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You are just a ray of sunshine. Sounds like you don’t have time for anything but work. Do you even know what run is?

Well, excuse me. Some of us have to try a little harder to get to the same place in life. English ain't my first language, mate. If it's got some double meaning, then I dunno.

#c:carter

neelamanik

Crying is an okay thing to deal with pain hope you know that. But I wasn’t talking bout crying or not dealing with shit it’s just somethings you can’t change and it’s just nice to not be able to think for a few hours.

neelamanik

Nah. I've cried enough for this lifetime, I sure as hell ain't gonna cry some more.

I think we're gonna have to agree to disagree, mate. Personally, I don't have time to not think for a few hours.

nivaya-lockwoodx3

No offense but I don’t think it will be that hard for people to figure out…you’ve spent more time in the library than anywhere else. Being a nerd isn’t a bad thing.

I’m Freya by the way.

neelamanik

Uh, sorry to break your heart, doll, but that was a little bit o' sarcasm.

Most people call me Neela, Neelamani is apparently a hard name to get your head around.

moodboard 1 ⟿ neelamani kalanth

"if drake started from the bottom then i started from the fucking pits."

#riveratask #moodboard.

archerok

Librarians are required to be miserable. It’s their job.

neelamanik

This woman is doing her job awfully well. Apparently we're only allowed to take out ten books at a time, like how dumb is that?

hunterfckk

Ooh what did you do to her?

neelamanik

She doesn't like being asked to get off her arse and actually go look for stuff. God forbid a student wants to learn.

nivaya-lockwoodx3

How come you haven’t been out to explore?

neelamanik

Don't tell anyone, but I'm kind of a nerd...

#c:freya

neelamanik

See if I start thinking I think to much and get to the bad part of my brain so turning my brain off for 6 hours or more is lovely.

neelamanik

I guess that makes sense. I dunno, I've always been one to face things head on. I learnt from a young age that there's no point to crying about shit. You just gotta prove everyone wrong.

#ooc.

neelamanik

I guess that makes more since now. But I couldn’t picture not turning off my brain and just sleeping.

neelamanik

I kind of love thinking. I think I think too much, but then I start thinking about thinking and it's a self fulfilling prophecy that way? I'm just kind of a pretentious wanker, if I'm honest.

#c:carter

nivaya-lockwoodx3

Are you being loud?

neelamanik

No, I think she's kind of sick of my face. I've holed myself up in here for as long as I've been here, give or take a couple times to sleep and grab food.

#c:freya

neelamanik

Not sleeping a cool superpower? That’s either a really intresting way or a weird way to look at life not sure which one I’m leaning more towards.

neelamanik

When I was a kid we used to have to either stay up late or wake up early to talk to my dad, and that was kinda shitty 'cause we'd always be tired when we were talking to him. I guess it's a little weird, but I just think having more hours in my day is a pretty awesome proposition.

#c:carter

...I think the librarian is gonna kill me, she's been eyeing me angrily since I got here. Oops?

#riverastarter

newgenerationhq-blog

Well that is a goal but I wouldn’t suggest missing sleep. Sleep is amazing.

neelamanik

I always thought that the coolest superpower would be to never need to sleep. Then you get another eight hours in your day to conquer the world.

riverarp-blog

Neelamani 'Neela' d/o Kalanath

23 years of age.

Identifies as a female.

Queer.

College Junior.

Major in Film, minor in South Asian Studies.

Biography

Neela knew that from a young age, she just wasn’t going to be accepted. The poster girl for not fitting in, she lived her whole life on the outskirts, knowing that she was going to fight tooth, nail, and claw to make her way to the top. Her goal was to have the chance to say “hey! look at me! i call the shots now, suckers!”

She was born in Kandy, but as the civil war started raging, her parents relocated the family all over Sri Lanka to try and escape the fighting. As she was a child, she didn’t really understand why she had to leave her friends so often or why, as the fighting increased, other parents would often warn their children away from her. Often, her family’s movement spawned rumours they were spies for the Tamil Tigers, leading to a need to move around more, thus creating a self-fulfilling prophecy.

The second their refugee status was confirmed, they were on the next flight to London. From the age of nine she lived in public housing, working when she wasn’t at school to help support her two younger siblings. This mostly instilled a strong work ethic and the drive to get out of the estate in her, knowing that the only way to escape her situation was by fighting for it.

She knew in many ways she was lucky, being blessed with a loving family, so coming out as queer at the age of seventeen had little effect on her relationship with her parents. However, what did effect her relationship with her parents was her decision to study film at a higher level.

Being the classic “asian parent” stereotype, her parents were hoping for her to become a lawyer, a doctor, or a banker. Film - one of the most tenuous and least rewarding of the arts subjects, just seemed like majoring in poverty to them. They could not understand why their hardworking and dedicated daughter wanted to pursue such an impractical career - this inability to understand her motivations damaged their relationship quite a bit.

In the end, her choice of college came down to which offered her the most extensive scholarship, and which was furthest away from home. Being in America meant that she was not only a couple of hours away, she was a whole ocean away from her overbearing parents.

Their relationship still remains civil, yet estranged, however she does not regret her choice.

Faceclaim: Mathangi Arulpragassam (M.I.A)

#about