Today someone I see as a little sister was ill bc she got an infection and she didn’t want to tell me how, and I put two and two together, bc i’m not blind and she later told me she cut herself to deep and had to stitch herself together and got an infection.
That shit cut so fucking deep bro. I can’t do THISSS
Like, she’s such a good person, and she’s been through so much. I can somewhat understand what she’s going through, as I’ve been in a similar mental state, and I think she picked up on that, bc she ended up opening up about what happened but GOD. She said she didn’t know if she was able to survive the year and it won’t even REMOTELY be her first attempt.
Like, I don’t know what to do other than to check on her as often as possible, which is what I would have wanted others to do, and I think she may appreciate to. Mind you, I knew she was struggling, but today she told me everything. I was just observing before.
I got her to her cousin, who’s bringing her to the hospital or clinic, I’m not sure and I’ll message her tomorrow.
But god, now I’M feeling ill, and I feel so fucking selfish for that.
The one thing that I’m sure of is that there’s a big part of her that wants to live, bc why tell me all this, why insist on going to the hospital and calling someone she trusts for help.
From what I know her family life isn’t great too…
I just had to tell someone, bc I don’t know who to talk about this that would understand.
I’ll probs delete it later so.