Almost dropped out of school this week but my mom really wants me to finish at least the semester. I don't want to be here anymore. College isn't fun. I'm trapped in my room everyday and I only leave to go to class, if I decide to go, or to get food if I remember to eat. I'm just too alone here, I won't be seen for days and no one will notice. I actually passed out because my throat closed due to my condition, I'm very lucky I even woke up because I wouldn't know how long until someone found me. It's funny because a random guy, who I don't talk to what so ever, messaged me if I was feeling sad that he noticed that I was acting different. A random person noticed but not people who were my closest friends. I hear from other people that so and so is worried about me but where are they? Why am I hearing it from someone else? That doesn't help anything. It just says they care but not enough to be direct about it. This is the first day that I've been sober since Monday and I just can't really function without it, which is scary to experience. Hope things can turn around
