want to add that it IS worth it, but I need to be realistic and say this: being weird isn't easy.
If you’re like me and you’ve gone a long time being extremely self conscious of other people’s opinions, it’s not as simple as flicking the “be myself” switch. It’s a difficult process. Self love takes practice; after all, you’re taking on an entire new mentality- the way you conceptualize yourself and how you’ll be perceived. That’s a lot to adjust to, and it won’t happen overnight.
some days, it’s not so bad. I’ll wear my weird clothes and put on my weird hat and draw my weird art and listen to my weird music, and I’ll love myself. and other days, I wish I could just fit in. and to those who say, “but everyone has their own insecurities, even if you don’t see them!,” at least some people can hide them better. some days, I’d give anything to do that.
embracing myself the last few years has helped me a lot. It’s helped me develop and mature, and find more confidence than I ever had before. most days, I really do like who I am now. for the first time, I can proudly say that, if I could see someone exactly like myself, I would want to be their friend.
but sometimes, I return to who I was before that happened. before I got my official diagnosis. before I joined my local art community. before I developed my art style. before I welcomed my love of expressionist film (and I say that in particular, because I can confidently say I would not be who I am today without it). and when I feel like that, I need to be more forgiving. maybe it’s different for other people, but I could never just decide to be weird and never look back. it takes work.
OP is right; it WILL save you. but please keep in mind it won’t happen immediately.
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