ִֶָ𓂃 ࣪˖ diary˚♱࿐

rebecca / 21

[wedarkacademia]

“You sensed that you should be following a different path, a more ambitious one, you felt that you were destined for other things but you had no idea how to achieve them and in your misery, you began to hate everything around you.”

― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Netochka Nezvanova

[myunderground]

When I look back on my past and think how much time I wasted on nothing, how much time has been lost in futilities, errors, laziness, incapacity to live; how little I appreciated it, how many times I sinned against my heart and soul – then my heart bleeds. Life is a gift, life is happiness, every minute can be an eternity of happiness! I am neither downhearted nor discouraged. Life is everywhere, life is in ourselves, not in the exterior. I shall have human beings around me, and to be a man among men and to remain one always, not to lose heart and not to give in no matter what occurs – that is what life is, that is its task, I have become aware of this. This idea has entered into my life and blood.

— Fëdor Dostoevsky in a letter to his brother after having his execution sentence converted into hard labor

[myunderground]

— Euripides, Medea

[myunderground]

— Ikiru, Akira Kurosawa (1952)

[myunderground]

Menavo l'esistenza d'un mentecatto, e avevo perso perfino la forza di meditare il suicidio.

— Ozamu Dazai, Lo Squalificato

[myunderground]

Rei Kawakubo’s COMME des GARÇONS Spring 1997 collection

[stlowens]

Ocean Vuong, from  “Not Even.” [ID in alt text]

[myunderground]

On our earth we can only truly love suffering, or through it! We know no other way to love and know no other kind of love. I seek to suffer in order to love.

— Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Dream of a Ridiculous Man

[myunderground]

— J. M. W. Turner, Death On A Pale Horse

[myunderground]

— Björk, Unravel

[peachyyykat]

kaveh akbar, 'calling a wolf a wolf' // doc luben, 'love letters or suicide notes' // @/nutnoce, tumblr // 'my body's made of crushed little stars', mitski // @/ojibwa, tumblr // 'spring', mary oliver

[myunderground]

— Kazimir Malevich, Suprematism (from The Non-Objective World, 1927)

Kazimir Malevich, Black Square (1915) / Kazimir Malevich, Black Circle (1915-1924) / Kazimir Malevich, Suprematist Composition: White on White (1918)

— Kazimir Malevich, Suprematism (from The Non-Objective World, 1927)

[myunderground]

— Radiohead, The Bends

[myunderground]

I feel ashamed of the love I have for him

[myunderground]

on unrequited love

[myunderground]

— on loneliness

Edward Hopper, Automat / Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life / Andrei Tarkovsky, The Mirror / Jane O’Wayne, With Solitude / Andrei Tarkovsky, Nostalghia/ Maggie Nelson, Bluets / Heather Havrilesky, Ask Polly: Help, I’m The Loneliest Person In The World! / Edward Hopper, Summer Interior / Daniel Johnston, Desperate Man Blues / Edward Hopper, Nighthawks

[metamorphesque]

Leila Chatti, “Tea”