Discovering Me

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Ahhh

Finding out that many of my problems lately are attributed to female medical issues is definitely a setback....but I know that I will get through this and come out a stronger woman

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Love

When I was younger, I thought that love was flowers, romantic walks on the beach, and endless amounts of sex. As I got older, love changed. Love became hospital visits, love became homemade dinners for two. Love became “You’re almost there, just keep going.” Love became “I’m sorry.” Love became long conversations, arguments over the most trivial things, and gently telling the other one that they were wrong. Love became being the biggest cheerleader, even when no one else was in the crowd. Love became true intimacy and taking our time to explore each other’s bodies and finding beauty in every imperfection. I am so very thankful that this life has allowed me to love and to be loved like this. It is my wish that everyone can introduce this LOVE into their lives.

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Trying to make small changes add up to one big one!

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Mixed berry, oatmeal, and spinach smoothie weigh vanilla almond milk

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Imperfection

So today was definitely a cheat day...husband and I had Mexican night at home with homemade nachos and margaritas. We also practiced our bartending skills and made a couple of other cocktails together, which was so much fun. At first, I felt bad because for the first time in about two weeks, I hadn't had anything other than fish, chicken, fruits, veggies, and healthy pastas. But then, I realized that I'm human and it's okay to indulge a little. Tomorrow, I am right back on my healthy eating trend and focused on becoming the best version of me!

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Book of the day: All The Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr

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Dates...no matter how long you've been together are so important!

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My "Nutrition Wins" over the past few weeks!

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Overcoming

Today was hard. I had to listen to a nurse who I thought was going to help me, basically tell me that my knee issues from a surgery I had 5 months ago was my fault. I know that I am not perfect and that I have a ways to go before I am at my ideal weight. But, I also know that I am working hard each day to move toward a healthier lifestyle. I am experimenting with new healthy recipes and have had at least one meal containing veggies per day for the past 3 weeks. Maybe for some this is not an accomplishment, but I am taking baby steps. I am also drinking a ton of water each day. I am proud of myself because I chose to stay positive. I won't lie, I had a couple of moments today where I blamed myself and had a small pity party, but I pulled myself out of it. I CAN DO THIS! I will be healthy and strong and beautiful despite. This past weekend I was feeling particularly good about myself so I went lingerie shopping and each morning, I wake up and put in beautiful bra and panty sets and it makes me feel confident in who I am today and it also gives me motivation to work for who I will be tomorrow. I'm finding my strength and learning myself and even though this stage in life is a little difficult, I'm thankful that I'm here to grow and explore! I wish the best to you all and continue to love yourself as I am learning to love myself!

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Keeping it positive even when things don't go my way! Husband just told me that setbacks are just opportunities for major comebacks!

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Homemade chicken noodle soup and my favorite relaxation drink: chamomile tea!

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Part of learning to love myself meant learning to love my body in motion. Photography is still, silent. It can be photoshopped, edited… Video is raw, wiggle, jiggle, parts of my body that I am not used to looking at. There is less control how others see me. Even now…… I still find myself a bit uncomfortable - But I absolutely LOVE to dance. And how can I possibly deny myself because I fear the of judgement of others? Full strip video on Patreon (link in Bio) - https://www.patreon.com/londonandrews?ty=h #dancedance #danceyrselfclean #embraceyourcurves #wigglejiggle #nobodyshame

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I just love the idea of women falling in love with their bodies how they are. That's part of my journey too and you are an inspiration!

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Sun was shining and so was I

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At 23 years old, I am learning to love myself fully. I have so much going on in my everyday life like so many others, and I can be extremely hard on myself. It’s a slow process… and I’m so thankful for a husband who is giving me space to make my own mistakes and learn who I am. I’m learning to take time for me, I’m learning to appreciate my body despite its flaws, I’m learning to be more honest with myself and others, I’m finding a positive inner voice that tells me I am strong, beautiful, smart, and capable. I used to want to impress others with my weight loss , beauty, and success, but I’ve come to realize that my first priority is to inspire myself. I am currently working on becoming healthier and I have learned that I can still enjoy the body I have while working towards a new goal. I don’t know if anyone will ever read these words, but in the event that you come across them, I challenge you to love yourself!

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Learning to eat better