Neji !

| she / he boygirl. | NPD in a pretty girl and evil boy way

[nejiradq]

Neji / Nejire || I am 16. chronologically and actually. ^_^ || strictly attracted to male identifying people.

Profic.. rad/sylasqueer.. pro para.. overall a idgafer through and through.

proud paraphile and narcissist and I talk about it.

I love questions especially about myself!! AMA!!!!!!

Everything I think you guys would need to know is below.

(How to refer to/perceive me, my IDs, why I'm on radq tumblr, and do not follow)

HOW TO REFER TO / PERCEIVE ME (a guide)

I try to make this acc more fem and happy centric but I can't help my identity is extremely fluid!! I may be edgy and cynical one day then kind and positive the next! It can change in a matter of seconds so pay it no mind.

You can refer to me with fem or masc terms (your choice) if you're too lazy to think very hard so don't worry there.

If you can detect how I'm feeling that day for whatever reason, know that my fluid personality also comes with fluid gender! (basically I'm gender fluid on steroids.) So if I'm acting more on edge and misanthropic I probably prefer masc terms and pronouns and if I'm happy and being intentionally 'cringe' I probably am feeling feminine.

My gender and personality can also be dictated by who I'm being perceived by. If I feel that you specifically should perceive me one way I will try to tell you as such.

I may refer to my separate genders as another person.. I may not!! I AM NullPlural but as far as we're aware I'm just an odd creature I am not two different people.

When I am feeling masc : I will idolize characters like Byakuya Togami, Gakushuu Asano... etc!! I will try to avoid any 'cutesy' emojis. I will play up my NPD traits and talk about them quite a lot. I will be a lot more cynical.

When I am feeling fem : I will idolize characters like.. you guessed it! Nejire!! (I would list more. I can't think of any.) I will still like the characters from my masc behavior but I won't want to be them instead I'll probably only want to date them. I will act purposely "cringe" and use emoticons like ^^' :D !! Stuff like that.

I am actively trying to make myself fem more often.. still figuring out how though.

Fem is your friend!! Masc is chill but rarely is he your friend..

MY IDS FOR THE PEOPLE !!!

CIS IDs

Covert NPD

ADHD

Tourettes

Bipolar III

AutoBiastophilia

Asthenolagnia

Emetophilia

TRANS IDs + commentary

I am very non-committal with my transids so bare with me I may add to the list

TransAntiRadQueer : I uh yeah.

TransHarmed : rxpe and neglect mainly I'm not explaining.

TrisBullied : I was not THAT seriously bullied but I should've been ik that much

TrisBiastophile : don't question me okay

TrisHybriphile : I have it but like.. it'd be better if it was more persistent like my other paras.

NullPlural : Uh I said nuh uh. So nuh uh. I refuse to ever acknowledge these other hoes so they are irrelevant.

WHY AM I ON RADQ TUMBLR ?

I am very new here but I find myself rrrreally stressed out all the time over being morally correct in everything I do and when I look at you guys it seems like you guys are full of joy and I wanna be like that. I have started to notice some hypocritical points in my oh-so-firm moral compass to the point I'm starting to get you guys and I don't have any real excuses for hating radqueers the more I think about it...... so hello!! hi!! please welcome me.

DO NOT FOLLOW !

If you think animals or children can consent or if you support non consensual physical or mental harm. That's about it :D

THANK YOU FOR READING ABOUT ME BC I LOVE TO SHARE ABOUT MYSELF !!!!!!

[nejiradq]

Thinking abt an acc rebrand

[nejiradq]

Disregarding all my other issues with them, I feel like being an AFAB with a FinDom kink really means I should isolate from any severely radfems nglsies

[nejiradq]

I need to return to the internet. I'm being domesticated and losing my sparkle guys T^T .. thinking about college .. and career goals.. it's awful!!! I need to go back to my internet personalityyy

[nejiradq]

kissing him but actually I'm just licking his tongue.. we are just touching tongues. lips don't matter. all tongue.

[nejiradq]

I yearn to be happy girl and locked in. I will nejire until I make it. I will nejire until i nejire. trust i can do it. OPTIMISM. OPTIMISM. I AM NOT BOUND BY THE CHEMICALS IN MY BRAIN TELLING ME WHAT TO THINK!!! NEJIRE TILL I NEJIRE

[nejiradq]

I am gonna uhhh transtransnejire. focus focus focus and ill nejire i know it

[nejiradq]

I yearn to be happy girl and locked in. I will nejire until I make it. I will nejire until i nejire. trust i can do it. OPTIMISM. OPTIMISM. I AM NOT BOUND BY THE CHEMICALS IN MY BRAIN TELLING ME WHAT TO THINK!!! NEJIRE TILL I NEJIRE

[nejiradq]

Realizing that after 3 years.. our brain has selected a new chp.. that is great and all but I'm kinda more dependent on him than I was with my ex-chp.. like I've given up doing things that normally define our being and superiority for the chance of talking to him just in hopes he'll praise us and make us feeling wanted.

At least with my ex-chp I still cared about my own life.. as much as I love when my emotions feel big and are concerning, I am terrified by the amount of control this guy has over my life and how quickly my identity is crumbling around me in light of this....

Whyyyy this started so innocent with omg I wanna marry him and stuff. Now I want to just live in his bedroom and have him keep me as a pet. This is not safe yew guys... Still we are really compatible! If I was like.. normal about relationships then we'd be perfect for each other! Still, even if I would let him kill me on a whim, he's a very moral oriented guy so I think I'm safe for the time being.

[nejiradq]

When I say I need a boyfriend but then I remember my long list of standards for my ideal bf. Can't even make a stupid bf application thing because my standards are brutal asf. It's a curse

[nejiradq]

Guys, crazy shit happened actually.. and it's not even e-dating. Like irl. This is so crazy

[shyvictim-deactivated20250927]

punch me in the stomach so hard i puke <3

[maggotsinmyskin]

being afraid to tell someone you're a paraphile but then they ALSO turn out to be a paraphile >>>

[nejiradq]

Current bf who is like the sweetest, kindest, most well-raised man I know matched ALL of my paras and then out freaked me with one I didn't have.. Genuinely was impressed and still am to this day. YOU WILL FIND YOUR PEOPLE GUYS TRUST !!!!!!!! THEY ARE OUT THERE.

[nejiradq]

I love emetophilia. I could go on about this but I have to go to bed and I'm not sure moots would appreciate me ranting about how attractive I find the act of vomiting to be.

[nejiradq]

My hateful defensive instincts are going to be the death of me. I AM KIND. I WILL RESOLVE DISAGREEMENTS WITHOUT ESCALATION. I WILL UNDERSTAND PERSPECTIVES AND RESPECT THEM. I AM HAPPY I AM KIND I AHHHHHHHH

[talonsin]

[nejiradq]

Hate getting deeper into para accepting communities and finding out every single thing that people claimed were signals of people who were predators were actually just signals for people who are non-predatory MAPs. (or at very minimum were not exclusive to predators)

[nejiradq]

Thinking about being in a poly relationship where one of your partners appeals to all your freaky kinks/paraphilias and the relationship dynamic is more centric to that but another partner who appeals to the more socially acceptable relationship dynamic and is more romance centric.. I would die for that.

[nejiradq]

Feeling euphoric about something I have completely naturally.

I have brown hair. I will always have brown hair. I may add pops of color but I will always, always have brown hair. Nobody can tell me I don't have brown hair. This is how it's meant to be. I am supposed to be a brunette. I may change my hair in other ways but I will never change my hair color completely. I am forever brunette!!!!! :P

Maybe I was transbrownhair in another life and in this life I live my truth.