Hi everyone, it’s come to my attention that I have been talked about pretty terribly in a popular server by a handful of people when they thought no one was looking.
I am incredibly hurt, disappointed, and confused as to why me and my situation was mocked. When I came out and asked the community for help, I made it clear that I was incredibly embarrassed and anxious about doing so and now my worst fears have come true in the form of a chat leak. I will be sharing the screenshots that were sent to me and addressing what I feel is appropriate.
Hi @gloryride I do believe this is our first interaction as I have no clue who you are. If you didn't want to donate you didn't have to of course but calling me a beggar and implying that I was not working hard to provide for myself before asking for help is extremely uncalled for and strange to say the least.
I wasn't "expecting" anyone to give me money. In fact I didn't expect any help at all and just ended up being pleasantly surprised. I'm glad you were able to quickly find a job when faced with a similar situation but I was not, and not for lack of trying.
@wingdeer @cybervesna Hello!
I didn’t offer to take comms because I didn’t have access to my computer/wifi for more than half the time I had the GoFundMe active and even before that due to severe weather conditions in my area. I was doing everything I could have possibly been doing from my end. That was the entire point of me having made the GoFundMe. I WAS out of options and no I was never sitting on my ass waiting for people to give me money. If you had any questions or concerns beyond gossiping about me I would have happily addressed them for no other reason than you cared enough to ask for the sake of transparency :).
@cybervesna some of the things said by you were just mean spirited and misinformed. NO I did not "wish" to be evicted nor am I a "delusion e-girl" begging for money because I'm lazy and didn't want to do anything. What an odd thing to say. I understand that as a non American its hard for you to believe that landlords aren't filled with rainbows and butterflies surely, however, my leasing department refused to work with me at all no and in the end I had to leave. Its as simple as that and not uncommon in the US. If you donated any money please DM a receipt so that I can give it back.
Hi @synth-peach! Its really odd you had more empathy for my cat than for me! Thought I would take the time to let you know that my cat is okay despite you seemingly believing I did nothing to help her or myself and just sat on my ass doing vp. If you donated any money please DM a receipt so that I can give it back.
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I never had any intentions of asking the community for help whatsoever. The reason why beanie set up the GoFundMe in my name was because I couldn’t bring myself to ask for help. I don’t know what type of issues these women have with beanie or why because I’ve never been a part of cyberpunk drama. I pretty much keep to myself. I have a very small circle in this community that I would call friends and I don’t even talk to them on a day-to-day basis. it feels like I’ve been roped into this as some sort of leverage to go against beanie and again I don’t know the history there but they absolutely did nothing wrong here.
I'm not sure how setting the goal to 4K makes me look bad. I never expected it to reach that amount. It didn’t even get to half so I’m not sure what the issue is. We set it to 4K because neither of us had any dealings with GoFundMe before and didn’t know what to set it to. I needed over 2000 for my rent alone not to mention utilities and food for both me and my cat so 4K seemed appropriate. Again, I didn’t even get close to that amount so I’m not sure why that’s being harped on. I also think its strange that you were trivializing my homelessness and comparing me asking for help to you wanting someone to buy you nitro. Very odd behavior! If you needed any justification for my GoFundMe my dms were open. I don't bite :)
My health issues are no secret. It’s not something that I like to talk about publicly because of how private it is, but it’s something that has been prevalent in my life and is documented. I mentioned it briefly in my post when I was asking for help so I’m not sure where the narrative that I didn’t actually need help or was just waiting on a handout came from. And yes my health issues did impact my ability to work and find work.
Hera you are a stranger considering me and you have never had a single conversation and I didnt know you existed until the chat leak, I would’ve preferred you not even have opinions of me in private. It’s enough that you chose not to donate but to sit there and gossip about whether or not I really needed the help when I spent over a week in a homeless shelter is crazy. I'm glad you have the luxury of having an emergency fund tho! I can't relate, clearly, I hope a time where you have to use it never comes. ♥
Hi again @cybervesna I understand you are concerned about the help given to me by my so called friends as you put it. Well let me inform you and whoever else it may concern that my friends were helping me in fact Zwei, Beaniebby, and Peachu are the only reason I'm no longer in a homeless shelter and am back safely with my cat. the below screenshots are proof of this.
I think I have made my point with a fraction of the screenshots I received about all of this lol. I had hoped the next time I came on here it would be to once again thank any and everyone who donated to me instead I feel forced to address the narrative that was built in that server and now my biggest concern is making sure that anyone who donated knows without a doubt that it was to me and no one else.
Yes, it was setup by beaniebby however, they made me a co-organizer and I was able to put my banking information in. I received all of the payments. 0004 is the last 4 digits of MY savings account.
Also, I don’t think I ever gave the impression that I wasn’t doing anything for myself and just sitting around waiting for people to donate money to me. I was actively looking for work. I also made it very clear in my initial Tumblr post when I linked the GoFundMe that I did have some health issues which caused me to lose my previous job and I still hadn’t recovered from them fully.
If there was any questions about what I was doing for myself or my ability to contribute to what I needed to get done for both my cat and me it could have been asked privately. I understand being transparent but there's also a safety concern with what you share online and I didn't want to share too much of my private life because people are weird...point proven lol.
During the peak of donations several people reached out privately for more details and I laid it all bare. The people mentioned in this post could have done the same thing if they cared enough to do so. But they didn't. Mainly because this wasn't about whether or not I needed the money and for what reason but because I was just the hottest topic at the time and they thrive on drama. I am deeply disturbed by what I had to see. To the people who spoke on me and the people who were supposed to be my friends and sat back in silence I hope you all heal. It doesn't matter that these things weren't said to my face. They were still said and in the end showed to me.
To anyone else who donated, please rest assured knowing nothing about my situation was faked everything I went through was documented privately and if you feel you are owed more details please show me a receipt of your donation and I can answer any questions you have privately.
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