in the middle of the empty barracks, chest heaving, blade hanging loose at his side, and let it encompass him - let it pull him through its wild fire, let it burn the bitter thoughts beneath the high.
This new feeling… this ache he started to like, subconsciously chasing it through the barracks past midnight—this ache that had sky blue eyes, that lit his veins with crimson fire, that made blood drip down his palm.
Synopsis : A day in Leon Kennedy's training days...
Inspired first by this great post : https://www.tumblr.com/fuckyeahleonxkrauser/815522924085854208?source=share
Songtrack that carried this to the finish line : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SjQ0dCuZlLk
The concrete wall is cold through the thin fabric of his shirt. The chill of it seeping into his spine–not that he could be bothered by it in the grand scheme of things when his hair’s still dripping wet at his feet.
What’s a little chill when he’s practically dissociated at one point to withstand the pain like a body on autopilot and the pilot’s long gone…
In fact, bracing his back against the cold wall is almost a welcomed sensation–something sturdy and real that’s slowly pulling him back from everything that’s distant and submerged.
Slumped against the wall, knees pulled in, shoulders shaking in small, uneven tremors he can’t quite suppress, he doesn’t know how long he's been sitting here. Ten minutes? An hour? Time does what it does during these sessions; stretches and compresses in ways that make it unreliable. After all, part of the torture is losing the notion of time…
Parts of his body still believe it’s not over. His hands, resting loose against his head, trembles in fine, almost imperceptible increments. He presses his palms flat against his forehead to stop it, which doesn’t work, which he already knew.
Everytime, the session drags a little longer and today was another new record. Long past the point where his body stopped cooperating and something more stubborn, more desperate had taken over. It was almost an outer body experience.
It was horrible.
It was frightening.
But it’s over–yet he hates that he can’t muster the strength to run the fuck away from this room, now.
So his legs buckle beneath his feet and he let himself slide down against the wall. And the moment he hits the ground, a tear slips down before he can stop it.
Then another. Silent. Steady.
Then a gut-wrenching sob not silent at all.
He presses his forehead hard against his wrists, and just like that, the breakdown becomes almost as worst as the nightmare.
The nightmare he can categorize. Box it, fill it under training, necessary, temporary… but this? The way his body has just decided to surrender to the weakness, blowing all the resilience he’s been made to build for hours here into smithereens? That’s unforgivable. And yet here he was, loud and steady, like a broken faucet he couldn’t fix.
He’s not even sad. He’s not sure what he is at that moment. But something has shaken loose inside when it was finally over and the tears are just the evidence.
Perhaps it’s the epiphany that this is what life had in store for him all along–when he’s kissed his grandma one last time before leaving town to join Raccoon City’s precinct, happy as a clam. When he’s been so scared to have fumbled his first day at work after his girlfriend broke up with him through the phone.
That every police code he’s learned by heart has been a silly waste of time.
That protecting citizens using the law has been a waste of dreams.
That all along, he’s been bound to end here, in this empty room bereft of nothing but a table for a handyman’s tool case and an execution chair.
Leon wants to fucking die.
He hears bootsteps approaching and he doesn’t need to look up to know who it is. Then the long descent of a man lowering himself to the floor without complaint, and suddenly there’s a smidgen of warmth at his left shoulder, the solid proximity of someone who has also been in that room with him for hours.
Krauser doesn’t say anything and for a while. There’s only the sound of Leon trying and failing to steady his sobbing and the twitches of that miserable bulb above their heads.
And yet, something stubborn survives the wreckage—even like this he finds the strength to cling to it—keeping his gaze down, refusing to look at Krauser first.
Krauser finally breaks the silence, voice low, almost thoughtful. “Someday this pain will be useful.”
Leon turns his head, eyes red, lashes clumped together, and looks at Krauser like he’s trying to decide whether to believe him—or hate him for it.
It’s almost harder than if he's said something cutting. Leon has braced for cutting. Has assembled the architecture of a response, something clipped and defiant. But Krauser just sits there with his forearms across his knees and his breathing even, meeting his gaze without flinching.
It’s always a small miscalculation, looking directly at Jack Krauser. The man has a quality of attention that feels like pressure—not aggressive, not warm, just total—like being observed by something that doesn't look away till it’s bored.
And those eyes are enduring glaciers in a boreal land where Leon wonders if anyone could ever be welcome.
They find his face and hold. And they win like fucking always because Leon looks away first.
But he doesn’t get far.
Krauser’s hand comes up, firm fingers catching his chin and pulling him back—not gently, but worse of all, not roughly either.
“Don’t turn away,” Krauser mutters. “Look me in the eyes with that angry, snotty little mug of yours.”
Something ignites in Leon's chest.
Snotty. He feels it move through him like a lit fuse—the indignity of it, the accuracy; the fact that Krauser can sit here after everything he did to him and still find the angle that makes Leon want to swing through absolute exhaustion.
It’s not even cruelty—which would have been easier to dismiss. It’s the precision. Him locating exactly the small remaining embers of his pride and breathing on it, deliberately, because this impossible man understands what a man needs to come back from something.
And that thumb presses against his chin.
Making him look into that wintrily appraisal that always feels like a nice little present saved for Leon’s eyes only.
He won’t fully understand it until later, would turn it over for a long time afterward in the dark but in that instant, he closes the distance and presses his mouth against Krauser's.
Hard, graceless. A declaration more than anything else. Take this. Feel this. Have a taste of the fucking snot.
The rebellious punch he doesn’t have the strength to land.
He wants Krauser to flinch, to pull back, to be thrown - he wants one moment where the man doesn't have the upper hand, where something lands that Krauser hasn’t already anticipated. He wants to land a hit. He wants to take something back from this session.
And most of all, he wants to show the prick he can’t just break him for hours then act like he can also be gentle by slinging bits of wisdom words at him like some fucking Ghandi.
But he ends up pulling away first.
Because Jack hasn’t moved.
There’s a flicker of expectation—like he’s waiting for impact. For the man to shove him off, to get pissed, to react.
But he hasn’t even flinched.
He’s exactly where he'd been, forearms across his knees, chin slightly tilted, watching Leon with an expression that’s—God, insufferable—and the faintest suggestion of a smile curls the edge of his lips.
“That supposed to mean somethin’?”
He’s fucking amused and Leon’s the one still leaking snot and tears.
Oh whatever the fuck.
Leon starts wiping at his face, rough and resentful. “Yeah,” he mutters hoarsely. “Means I’m not fucking broken.”
“Then I have more work on my plate.”
Leon snaps back at him with a pathetic, hateful glower. “Why do you fucking hate me?”
“‘Cuz you haven’t been damaged enough. And damaged people are dangerous. Know why?” Leon scrunches his brow and Krauser smiles. “‘Cuz they know they can survive.”
This time, Leon doesn’t look away.
“Plus I don’t hate ya, Rookie. You’re part of the fold I must train—and I always deliver good fucking results.”
His chest still heaves, his throat is still tight—but he holds eye contact, now even as his chin still trembles.
Krauser suddenly pokes at Leon's temple. “It all begins and ends in your mind, Rookie. What you give power to, has power over you, if you allow it. Do you wanna continue to be ruled by pain and whatever fucking monsters you told me about?”
It’s at that exact moment, that something slowly burrows inside his head. Like the faintest beam of light pushing its way through the dark clouds of the nightmare.
Krauser turns back to face forward, forearms settling on his knees again, gaze moving to where that vile, strapping chair is, and Leon gets suddenly dizzy from the whiplash of feeling like they’re just two men sitting in the training field now. As if nothing has shifted. Jack hasn’t been drowning him for hours in electrified water and Leon hasn’t planted his lips on his fucking superior… Or everything had, but the difference didn't matter to the other man.
Leon wetly coughs and stares at the side of his face.
Maybe…
Maybe he should start looking at this differently.
Random Krauser headcanon, hear me out (+ explanation)
The US army usually wants its officers to have useful college degrees (STEM, political science, criminal justice, etc). To the point where they'll actually pay for four years.
The flavor text for Krauser's bow in Mercenaries says he made the it himself. He also has a bunch of tools in his tent, presumably from making all his traps himself as well (someone else noticed that way before me and I would love to credit them but I cannot remember who it was someone help me out here)
Statistics I found say it usually takes ~10 years to get from O1 to O4 (Major) in the army. Krauser's age being probably around 35 or so makes it unlikely that he was Enlisted for very long, if at all. Probably went straight into the Officer program, which is only really possible if you have a Bachelor's in something the US military finds useful.
Conclusion: Krauser has a bachelor's in engineering (probably mechanical?)
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Now, Chris isn’t in the habit of snooping–but when one is left alone in the notorious Leon Kennedy’s bedroom, can you really blame them for giving in? That’s what he tells himself as Leon waves him off towards the bedroom, already turning away to take a work call somewhere else.
It’s not like it’s his first time here, per se. Still, Leon shoos him away with the ease of an unexisting habit—like this is routine and not only Chris’s second time in the apartment.
It has taken a lot of Fridays to get the man anywhere that isn’t clothing-optional, many more weekends to lure him into his own place, and perfect timing like stepping onto a moving train to be invited inside Leon's flat–and now here he is, feeling a tingle of misplaced domesticity as he walks down the dark hallway on his own, without the owner watching his six or guiding him by his prick.
So yes, Chris doesn’t mean to snoop–at first.
At first, he sits politely at the end of the bed, steepled fingers on his knees, waiting, like the good boy he was raised to be. Leon’s voice carries faintly from the hallway as he seems to pace the living area, before the soft click of the balcony door reaches him.
Things must’ve gotten ‘classified’, huh.
When the glass door rattles a second time, Chris abandons his polite upbringings and stands.
Honestly, he can't help it. Something about being left alone in the most private space Leon owned feels like a gift dropped straight into his lap. He’s a soldier after all, and the instinct to seize opportunities is ingrained in him.
The first thing he catches is how the room smells like the man—subtle, clean, something sharp underneath. The bed isn’t made, sheets tugged loose like Leon dragged himself out of them in a hurry. Chris’s gaze lingers there longer than he’d have dared has he not been alone.
It’s his second time here, sure, but his last visit hasn't exactly given him time to linger on things.
Things like how Leon pulls himself out of heavy sleep fast enough to leave the sheets like this. He stares at the spot he knows is Leon’s side… Does he spring out or drag one foot after the other?
When he notices that this meaningless thought is growing too significant in his head, he stops and forces his attention elsewhere, scanning the rest of the room.
Closet is cracked open. He can see dress pants and suit jackets hanging neatly there. Damn, Chris doesn’t think he owns pants that need hanging. Disturbing thought. Let’s move on.
One jacket is slung over the back of a chair. Chris drags the back of his fingers through the fabric. The little menace really likes his leathers. When he’s not in a fitted suit, Leon is always squeezed into one of these. Not Chris’ style though, he’s more of a flannel and cotton khakis kind of guy. Too squeaky for him. Leon makes it work, though. Leon makes everything work–even Chris’ ugly Hawaiian shirt that he yanked on as a patronizing testament that he can pull anything even with his balls hanging in the air.
If he hadn't been a federal agent, Leon could’ve been a model, easy–and even further out of Chris’ league, easy. Something about the idea of going back to when Leon was a mad impossibility makes bile rise in his throat.
His eyes land on the desk, next.
Unlike Leon’s first time at Chris’ place, the latter hasn’t gotten a tour–not that it’s all on Leon being a terrible host, they were pretty sloshed–and it doesn’t seem like he’s getting one this time around, either, but Chris suspects the man hasn’t gotten a study like he does, so this must be where any work-related materials–what’s cleared to leave the office anyway–end up.
Now, initially, Chris hesitates to step over there, of course.
If there’s any line between harmless snooping and bad snooping, that's probably it.
The BSAA and DSO only worked in tandem when it strictly suited them–mostly as last resort. Ironically, this Friday arrangement they have going is probably the closest their respective organizations would ever get. Which is why the desk area is tempting but off-limit–until a lacquered wooden box shaped like a wing catches his eye.
It’s left ajar. A chain hanging outside catches the light, glinting with each small shift, and ‘Personal’ suddenly starts drumming in Chris’s ears–made worse by the fact that Leon has curated so much of what he lets exist in plain sight that this small object is suddenly glinting at Chris like a weak spot in a BOW’s armor.
The feet are already moving before reason or probity catches up.
He’s not much of an investigator, really–he investigates with his fists and it always works fine–but he knows he can always count on his gut feeling and when his guts tell him that the box is a personal artifact, it’s not wrong.
It's deep green and looks antique, inlaid with mother-of-pearl and carved with intricate Greek patterns swirling along its sides.
Fingers hover for a second before nudging the lid fully open. Just a quick peek, he tells himself–Or this shit might haunt him in his fucking sleep.
He’s right, the box is full of personal possessions. First is that obvious chain, which turns out to be a dog tag–and that already has Chris frowning. He wasn’t aware Leon was part of any military corps? The frown only deepens when it has the name of another man on it.
Jack Krauser.
Doesn’t ring a bell…
Lying beneath is a mix of papers and photographs, old by the look of them, edges softened but not brittle. A teddy bear-shaped charm, a silvery damn-wicked knife that takes up the whole length of the box. Even his RPD badge is here–doomed to sit there, unused like it's already outlived him.
Chris’ curiosity is already satisfied after the glimpse he catches of the photograph of what looks like a toddler Leon hugging an older woman. His mom for sure, Chris thinks, breath caught for some reason.
She was blond with thick bangs.
That’s it. The box served its purpose–he got his illicit glimpse into Leon’s private world and even got to see him in cute overalls. His curiosity is plenty satisfied now–until the top half of another photograph beneath the knife makes him pause again.
He doesn’t pull it out immediately. Just stares at it where it rests beneath the knife and a cassette tape - like it might explain itself if he waits long enough.
It doesn’t. So he picks it up.
There is Leon, cherub-looking and younger than he’s ever seen, sitting at a picnic bench in a khaki t-shirt, a sling over one shoulder, bandage around his nose and his bright blond hair only rivaled by the mane of the other guy sitting across from him.
The latter is older, infinitely broader and in a similar military-looking attire. The way those muscled arms are crossed with a cigarette half way to his lips, speaks of the type of confidence that doesn’t need to prove itself to anyone.
Chris can’t take his eyes off this picture, wondering where this piece of Leon’s past fits in a timeline he thought he knew.
He turns the photo over. No date. No note. Nothing to soften the sharp edge of curiosity that prickles at the back of his mind.
He looks back at the picture, then at the dog tag, and the dots connecting in his head make the photograph feel ten times more intimate.
They’re giving the lens a mix of boredom and caught-off-guard look, and the mellow affinity and handsomeness bleeding from the photo make Chris’ jaw tightens with irritation he refuses to examine too closely.
This is his cue to draw back–starting to feel oppressed by this pair of blue eyes cutting through him from beyond the paper like he’s still disturbing a moment there.
The moment he slides the lid ajar back again, Leon is at the door. Ever the stealthy fucking feline–though to Chris’ credit, the man is wearing socks.
And an infuriating smirk.
“And here I thought I’d find you horizontal and half naked already,” he snips, leaning against the doorframe, thumbs in his jeans pockets like the infuriating poser he is.
Chris flusters through a weak laugh, backing up as slowly and nonchalantly as possible from the desk. “Sorry to disappoint.”
Leon moves, brushing past Chris’ shoulder. “I am disappointed. Didn’t think you were the snooping type.” He closes the lid of his box with a solemn clack that ring out in Chris’ ears like church bells.
He watches him go through the motions—not hurried, not defensive, just… deliberate–like Leon knows exactly what Chris was up to and doesn’t mind.
Or he minds in a way he isn’t going to show–which makes it cruelly worse.
Leon’s airy lilt does nothing to soothe the heat crawling up the back of Chris’s neck, shame settling in sharp and sudden at being caught with his hand in the cookie jar like a fucking amateur.
He knows he can get away with a lot in the way they test the last nerve of each other. The taunting, the mauling, the degradation, the disrespect—it’s all part of the rhythm to their weekly dance, now. He never would’ve dared at first, but Leon has a way of undoing something in him—the latch of a caged beast he rarely lets loose.
Fuck me. If you want.
Hurt me. If you can.
But this? This isn’t part of it. Crossing into Leon’s privacy was never one of the unspoken rules—and now Chris isn’t so sure he didn’t just screw it all up.
“N-no, I wasn’t. I was just pacing around…” Stammering. Great. This is exactly the game he wanted to bring on this God-given second visit miracle.
“It’s fine. After all, I did fondle half of your prized toys and stretched out on your desk like it was my damn couch,” Leon retorts with a playful side-eye. “Your orange post-it said you had a dentist appointment Tuesday. Hope that went well, by the way.”
Stumped—and still burning at the back of his neck—Chris lets out a nervous huff that doesn’t quite steady him, yet.
A stealthy, fucking vixen. Through and through.
“Okay. Point taken, you fucking little spy,” Chris rumbles, shaking his head as he steps closer. Then, eager to shift the ground back under his feet, he drops his voice into something he knows always gets a reaction. “How do you want me?”
Leon points with his chin. “On the bed.”
He moves to comply, toeing off his sneakers and socks before settling on his elbows, the grin splitting his face impossible to hold back when he catches his reflection on the adjacent mirror–ridiculously come-hither.
“Good?”
“Loosen a couple buttons.”
Chris obliges, tugging at his shirt just enough to flash a hint of musculature—making sure his Tasmanian fucking devil doesn’t miss it.
“Perfect.” Leon drawls and combs a hand through his luscious hair like a reminder that Chris isn’t the only one capable of posing.
And the world narrows down to the way Leon moves in and climbs onto the bed like dinner is fucking served…
***
It’s only when Chris can finally think outside his baser needs, smoke swirling off his nostrils that he atempt–“Can I ask you a question, Leon?”
“Well, when you put it so politely, how can I refuse,” Leon drawls, forearm draped across his face.
He’s pretty beat and Chris can see right through the attempt to hide it, which makes it almost funny in its own way. Chris has made extra sure of it. After all, tonight and for the first time, he fucked Leon with a couple of ulterior motives.
“Were you ever in the military before?”
A faint tick lifts the corner of his lips. “Why?”
“I saw the dog tag in the box on your desk.”
“That all you saw?”
“It was dangling off the edge. I… didn’t mean to snoop, really. ‘Twas a pretty box. Got curious…” Chris exhales another puff of smoke, watching it curl in the air, mirroring the knot tightening in his stomach at the thought of stumbling through another round of awkward explanations. He doesn’t think he can handle the sting of post-coital shame, right now. Then why bring it up again? Because Chris is a hopeless bastard with a questionable sense of self-preservation.
“Yeah… it's a family antique. Got it from my mother. As for your question–yes I was.”
“Really? I didn’t know. It doesn’t show up on your file.”
“Plenty doesn’t show up on my file.” Leon then makes a grab at Chris’ cigarette. A rare maneuver that makes Chris tick an eyebrow–but he allows it.
“Which corps?”
“I… don’t know if I can disclose that,” Leon drones with a tired smirk.
Chris frowns. “Black ops?”
A shrug. “More or less.”
Would he be less cagey if Chris wasn’t BSAA? Or is he just another guy Leon handles with the same federal caution? Chris can’t stand the answer either way. He watches him, something tight and begrudging settling in his chest. He needs to feel like he’s more–so he needs more. Anything–
“The dog tag wasn’t in your name, though. Friend of yours?”
“... My major. He was… he was something.”
‘Was’, Chris notes immediately, isolating it like a weak point in a report. He takes the smoke back. He needs it for the leap he’s about to make–snooping allegations be damned. “Was he also the guy in the photograph you keep in there?”
Leon turns his head, shooting him a squinty look. “Why, aren’t you the perfect little Colombo.”
“military fatigue, dog tag and a red beret. I’m nowhere near starring in an Agatha Christie novel, yet.”
Leon grins, bemused and post-sex ravishing as he gazes at Chris from under his lashes. “I used to love those, you know.”
“And you’re a master at changing the subject, you know. ‘S fine if you don’t wanna talk ‘bout it.” Chris shrugs, the drag of his cigarette helping him sell the nonchalance he’s going for—despite the complete opposite warring in his gut.
“... Yeah he was.”
“Jack Krauser.”
Leon’s eyes unfocus for a beat, like he might drift off right there and leave Chris hanging.
“Yeah…”
The name doesn’t leave him indifferent. He kept the dog tag. A picture—caught in something that looked a little too private to be nothing–Chris already has his answer. He doesn’t know why his mind insists on worrying at it like a child with a scab.
But it does.
Every time he starts to believe this is something more than just Fridays and happy hours–it does.
He wants Leon’s ugly. His dirty. the skeletons in his closet.
He wants it all. And he wants it to hurt. Maybe in his own fucked up way, he’s looking for something that’ll help him pump the breaks a little; ‘cause ever since he started riding this tazmanian fucking devil, he feels like he’s been going a thousand miles a minute–and that can’t be healthy for his heart.
“You two were a thing?”
Leon snickers, low and mocking, and just like that, he sounds small and stupid. Chris hates how it still lands, even with the man loose and heavy with sleep, barely trying.
“Hard to be a thing with someone who waterboards you twice a month.”
Chris frowns. “Excuse me?”
“SERE training.” Leon shrugs. “Water pits, truth serum, sleep deprivation, strangulation… You ever been crammed in a box for an hour?”
Chris stares back, trying to catch up to where the conversation suddenly veered off a cliff.
He knows what Leon is talking about. But… When–how did Leon go through all of that? He knows he was only fresh out of the police academy when Raccoon happened. So how far did his training actually go to qualify for that?
It’s the kind of thing people don’t talk about in the military, but he knows fatal accidents happen in those.
He can’t reconcile the picture of the Leon he saw in that photograph and what he knows that training entails. The sling and bandage starts to make sense and the thought makes Chris want to punch something. His cigarette burns forgotten between his fingers until Leon plucks it from his hand.
“See this little bump on my nose?” Leon asks, tapping the bridge twice.
Chris’ mouth tilts up. “No?”
“Yeah, I can never unseen it. Jack broke my nose three fucking times.”
The smile drops clean off.
Leon sucks on the stick. “You know they’ve got the right to break one bone in your body,” he adds flippantly, then continues, “Right–but every time he did that, he always made sure it was perfectly set back. He was apparently buddies with the doc on site.” He exhales slowly, then flicks Chris a sidelong, amused glance—clearly aware of how unhinged all of it sounds.
Chris, on the other hand, is caught somewhere between teasing and irritation. He settles for the former in a weak attempt to mirror Leon’s flippancy, brushing a finger along the slope of his nose. “It doesn’t show…”
“The third time around, the doc told me he slimmed it down a little. Said it suited me better,” Leon snickers. “Can you believe this shit?”
Chris’s brows shoot up. “You telling me you had a nose job?”
“Against my fucking will!” Leon snaps, bristling like a cat before settling just as fast.
Chris bites the inside of his lip.
Vain little shit.
“Jack always told him to pump me full of drugs so I wouldn’t feel a thing—right up until I wake up with cotton stuffed in my nostrils and that four-eyes showing off his work on my CT scans.”
“Damn. Still, this Jack sounds like a fucking asshole.”
Leon passes the finished smoke down with a quiet sigh. “Yeah… I guess… you could call it tough love,” Something wistful slips into his voice as he rolls on his stomach and ducks under the covers, his thick crown of hair haloing the pillow. “From the moment I told him what really happened in Raccoon, he somehow took me under his wing. Trained me one-on-one for months, since I had no military background. Showed me how to deal with the dipshits… I was so pissed when he broke my nose the third time—even after I told him to cut the shit. Didn’t speak to him for a day after the surgery.” The chuckle that follows is so agonizingly soft. “Man, was I a dumb brat–but I don’t think anyone else could’ve gotten away with that attitude…”
Chris frowns. “He was fond of you.” It comes out more like a statement than a question. Because in the end, who wouldn’t be, That’s the problem and the bane of what his life’s become...
“Maybe… or maybe it was just pity. He’d found me piss-drunk and bawling my eyes out on Christmas Eve when I spilled the beans about what really happened in Raccoon City,” Leon scoffs against his folded arms. “He broke me and put me back together… And as much as I didn’t see it back then, I know now that I needed that. I wouldn’t have survived without that.”
When those baby blues fall shut, Chris knows the box of secret tales closes along with them—leaving him hanging there with nothing but the suffocating shadows of someone else’s past.
He shouldn’t be complaining. He took a risk, and it paid off. He’s walking away with more than he’d hoped for. Is Leon always this chatty after a good romp? Maybe he should start saving more time for pillow talk.
Or maybe this Jack Krauser guy is just that fucking good of a memory.
They might not have been a thing, but Chris finds himself almost wishing they were. Maybe then the yearning wouldn’t be clogging the fucking air, right now.
Won't be the first time he catches him in a lie, after all.
He also didn’t get the chance to ask if the past tense meant the guy is no longer around or no longer around.
Why? so you can try to kill him, too like you did with Wong, you fucking lunatic?
One sky-blue eye cracks open. “Will that be all, Big Daddy?”
Chris drags a finger over that poor, overworked nose—a silent counter–the only retaliation he’s got left in him. “Yeah. At ease, soldier.”
“Good, ‘cause I’m beat.”
Chris shakes his head. “I need a second to digest all of this.”
Eyes already closed again, Leon chuckles, the sound muffled into the pillow. “You can even sleep on it if you need.”
Chris goes rigid for a beat. Was that an invitation? His watch says past midnight. His reason tells him to knock it off.
What does his gut say?
Maybe it’s a stars-like alignment of good mood, good fuck, good timing that got him here—to this exact checkpoint where a new milestone in whatever the hell is this is looming ahead.
Fight or flight, sucker.
Fine. A few minutes of shut-eye won’t hurt. If he doesn’t slide down too far, doesn’t shift, nobody will even notice.
Abso-fucking-lutely. Nothing changed. I still believe that canonically speaking, metaltango had more materials than chreon as everyone felt the sexual tension, both straight male gamers and the voice actors themselves spoke about it, haha.
In fact, I'm currently writing a little something for someone whose chreon series I absolutely adore. The last part they released mentionned Krauser by name for the first time and that was the last restrain snapped for me to do what I like to call a fic-inspired-by-fic thing. It's a token of appreciation and a way to help me release the excitement and inspiration I feel for said fic.
However, even though her story is purely chreon and what I came up with is also chreon, it's krauser's name drop that inspired me and thus, I'm doing something about it in a roundabout way~
I became a slow writer and it's taking me forever to finish it but you know what, here a exhibit as proof,
honestly its kinda weak to be like “ohhh if this character is confirmed to be in a relationship I just CAN’T ship tthem it’s too hard 😢😢”
Unfortunately, this is the way I'm wired when it comes to ships. When I ship two characters together it's because one, I see the potential in it and two, there's a pourcentage of plausible deniability that makes everything possible.
I cannot get behind a ship already confirmed in canon or that has gone official for the simple reason that kills this factor I strive for in my fanfics, arts or other medias which is realism.
What makes a good doujin or fanart or fic for me is the realism and fidelity to characterizations. Maybe because I'm a stout canon-compliant girl.
I need that unknown pourcentage of chance for it to be real to trigger my fantasy and imagination.
So yeah, maybe my imagination is limited or weak, but this is how I'm ultimately wired. And I truly envy those that don't care about canon and live the fandom experience to the fullest *sigh*.
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