NATE,

i find kazuki miyazaki really cute.

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kxmiyazaki : im dead int he inside, im ded iM TOO BUSY TO DO ANYTHING.

i just want us to b together 5 ever

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there’s no elias w/o nazuki

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kxmiyazaki : ( IM S O S A D

its ok bb we can pull thru (i h8 how we were planning on continuing to do this even w/o elias toOOooo) gdi my life is over

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( im in my little corner crying because whoever reserved jinyoung is breaking up nazuki honESTLY )

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ur fave merman @nathanieloser ･ 17s

my boyfriend has the cutest butt ever.

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kazuki m @kazumiyazaki

@nathanieloser what the hell nate, i’m going to strangle you.

reply. rt. fav. more.

ur fave merman @nathanieloser ･ 5s

lol you won't do it though.

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ur fave merman @nathanieloser ･ 5s

by the way, kazuki takes head. you're welcome.

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ur fave merman @nathanieloser ･ 18s

i missed valentine's day with my boyfriend. gg nate.

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How I try to get someone’s attention lml 

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[ drabble ] failed dates.

nathaniel tries to drag kazuki on a date with him. it fails.

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緣分┆nazuki

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he can’t help but to be slightly disappointed when nathaniel moved his hands away from his, but the disappointment disappears once they’re around his torso instead. this was all still so foreign to him, the mere act of intimacy and skinship. kazuki wasn’t used to any of this, it’s been so long since someone who wasn’t aiko had hugged him or merely held his hand. it used to be something he feared (it still is), but he could get used to it if it’s nathaniel.

somehow a simple kiss manages to short-circuit his brain. his ability to reason is gone and he’s left flustered and unsure of what to do. the mere intimacy between them is enough to render him useless, has he always been this pathetic? what would his adoptive mother say— what would his parents say? god, he doesn’t know. ”no it’s not, not cute,” kazuki mumbles. “i didn’t think you’d be the one to take my first kiss.” he buries his head into nathaniel’s shoulder. “but i guess it’s fine if it’s you,” he quietly adds.

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it’s weird how things like this can make nathaniel feel; something so simple, yet so crucial. he’s never felt so delighted and so loved all at once. as of right now, he didn’t care about anything, except for having kazuki in his arms. he just wanted a moment like this to last forever.

his cheeks start to hurt due to smiling so much, but he just couldn’t help it. all of this feeling that kazuki was giving him could simply not be hidden. it was hard. "but everything about you is cute," he says bluntly, "like your name, your face, your nose, your choice of speech, everything." he feels the contact against his shouder, softening at the shyness radiating from him. "well, you gotta expect the unexpected, right?" nathaniel chuckles, resting his head against kazuki's. "i'm glad that you at least tolerate me, in a way perhaps."

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eomma and appa 

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緣分┆nazuki

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his face only turns a brighter red as nathaniel intertwines their fingers together. intimacy. another thing he wasn’t used to, something he often rejected. but it’s fine if it’s with him— with anyone else he’d just scowl and push them away. it’s all so foreign to him, but it’s not like it’s bad. although he still can’t find the courage to look completely up at the other, he’s such a mess. this is a first, everything is a first. he finally looks up, nathaniel’s face is close to his own. he tries to shy away, but now he can’t look away. “uh— a robotics nerd and a merman… turned human that’s dating? maybe?” he stutters, completely unsure of himself.

"i- i don’t know," he mumbles. "this is the one thing that i legitimately don’t know." kazuki wants to cover his face, shield is away from nathaniel so he doesn’t have to see him in this state. but he can’t do that. not with their fingers still intertwined, not when nathaniel is swinging their arms slightly. and it’s too late anyways— he’s already seen too much, how flustered he is, his most vulnerable state. "you make my head a mess," he mutters quietly, "i can’t even put my thoughts together."

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he softens as he notices the numerous expressions from the lad, knowing that it was all because of him. he never knew he could have such an impact on someone else, and vise versa. surely, he has probably made people happy with simple gestures, but something like this? with the exception of his mom, he has never initiated skin to skin contact, even as simple as this.

a laugh escapes from his lips as he listens to kazuki's reply before moving his hands away from the other's and wrapping his arms around his torso instead. "maybe," he mutters, continuing to listen to what he has to say. a smile only plays on his lips, leaning in to plant a chaste kiss upon his lips once again. nathaniel tilts his head forward, rubbing his nose with his before speaking again, "that's cute, kazuki."

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緣分┆nazuki

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that was the last thing he expected to come from nathaniel. he had thought the other would tug his arm out of his grip and storm out of the room, or something like that. kazuki looks up, his grip on the sleeve loosens. the sad expression from before is gone, his face is bright and the suffocating feeling is starting to fade. “nate, i-“ he feels nathaniel’s hands cup his face. he looks at him wide eyed, a small pout forms but it’s barely noticeable. his face closes in on his, a small kiss is pressed against his lips— it’s short, but it warms his entire being. it chases away the negative thoughts threatening to fill his mind.

his mind is blank and he can only nod at nathaniel’s words. the choking feeling is disappearing, a new warmth is replacing it. it’s no longer suffocating— he doesn’t feel like he’s drowning anymore. how a simple kiss was able to dissipate something that sticks for far too long baffles him. it’s nothing he expects. kazuki can’t help but to keep his gaze on the floor, face probably red, heart racing, it’s all the side-effects of love as aiko had put down simply. his first kiss is gone, taken by the first person to win his heart. “i— okay, i didn’t expect— yeah. that,” he manages to stutter out. “but…” he peeks up at nathaniel hesitantly, he feels like a kid all over again (is this what love does to you? god, he’s being ridiculous), “what does this make us then?” 

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he lets out a soft laugh at him reactions. nathaniel adores him so much, it's unexplainable. it sort of amazes him how it was so simple for kazuki to just walk into his life and to trip him over (you know, because he fell for him). but kazuki makes him happy, regardless, and that's all he needs. he reaches down to take his hands, intertwining their fingers whilst swinging them together, thinking about the question that was being asked. nathaniel wasn't for sure as to what they were; all he knew is that they shared mutual feelings and that he's given his first kiss away.

"well, i'm not entirely sure about that one," he starts as he purses his lips, humming. he gave the other's hands a light squeeze, continuing to swing their arms as he collects his thoughts. he notices how shy kazuki looks, which makes him smile more. how much cuter can he get? nathaniel leans forward closer to him, a grin playing on his lips as he asks, "what do you think it makes us, hm?"

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rip nate and mun.

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x

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緣分┆nazuki

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nathaniel continues to speak— and he listens. the worry only increases as he continues talking. who is he talking about? who’s this person that he likes? especially when they cause him so much pain? was it someone he knew? was it one of his classmates? but the answer he receives is something he didn’t expect. his eyes widen in shock at the confession. he’s the one that nathaniel likes, but he shouldn’t like him. nathaniel shouldn’t like him. he isn’t the one to return affections. he’s broken, still broken from the time his parents had died until now (barely fixed). who would like someone ask broken as him? who makes it seem like he isn’t broken.

"me?" he whispers, staring down at the floor as nathaniel leaves the room. but he has to accept the facts, right? nathaniel likes him, he likes him. he can’t allow this to slip— he’s allowed other moments to slip through his fingers, he just can’t let this one disappear forever. kazuki pushes himself off the bed and stumbles, he reaches over and grabs the sleeve of his shirt. “nate— wait. i— don’t leave.” what should he say? he doesn’t know what to say. he’s never been in this type of situation. “don’t think… that i don’t like you,” he mumbles. he probably looks pathetic, nathaniel’s back facing towards him, him gripping onto the other’s sleeve like a lost child. panic is rising, it’s happening again, but he can’t surrender to it. it’s nothing like that time. he should be able to do this.

he takes a shaky breath in. “i.., i like you too.” his grip tightens. “or rather, it’s something like that, but like i said— i wouldn’t know. aiko described love as something that makes you warm.” he pauses. “and sometimes that… warm feeling appears around you? shit i don’t know what i’m saying, i’m pathetic aren’t i?” the choking feeling returns, he doesn’t know what else to say. he probably fucked it up in the end anyways.

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he feels a tug upon his sleeve which causes him to halt. he was going to speak until kazuki beat him to it. he listened to him intently, feeling rather guilty for assuming things too quickly. but what could he do? it wasn't like he was gonna expect this to happen. he smiled as he heard the confession, knowing that it wasn't normal for kazuki to be sharing his feelings like this, well, trying to share his feelings. nathaniel knew he wasn't good with his words, but he loved him regardless.

hearing kazuki calling himself pathetic made nathaniel turn around immediately, feeling upset that he would put himself down so easily. "hey, don't say that." it hurt him on a personal level that he would say such a thing about himself. however, he was extremely flattered that kazuki had returned the feelings. he simply beamed at the other, taking his face into his hands. he simply could not hold in it anymore. nathaniel leaned in and pressed his lips against kazuki's for a brief moment before pulling away to say, "it's okay, you're not pathetic, and i'll never believe for a moment that you are."