This is very random, and I'm very new to Tumblr, but I just wanna say this bc i just have to let it out of my system already. I'm so tired of how ppl who don't have ADHD perceive it:
I'm tired of not being able to talk about my ADHD irl bc if i do, ppl will just say I'm complaining/making things up/blaming everything on my disorder/making a big deal out of it.
I'm tired of not being able to talk about it even on the fucking media; tired of being so scared to even as much as MENTION words like "disability" "oppression" "ableism" "minority", bc no one acknowledges all of these words are so very related to ADHD. Yes, we are a minority. Yes, we experience ableism and oppression.
I'm tired of always mentioning my "privilege" whenever i talk about my disability, and minimalizing my own emotions and struggles bc god forbid I'll talk about my issues without someone commenting "but other ppl have it worse".
I'm tired of never being mentioned in conversations about diversity. It's time ppl realize diversity isn't just POC and LGBTQ+, it's also neurodivercity. U can't preach about the importance of "inclusion" and "diversity" when u literally erase and ignore us during those kinds of conversations.
I'm tired of the lack in representation on the media.
I'm tired of being EXCLUDED even when we ARE being represented in the media (I'm looking at u new percy jackson series. The actor should be neurodivergent.)
I'm tired of ppl gatekeeping. I'm tired of neurotypicals bulling. I'm tired of being dismissed, invalidated, gaslighted and silenced.
I'm tired of being so ignored, never being mentioned.
I'm tired of the trauma so many ppl with adhd go through, getting ignored.
I'm tired of ADHD being referred to as a "diet autism", and CONSTANTLY being compared to autism. ADHD is its own disability, and it shouldn't be compared to other disabilities/seem like "less of a version".
I'm tired of being told I'm not rly disabled. I am.
I'm tired feeling like I'm not "disabled enough".
I'm tired of being "neurotypical- passing", simply bc i have adhd.
I'm tired of never being taken seriously. Ever.
I'm tired of neurotypical ppl self diagnosing themselves over dumb, romanticised memes (if you self diagnose, do an ACTUAL research before. Don't rely on memes).
I'm tired of "either ppl with adhd need to stop being so relateable, or i need to see a doctor"- I'm so sorry my disability is so "relateable" to you /s.
I'm tired of neurotypicals telling US how to feel when we get dissed.
I'm tired of ableism regarding to ADHD being dismissed, we experience sm ableism on the daily. Acknowledge this.
I'm tired of feeling bad whenever i see someone from a different minority having a hard time, and then feeling guilty for struggling bc "they have it sm harder than me, and I should stop feeling so sorry for myself".
I'm tired of being called lazy, dumb, weird etc....
I'm tired of stigmas and stereotypes. So fucking tired.
I'm tired of the first thought being associated with ADHD is "can't focus, can't sit still disorder". It's so much more than that.
I'm tired of ppl calling it a mental illness. I'm not ill. There's nothing wrong with it.
I'm tired of toxic positivity. No I'm not lucky, nor blessed. I didn't ask for this disorder. It's hard, and i refuse to look at it as just a "gift". It can be such a curse sometimes.
I'm tired of "we all do this"- if we all did this, i wouldn't be sitting here, crying, because I can't seem to function like a normal, stable person.
I'm tired of being blamed for my symptoms.
I'm tired of ppl complaining how much of a burden i am, I'm sorry it's hard for you to live with me, but as the person diagnosed with this shit, trust me, it's even harder to live with myself.
I'm tired of ADHD being described and diagnosed according to how much of an inconvenience we are to neurotypicals.
I'm tired of "you're too sensitive" "it's not a big deal".
I'm tired of living in a world designed for neurotypicals, and when i can't seem to function like one, i get backlash for it.
I'm tired of masking.
I'm tired of neurotypicals telling me to stop masking and "just be myself". I get bullied, and treated like shit for "being myself".
I'm tired of never being enough, but always being "too much".
I'm tired of so SO many more things.
Why is it so hard to understand that we exist, and we struggle too?
ADHD is a disability. ADHD is a struggle. ADHD is real, and I'm so fucking sick and tired of ppl saying otherwise.
Sorry for the long vent, it just had to be said. (If u have anything to add -and I'm CERTAIN u do- pls add it). Also sorry for typos :/