It was a dream, and I do not know what to feel.
A person walked past me, and I shouted "Yoongi Saranghaeyo!"
And another "Jimin Saranghaeyo!"
I cannot believe my eyes! They are walking in front of me. It was like a backstage scene or something. I was waiting for the other members. However, I was informed that they already left. While regretting not being there early, I. SAW. YOU.
You were practicing for a fashion show (?) if I am not wrong. I walked near you, expecting, wanting you to notice me but you were too busy. You are now leaving.
I chased you as I shouted "Kim Seok Jin! Kim Seok Jin!! Saranghaeyoooo!!!"
*Shit I'm crying deep inside*
And I shouted even louder. You stopped walking. Catching my breath, I continuously say "Saranghae, saranghaeyo, jeongmal nomu nomu saranghae!" You were smiling.
We are now talking about our lives. We're happy knowing each other deeper. We had that connection and understanding (I would like to assume). Then you needed to go to work, and you asked me if I want to go with you. I did. We arrived there, the venue was full of artists, celebrities, beautiful people. I took a step back. I suddenly felt strange.
*Look at this, you do not belong here. He's out of your league. You expected him to like you in this sea of beautiful people. Who are you kidding?* -- my innerself told me. I took another step back and ran away ...
Ah, I don't know how to feel about it. It feels good to see you up close, to talk to you, to actually see you smile even if it's just a dream. However, I did not expect feeling down after. The last part of my dream was just reality hitting me in the face. *sigh*
Amidst the pressure of final examinations, I did not expect to dream of you. Ah, I have always wanted to see Bangtan Sonyeondan (BTS) in my dreams but I did not expect it last night. It was the first time in the whole 3 continuous years of being a fan.
I would like to think that it means I need to work on myself more, be a better person. So if that chance would come in real life, I will not run away and that I'll find the courage and confidence to stay.