I am completely and utterly overwhelmed, and I have no business being so. The house is a mess. My work lately is sub-par, and that's an understatement. I have dropped out of school. Again. I have been flying off the handle whenever anything is asked of me because I feel like it's too much. I am tired of having to follow-up on absolutely everything. I am tired of people having to follow-up on everything I do. I feel like I am incapable of keeping up with the demands of life and I am actually quite scared. I don't have time for it. But here it is. I know that I am letting people down left-and-right. It's not supposed to be this way. I am a 37 year-old man. I am supposed to be able to cope with what life has dealt me. Truth be known, I have it better than most people. I have a roof over my head, a loving wife and daughter, food, two cars, and a nice dog. I don't know what to do about it. I have been working with a counselor for a couple of months and it works for a few days, but then I seem to be right back to where I was. Suggestions have included buying a planner, which I have, but seem to be incapable of using; and mindful positive thinking, but I think if I were capable of that, I would be using it already. Lately when people have been asking, "How are you doing?" or some variant of that, I've been trying my best to answer honestly without appearing too emotional, or needy. So I'll say something like, "pretty stressed," or "kinda overwhelmed," but I dread follow-up questions like, "Oh, what's been going on?" because my actual problems seem so insignificant in the larger picture. It's just that there are so many little ones and I feel like I can't keep up with any of them. Not even breaking them down into a step-by-step list, because those become so unwieldy that I can't even begin to fathom where to begin. I think I might be having a Chappellesque nervous breakdown, but I don't have millions of dollars and unlimited time to find myself in Africa or Ohio or wherever the hell he went. Oh well. It will get better. One day at a time and all that. Sigh.