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ugh!

[natataeh]

hey, old blog :’)

[homunculus-argument]

Hey btw, here's a piece of life advice:

If you know what you'd have to do to solve a problem, but you just don't want to do it, your main problem isn't the problem itself. Your problem is figuring out how to get yourself to do the solution.

If your problem is not eating enough vegetables, the problem you should be solving is "how do I make vegetables stop being yucky". If your problem is not getting enough exercise, the problem you should be solving is "how do I make exercise stop sucking ass". You're not supposed to just be doing things that are awful and suck all the time forever, you're supposed to figure out how to make it stop being so awful all the time.

I used to hate wearing sunscreen because it's sticky and slimy and disgusting and it feels bad and it smells bad, so I neglected to wear it even if I needed to. Then I found one that isn't like that, and doesn't smell and feel gross. Problem solved.

There is no correct way to live that's just supposed to suck and feel bad all the time. You're allowed to figure out how to make it not suck so bad.

[z-ndjenja]

eye flirting

[natataeh]

mhmm good riddance

[natataeh]

suddenly thought of going through my inbox and i found a couple of cute messages from different people :’)

ang cute lang when someone makes pacute towards you. tries their best to make you feel kilig and all! it’s a dreadful cycle talaga ano, trying to know someone. at first it’s all rainbows and butterflies tapos after that dami na obstacles!! most probably why i feel sick just thinking about going through the same cycle again cause nakakatamad na and to be honest wala, very repetitive nga. thought i’d never think about this anymore considering ok naman current relationship ko but oh well things change

[natataeh]

as someone who feels highly insecure about her current relationship because of my partner’s recent ex, i always think about the thought — “a man’s true love cannot be forgotten nor replaced.”

i am such an insecure person so perhaps it’s more of a ‘me’ problem, but ever since i found out some things i probably shouldn’t have known from the very beginning, i’ve done nothing but doubt my current relationship way more than before. one is because i feel threatened, and second is because i feel humiliated. all i can say is sometimes, ignorance can be a bliss.

which brings me to another thought — i hope my exes will never feel that way about me. i hope they only learn from me and take those as something that would help them become a better person as well as become a better partner towards their current or future girlfriends. i do not want other women to feel insecure about their relationship, or feel like their boyfriend is still somehow hung up with their ex. i don’t want them to feel like their partners still see a glimpse of me. no woman deserves to feel that way.

[strykerlancer-deactivated202405]

“To rest and trust; to give your soul in confidence: I need this, I need someone to pour myself into.”

— Sylvia Plath, from “The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath.”

[finehoney]

[feral-ballad]

Jihyun Yun, from Some Are Always Hungry; “Reversal”

[Text ID: “I so want to survive this. Please lead me whole into another season so I may dare begin again.”]

[toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account]

fucking love when I'm on a call with someone and they start to do a little errand or go somewhere else and they say "and you're coming with me" like. absolutely I am let's go on an adventure I've been spirited away

[biigsaad]

Lately, I noticed that everybody looks okay until you eventually have a deep conversation with them. And then, you realize that this is a sad generation of people struggling to survive through smiling faces and pretty pictures.

[izelands-deactivated20161014]

[recoverr-a-deactivated20210530]

sending so much love to everyone who feels like they’re never chosen as the best friend, as the partner, as the favorite. sending love to all of you who have been treated and felt like second best. sending love to all of you who have felt rejected and unwanted. to all of you who have had to try really hard to fit in because you felt like you never will. 

you are so loved. you will be seen and heard by the right people. you can trust that you are valuable and not defined by other people’s perceptions of you. if someone doesn’t see your worth, it doesn’t mean it isn’t there.

[upupienie]

[natataeh]

funny lang kasi i feel like i will always go back here and rant whatever i want. im in my 20s na, tumblr!! may ads ka na now 🥲 we couldn't even reblog tumblr asks before grabe bilis ba time

[natataeh]

just wanna feel loved and appreciated again.. n probably sexually pleased too

hmp

[natataeh]

I'm currently at a point na sa relationship where I genuinely want myself to stop developing feelings for a man. I no longer want to be with anyone again kasi it's tiring. This feeling is so, so tiring. It's draining me.

I feel so empty and have been feeling this way for months already. Lungkot.