Nairel System

system of too many hosts: Harry body age 27

[chongoblog]

ITS APRIL 13 YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS

FETCH ME NEIL

[chongoblog]

[chongoblog]

HAPPY BIG TWENTY NEIL

[nairel-system]

There's been an increase in system communication recently (still way less than 2 years ago) and for some reason there's a dog in the front room now, I did meet them a few years ago so they aren't new, but now barking is a common occurrence. I can usually understand what the barking means, doesn't make it any less jarring to hear barking in your head.

[nairel-system]

Animal alters be like : *bark bark bark bark*

[chimeramode]

there seems to be just a huge niche of people online that really need/would greatly benefit from the framework of plurality but are afraid to claim it. which i understand because me too i doubt it for myself a lot. but i think there are a lot of us who don't really meet the criteria for DID or OSDD yet would still benefit from viewing ourselves as actually multiple selves. and perhaps a substantial number of us will later find out they meet the criteria for a diagnosis about it but i think we need to be less caught up on "do i meet this criteria" and instead focus on "what will be helpful to me". which may include resources for people with DID/OSDD, or may not.

[nairel-system]

So we've had a host shift since our cat passed in October, still not sure what/who they're comprised of, took a while to even notice 😭 we need to get better at communicating again, but we noticed enough differences in our behavior to actually investigate a bit and sure enough it's new host time

They go by Hare but Harry is still fine for the body

[adharathestara]

nazis made it illegal for Jewish people to drive before they began sending them to concentration camps. and let me remind you, people in the US are already being sent to worryingly concentration camp-esque places. the holocaust didn't just happen like that. Jewish people didn't dissappear overnight. fascism takes over slowly, and takes more and more rights from more and more people as it progresses.

and they do not, and will not, stop.

[decadentqueentidalwave]

So Kansas made trans people’s ID cards invalid, which means they can’t drive or really participate in society…

[sweetly-dazed]

It means trans people in kanas can't do the following:

Vote

Recieve medical care from outpatient

Drive

Travel domestically or internationally with that driver's license

Go out to bars or clubs

Go to out of state dispensaries if someone needs medical cannabis

Validate their medications at pharmacies which can be life saving (Trans people can also be on insulin and other very necessary medications besides the hormones for gender affriming care! A high percentage of trans folx are disabled or chronically ill)

Most importantly, none of them are able to stay stealth in the state of kanas which means they are more subjected to hate crimes and unjustified police violence.

Its not just a blatant attack on our trans people here its an active act of genocide that's cannot be done with any means of justification besides bigotry reasons.

[nairel-system]

I don't know why but when I'm depressed my OCD focuses on the idea of someone living in my home with me/breaking in

Which has never happened to me but anytime something bad happens my brain decides it's comorbidity time

[iwait4youalexg]

Oh!

[doh007]

Thank you all, i needed further explanation - And i do find it might help me!

[nairel-system]

I can't believe Arasha force pluraled Trevor during the new Magic the Gathering video

[sonar-taxlaw]

when i am rotating The Character (tm) i am:

putting them in a centrifuge

putting them on a lazy susan

holding them in my hand and moving them around

putting them on a hamster wheel

putting them on a merry go round and spinning it really fast

putting them in the dryer or washing machine

other

Voting ended onJan 26

[helsex]

It's crazy and wildly unfair the types of people who will be out there with no shame over any of their behavior meanwhile I'm stuck being nauseated at myself for every very normal conversation I have with someone

[nairel-system]

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[nairel-system]

We've been really depressed since our cat passed in October and I'm pretty sure our Fronters have changed because our art has switched focus from painting to weaving but we have 2 large paintings that need to be done for a gallery this year that we don't even have the dates for yet (it's probably not til at least June but might be April) so I just gotta hope we shift back or else I'm gonna have to relearn acrylic painting

[junglejim4322]

Unironically I think the early to mid 20s age group in America has unbelievably bad consent boundaries on all levels and so much language to defend it but this makes me sound like elon musk if I say it however the commonality of someone who will be like “I had 47 panic attacks and it’s your fault” if you tell them no is insane

[junglejim4322]

I rejected someone and got called “the scariest person I’ve ever met” with so much therapy speak interspersed like alright okay alright okay alright okay

[junglejim4322]

“You just say whatever you’re thinking and I don’t know how to handle it” was verbatim part of this conversation. Also everyone hates to see an autistic bitch

[transhumanisticpanspermia]

When I was in this age bracket, there was a huge emphasis on improving consent culture via graceful rejection, and it's gone by the wayside. Which sucks.

Twice in my youth (once in high school and once in college) I was in situations where I was asking someone out and I could tell they were calculating in their heads the risks of rejecting me, and both times I said, out loud, "you can say no, I wouldn't have asked if I wasn't prepared for either answer." And then they said no. This wasn't some spark of special wisdom I had - I knew to do it because feminist conversations among my age group brought it up regularly. This isn't happening nearly enough anymore.

More recently, I was really glad when we got to "rejection sensitive dysphoria" in my IOP program and it was one of those symptoms where the therapists really emphasized how it affects others. Because it does.

Being someone who cannot handle rejection makes you much more likely to violate boundaries, and yes, that includes sexual ones. Yes, you, reader who has never hurt a fly. If you don't want to stumble backwards into sexually assaulting someone, fix your RSD meltdowns. If you keep them up it's only a matter of time. Because if you're nice enough to interact with, but are known to have RSD meltdowns, guess what happens when your friends and acquaintances need to reject you?

[xylophonetangerine]

[retrocausality]

T.S. Eliot, The Waste Land

[fragiledewdrop]

Yes! Eliot had read reports of a mission in Antartica where this exact thing had happened, so he incorporated it in the poem. There is a double meaning, obviously, because it's also a reference to Jesus on the road to Emmaus. But it is very much on purpose. He wrote:

 "The following lines were stimulated by the account of one of the Antarctic expeditions (I forget which, but I think one of Shackleton's): it was related that the party of explorers, at the extremity of their strength, had the constant delusion that there was one more member than could actually be counted"

[radfemart]

I appreciate the sentiment but I don't get all those "we made it to the longest night of the year! the light will start returning soon! it's all uphill from here & we're halfway there!" posts because like. Oct-Dec is the easier half of Winter. Jan-Apr is way harder. there's no big holidays or decorations, everyone is kind of over the whole Cozy Hygge Sweaters & Cocoa vibe so they're just tired & restless instead, and the whole thing is so drawn out & uneventful that it feels like it lasts 10x longer

[radfemart]

the cold season Oct-Dec:

the cold season Jan-Apr:

[detrout]

i feel like i'm in the lighthouse