Hello, my name is N. I'm using social media in order to better understand the world and its inhabitants. I use any pronouns, with preference towards they/them and she/her.
I currently live with Alder and Benga. Drayden and Iris frequently stay with us, too.
There are also many pokémon friends that like to visit, along with a few who have permanent residence with me. They are free to come and go as they want, but they choose to stay by my side. If you have any questions for any of them, I'm certain they would love to answer! Z and Tomie are by my side the most often.
This picture is a bit outdated. Z is a zoroark now, and the totodile egg has hatched. His name is Timmy.
I want to learn and become a better person from who I used to be. Every day feels like a new experience.
Thank you for stopping by.
(names and pronouns of n's main pokemon :) yeah I sat and drew everyone instead of just using the trainer card thing. yes this took me eons and im planning on doing it again to reflect z's evolution 💀 anyways yahoo!!
my main is @coldslaws , and for behind the scenes stuff on my blogs, check out @coldslaws-gear-station !
if you like n, i'd also recommend checking out my other account @raising-harmony ! these two accounts do not share a universe though
this blog will contain themes of child and pokemon abuse (physical and emotional), cults, and severe injury + disability. after an attack from ghetsis, n has a brain injury he's still healing from, and mentions of this will be present on my blog. i tag things with "(subject) cw" where necessary. ex: death mention cw, abuse cw, pokemon death cw, etc!
blog will occasionally go into high stakes, but never ultra, and i always plan for an overall happy ending
proship dni im looking at you isshu/ferriswheelshippers
magic anons: not currently
in-universe anon hate: yes! just don't be transphobic. hate on her for crimes not gender
pelipper/musharna mail: yes
main tags to check out;
n answers - answering asks
n doodles - art
tomie types - posts made or interrupted by n's rotom phone, tomie
Knew it wasn't delusional or that it was just a "camera malfunction". Feels so good to be right...
Anyways you should def send her to a hospital. Like, rn
I need you to explain everything right this instant--
I truly don't know..! [Her voice is sharp, almost tearful. Drayden dials it back hearing this. Around them, all of the dream pokémon gradually dissipate, except for one.]
... That deerling. Hello. A-are you going to stay? I know you..
..?
From my.. my dreams. All of these pokémon, I've seen in my dreams.
And that boy?
There was a boy? ...
[There's a long pause. Munna drifts towards N, while the lone deerling stares at them somberly.]
Did.. did he look like me?
Hard to say. He did have hair like yours, however.
[Tomie blurts out this ask right here. Both parties pause to look at her.]
This..
....
Does this have anything to do with the triad's attack?
It.. has to. I've been having these dreams ever since. And now, finding munna...
... Hm. Your foolishness is almost staggering, I'm almost impressed.
Allow me to enlighten you with something; I do know you, I know everything I need to know about you and your family. You speak as if all hands are down, but my cards are still up and I already know what lies in your hand.
However, you are correct. On the surface, my words mean nothing, but what if they weren't just words? What if they turned into actions? Ones I don't think you can wrap your fossil brain around?
Send him my best wishes, Atlas. Tell him his older brother says hello.
Then stop with your drivel, and put your money where your mouth is. My team would be happy to show you what happens when words become actions.
Pathetic? Lonely? I'm quite hurt! I like to think of myself as insightful and funny, but fine. If you'd like to play that way, then so be it
You have the gall to say that Father is dead and nothing will change that, then what about you? I suppose the same can apply to you too, you know. There is nothing you can do to bring back Ingo and you know it, his body is long decayed within the earth
But, hey! Look at the silver lining hm? Maybe now that he's gone and dusted, your sister will finally show her face! An eye for an eye, after all! Or maybe they'll find her skeleton in the same ditch Ingo is in, whatever works. After all, you can't pretend to me that you actually cared for those two
Sure they were children, but she was your sister. I know you would've traded over those children whom you have nothing in common with to have your sister back in a heartbeat, you didn't know them. I suppose you still don't, considering all this
So, lonely and pathetic? Hilarious. The call is coming from inside the house, Drayden. At least I know what I am, you'll have to grudge up whatever self respect you have to finally admit your family is dead. Natural almost ended up in that ditch too, y'know, I wonder how long it'll take for you to cause the demise of others around you as well....
That much I'd like to see
...
[Drayden grips the sink with a furrowed brow. Tomie hovers around him, buzzing low and anxious.]
Father. So you're related to that foolish man. Interesting.
Allow me to explain something someone who spends most of their time on the internet may not comprehend. You are a stranger. You don't know me, and I, thankfully, do not know you. Everything you said is public knowledge alongside the inflammatory assumption you could make.
"At least you know what you are". Do you? Knowing what Ghetsis did to his children, I'm not certain of that.
You like upsetting people. Knowing this, your words are less than nothing. What a waste.
How heroic. I get it though! I mean, having your city destroyed and lives lost.... Having your family run from you in every opportunity, seems like family runs from you a lot actually, and get hurt.... I mean wow! If I made as many mistakes as you I would've changed my name and lived the rest of my life out in solitude!
You're quite the solider, aren't you?
... zrrt.
Hm. Someone thinks themself a comedian.
I don't know what made you take to harassing my family, but I have a vague idea, and your incessant badgering makes you seem rather pathetic and lonely. That's not said lightly.
Ghetsis is dead. No amount of pestering us will change that. Maybe try dedicating yourself to something better than his cause.
The thing about N is that they are a person who needs a guiding figure just as much as they need to experience a world that isn't trying to control them. There's a balance to be had, and yet I never know whether I'm there or not. You don't often know before it's too late.
I worry about being too controlling. I believe you can't love someone without respecting them, and to respect someone is to let them be self-sufficient. Yet we also all need more help from time to time.
I could talk myself in circles about this. N just deserves to feel safe and confident, that's all.
Have you considered getting your garden up and blooming again?
We have been trying, both for the one in Opelucid, and the one here. Years of work was lost, not to mention how fixing our cities and finding the missing took priority. It's still priority... I don't have much time to tend to the gardens.
Thankfully, it isn't only myself doing this. There are already a few sprouts and saplings taking root. Iris never had a particularly green thumb, but lately she's been fixated on getting things back to how they were.
I heard rumours that you can speak with pokemon, is that true? Is it possible for the rest of us to learn this skill?
No. Alder and N can, you may have me confused with them. Be mindful chasing rumors.
That being said, understanding your pokémon is a skill that can be learned. Iris is quite in-tune with her pokémon- she knows their hearts, what they want or need. The best way to understand them is to observe. Most pokémon speak through gesture and subtlety.
Spend a day watching your pokémon. Get down- or up- to their level, play as they would. You learn a lot that way.
As for N and Alder's abilities, they were born with it, not taught.
You're awfully gentle with that kid... It's good to see you've softened up on her, I think what she needs most right now is a rock to rely on
? Where did that come from?
itz an ask . from anon. they send me questionz & commentz for N 2 answer, zrrrt. but since n iz gone the questionz are for u!
Mm. I see... Good to know.
Being hard on her accomplished nothing for us... and she's long since changed anyway. I've come to recognize that. A bit of kindness goes much farther.
