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My thoughts My own, My beliefs none of your business.

[nadirkahn]

Her smile

I’m glad we talk, I’m ecstatic when I see you calling, I see affection in your eyes, I feel it in your smile.

I know not what you’ve been through, I can’t imagine what it was like, I know what I feel, So let me just adore you cause I know I can make you smile.

It annoys me when you say thank you, Makes me feel like I’m an outsider obliging you, Just take what little I have to give, And smile if it makes you happy in any sort of way.

Your smile is like a lifetime worth to see, Even if it’s not because of me, Your smile fills me with ambition to be, The reason for your smile I wish all could see, Your smile is the means by which I know, Your adoration for me will slowly but surely grow, Your smile is what I want to see, When you wake up next to me, Your smile is what I want to be, Perfection parted gently with a hidden angle I wish all could see, When you smile I forget the world and all the fucked beings, All I want is for you to stay smiling because of me, Come on it’s the beginning of the day, Smile and send a selfie to wake me up today.

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Her hands

I hold your hand and I start wondering how, It fits so snug into mine... wow, So soft to the kiss, So gentle to the touch, It's takes me back way back, To a year from which I can only remember holding your hand now. I was 15 and you touched me, Just my hand and you stole me, Embedded yourself into me, Marked your terrority, And swiftly left me. Hand in hand when we walked, It reminded me of things I never had but lost, A feeling so great yet an emptiness on the side, It made me think maybe a bump on your head and you'd fall. (OMG) I want to kiss your hands and wake you up, Kiss your hands as you fall asleep, Hold your hands as we watch the match,(maybe to keep you from running away) Hold your hands as i Nestle deep inside you, Tie your hands as I fuck you, Hold your hands so you know I'm there, Hold your hand because that's how it started, Long ago the story of a one sided affair.

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Intoxicant

Your like a bottle of wine never opened, The perfect entre never served, An intoxicant not yet discovered, Your an enigma never understood. The mere taste of you I fear I can't describe, For lack there of words to explain the exquisiteness inside, I know it engulfs me, I fear it also captivates me, Yet I bear not the words to describe the taste from inside you. Your locks of love are absolutely divine, I'd play with them till the end of time, Spend my days counting each strand, Holding you in my arms is a feeling so divine.

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Amazing and beautiful

Amazing and beautiful, not a flower or a tree. Much prettier than that, and only I can see. Sexy and surreal, Not an angel you'll see. Much more caring than that, Luckily I have seen. Short and feisty, As smart as can be. Much more than a person, Even though she will deny with each heart beat. Soft and tender, Luckily I know and feel. Her love so wondrous, She will deny it and if you insist you might get beat. Hurt and betrayed, I wish I could take back the shit I spewed, If only life were different, I would have vowed her off her feet. Anything but short and sweet, You'd know if her love you got to feel. All I wish, Is to hold her till she falls asleep.

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Hope you have a hell of a day

Roses are red violets are blue, Your hate for both is quite apparent and true, Since you'll resist and I know it to be true, Hence forth your stuck with my affection no matter how blue your mood, Corny as hell I know as I write, This is the way I'll turn your blue into a smile, (OH MY GOD did he just say that) Resist as you may I'll never be astray, Your stuck beyond words hope you have a hell of a day!

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You will never know

You'll never know how it feels to love you, How it felt to be held by you, What it means to stare into your eyes, How it feels to have you become indifferent. How could you ever comprehend love, When you never learnt how to love, How could you ever feel pain, Since you spend all your efforts in subduing yours. I never wanted to love you, I always wanted to hold you, Always wanted to see you smile, Yet I feel in love and felt you distant your self miles. The pain of telling you it's over, When my heart is yours, The dismay of not hearing your voice, When all I wanted was a good night. You'll never know how much I love you, You'll never comprehend how much I care, You made yourself busy without purpose, So you could distant your heart from mine, You'll never understand the tenses, You'll just perceive what's already in your mind, I pull my self from you before you can rip my heart and mind, Your own your own my beloved, Because you'll never know how much I care.

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happiness in growing old

The older I get and the more I learn,

Life becomes intense and I thank god anger is no longer a friend,

the younger we were the more impulsive we remained,

with age on the rise the waist line also kicks in.

Strange the world and weird the people,

Some gauge friends with ROI or past trends,

Split into two analyze what you do,

let work never come home with you.

Friends like diamonds,

Family like gold,

Life is a bitch,

Alas I have found the happiness in growing old!

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only knew her when we were high and she didn’t know,

only saw her when the light was dimming and she walked alone,

only knew love when she came and left us all alone.

 Staring at the endless sea I hope,

Hope that one day she will know,

What love meant to me a moment after she walked out the door.

 Holding my head in silence not knowing what to think about,

I know I missed the sun when it started to snow,

I drove fast only when there were no other cars on the road.

 Love comes so slow and goes so fast,

Falling asleep I wish I could dream but I only relive the moments after you left,

I wish I never let you go.

 I needed the light when it was burning low,

Needed to feel love when I though I had let her go,

Wanted to hold her when she found someone else to hold.

 Standing at the docks looking into nothingness I now know,

I’m better off having loved her my way and she let me go,

Better off knowing she’ll never feel the way I do,

she will never know how it feels to miss the sun when it starts to snow!

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My star

Words seem to never come out right, Songs seem to be singing or thoughts some days, Our personal rthym is something we need, To keep our sanity, Or to just to get through some days, It's okay everyone is the same way. Just take a step closer don't come sail away, Tell me the sonnete closest to your heart, Or what prayer does for you everyday, Tell me something let me know you in a new way.   Your like a star, Held back by unseen strings, A rapture of humanity and affection held back, Behind a curtain of armor yet you shine, Illuminating without realizing, Captivating without a medium, Mesmerizing without even trying.

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Shine on

Shine a light into the darkness and gloom, Embrace the shadow and dance to a tune, Mesmerize like the ecstacy of gold to some, Let the light shine and do all things you do, In your heart you know you shall shine so atleast to your self be true.

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I asked

You're like the book never finished, The birthday cake never cut, The cherry blossom never admired, The flower never plucked, Yet you’ve thrown my brains into knots, Blessed are those who loved till their last, Cursed are those who forgot to ask. In the world filled with such dynamics, Some keep figuring and some never Figure it out. So what is to be won and what is there to be lost. Pain is a lesson only learned by those who loved at all. .

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Tomorrow

From corner to corner in search of pennies, Not even giving a minutes thought to their tomorrow, 1 of ten maybe lives life to tell tomorrow, This is not life this is the world around us you decide not to follow. Painful to hear and horrific to witness, These kids actually live on the streets. They can’t buy education they can’t buy respect, They can’t do anything to change their tomorrow.

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Ullo

Sadgiee say humm chaltay gaie, Rasta apnaa bhool gaiee, Saarkh khataam hoo chukiee thiee, Humm ullo kiee teraa chaltay gaiee, Humain Kiya Pata thaa humm tuu daaur e Waqt kay bhakay thay, Hustain hustain bhool gaie, Chaltay chaltay khooo gaieee.

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Something I wrote when I was 14

To question or not to question, If we decide,than what to question, The hypocrisy or the truth, Or the lady in grade 8 told us it is true.

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Khoof

Ujalay jaab utray tuu sahiee nazaar ayah, Kia ker bhaitay thay hum, Koiee saamaj nahie paya, Dar tha ya khoof kuch yad nahie ata Kiyokay Saab bhol bhatay thay Humm vahieen. Khaltiyoon say na bhoolla denay humain, Khan e pathan humm sahiee. Na khofa hai zindagiee say Na mehnat kie kamaie say Sirf khoof tu terie na khushie say.