So, let’s talk about Deirdre and the Book of Naga.
In the game, Deirdre was never shown to wield the Book of Naga at any point. At least, never in battle. In retrospect, Deirdre’s signature weapon has always been Aura, the weapon that she has when she’s recruited. I’ve always had the thought that Deirdre has probably held the Book of Naga perhaps one or two times, and one of those times was probably to solidify the fact that she is indeed of Naga’s line. Azmur recognized that she had the brand when Arvis introduced her, so her being able to actually read and wield the Holy Weapon of the royal family is more so assurance that it’s actually true. With Kurth dead and Azmur literally on his last legs, Heim’s bloodline would be wiped out. Precautions would probably be necessary.
But back to her connection with the Book of Naga. Julia once described the feeling of wielding it as if she has known it all of her life. Deirdre definitely feels that sort of mysterious familiarity. Whether she was normal or amnesiac, she would definitely feel the same, but I think would be more poignant for her as an amnesiac. She, who literally remembers nothing of who she was or where she came from, feels something that feels so familiar to her it’s as if she regained a part of herself. And in a way, she did. She found out about one half of her bloodline that even her normal self never knew about. So naturally, she’s very drawn to it. But at the end of Gen 1, there’s not a reason for her to wield it in terms of battle. With Sigurd and the gang gone and Arvis uniting the lands, there was an era of peace, and therefore little reason for the use of the Book of Naga.
But she does familiarize herself with the tome. When Deirdre has moments of contemplation or whenever she would feel lost in the walling of her lost memories, she comes down to a peaceful place with the Book of Naga and just reads it. Every heavy spell and complicated incantation, every worn page of which she can read perfectly, she immerses herself within it. Its’ mysterious aura brings her to a state of calm, and she sometimes holds it whenever she learns to meditate again. It helps brings her back to center.
That being said, Deirdre also recognizes that what she is holding is a powerful, powerful weapon. Where Deirdre pre-amnesia has dreams of Loptyr, Deirdre post-amnesia has sporadic dreams of Naga. She dreams of a warm, yet piercing holy light. She dreams of a golden dragon whose roar can pierce the darkness. And it is intimidating to her. Especially in the later years in her life. That’s when she dreams of both Loptyr and Naga at the same time. All of this power that has been within her bloodline, it’s a fearful thing. There is a feeling of familiarity and reverence, but there is also a great fear from the power that it brings. And yet despite this, she just knows that it will be important one day, and the book must be kept safe. It’s a premonition of hers that proves to be valid in terms of what happens to her children and Arvis keeping it safe after her death.
Concerning Deirdre in Heroes, the book is her one lifeline of familiarity in a strange world. She doesn’t remember much about the world she came from, considering that she is fresh into her amnesia, but she does feel that the Book of Naga is a part of her. Despite its power and its mystery, it is the most familiar thing she knows. And she considers it a precious possession of hers in any verse, despite not entirely being associated with it in the game proper.
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