i ain't gon' save her

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[nahuramessbabe]

wow haven’t updated in a hot minute. well let’s just say my life has gotten perfect ever since i’ve been traveling with colson. i’ve been distant a couple of times because of feeling homesick and well, this all feels so new to me. i’ve loves lauren ever since i was 13 and don’t get me wrong, i still love her but in a platonic love way. she’s my best friend and my go to person for everything. i’m glad she’s finally happy with mercedes.

on top of that, my boyfriend is the cutest person ever. to know that he talks about me to other people makes my heart flutter he’s so sweet and i adore him so so much. tour is ending soon and i’ll be back home with my moms and lani soon. but i just know that i’ll be with him again which feels so great :’)

[nahuramessbabe]

you’re mine, please don’t think it’s you that it’s the reason why i’m upset. because i promise it’s not :(

[nahuramessbabe]

i don’t know what’s happening to me but i just want my body and emotions to chill

[nahuramessbabe]

🙄🙄🙄

[nahuramessbabe]

can i be okay for like 5 minutes? that’ll be great

[nahuramessbabe]

i’m not feeling myself tonight but i’m putting on the biggest facade right now and i actually hate it. i feel like i’m going to break down any minute now.

[nahuramessbabe]

i can feel myself sinking but sinking in the best way possible. i’m at peace with myself but i know when i get home, i’m gonna be a huge mess

[nahuramessbabe]

i used to be scared to have sex around other people, but now.. i feel so comfortable around you. this is crazy, but a good crazy.

[ladyorchestra]

[nahuramessbabe]

every time i kiss you, my happiness just grows.

[nahuramessbabe]

i’ve been so happy for the last couple of days that i don’t even know if this is real or not. like i’m actually happy with someone and i can talk to my ex about it because she’s happy too. this is what i’ve always wanted, this is what we’ve both wanted... for each other. she’s happy for me and i’m happy for her. i’m just so thankful.

either way i’ve been traveling the world with a wonderful guy and i’ve never thought i would ever find this from a guy. but i’m happy and that’s all that matters :’)

[nahuramessbabe]

i’m! so!! happy!!!

like i know it’s early but damn, i can’t believe

[nahuramessbabe]

....idk why but i wanted to hold your hand while looking through the castles lmfao

[nahuramessbabe]

that flight was highly needed, let me tell you.

[nahuramessbabe]

i told myself that i would never get dicked again but here i am traveling to SCOTLAND to start my new job and fuck my boss. lovely:)

[nahuramessbabe]

IT GO DOWN IN THE DM 👏🏾👏🏾👅

[nahuramessbabe]

i know this isn’t the best thing.... but obviously i have to let you go.

i’ve tried moving on with cade but he doesn’t seem as interested like he used to be and i don’t like waiting around for people who aren’t interested so im not gonna keep wasting my time. same with alexis i guess. so i’m just gonna continue doing me. it’s best to do that rather than settling down anyway. last time i tried to settle didn’t go as planned as we wanted it to, so i guess it’s a sign.