My thoughts. Am I going crazy?

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Day 9 😁 #dailyaffirmation #21daychallenge https://www.instagram.com/p/CeJ0b2nKQNGBKaZbkwprZMz4lyKZvpMW76JM1c0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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When it's time to study, but your study buddy has different plans #studytime #adorablekitty https://www.instagram.com/p/CWleiHPsWXO/?utm_medium=tumblr

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First day of studying done and dusted #knowledge #newadventure https://www.instagram.com/p/CWTk2iGscg0eWAukf4jDJ2B2E7Nd_RNe-YX5600/?utm_medium=tumblr

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You think its okay to be so dramatic and loud, but you claim to be an abuse victim and get a fright with every loud noise... You know your drinking effects everyone around you and then you become louder! You know your drunkenness brings up old traumas for me, but you continue to be selfish. As a victim from abuse myself, I know from experience that I get anxious when I don't please the people around me. You need to decide who and what you are and stop pretending to be a victim of abuse when you are just as much an abuser.

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Why do I bother to care about what your going through when you don't even care enough to give it a thought? At this point I think the caring is just a side effect from the abuse and abodoment.

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How has your morning/day/evening/night been so far?

Hey. Its currently 5:15 am, but I woke up feeling positive and ready for the day. How are you doing?

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Why is it that I always crave your love and attention and you couldn't care less?

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How are you today?

I'm good thank you. How are you? I decided to dress in something that makes me feel good and positive about myself.

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I want you to go out and do something, anything that makes your day better. I don’t know what it is, just go and do it, and live in the moment. When you’ve done it, if you feel like it, you don’t have to, drop me a text and tell me all about it, what you did, how you felt, if it made you feel better. If it didn’t , I’m gonna send one of these everyday to remind you that people care.

That is so sweet of you. Thank you. I have been doing a lot better lately. I think things that are out of my control was getting to much for me. How are you doing today?

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Can I make a request?

Hey. Sorry for only responding now. I only received the notification now. What is your request?

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Its amazes me how some people will go over and beyond to respect your boundaries and others will go over and beyond to push your boundaries.

Just something to think about.

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How can you feel happy, but feel the darkness creeping underneath?

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What do you do when you feel isolated? What do you do when you get blamed for everything that goes wrong? How do you heal yourself in these conditions? What is the point of healing if your environment is poisoned?

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You quick to push my boundaries, but don't care to stay for the meltdowns! Why must other people clean up your mess?!

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Your quick to talk shit behind my back and pretend like you didn't when your caught, but yet I'm the one you lean on to keep you safe and sane?

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If a child is viewed by the world as a gift, then why did you leave me in the corner to gather dust and bruises over the year? And now you want me in your life after you have lost everything? So why can't I put you and all the my emotions and bruises that is tied to you in the corner?