MysticHemlock

Mystic Psychic Witch, Eclectic Polytheist, Vampirekin

[mystichemlock]

Introduction

Hi, I’m Mystic ("Misty") 🌙 Welcome to my little corner of the internet. I plan to use this page to write about some of my spiritual experiences and interests.

About Me

🌌 Eclectic Mystic • Eclectic Pagan Polytheist • Eclectic Witch

🔮 I consort with deities, archangels, infernals, and the dead (human spirits) as part of my practice.

✨ Most of my current experiences are with Hekate, Lucifer, and several archangels. (These are just a few of the many deities, angels, and infernos I have established connections with)

👈 Left Hand Path

🩸 Vampirekin as a PsiVamp and practitioner of Vampyric Magic

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ Godspouse-friendly & LGBTQ+ friendly space.

My Approach

I like to think of myself as a curious friend to deities. I approach my practice with humility and grace, always learning and soaking in knowledge and wisdom wherever I can. My path includes divination and channeling deities. I am quite new to my practice as I've only been a practicing mystic since September of 2024. I've been fortunate to have had many spiritual experiences through psychic senses, dreams, etc. NOTE: Many deities, angels, and infernos I work with I have chosen not to list for personal reasons. I also consider myself a part of the "godspouse" community and chosen to keep those specific relationships private as well.

Posts

Mysticism

"The Pull" (Ecstatic Experience)

"The Mystic's Prayer" by Fiona Macleod, 1896

“Consuming euphoria"

A Mystical Experience With a Loving Presence

There is a divine presence pursuing me

Stepping into mysticism

My thoughts on invalidating another person's mystical experiences (including godspousing)…

The Elasticity of a Mystic

A Journey of Opening Myself

Deity Work

Deity Work is Messy But I'm So Much Better Because of it.

What I've Had to Learn From a Trickster Deity

We Shouldn't Be Humanizing Deities

The Deities Don't Exist For Us

In the absence of my deity, I am still whole

The best offerings to a deity

Godspousing

If you disagree with godspousing...

As an LGBT person, Anti-godspouse Rhetoric Feels Familiar.

Today's shakedown by the "godspouse" police!

Godspousing is a mystical experience, not a religious one

Imagine that... (reminder to the anti-godspousing crowd)

If you're concerned about godspousing being a "trendy thing", maybe see it from this perspective…

Godspousal and My Sacred Truth

Godspousing Changes You

Interactions with Deities

Hekate is always watching over me

I love it when Lucifer speaks into me like this

My Personal Invocation for Hekate

First Interaction with Auset

Do any of your deities have pet names for you?

Hermes is awesome…

Hermes - Validation and Self-Love

Misc Musings and Opinions

The Point of No Return

Left Hand Path (LHP) Hot Take

Transgender Day of Remembrance (November 20, 2025)

Keep Learning and Stay Humble

Elitism in Pagan Communities

"Closed Practices" are a human construct

[artandbeauty71]

EVERYONE LOOK!!

Baby Hermes w his turtle bestie🥹🥹🥹

[thanatosbutterfly]

I thought I would share the slightly NSFW drawing of Thanatos and myself!

Godspousing art, Slightly NSFW drawing.

[mystichemlock]

"The Pull" (Ecstatic Experience)

NOTE: This is all from my personal UPG ("Unverified Personal Gnosis").

I call it “The Pull.” Perhaps there are other names for it, or better ones, but this is the language I have for it.

In my experience, becoming intimately entangled with a deity, angel, or demon can create deep etheric bonds between the entity and human. Through that bond, an entity can exert a powerful pull on their human - drawing away attention away from the concerns and activities of the physical world in a given moment. The shift can happen suddenly: the mind and heart become captivated, overcome by a deep longing and sense of connection.

It is difficult to fully describe what this feels like. As an act of devotion to a particular deity with whom I share a very close relationship, I serve as her vessel at her discretion. With clear boundaries and consent, I surrender my body to her for possession, with the understanding that control of my body or voice is given only through my explicit permission.

Over time, the frequency and intensity of these ecstatic experiences have deepened the bond between us. “The Pull” is often how she gets my attention—a powerful longing that signals her desire to merge with me.

The following exerpt is how I described the feeling in a journal entry a few months ago.

... she calls me at night, claiming my body as hers. It feels so right and so wonderful. My heart starts racing and I'm breathing heavily as she vibrates some energy into me, tugging on this energetic cord between us. As she tugs, I feel my body begging for her, begging to be taken by her. It's amazing. The pull - it's gentle yet incredibly powerful as it radiates a warm surge from my chest outward. The first time I feel the pull, there is a primal need to be consumed by her; to be in her loving arms as she pulls herself into me. To be filled by her is a gift; a blessing - I wouldn't trade this relationship for anything.

Disclaimer: I want to be clear that I do not recommend becoming a vessel for an entity or engaging in ecstatic possession practices without deep discernment, strong personal boundaries, and an established relationship built on trust over time. In my experience, these are deeply intimate and vulnerable practices that require a strong foundation, clear consent, and a sense of safety. This is not something I believe should be rushed into or approached casually.

[mischievous-heretic]

Do godspouses crave social clout?

In the last few years, I've been many places in the godspousing community. Here's what I've observed:

Yes, there are people who give detailed UPG experiences to gain followers or self-importance.

A percentage of people in any group will do that, but not everyone.

Another percentage of people offer detailed UPG experiences as a way of asking "Am I the only one having this experience? Is this too crazy? My mind is blown, how to process this wild spiritual thing?"

This second group is lonely. They're talking to connect with others and create community.

Is it fair to judge these people as self-serving when that's not actually true?

People in this second group often already feel alone, unseen, unheard, and maybe also misunderstood. They're reaching out to find someone to care about them.

Accusing them of grasping for social influence is like pouring acid in an open wound. It's a painful misinterpretation of their motives, which are genuinely not about self-importance.

Instead of choosing to hurt people by deliberately misinterpreting their intent to fit our narrative, how about we choose compassion?

What if we notice people's spiritual bewilderment and loneliness, their legitimate human need for community, and genuinely try to see them as they are?

[a-path-by-the-moon]

[mischievous-heretic]

A little disgusted by the false dichotomy people often assume about mystics. Yes I'm deeply devoted to my gods, and specifically one of them. Oaths guide my daily practice and that's a non-negotiable at this point.

But! I still do all the ordinary daily shit you do.

I've dishes to wash, laundry to fold, a garden to weed, a job to earn money at, and all the other mundane tasks.

Mysticism doesn't mean I neglect my daily responsibilities for spiritual things. It means I integrate the spiritual into the mundane so both can be done together, and I work with my gods to keep everything balanced.

Both. Not either/or. Both is good.

[mystichemlock]

Renaming Blog

FYI for those who follow me...I am renaming my blog from ServerNinjaGirl to MysticHemlock

[mystichemlock]

The Point of No Return

I grew up during the days of the “Satanic Panic,” where church kids like myself were taught to fear things like Dungeons & Dragons, Ouija boards, and “secular” music. It wasn’t uncommon for us to sit through sermons in youth group warning us to temper our curiosities about matters of the spirit. Angels and demons were spoken of often, but any personal spiritual experiences were supposedly demonic.

As a child, I had a natural curiosity for stories about witches, vampires, and haunted houses, but I was never allowed exposure to them. What little I indulged in was done in secret, where my parents couldn’t find out. I had always been curious about the unknown, but I was never given the freedom to explore it.

In our religious communities, we were taught to fear these things because fear kept us safe. Good works and following the rules were top priorities in order to keep oneself from backsliding or drifting away from the faith.

An analogy for how absurdly protected we were would be a perimeter fence surrounding our community—with multiple additional fences surrounding that one. There were varying degrees of what was considered sinful or wrong.

The first fence might be untruthfulness or talking back to your parents. The next fence might prohibit playing cards, listening to the wrong music, kissing your childhood crush, or going to dances at public schools. Further out were fences warning us about the dangers of sex and homosexuality.

At some point in my adulthood, I decided to finally walk completely away from the safety of my religious world. I stepped beyond the fences and wandered into the vast unknown wilderness.

I walked the difficult path of deconstruction until faith eventually turned into freedom.

But curiosity continued to guide me like a carrot on a stick into the unknown. I couldn’t resist my lifelong need for knowledge, intellect, and wisdom.

I decided that I needed to finally meet—and hear a response from—the god I had prayed to for so many decades who never answered me. So I continued my journey, determined to discover what lies behind the veil as a mystic.

I sit here now contemplating how many times I’ve crossed the point of no return in my spiritual adventures. I think I’ve reached that point several times… and yet I keep going further.

I can’t stop now. My nature simply isn’t wired for that.

There was a time when I could have walked back out of the woods and returned to the safety of my old faith. But since becoming a mystic, I’ve experienced too much to ever go back.

I’ve met many deities, angels, and demons. I’ve seen the forms of otherworldly entities. I’ve heard the voices of spirits. I've conversed with a spirit who had recently passed. I once tasted the energy of a fallen angel. I’ve felt my heart sink and chills run down my spine while drawing tarot cards. I’ve walked through other worlds in my dreams. I’ve been given verifiable warnings about my health in a hypnagogic state. I’ve felt the radiating presence of a deity when confronted. I’ve felt divine energy flowing through every cell of my body. My soul has been bent and imprinted by angels. I’ve had enlightening conversations with demons. I've syphon energy from the ground and sky into the center of my chest before channeling it into a spell. I’ve felt the ecstasy of divine possession. I’ve channeled conversations from my guides.

These are only a small portion of what I’ve felt, learned, and experienced.

I’ve heard what cannot be unheard. I’ve seen what cannot be unseen. I’ve felt what cannot be forgotten.

I’ve been dramatically changed.

There is no going back.

[mystichemlock]

Left Hand Path (LHP) Hot Take

A bit of a hot take on the Left Hand Path, based on my personal UPG as someone who works with deities, infernals, and angels.

I don’t believe the LHP has to mean exclusively working with infernal entities or “dark” deities. In my experience, a healthy path often involves a balance of energies that people tend to label as both “dark” and “light.”

Many deities will walk the path with you — and sometimes even archangels will too.

To me, real growth comes from embracing both sides of your nature and integrating them into a whole. Shadow and light are equally important; they’re parts of the same divine current within us. When they work in unison, they improve connection with the self, build self-confidence, and strengthen inner power.

So yes — work with entities like Lucifer, Asmodeus, Azazel, The Morrigan, or Hekate if that calls to you. But don’t be afraid to bring in energies like Aphrodite, Archangel Michael, or Archangel Haniel either.

Personally, I also love working with spirits like Hermes or Dionysus — beings I wouldn’t categorize as strictly “light” or “dark.”

Working with a diverse range of entities can have an amazing impact on one's own journey. Sometimes the most transformative path isn’t choosing a side… it’s learning how to hold both.

These are just thoughts of course. Ultimately, the choice is up to you. It's your journey and what you feel right is, and will always be, the most important decision for you. Always follow your intuition and trust your inner self to guide you on your path.

[sonandheirofnothinginparticular]

[cultkinkcoven]

I do think the concept of Lucifer loving trans men and also letting his wives yuri out with his feminine forms is hilarious and great

It always has to he at least a little bit gay

[mystichemlock]

The Mystic's Prayer

Lay me to sleep in sheltering flame,

O Master of the Hidden Fire!

Wash pure my heart, and cleanse for me

My soul's desire.

In flame of sunrise bathe my mind,

O Master of the Hidden Fire,

That, when I wake, clear-eyed may be

My soul's desire.

- Fiona Macleod, 1896

[gaeyea]

You are the altar. You are the offering. You are the ceremony. You are the medicine.

[ptah-ikemi-ka]

You are the Ritual You are the Temple You are the Prayers You are the Worship

[sunmoondevotee]

Orphic Hymn #27: To Hermes 🪙

Hermes, draw near, and to my pray'r incline, angel of Jove [Zeus], and Maia's son divine;

Studious of contests, ruler of mankind, with heart almighty, and a prudent mind.

Celestial messenger, of various skill, whose pow'rful arts could watchful Argus kill:

With winged feet, 'tis thine thro' air to course, O friend of man, and prophet of discourse:

Great life-supporter, to rejoice is thine, in arts gymnastic, and in fraud divine:

With pow'r endu'd all language to explain, of care the loos'ner, and the source of gain.

Whose hand contains of blameless peace the rod, Corucian, blessed, profitable God;

Of various speech, whose aid in works we find, and in necessities to mortals kind:

Dire weapon of the tongue, which men revere, be present, Hermes, and thy suppliant hear;

Assist my works, conclude my life with peace, give graceful speech, and me memory's increase.

(Translation taken from Theoi.com)

[mischievous-heretic]

Salty about spiritual lopsidedness today

If reciprocity is so important to spiritual relationships, why am I seeing so many people who appear to think their needs, their desires, their thoughts and emotional state, their inner experience of themselves... are the center of the universe?

Now sure, these things are important to an extent. We shouldn't ignore or erase ourselves within our relationships.

But let's not take that to an extreme, where we subconsciously treat gods and spirits as existing only to fill our needs, while ignoring theirs.

What about the feelings of a deity?

The emotions of a spirit?

The inner experiences of the incorporeal?

I don't see much curiosity about this unless a deity or spirit's thoughts or emotions happen to benefit a human somehow like, if a god falls in love with a person. THEN they wanna know all about how that deity feels, in relation to them of course.

But what if we were curious about gods and spirits?

Without always making that about us?

What if we offered the gift of genuinely unselfish interest? Showed care by asking how they experience themselves and other things not related to us specifically?

How about asking questions intended to open up conversations? To know them better?

Like maybe...

"What does this particular myth mean to you? Do you like how it portrays you? Why or why not?

When I said or did [a thing], how did you interpret that? What did you think or feel about it? Why did you respond that way?

If you could have anything you wanted right now, what would it be?" Why do you want it? What does it mean to you?

How are you experiencing the things that matter to you right now? Do your domains require cultivation or some sort of regular attention? If so, how would you describe the effort you put into that? etc, etc

How about showing interest in THEM for a change?

I cannot tell you how many times I have done this and (UPG) some god or spirit has been very surprised that I cared enough to enquire how they felt. Sometimes they also get emotional about it. Then we talk about why they feel that way and get to know each other better.

A few things to consider

In my experience, honest, genuine enquiry can deepen relationships amazingly well if it's accompanied by the following things...

sincerely motivated by a desire to know the god or spirit

not about trying to get something (like attention, interest, responses you like) from spiritual entities, or force them into giving answers they don't feel comfortable with

asked with an open mind, willing to hear responses you might dislike or that might clash with your theology, and respecting the god or spirit's right to have thoughts or feelings different from yours, including the possibility that they don't feel comfortable talking about it right then

offered with the promise of confidentiality if the god or spirit desires it, so the god or spirit knows they can say anything and trust you not to blast their private inner experiences all over the internet without their consent

a regular part of your relationship with that deity or spirit, because showing consistent interest shows you genuinely care and are not just mildly curious

Hopefully that offers some ideas for growing reciprocal connections with deities and spirits, for those who wish to deepen spiritual relationships.

Have fun with asking questions, and by all means invent more! Deep, caring interest in a god or spirit you love is a wonderful thing 🙂

[a-path-by-the-moon]