i’m with a boy that genuinely likes every little thing about me. he doesn’t care that i’m a pain in the ass. he doesn’t care that i’m clingy and talk too much. he tells me to “never change the way i am.” he takes me out and shows me off and wants to kiss me any chance he can. he tells me he’s so lucky that i even speak to him… which is the most ridiculous thing i’ve ever heard. he’s always smiling and looking for the best in every situation. that’s the kind of person i need in my life. balances me out. it’s cool. he’s cool. i think i’ll stick around.
i never thought i’d be in this situation but i’m gonna let it rock and see what comes of it. forcing myself because i deserve that. i’m doing what makes ME happy. i’m not letting myself get freaked out over happiness anymore.
so i’m happy.
10.15.16 9:14pm
I wrote this almost 2 years ago. I just reread it and it’s crazy to think I’m in the exact same place. If you told me then that I would still be here, I’d never believe you. Even after we went through some shit, this boy is still really so cool and so loving and so the man of my dreams. We’ll be moving in together this year and starting our life together. As long as I got him and his support , I got everything I’ll ever need. He makes me better and has since the day I let him in. Our relationship seems fake still. We support each other. We’re proud of each other. We’re so in love it’s definitely annoying to be around. I’m the luckiest girl in the world and I know it. I told him this week that I’m ready for my ring whenever he is and I don’t care how long I have to wait. I’m not going anywhere until I get it. There is always a light at the end of your darkest night and I found mine.
12/23/18 10:37am
