Primordial Soup for the Soul

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[tamsywindsup]

From Dorohedoro Season 2 ending theme "Return to Head" MV

[nekojirou]

I just wanna rant how I was playing a random game on ogs and was about to go to work (just a stress-relief because my deadline's killing me) and the guy I'm in the same local Go club with invited me to play. I accepted it mindlessly and he was online so I thought it'll just be a fast game so I accepted. Turns out he given me 5 STONE HANDICAP (this person is just a teeeeny bit stronger than me, or maybe even same strength). Ok, I guess if I lose this game this will prove he's actually THAT strong. A guy who's waaaay stronger than him gave me only 4 stone handicap so this way he'll prove he got stronger than that other guy too. We played a few moves, he was taking his time to think (around 10min each move, no problem if I'm not in a deadline), he celebrated when he caught four of my stones, but when we get to the part where we're about to cross swords, he asked for a break. It was his turn. I said ok. I ate and get back to work. After an hour, he messaged me and said we resume. I resumed because I was the one who paused. If I ran out of pause because of him, it'll be too unfair for me. We played a few moves then he suddenly took too long to move. I was annoyed because I have something else to do. After AN HOUR he messaged me again saying something came up and he'll NEED ME TO PAUSE IT AGAIN. IT WAS HIS TURN. I PAUSED AGAIN. Then I waited while I was working and it threw me off my concentration. It was a fight and I know I'm about to kill his group and I was excited how he'll counter me. I was itching for a good fight BUT he never messaged again UNTIL MIDNIGHT. I recently avoid doing anything after midnight so I just ignored his message. The game was paused for MONTHS. It was back on March so I was about to just resign the game because I'd rather lose than to play a stale game and I hate playing too long games because the opponent can look for counter using AI but I decided to un-pause it instead because it's actually his fault for leaving me hanging for so long, only to find this:

HE'S GOT 6DAYS AND 6HOURS TO MAKE HIS MOVE. IT MIGHT EVEN HAVE BYO-YOMI SO I MIGHT WAIT LONGER JUST TO FINISH THIS DAMNED GAME.

And here's the game. It's white's turn. I actually feel like I improved a bit now so I believe if I played this game today, my moves will be different, but it's a handicap game so I might just go crazy too, idk. But next time, I won't mindlessly accept a game specially if it takes a century before time limit. Seems the guy's proving something...

[nekojirou]

Having a kitty makes me think I might actually been a cat person all along.

[nekojirou]

I need to follow-up about Maomao (the orange cat) because I'm so busy and about to sleep. So apparently, he's a male. He sent my whole family (that's only 3 of us) to the clinic because he scratched us all. That doesn't made me love him less, and I tolerated him shitting anywhere in the house. Sometimes, I get a surprise shit in the living room, that type of ass personality he has. But what hurt me was that he was trying to get out everytime the door was opened. He got outside and my annoying neighbor decided to feed him dry food (which isn't good for his digestion) that caused him to have soupy shit. For days, whenever he managed to escape my clutches, my animal-lover neighbor decided to feed him food that isn't ok for him. Until one day, he didn't came back. He's not in our neighbor (I don't want to talk to my neighbor but you'll know it if my cat is there because she's noisy... and nosy) and he's not anywhere I searched. He didn't seem to got hit by vehicles either. But I lost him and it's negligence in my part. I was mourning. I was a bit angry he left me. He used to watch tv with me. He was my only companion in this house and he left me. I didn't want another cat after him BUT my idiot brother sent me a pic of a tortoise shell cat from our aunt, saying she wants to give me this cat (mostly because they have a dog who the cat didn't get along with) and my bro was so excited he even bought a litter box before the cat arrived so I had no choice but to accept (I'm the only one taking care of the pets. My siblings are useless, they'll NEVER clean the litter box) and so when the cat - Layla, arrived, I decided to change her name into "Pudding" because her color reminds me of the local puding bread.

That's Pudding. She's the prettiest.

And I love her instantly! She clings to me, she only uses her litter box and not mess anywhere, she chases mice, insects, cockroach, spiders, earthworm (I'm worried about lizards because I like them. Haven't seen some dead ones though, maybe she don't hurt them). She watches me everytime I work, keeping a proper distance without disturbing me, but allowing me to hug her for 10sec before slipping off my grip. She even listens and reacts to everything I say 😭 I love my girlie cat!

That's her giving me personal space

But one day as I was cleaning, I accidentally stepped on her so she bit my ankle like her life depended on it. I only got booster shot because I already got anti-rabies last year since Maomao scratched us.

So yeah, we're mad at each other for an hour. Mostly it was me who's mad but I have to forgive her since she's hungry and asking for food. I just can't stay mad at this cutiepie.

But I'm worried because she learned how to go to the roof and wander a bit outside. She prefer staying in whenever I'm home (which is most of the time) but I'm worried she might get pregnant outside or worse, she might leave like Maomao did.

But overall, I'm proud she's growing into a fine, young lady. I hope she won't leave me soon.

[nekojirou]

One thing I love about my father is that I have never EVER heard him underestimate (or just estimate) anyone because of their gender. I mean, for example, if there's something heavy a woman can't lift he'll not say it's because she's a woman but because she might be physically too frail to do so. When he taught me how to drive, he NEVER said anything I did wrong was because I'm a girl. He'll just correct it (and get stressed) but he won't shout. The shoutest shout he ever did to me can't be even considered a shout, just an octave higher screech than his normal voice. If I want to learn something, whether it's electrical or mechanical, he's VERY willing to teach me, even welding which my mom just discouraged. The only issue I have with him is that he sucks at teaching. He'll infodump like there's no tomorrow.

[nekojirou]

Today someone reminded me why I don't share to most people I don't trust what happened to my previous bf. Our common friends used to blame me because apparently it is my fault, or I didn't love him enough to save him. Today, I told someone due to reasons I can't disclose, and I got a new kind of reaction: "haha" react to all of my messages.

[plottwiststudios]

Women of Xal II - A political psychological horror visual novel

[plottwiststudios]

Xuna and Axay won the strip meme poll!

Obviously, you cannot "strip Xuna". She won't even indulge you for your sake. Like every other character on the poll, she volunteered, and was pleased to win. So really... she's really just indulging herself.

[plottwiststudios]

Your one reblog, peeps! \o/

[nekojirou]

I'M NOT NORMAL ABOUT THEM.

[nekojirou]

Quick sketchie because my teacher, who randomly took me on a CUIB job last year (I have ZERO EXPERIENCE PRIOR IN CUIB) then vanished after the show was done and didn't answer any chats after that (but he paid us good), suddenly decided to put me on a rigging job on another studio (hired me within the HOUR, did not even asked for my portfolio and resume, gave me handout instantly) and got me busy because I FREAKIN FORGOT HOW TO RIG initially. Remembered it while I was working and I did many FATAL mistakes. Got me awake until 3am. Fun times.

Oh, yeah. Cecil's so bottom.

[nekojirou]

The reason why I can't get myself into LADS is because Sylus is the only recognizable character to me. The other three looks all the same, specially Rafayel and Zayne. Even their colors look a bit similar... idk, my faceblindness working on that game.

[nekojirou]

When I first saw the "Cupid and Psyche" (or Psyche revived by Cupid's kiss...?) sculpture, I was very amazed how dynamic it is and I just focused on the wings, the body direction and the kiss. I showed the image to my Mom only for her to say "Wow, didn't know Cupid's so kinky" then I was "Wait... waaahhh...!!!" 🫣

[plottwiststudios]

THIS IS A THANK THE ARTIST POST

I'm going to send the artist of Women of Xal II (Ssam_Reptile) all the positive comments left here and in reblogs. Because without him working for months on end and gambling on the Kickstarter, we literally would not have been able to make it or even the demo. Please send all praise and thanks over here and I'll deliver them all to him! Because goodness, does he deserve it. Thank you, mate. You saved the series. All images save the initial sketch image are, in fact, from the same demo.

[nekojirou]

Carmilla on her way to peg her malewife.

I'm currently open for animation commissions! $50 per second (half-body, colored, 24frames) Just DM me!

[plottwiststudios]

5 Minute Visual Novel Short Available Here!

Find out why little Jhil is crying! And what the dad does about the situation. It's a five minute visual novel. Meant more to show newcomers how I handle even the smallest, most personal conversations. Writing and music by yours truly, and character art by @nekojirou, yes, of Women of Xal I's fame. Both of us. Spiralatlus provided the background via free asset pack back on itch.io!

Gameplay Features:

None, it's a five minute showcase. Read for 5 minutes to make sure this little one is okay. lol

Oh, and it's a Patreon link, but don't become a patron. That Patreon isn't maintained enough to justify the monthly payments.

[nekojirou]

I think I finally know what I'm currently feeling. I don't think I'm depressed, I think I'm having an AI fatigue + my frustration with animation industry in general. Animation as a job itself doesn't really feel like a job for me. It feels like true love. I'm not working as an animator, I'm having fun. There are hard scenes and I can end up not going home for the day, but the challenge is part of the things I love about it. It's the best job I can ever have and it's the only job I finally want to do in my life. But the industry is not fun. The higher-ups will always find a way to blame you for everything, small studio, big studio... everyone does that. Talking behind your back is a common event, work-related or personal. I'm used to it but when the issues pile-up, plus the need to improve that I can't achieve in just one place, the feeling that they're trapping you and gaslighting you so you can't get away yet they'll treat you like shit, it becomes unbearable so I had to move to another studio, which some have not much of those issues because you have no friends yet in this new place and you won't hear gossips (Animators are mostly introvert creatures, they won't befriend you unless you try to be their friends first) BUT will have money issues or VERY unorganized work flow. Then there's the internet. When you browse Tiktok or Twitter, you'll see a bunch of AI videos. Personally, as an artist and a human being who needs to move along with this world's progression, I think AI can be useful and it's not intended to be used the way it is abused right now. It is supposed to help artists, not for random perverts with computer to input images of women they're gooning to and make disgusting contents, making deepfake just to ragebait or spreading false informations, stealing artworks and claiming it for themselves, old businessmen replacing graphic designers with AI to make cheap-looking-low-resolution ads, telling their designers they should be thankful they still have a job... all of this are exhausting. I want to get away from all of this. I want to leave my true love. My life sucks because I think I found my true love (even in romantic sense), and finding true love means it's the only love you'll ever know, everything else is just an imitation so when you lose it, you won't be able to live the same way. So I'm currently feeling lost because I think I'm losing even my true love in career sense. Good job figuring that out, self.

[plottwiststudios]

Women of Xal II was funded, yes! At $26k! Fun fact, though. If it had failed, yes, we would have relaunched April. But at $10k, instead of $25k. And goodness the timeline where the budget was less than half? It would have meant the following:

It would have been a $10,000 campaign, like the first game

It would have been an overwhelmingly linear experience that only finished the story

Art would have been stylized sketches (like above) instead of what you saw in the demo

Cat, the original character artist from the first game, would not have had a large role. ='(

No romance arcs, no stupendous soundtrack, zero animation, no singers

An extra year or two of development time as I fund some art with my Walmart paycheck

So we did it, ya'll! You and Blue Sky came through! We even hit one (1) stretch goal! I got my Sparkling Grape Juice! Clearly, living the life. (Apologies in advance for looking tired and scrappy. I'm approaching 40, I am allowed this. =p)

[fran-aka-mak]

animation req for @nekojirou ! ^^ she asked for Cecilion (MLBB) [ animation ref ]

[nekojirou]

MY ANIMATION REQUEST FROM BOCCHI!!! AAAAAAAAAAA!!! I LOVE HIM HE'S SO PRETTY!!!!!! T^T