Dark Side of The Night

-Untold Stories-

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[mysteriousgraveyard]

Finding You

Hello, there. How are you? Long time no see since your last chat that you’ve sent to me at 24-April. I… Honestly don’t know why am i writing this to you. All i know is just… I miss you. A lot. Setelah kupikir selama beberapa lama, sepertinya aku paham dan mengerti dengan apa yang kamu maksud dalam kalimat ‘i want to protect you from me’. Dan sekarang, setelah aku mengetahui maksud dari kalimat tersebut, bukannya aku merasa takut tapi malah aku merasa harus mengenalmu lebih jauh dan lebih dalam. Aneh? Mungkin. Tapi tidak bagiku. Aku sama sekali tidak takut denganmu. Bahkan setelah sekian ribu berita negatif yang kau bacakan padaku tentang dirimu sendiri. Bahkan setelah sekian juta berita yang beredar mengenai dirimu. And now I want to declare that this is not the end. I will find you. Or another you, but just another side of you. And when i do that, don’t make me fallin in love with you again. Also Thanks for you loving that you gave to me.

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Well, reposting this post after few years passed by. This post will be my last post, end of the story, of the beginning in this microblog.

Sebenarnya, microblog ini pada awalnya ingin kuisi dengan seluruh ceritaku dengan orang-orang yang berkesan untukku, dengan cerita unik yang kualami didalamnya baik menjadi peran utama maupun pengamat. Salah satunya adalah tentang manusia yang ada di tulisan itu. Manusia pertama yang berada di halaman ini. Pun alamat microblog ini kuambil dari nama room chat kami saat itu, menandakan pertemuan yang ada memang sangat berkesan.

Tidak banyak yang ingin ku tuliskan, tidak banyak yang ingin ku ungkapkan. Namun, sedikit saja, boleh ya?

Mas!

Last time I saw you, aku masih melihat story whats-that mu sedang menempuh pendidikan di negeri tirai bambu. Sebelumnya lagi, menunjukkan kau sedang dalam perjalanan ke negara lain. I am happy to know that you are being confident with what you're searching for, tidak sia-sia melepas dua tahun pendidikan di kedokteran dan mengambil jurusan psikologi, dimulai dari awal. I am truly, proud of you.

Beberapa hari yang lalu, kubuka story teman-teman lain, seperti biasa. Muncul namamu di deretan teman-teman yang memang rutin memperbarui cerita mereka. Melihatmu membagikan cerita pada publik merupakan hal yang langka, Mas. Jadi aku menyegerakan diri untuk melihat momen apa yg akan muncul. Itu kamu, sedang mendokumentasikan 'badai' salju di negeri tirai bambu, kurasa. Kuulang klip itu dua kali, it was getting more exciting. But then I saw a profile picture of you. Wow.

You're married to someone I know, your gf since college, yang aku pun juga tau that she was the reason kenapa kita tidak bisa 'lanjut' saat itu. Ahahaah mas! I didn't think of anything, but it's funny, really.

So, this is the ending? hahaha.

i'm not gonna blame you for anything, I just wanna say congratulations!

Dengan ini saya menyatakan kisah tentang orang ini, saya tutup.

Tok Tok.

Semoga aku pun segera bertemu dengan penutup kisah milikku sendiri.

Last time I use this nick name,

your adek-adek mbuh.

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Kita memang sudah tersesat, dan hilang.

Apa lagi yang harus dipertahankan?

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If I am going to do it all by my self, why should you be here?

I am more capable than you know, when I can do it all my self, I won’t need you anymore.

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“Utang lo lunas, utang gua lunas. Udah ya, apa masih ada hal lain yang bikin kita masih bertahan?

Kalo gaada, gua pamit. Good bye”.

Seandainya semudah itu berucap.

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Dream, gnabmelap.

I think it would be nice if we could end up together, aren't we?

We were sitting in circle

You laughed with my dad

You guys are so clicked.

Can we talk again, someday?

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Should be me getting the gift, but I decided to pick up my own gift; to meet you, in person.

Why?

I don’t know. It’s all about effort isn’t it?

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Dia tidak mencintaimu, dia hanya menghargai keberadaanmu. Read that once again

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Having conversation with you, it hurts.

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I shouldn't put my feelings in you. I shouldn't take everything that happen between us in a serious way. I shouldn't let this feeling grow. I shouldn't involve my heart in everything about you and me.

But I won't tell this as a mistake tho.

It's a gift.

Probably a gift that's given only once in my life.

[mysteriousgraveyard]

Shokudou

I don’t know what to say, to be honest.

We were driving along the road, watching a horror movie together (it wasn’t to be that scary but I dreamt it, omg!), and went to our last destination, most impactful ramen in town (Shokudou, I’m coming!). Pretty crowded out there, but it’s okay as long as I’m with this person, who made me amazed in every single words he taught me. Today’s theme: brain game; minesweeper, sudoku, rubik.

We have plenty of food (for me), Ramen, JJ Tako, also Kamikaze that I can’t even able to swallow if it’s not by curiosity. Thanks to this person who always have a good appetite to swallow eeeeverything. I wore a dress because I don’t know what to wear and it seems that he doesn’t like it BUT it’s okay, I didn’t put much effort to dress up so no worries. I accidentally met my classmates in junior high school, pretty sure they don’t even remember me even they liked to tease me at that time lol. I can tell by their eyes; maybe it’s because I’m too different from the past. In a good way, I hope.

Finishing our dinner, we went to a mosque for praying and finished what we had at the parking lot of the mosque. Not that much left, actually. That’s why we (or he, tbh) decided to comeback to the ‘cafeteria’ and decided later on what to buy. However, it ended up by we parked the car at the parking lot (again) and have some chit-chat while watching another horror short movie (this time came from YouTube). After we finished the movie, we drove out, didn’t know where to go (because maybe each of us didn’t want the time to go fast at that time, or is it just me?), then we ended up parked our car in South Town Square (Alun-alun Selatan, yep) after hours of driving through the crowd which was VERRRRY CROWDED. What did we do there?

Bought the ice cream

Yep

Pak Gatot’s ice cream. The legend.

It’s the second time we bought it, and the first time we bought it we made a challenge and I recorded it on my phone. It’s quite fun, I’d gladly comeback to that time again. We came to Pak Gatot’s store then went back to our car to eat the ice cream. I accidentally dropped the chocolate on my dress!!! I kinda panicked because I thought it couldn’t be wiped of, but luckily it only left a small stain. Yeah, It’s okaaay. We finished our ice cream, then we had some chit chat. I thought the day was gonna over in that moment, I thought our last moment was only ate the ice cream. But it wasn’t.

We played on a game, which I brought a roll candy by chance. They have two side, right? We played like we ate the spaghetti in two person while our eyes are closed. We need to left a small piece, as small as possible, of that candy. Everything was safe until the third round.

Our lips touched each other.

I was a bit shocked but I acted cool, like it didn’t happen. But then I asked him out of nowhere “Do you want more?”, then he said, “If you’re good then I’m good”.

I pulled out our candy and we ate it, slowly, until our lips touched each other. We began to go inside, slowly..... and that was......

Sweet.

I don’t know how to describe. That was the sweetest kiss I’ve ever had. There’s no lust, no harsh, no force, it was just......

Sincere.

Can I say that?

Seriously, I’m getting weak now just by imagining that first kiss.

I don’t know what it was, all I know is that was....

So.....

Sweet. and Sincere.

Good night  

[mysteriousgraveyard]

Let the time decide.

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It was a short moment. Indeed, it gave me tons of memories to remember

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Rindu

Seandainya aku dapat mengatakannya secara langsung. Seandainya kita dapat kembali bercengkrama tanpa canggung. Seandainya kita benar-benar dapat terhubung.

Aku merindukanmu.

Aku rindu segala kenangan tentang kita. Aku rindu saat kita berjalan bersama. Aku rindu saat kita saling melempar canda. Aku rindu saat kita menghabiskan malam dengan berkendara. Aku rindu saat kita saling mengganggu jika sedang istirahat. Aku rindu saat kita nyaris tidak mendapatkan tumpangan ke Agra. Aku rindu kita berjalan menyusuri Taj Mahal. Aku rindu saat kita bersama menjelajah Udaipur dan menyusuri istananya. Aku rindu saat aku menangis mengantarmu ke Indonesia. Aku rindu momen pertama kita bertemu di Malaysia. Aku rindu saat kita bertengkar karena durian. Aku rindu saat kita menyusuri jalanan Kuala Lumpur berbekal peta. Aku rindu saat kau memelukku....dengan erat. Aku rindu. Aku rindu. Aku rindu.

Namun, apa yang kurindukan biarlah tetap di atas awan. Aku tidak ingin kembali mengulang. Kekecewaanku sungguh sangat dalam.

Mereka adalah kenangan indah, sungguh tidak mudah dilupakan. Terimakasih, telah membantuku merajut segala kenangan. Semua itu....tidak akan aku lupakan.

Terima kasih, terima kasih, terima kasih.

Bahagia selalu, Ubi :)

[mysteriousgraveyard]

Percayalah hati, lebih dari ini

Pernah kita lalui

Jangan henti disini

https://youtu.be/8zPohxqf9uU

[mysteriousgraveyard]

You’ve got that lowlight as in yourself

But actually you bring some light to me

You brighten up my mood

“If I hold out my hand, will you take it?”

https://youtu.be/aGftKs8m_x8

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Hey!!

Terimakasih untuk selalu mengajariku bahwa manusia bisa berubah jadi lebih baik ya! Aku tau kebaikan akan datang padamu juga :)

Jangan pernah lupa, pernah ada seorang wanita yang begitu mendamba dan mencinta. Tidak ingin kehilangan orang yang disayangnya. Dan orang yang disayang adalah kamu! Iya, kamu! ☺️ jangan pernah lupa, kamu pernah amat sangat dicintainya, kamu sangat berarti untuknya. Kamu berharga bagi dia. Dan wanita itu ingin kamu untuk bahagia :)